CAP 11
Well the overdose of fresh air only helped to confirm what I ended up discovering and accepting last night; I'm in love with Regina and I've been an idiot not to notice before.
I still don`t want to go home. So I'm going to Granny`s for a beer.
The road to the cafeteria feels weird. Maybe because when there is no magical threat this town is damn peaceful. Or maybe it's me; and the memories that this place brings me from her.
I sit at the bar and suddenly remember when I convinced Regina to change tea for shots.
- "What can I get you?" –
Granny surprises me with her question.
-"I am? Yes, ummm ... a beer? "-
I say stuttering. –
"Are you ordering me or are you asking me? Because if you're asking me, I think you need something stronger. "-
She says smiling.
- "Isn't it too early for something stronger?" –
I ask her.
- "In my experience it doesn`t matter the time to have a good drink, and even less if it is what you need." –
- "Yes, but; what will people think? The Savior drinking on a Sunday afternoon. "-
I tell her without understanding why I would be sharing my concerns with Widow Lucas.
- "I tell you again; it doesn`t matter what others say. Only what you want and need. "-
She says looking me in the eyes.
- "But if it leaves you more at ease; usually Sundays are bored there`s only a few people who come. Especially at this time. "
- "So I ask you again, what can I get you?" –
She says smiling.
- "Vodka will do then." –
Finally someone who understands the need for a drink.
- "Coming." –
She assures me.
When I ask for the second, she approaches with another glass and the whole bottle.
She serves the two and stay in front of me.
- "It's not that I want to interfere Emma, but are you okay?" –
- "I don't know." –
Hell, I'm surprised, but I really need to talk to someone.
- "Have you ever felt that everything is supposed to be, let's say normal, but you have that strange feeling that it is not what it`s meant to be?" - I ask her, since she wants to talk, let's talk.
- "Only once." -
She answers.
- "For 28 years." –
-"Right; the curse. "-Regina.
-"And how was it?"-
-"Different. It is hard to know what`s wrong when everything is as it`s supposed to be. But I think both Ruby and I felt that something was odd. Maybe it was our wolf talking to us. But it was an unpleasant felling."-
She ends up serving another round.
-"And you? When did you feel that way? –
- "When I got married." –
Again I can`t contain myself with my answer.
-"Oh darling. Again, maybe it's my animal nature. But I could see that happiness wasn`t yours. In my opinion that pirate did you a favor by walking away from you. "-
- "But he was my happy ending!" - I say stubborn.
- "Not if that happiness wasn`t yours. Maybe it was the happy ending that everyone wanted you to have. But that doesn`t make it yours. "-
I never would have believed that Granny had such wisdom despite being so tough.
-"And now what do I do?"-
- "I don`t know for sure. Maybe but maybe you should stop asking those questions to other people and start asking them to yourself?"-
She says looking me dead in the eyes.
- "But I can tell you 2 things." –
She continues while I finish my drink.
- "Whatever you do from this moment on must be to and for you. You have to look for your happiness in your own way. "-
She says looking at me over her glasses.
- "And the other?" - I ask anxiously.
- "The other is that if you get one more drink you'll have to rent me a room because there's no way I would let you drive." –
She smiles at me again.
-"True. The good thing is that alcohol has only calmed me down. But it has not made me drunk so I can drive. "-
-"Right; the company had nothing to do with it. "-
She jokes.
- "The company has given me clarity." - I tell her sincerely. I pay her and I get up.
I take my keys from the bar and go to the door, I open it and Granny calls me from the entrance to the kitchen.
- "Emma." –
She tells me with tenderness.
- "Regina is a different person, with a lot of courage, but at the same time with many demons. They have ... We have hurt her too much. Please; Take care of her. "-
And while I'm left with my mouth as open as the door she disappears into the kitchen.
