Jason's POV

I did it for them. For my kids, that's the only reason I changed that's the only reason I fought for so long and so hard to make a change. I did it for them.

"Daddy" I heard her sweet voice call out the young girl slowly jogging towards me practically throwing herself into my arms tightly wrapping her arms around my neck "Did you miss me?" She giggled the simple sound brining an enormous smile to my face

"Of course I did, I always miss you when you're gone" I said carefully spinning her around the living room as I often did after she arrived back from her mother's house "Is Chase coming in?" I asked cautiously knowing just how Chase felt about me

"I think so, he and mom got into a fight over the weekend so I think he wants to stay with you until school starts" She explained wiggling out of my arms dropping back down onto the floor quickly scattering back towards her room collapsing onto her bed, instantly falling asleep as soon as her head hit her pillow. She was my little angel, her bright blue eyes glowing in any and all light her innocent smile could melt anyone's heart, it certainly melted mine. Gina reminded me of Ali, she had the same eyes as her, the same thick blonde hair, if I didn't know better I would have assumed Gina was Ali's daughter and not mine. Chase and Avery on the other hand looked as if they were my clones, I hadn't spoken to Avery in months the blonde having disappeared somewhere in California after being accepted into his dream college thousands of miles away from me, Chase was a completely different story. He was the quiet one in the family, often keeping to himself never speaking if it wasn't necessary, preferring to spend time by himself rather than with his brother, sister, mother or me.

"Chase" I grinned welcoming the brunette into the house reaching out to take his bags "Long time no see" It was true I hadn't seen Chase in what felt like years, my youngest son opting to attend boarding school to avoid dealing with the unnecessary family drama that seemed to surround us

"I guess" He whispered running is fingers through his hair pushing it out of his baby blue eyes

"Are you ready to start college?" I asked desperately trying to diffuse the awkward tension that had begun rising

"I guess" He repeated shrugging his shoulders slightly before gliding over towards the stairs

"Chase!" I called out running after him finally fed up by the lack of conversation "Please talk to me" I begged grabbing his arm forcing him to face me "I know your tired of your mother and I fighting but no matter what happens.."

"Where still a family" He finished rolling his eyes "Do you have any idea how many times mom has said that same thing to me? Did you even think about us when you decided to get a divorce? Did you even think about us when you cheated on mom!"

"Chase" I said letting out a harsh sigh "I didn't know that.."

"I know, Avery told me a few days after you and mom split up" He confessed taking a seat on the steps pulling his knees into his chest his blue eyes connecting with mine "I love you dad, but it hurts to much to be around you and mom knowing that our family will never be the same, it hurts to much knowing that no matter what I do we'll never be the same"

"I'm so sorry" I cried tears slowly dripping down my face for the first time in what seemed like years, always doing my best to never let anyone see me cry thinking it made me appear weak

"Don't apologize to me dad, apologize to Gina. Tell her that your sorry that her parents hate each other, tell her that your sorry that both her parents can't go to her school plays because they can't stand being in the same room, tell her that your sorry that she is constantly bounced between two different houses, tell Gina that your sorry don't tell me!" I tried to keep him from running up to his room, my attempt failing miserably as I heard the faint sound of his slamming door. I wanted to bury myself in gallons of the burning liquid that I had hidden around the house, I wanted to turn back down the familiar road and give in to the temptation that was alcohol.

"Alison?" I said holding the phone to my ear scrunching up my face as I immediately recognized my sister's voice "What's up?"

"I need your help" She admitted her voice cracking as she began "Please its Jess" I didn't wait another second bursting into Chases' room letting him know that I was heading to Ali's house the brunette not happy that I was forcing him to tag along with me.

"Why are we going to Aunt Ali's?" Gina asked as Chase strapped her into her car seat

"I don't know G" Chase answered jumping into the seat beside his younger sister "Why don't you ask dad"

"Why don't you ask dad?"

"Cause G, I want to read not talk to dad" He groaned flipping opened his novel his eyes immediately scanning the pages

"Were going to see Aunt Ali and Jessica" I answered before Gina could ask strapping on my seat belt quickly pulling out of the drive way. The car ride was silent, Gina passing out as she always did when she was in the car, Chase never once letting his eyes wander from the pages of his book. Her house was only twenty minutes from mine, a short distance yet I barley visited her house being only a few blocks from the center of the city.

"Thank god" Ali breathed pulling me into a tight hug forcing all of the air out of my lungs "Please, please you need to help her"

"I'm not sure what I can do" I admitted strutting into the house an instant shiver flowing over my body as I caught sight of Jess lying motionless on the couch an empty bottle of tequila resting at her feet "Son of a bitch" I cursed under my breath dropping my head into my hands

"That's a bad word" Gina observed slowly entering the house lingering behind me for a moment before throwing her arms around Ali's leg giving her a quick hug "Hi Aunt Ali" She greeted a brief smile flashing over her lips

"Hi Gina, hi Chase" She said faking a smile as my son walked into the house his book still held firmly in his grasp "Why don't you two go upstairs and see what Noah's up to" Ali suggested wanting nothing more than to finally sit down and talk to Jess about her problem

"When did she" I began desperate to find out when Jess began drinking

"I don't know" Ali admitted taking a seat near Jess' feet tears slowly dripping down her cheeks "Jess was served, apparently Emmerson is filing for sole custody of Jamie" She explained her sad eyes connecting with mine "Please tell me there's something you can do to help her"

"Ali if I'm completely honest I think the best option is to send her rehab"

"I can't" She sniffled holding her tears back as she gestured me towards the empty chair "I called Spencer and she said that if Jess was put into rehab it would lower her chances of keeping Jamie, she can't lose her Jason, she can't!"

"Alison calm down" I said calmly rubbing her back gently before crouching down in front of Jess smacking her cheek lightly attempting to wake her from her deep sleep "Jessica!" I yelled doing my best to wake her

"Screw you" She groaned rubbing her tired eyes as she sat up on the couch holding her head in pain "What the fuck are you doing here?" She stuttered seeing me standing over her angrily "What's going on?"

"Listen to me carefully Jess and don't you dare lie to me!" I warned wagging my finger in her face "How much have you had to drink today?"

"Why the hell do you care?" She whined reaching for the empty bottle desperately trying to quench her thirst

"Jessica!" Ali screamed grabbing her daughter's wrists forcing her to meet her eyes "Please listen to your uncle"

"Why? Why should I listen to him! He's an alcoholic" Jess yelled stumbling onto her feet slamming her body violently into the wall near her accidently a quiet groan escaping her lips

"Was" I corrected leading her back to the couch "I was an alcoholic but I changed, I changed my life because I knew if I didn't I would lose my kids, all of them"

"I've already lost her" Jess cried dropping her head into her hands "Jamie is in foster care until the trial, I haven't seen her in days"

"But Jessie if you don't change you won't see her ever again" I said sending a silent look over towards Ali quietly telling her to give Jess and I privacy "I'm going to tell you something, but you have to promise to keep it between us okay?"

"Okay" She agreed wiping the tears from her eyes finally regaining her breath connecting her eyes with mine readying herself for my confession

"18 years ago I was happily married, with a wonderful son and another one of the way. My life was picture perfect, that was until I was laid from my job and instead of trying to find another one I turned to the only comfort I knew. Alcohol. I drank for hours on end, I drank so much I forgot my name, I forgot my family I forgot everything I drank so much I forgot about anything I cared about. Jess I drank so much that I ended up sleeping with someone, it was a onetime thing that I didn't think much of, and honestly I forgot it happened until a young girl came knocking at my door years later claiming that I was her father and by that time, I had three kids who I loved with all my heart and I wife that I would take a bullet for, but that one mistake screwed everything up, that one night I drank to much and ripped my family apart, that night I lost not three of my kids but four. Avery lost his respect for his father, Chase lost his trust in his father, Gina lost the presence of her father, and Amy she lost her father all together"

"Amy?" Jess interrupted her eyes shooting wide opened

Question (answer in reviews): How do you feel about Jason being Amy's father? And is Jess really an alcoholic?