Hey guys! This song is Coward Montblanc covered by Ashe and the ship is Corney. I hope you guys like it!
I collapsed onto my bed after I got home... No one really noticed though.. My brother was off at practice, mom was on the phone arguing with my father, and my other brother was arguing with his personalities. They all had their own problems, I get that, but I always have to be the one to fake that everything is alright to make some of their lives easier.. But making mine a leaving wreak. It's hard trying to keep my anger, heartbreak, and frustrations all inside to make my brothers or mother have more stress then they have already.. I know it was already hard enough when I was a kid thanks to my parents separating and Lenny and Mike having to keep an eye on me thanks to my shyness and bully problems I had back then. It was hard for all of us. But it got better and worst, when I met Corey. He helped me up when I fell multiple times physically or emotionally, he became my first friend and introduced me into meeting Kon and Kin... But that's when the bad thing happened... I grew a crush on him easily... Making it hard to be his best friend with out the emotion coming in the way. Especially when we turned fifteen last year. When Core found out about his hormones and started dating any random girl that caught his eye... It hurt watching him become the typical rock-star teen. Chasing skirts as much as he chased gigs. It got tiring quickly... Every time though, I always got more heartbroken. Knowing he chased every girl he seen and always asked me to be his wig-man.. Wig- MAN, he said MAN, not girl,friend,partner, nor did he even notice the pain in my eyes before I lied about feeling like I was about to puke. I ran off right after with tears in my eyes. I guess he just as oblivious as a guy could be.. That or he's just really REALLY blinded by his hormones. Though I guess, I'll just have to save everyone from my feelings and try to move on, which I know I could never do that... Not with Core always being by my side if he known I was hurt, even when there are skirts or gigs he could be chasing instead. Not with Core being the closest person to me.. He's closer to me then my own twin brother... But I love him with all my heart, and he doesn't notice because I'm just a coward.. A lonely, heartbroken, coward... And no one sees it! I hate being, pretty much, ignored or forgotten... I was always the ignored shy girl my whole life up until I was ten and I had enough of it, I promised my self I wouldn't be that way ever again... But I fell for it again.
I got off my bed and walked over to my computer and looked up one of my favorite cover artist, Ashe. His cover of Coward Montblac that's originally a Vocaloid song I believe, pretty much talks about my life in a nutshell. I turned it up loud enough that everyone down stairs can't hear me sing and started to sing along to the slow pace song.
To save every one of my feelings
In these simple words, I don't know how
I know I loved you once, but it's heavy
Is there anything else to say now?
The one who loved the most, now who was that?
Thinking on it all, I see our time
Disappear, fade away from my sight
Even though there are still ties that bind us
If I forget about you I could face
My own reflection
"If it's the truth, let it show"
You say but I don't know
'cause I am just a coward, after all
If we discussed the contract
Between you and I
I know that I would fall right into you again
To say every one of my feelings
In these simple words, I don't know how
I know I loved you once, but it's heavy
Is there anything else to say now?
The one who loved the most, now who was that?
Thinking on it all, I see our time
Disappear, fade away from my sight
Even though there are still ties that bind us
Just make me numb, I cry out in my head
A plea to no one
"If it's the truth, let it show"
You say but I won't go
'Cause I'll just be too scared to say anything
Montblanc tastes the sweetest
When eaten barefoot
With somebody you love, but I can't do that with you.
That's right, you're here with me now
That's right, you fade some how
Because of that, I never can tell you just how I feel.
"If it's the truth, let it show"
You say but I don't know
'cause I am just a coward after all
If we discussed the contract
Between you and I
I know that I would fall right into you
"If it's the truth, let it show"
I said but I don't know
I wish it was a lie, but the truth is that I
Wavered and I led you on
Because of that, I know
That I am still a lowly coward Montblanc,
Ah, ah
After it's all been said and done
After I've said you're not the one
You force your heartbreak back on me,
And just like that, I cannot breathe
It's true... Every time I to tell him that I like him... Which is usually the few times he gets shot down from a gig or from a girl... I can't breathe because he thinks I would be as heartbroken as he is about it. But 'If it's the truth, let it show' is usually what guys that keep chasing me like Corey does to other girls say every time I tell them I like someone else.. But thanks to my shyness I'm not able to let it show... But what's the point? What's the point of trying again and again after the same guy that never chases after the same girl twice? The point... The point of chasing Core, is the same point and reason I breathe, the same reason I live, the same reason I perform, and the same reason I love him. He's always by my side. No matter what happens.. And when he gets over all the skirt chasing... He'll find out that he was chasing the wrong girls the whole time.