CAP 8

I cover her again with the blanket and go to look for something decent to eat at Granny`s.

I go there in my car more or less new.

The humor is weird; as if everyone were sad.

Maybe it's just that the only two people who give life to this place are locked up.

Or maybe is just me who am sad. I lied to my sister.

It was the Evil Queen who confessed Regina's feelings to me.

That was the reason why she never attacked Emma; because she loved her too.

That's why every time Emma intruded, she simply pushed her away. She never tried to kill her. She would never hurt Henry or Emma. She loved them just as much as Regina.

But to the Evil Queen love was weakness.

She also told me about all the times that Regina fought against what she felt.

- "Can you believe that she even tried to wish away her feelings? What a waste."-

The Queen told me one night over drinks.

- "What do you mean?" –

I asked filling the glasses.

- "When Henry got rid of magic; before their speech they all threw a coin at the fountain. There she wished you to return. But when our son started to distribute the coins so that others also made a wish, she flipped another coin; wishing her feelings would disappear. " –

-"Do you have any idea how ridiculous that is?" –

The Queen told me with a smile on her face.

- "Did it work?" –

I asked just to annoy her.

-"What? It did not! Don`t be ridiculous."-

And her smile was gone.

- "Then love is not so weak after all" –

I just wanted to annoy her. I still smile when I remember her face

- "Oh sister, you don`t understand either. Love is the most powerful magic, but because it creates weakness in the hearts of the stupid people who fall into its trap. Look at what happened to our sister. "-

I can smell coffee when I enter the mansion.

Good thing I do not have to wake her up.

- "Hello little sis. How did you sleep?" –

I find her in the kitchen.

- "The nap was wonderful. What I wouldn`t being enjoying very much is the headache that I have. "-

She turns around and notices that I have the bag with lunch in one hand and Robin in the other.

- "Let me help you with that" –

She extends her arms and takes Robin.

-"Okay. It seems that I am the one who has to go find lunch and set the table. What a bad hostess you turned out to be. One would think that being queen and mayor you would have better manners. "-

- "Who is your favorite babysitter?" –

She asks while sitting at the table.

- "Definitely not you" –

- "I wasn`t talking to you; I spoke to Robin. She is awake."-

She is certainly the perfect image of a mother.

- "Eventually you'll have to do it" –

-"Do what?"-

- "Talk to me Regina. I'm here to help you."-

- "I thought we had already done it" –

Again she is closing and suddenly has that royalty pose.

- "I don`t think that was enough." –

She has to accept my help.

She hesitates for a few seconds as if considering what she wants to say and then relaxes her shoulders.

-"Okay"-

She says nodding.

-"See? That wasn`t so hard, right? "-

- "Don`t push it." –

She looks at me dead seriously when he tells me that.

- "Ok, okay." - I raise my hands so he knows I'm harmless.

- "How about we have lunch while we talk? I'm starving"-

While we eat I can`t stop looking at her, and I begin to see her differently. This must be tremendously difficult for her.

Having made the decision to be alone again

Being alone can break your heart. I know from experience.

-"What?"-

Oops, she catches me staring and she's upset.

- "You're not eating" –

-"Good."-

She takes a bite to her lips and makes a chewing show.

-"It's hard to me."-

She says suddenly.

-"No, it is not. First you chew and then you swallow. "- I know he doesn`t mean that, but it does not hurt to ease the tension a bit.

-"Do not be an idiot."-

A smile escapes her. Mission accomplished.

- "It's hard for me to ask for help. I'm used to dealing with things alone. "-

- "That's the thing. You don`t have to ask for it. I know how difficult it could be. But in this case I`m offering."-

-"Thank you."-

She said timidly.

- "Nonsense, you don`t have to give thanks. That's what older sisters are for. Now talk."-

She looks at me for what lasts an eternity, or at least it seems that way.

Maybe looking for where to start.

She nods making the decision and start talking.

- "When I realized that my feelings were deeper than I thought, I had to give it all up." –

She says leaving the cutlery aside.

-"I don`t understand."-

- "The Pan`s curse was on us and for me to be able to alter it I had to give up what I loved the most. And such was my surprise that when the writings were in my hands I fainted. "-

- "Yes, Snow told me that you had to give up Henry." –

- "Why is not it surprising that it was Snow who toll you? Anyway; what she doesn`t know is that it was not just Henry. I had to give up my family. I had to say goodbye to both Henry and Emma. If Snow had been closer, she would have heard that I woke up with her daughter's name on my lips. It was a whisper, but strong enough for me realize how in love I was with that insufferable woman. "-

Heavens just thinking about that woman puts another face on my sister.

- "She's an idiot. How does she not realize all the sacrifices you have made for her? "-

Both are insufferable, my patience is running out.

- "I even asked her to kill me." –

She says shyly.

-"What?!"-

- "When we discovered that anything that happened to me would happen to the Evil Queen, I asked her if it was necessary to kill me to stop her then she should. And every time I got I offered my life with that excuse."-

-"I didn`t know, I didn`t know unbearable was it? "-

- "Imagine that I am in love with the daughter of my enemy, whom I persecuted for years. Of course you did not know. You were too busy sleeping with the enemy. "-

-"That's gross. You do realize that she is also my sister. "-

-"It's a way of speak."-

-"By the way; you are also an idiot. "-

- "Don`t get mad it was just a joke." –

- "I'm not talking about that, you perv. I`m talking about you. You`re as blind as her about the things she has done for you. "-

-"She is my friend. Or at least she was; I'm not so sure anymore. "-

She looks down again.

- "People don`t do the things that you have done just for friendship." –

- "Well we also think about Henry, after all we share a son." –

- "Don`t you dare to use my nephew as an excuse. People of this city knows the basics of magic, but I know as much or more than you do. I have seen how your magic has changed. You have created a link through your magic. And there's no way you deny it. "-

- "It's just because I taught her to control her magic." –

- "It's just because I taught her to control her magic. Blah blah blah. "- I mock her.

- "You can`t keep denying it Regina. Your magic is not linked to Rumple's. Even the color of your magic has changed. "-

I stared at her defying her to deny it.

- "You know what I'm talking about. I know you've seen those colors before; or that at least you know what they mean. "-

- "It can`t be, probably is just because we both love Henry." –

- "I told you not to use my nephew. And you know I'm right .Those are the colors of the most powerful magic. Allow me to clarify my point. "-

I clear my throat and raise my hands so I can count on my fingers.

- "The two of you made magic in a world WITHOUT magic, to open nothing more and nothing less than a portal."

- "The two of you together stopped the trigger."

- "You both made an eclipse."

- "Together you put that stupid security spell on a whole hospital."

- "Together you destroyed an ice monster that could be rebuilt." –

- "That's when I realized that my magic had changed color. I was so angry with her, but when I realized, a smile escaped me. "-

- "SHHHH. Do not interrupt when the older sister is talking. "

- "Together you defeated a Chernabog."

- "You managed to get Merlin out of that damn tree."

- "You broke the spell of Hades, a god; in the elevator and at the door."

- "You self undid the spell on Sneezy that she had conjured by being the Dark One."

- "You got to the point of being so damn coordinated that you put Ruby to sleep. Hook told me that. Am I forgetting something? "-

I know that mentioning Hook must have bothered her.

- "Do you know what hurts the most?" –

It's sad to see her like that. I just nod to her

- "I couldn`t be happy for her. When you noticed the ring and she told us that Hook had proposed to her, my heart stopped beating, "-

She takes a moment to recover her strength, taking her hand to her stomach.

- "I know I said I was really happy for her, but it was a stupid lie. I tried in my head to convince myself that eventually I would be. But I remembered the damn habit of knowing when I'm lying and I just hugged her to hide my face. Did you know that that was the only time we hugged just the both of us? "-

She tells me with a tremendously sad smile.

- "It's funny how things happen. I was about to break in her arms, I had even forgotten about the Evil Queen, more concerned about not letting out tears; and it was Snow who saved me unintentionally. It was the first time I was grateful to Snow and his incredible big mouth. "-

She ends with that false smile again, but this time it makes me shiver.