"Hey boo" The brunette greeted placing a soft kiss on her forehead as she descended back onto the bed two cans of soda firmly in her grasp "Did I wake you?" She asked sadly meeting the girl's gazes losing herself in her chocolate brown eyes momentarily

"No" She lied rubbing her eyes violently as she yawned sitting up in the bed resting her head against the headboard her eyes refusing to open, refusing to greet the new day "I was bound to wake up….eventually"

"I'm sorry, you can go back to sleep of your still tired" She suggested opening the can of soda taking a quick sip from the cold can

"Is that soda?" She asked excitedly her eyes darting opened at the sound of the fizzling drink snatching the can from the girl's tight grasp quickly bringing it to her lips

"Wow, enjoying that soda are you? Should I leave you two alone?"

The brunette stopped for a moment taking the can away from her lips just long enough to speak "I have to be honest if I had to choose between you and coke, I would have to choose coke"

"I would do the same" She chuckled wrapping her arms around the smaller girl's waist pulling her onto her lap resting her chin on her shoulder whispering quietly in her ear "What's on the agenda for today?"

"Staying in bed and watching movies all day?" She answered happily feeling the hot breath on her neck the miraculous feeling sending shivers up her spine "Anything as long as I'm with you"

"Sounds perfect to me" She replied kissing her delicately on her neck holding her tighter as she trailed her lips along her shoulders

She liked spending time with her, she knew there was something special about her, but being with her wasn't the same as being with her. She couldn't even bring herself to say her name, she couldn't even think about her it hurt too damn much. She was supposed to be at the trial any minute but she heard Miranda was going on the witness stand today and there was no way in hell she was gonna watch as they tore her down, there was no way she was gonna force herself to watch her break down. As much as she loved her with all her heart, as much as she wanted to take her in her arms and never let her go, she needed to distance herself from all that drama she needed to live her own life.

"I love you" She heard the girl whisper in her ear before placing another kiss on her neck resting her chin once again on the her shoulder her arms never releasing her from her grip

"I love you to Jordan"

Things had been tense ever since the first day of the trial, everyone avoiding each other, everyone locking themselves in their own houses doing all they could to pretend that nothing was happening. She stared at her little girl intently taking in her beautiful face, memorizing everything about her. She lived for moments like this, when she could just kick back and watch Jamie, when she could just watch her, just watch what she made. She played nervously with her phone waiting for the call knowing that Liam would be out of his doctor's appointment at any time. It had been almost three days since she had spoken to him, it was hard being with him after everything had happened. He wasn't the same after chemo, she didn't expect him to be like him old self right away but it had been a few moments and yet he still acted as if any day he would drop dead, as if every minute was his last. She didn't mind it at first he seemed to be more loving and caring over the first few weeks, but now it just seemed like he was taking unnecessary risks, it seemed like he didn't care what the outcome was.

"Jess" Noah called knocking lightly on his sister's door swinging it opened as he leaned in the doorway "Mom's going out with Emily for brunch did you want to go?"

"No I'm gonna stay and hang out with Jamie" She answered sadly turning her attention back towards her daughter who sat gurgling contently to herself chewing happily on her teething toy her eyes locked on her mother's

"Hey, are you okay? You seem a little off" Noah observed crossing his arms over his chest glaring down at his sister who sat on her bedroom floor a frown plastered across her face

She was silent not realizing Noah had spoken her thoughts only focused on Liam, focused on when the hell he was going to call "Did you say something?" She asked hearing the faint sound of Noah's voice

"I asked if you were okay"

"I'm fine" She lied craning her head to look at her brother "Just tired"

"Get some sleep I'll watch Jamie" He offered walking further into the room smiling as he bent down beside Jamie "Wanna spend time with Uncle Noah?"

"Nommmaaa" She gurgled grinning at the sight of her Uncle

"Did you hear that?"

"Did she say Noah?" Jess asked a hint of jealously in her voice "Jamie, why don't you say Mama. Come on say Mama"

"Don't be mad that she likes me better" Noah joked taking Jamie in his arms "Let's go get ice cream" He suggested giving Jamie a quick kiss on her forehead

"No ice cream!" Jess screamed as she watched the pair strut outside of her bedroom before moving her eyes back to her cell phone 'Where are you Liam?' she thought to herself as if on cue her phone light up Liam's name flashing on the screen "Hey where are you?"

"I just got back from Rudy's" He explained his speech slightly slurred

"The bar?"

"Where else?" He laughed tripping over himself crashing painfully towards the ground "Are you okay? It sounded like you fell"

"Honey that was you" She said unamused by his sloppy behavior not wanting to believe how irresponsible he could have been "Do you mind telling me why you were at a bar at 10 in the morning?"

"Well I had an appointment with my doctor and I…..I needed to celebrate"

"Celebrate? Does that mean you're still in remission?" She questioned hopefully

"Sure" He said quickly hanging up the phone dragging his knees into his chest leaning his head on his knees feeling as tears begun to sting his eyes. He should have told her, he knew that he should have been honest with her, but he knew how she would have reacted, he knew what she would have said, he knew she would have dropped everything to be with him. But that's not what he wanted right now, he couldn't have her pity him, he couldn't have her only focus on him, if he was going to die he needed to make sure she wasn't going to be in pain, he needed to make sure someone was going to be there to take care of her.

"Hey man" Someone greeted outstretching there hand grasping onto Liam's pulling him onto his feet "You alright?"

"I may or may not be drunk right now" He admitted swaying on the spot he stood

"I would definitely say that you are, do you need help getting home?"

"I don't even know you, you could be a serial killer, or a murderer!" He proposed pointing a harsh finger at the stranger "You're not right? Cause I have cancer so killing me would be fucked up"

"Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. My Uncle had lung cancer I know how bad it sucks" He said placing a comforting hand on Liam's shoulder "But really do you need help home?"

"Sure" He stuttered stumbling as he attempted to take a step on his own the stranger standing behind him placing both hands on Liam's shoulders guiding him along the street "I'm Liam by the way"

"Nice to meet you Liam, I'm JT"