CAP 17

I'm really an idiot. Not only could I`ve drive here; I have magic, I didn`t have to run all the way to the City Hall.

Out of breath I try to get in but the doors are closed. What time is it?. It's early according to my watch. Has something bad happened? Where the hell is everyone? I take my phone to check the time. It's only 5 o'clock in the afternoon. What's wrong with these people? Don`t they have work to do? They have to maintain a city !

Since I have the phone in my hand I decide to call her.

At the 2nd ring I hang up. Not because of fear, but because this is something that has to be discussed in person. Face to face.

I make another call to reassure myself and make sure nothing is happening.

-"Dad?"-

- "Yes Emma; what happens? Why are you so agitated? "-

He question worried.

-"I was running. Everything is alright? Has nothing happened? "-

I ask to make sure we don`t have to face a new villain.

-"All quiet. Why do you ask?"-

- "Because ... because I'm in the City Hall and there's nobody here. Are you sure everything is in order? "-

-"Yes darling. What are you doing there? Wouldn`t you wait until tomorrow? "-

My father proves once again that he is smarter than we thought.

-"I can`t. I have to fix this. I cannot waste more time. "- I say with fear but decided.

-"You're right. Surely she is at home. "-

He tells me to give me letting me know that this is a good idea.

- "I'm going there. Will you do me a favor?"-

-"Sure; what do you need?"-

- "Could you take my place at the station? This may take time. And give my thanks to Henry. "-

I left the station in such a rush that I didn`t even say goodbye to my son.

- "He convinced you not to waste time. Right?"-

-"Yes. He is a very smart young man. Regina raised him well. "- I say smiling.

- "He also has good genes. Don`t worry, I'm leaving for the station. "-

-"Thanks Dad. Goodbye."-

- "Emma; good luck."-

-"Thank you. I`m going to need it. "- I tell my father ending the call. I decide to poof myself to the front door of the mansion before my courage leaves me.

It's weird to be standing in front of this door that closed so many times in my face. There's a chance that the same thing will happen today because the last time I saw her hurt her.

I begin to hesitate. I play with my hands and take one towards the door, but I lower it again. What do I tell her? I know I have to speak from my heart but I am so nervous that I can`t get my brain going.

Should I kiss her first and explain later? What if she doesn`t want to listen to me?

Ugh I'm not good at these things. I'm good at running, I`m good at survive. Not to handle these emotions. These feelings that I`m recognizing for what they are.

So many times I've gone through that door feeling anxious, nervous. Sensations attributed to wanting to defeat the villain of the day.

On this porch was when I told her I had magic. Even when I had just seen her killed someone, when I told her I could not help smiling, I wanted to make her feel proud of me. And 10 seconds later I was flying through the air. She could have cremated us all at that time.

Not even the Blue Fairy could handle her; Regina simply stopped her with one hand. And with the left one. Regina is right-handed. She fights with codes, she made me fly only after I told her that Henry was my son and I admit that that was a low blow.

I raise my hand again and it ends up in my pocket once more.

This is where she told me that there was nothing I couldn`t return if I talked to "Them". And I know that by "Them" she was referring herself.

But I was the Dark One and I didn`t want anything or anyone to interfere with my plans.

This is where she went back to tell me Miss Swan instead of Emma and at that moment I knew that Regina would be the Savior of that story. Not my parents; not even Hook. She.

My parents once said that almost nobody knows where their lives lead them, but that they did know. Life always leads them to meet each other and then to me. Now I can see the true meaning of those words.

Life always took me to her.

First Henry literally brought me to Regina, to this door.

When I realize that magic exists and that everything my son said was true, the first voice I hear is hers. It is true that I wanted to break her face, but I went to her for confirmation of what I had just realized.

When we returned from the Enchanted Forest with my mother and climbed up the well, the first ones I see are Henry and Regina.

In Neverland it was thanks to her that I was able to light the flame to catch Pan`s shadow, and magic is emotion.

When I got back my memories in New York, Henry and Regina are the first to come to me, and Hook was right in front of me.

When I travel to the past in the Enchanted Forest it is just to the exact place and time where Regina appears to intimidate a village.

The ring as my father said took me to her.

The Dagger, Camelot, become the Dark One to save her.

Oh my God; even when the Ice Queen cast her curse; knowing that Regina was dangerous, I went to her for help.

She taught me to use my magic.

In a completely new land like the Wish Land she found me "by chance" in the damn forest.

I went with her to talk about Hook leaving.

And when I didn`t talk to her, things went wrong.

When I hid my plan being the Dark One.

When I didn`t tell her about my vision.

When I didn`t tell her about my engagement.

It is towards her that life takes me again and again. Towards her and towards Henry. And I just realize.

I raise my hands to the sky full of frustration, I couldn`t have been so blind.

- "YOU IDIOT!" - My scream must have been heard in all realms, and when I realize that I'm screaming loudly, I'm frozen in place. Wishing Regina isn`t home.