Note: this story is already finished; although I do not know how long it takes me to publish it completely.
I do not have a beta so all the errors are mine also English isn`t my first language. So sorry on advance
CAP 2
I reported sick the next day at City Hall and today I was tempted to do it again, but if there is one thing that I excel is standing firm on my own two feet when I'm crumbling inside. I am still the Mayor of this town and maybe I can be distracted al work.
It's been 4 days since my honest confrontation and I still do not hear from Emma. Henry is with her because our son thought "It's not good for someone with a broken heart to be alone." If he knew that his two mothers have a broken heart, he would not know what to do. Also, I cannot tell him about my grief because I do not know what the fact of knowing that your adoptive mother is in love with your biological mother can produce. So I've decided to spend most of my days in the office, just to try to escape the thoughts that lead me to her.
It has not worked out as expected. It was in this same office where she brought me lunch.
When she found Robin's drawing, or peg. 23. In this room but in the Underworld he found his end.
Robin; I felt taken care of with him, but not in love, my heart belonged to someone else. Although I really thought that he would be my second chance. But even he, who was supposedly my soul mate, could not make me forget Emma.
She made me a promise that she would never be able to fulfill. It was in this same office, through that door that she told me those words; - "My work does not end until I bring all the happy endings, including yours" –
- "Good Savior; It seems that your work will have no end."- I tell myself.
How could I be so blind? Of course I was doomed. I was the Evil Queen. I've done so many terrible things and maybe I'm still paying the price for them. But even I have not been as cruel as my destiny has been; fall in love with my enemy's daughter. That`s irony.
The first time I realized that Emma was going to have an impact on my life was when she dismembered my tree. I was so eager to erase that face of satisfaction that I did not care if it was a slap or a kiss. But dismiss that thought as the first time someone made me feel something in 28 years. I would have appreciated her for making me feel something after so long, but I clung to a more familiar feeling: anger.
After that, I just thought it was a simple physical attraction. But then she became the Dark One to save me. There I realized that my feelings were even deeper.
That act filled me with hope. Hope that maybe she would feel something for me too.
Nobody had ever done that for me, no one ever put me first; not even me. I have put my revenge and my hatred first. Even I`ve prioritize the illusion of a happy ending with Robin before what I felt in my heart.
I began to realize that I did not care what the world looked me like, as long as Henry and Emma called me Regina and not Evil, and at some point I began to pay more attention to her somehow. Trivial things at first, but that carried a weight behind. Like that devilish red jacket she wore. I realized it was her armor; something like the way I dressed in the Enchanted Forest. It was supposed to keep people at distance. The only way so no one could hurt you. So I noticed that she did not use it so often when she was with me, it was what led me to start using more vivid colors. We were both giving up our armor, trying to get closer to people. What a serious mistake.
I can still hear my mother's voice saying "Love is weakness". But I never felt more powerful than when we make magic together.
I should have noticed. I should have seen it coming. The anger in my guts when she kissed Hook. Those were simple jealousy. When Robin appeared I was resilient to let something happen. But Emma was with that insipid pirate. So take my chance with him. A forest man with a broken heart that matched mine. With a small child to raise. I missed Henry immensely and Roland reminded me of him in a way.
It could be said that I did not fall in love with Robin. But I was in love with the illusion of having a family with them. And I thought maybe if Snow found his true love in a sheppard, I could do the same with a noble thief which I thought was a good idea, even though I felt something was missing. But maybe that was the price I had to pay for the curse. One would have believed that my father's heart would be enough.
Another thing that made me choose to settle for Robin was to realize that in this realm, unlike the Enchanted Forest, same-sex relationships are not always accepted, regardless of whether it is true love. So I chose to hide that part of me. Although I have no doubt that Snow and David have knowledge.
-"Just a moment. What am I doing? "- It's not like I need their approval. That is to say; Emma is not even interested in me. So, what does it matter?
-"Really? Is this what worries me now? "- I must stop thinking like that.
I need a drink, but I'll have to wait till I get home and it's only 3 pm. Two more hours and for the first time in the week I'll go home at 5 o'clock just for a drink. A very necessary drink, and maybe not just one, maybe two or three. Those who needed to sleep without images of golden hair.