CAP 18

Note: this would be the first chapter from the narrator's perspective (my own)

-"What the hell?"-

Regina says scared by the scream that made her dropped the book she was reading. Luckily, she didn`t have a cup of hot tea in her hands.

Getting up and she picks up the book from the floor.

Keeping silent; waiting to hear some noise again. But everything is quiet after, ado it's safe to think that it came from her front door.

With a fireball in her right hand and still barefoot she goes carefully to the entrance of her house.

Cursing mentally at the person who interrupted her quiet afternoon.

- "Whoever it is you better have a good reason to scream ..." –

She starts to threaten as she magically opens the door with her left hand and sees who is on the other side.

- "Emma?" –

She freezes when she sees her again.

Seeing her after so many days makes her realize how much she has missed her. She looks at her carefully trying to decipher if this is be another dream.

- "Hi?" –

Emma says cursing again for not noticing the brunette before.

There in front of her is the most beautiful woman she has ever seen, even when she seems angry, surprised and hurt at the same time. Her heart begins to beat strongly and she realizes how much she missed her.

When she notices that Regina still holds a fireball in her hand, she steps back. Surprised by the reception thinking Regina must still be angry at her.

Regina notices Emma's reaction raises her walls getting defensive.

- "Could you tell me why are you screaming at my door?" –

Says with disdain in her voice.

Emma swings on her feet without knowing what to do since obviously Regina is still angry.

- "I`m sorry if this is a bad time. It's just ... I ... emmm "-

Poor Emma can`t find the right words in her brain. As if it suddenly stopped working.

- "Ms. Swan, or should I say Mrs. Jones?" –

Regina says impatience and whit venom in her voice.

- "Could you give me a damn second?" –

Emma answers impatiently too.

-"For what? So you can run again? I don`t think so. Please tell me what you came to say and leave. "-

Regina wasn`t ready to deal with Emma today. She thought she had one more day to get ready.

- "First I ask you to please put down that fireball. I don`t think it's necessary. "-

Emma says.

- "That's my choice to make." –

Regina answers.

- "Come on Regina, can`t we talk like two adults?" –

Emma finds the ability to coordinate her brain. But she didn`t expect to find Regina so angry.

-"How? Adults do not leave in the middle of a conversation without saying something. Clearly here there is only one adult and certainly isn`t blonde. "-

Regina replies, she`s obviously still hurt by the abrupt end that Emma put to the last conversation.

- "Regina, you know it's not fair ..." –

Emma begins trying to reassure Regina in the worst possible way.

-"Fair? Do you really want to discuss what is fair? Because it didn`t seem fair to me the way you rejected me. Really not even one word, knowing how hard it was for me to tell you that I love you? You didn`t even feel that it was worth answering. You just walked out. "-

The fireball in Regina's hand is getting bigger and bigger. To the point that she must extinguish it so as not to burn herself.

- "Because you were right. Okay?"-

Emma shouts standing so close to Regina that she can smell the smoke from the fireball she just turned off.

Preparing for a fight, but she can only see confusion in the brunette`s eyes..

- "You'll have to be more specific, Swan. I said many things the last time we spoke. In fact, I was the only one talking if I remember correctly. "-

- "Can we have this conversation inside? Or is it necessary for us to stay at the door? "-

Emma says with hope now that Regina is more interested in what she has to say.

-"Why? Aren`t you more comfortable out here? Where it's easier for you to run away? "-

Emma simply puts a pleading face. The same face that Henry puts when he wants to convince her of something. That face that Regina can`t say no to.

- "If there is no other way" –

She says stepping aside for Emma to enter. The blonde goes to the kitchen, but Regina stops her.

- "Swan; to the study. You do not want to be with me in a place full of knives. "-

- "Come on Regina, can`t you give me a break? I've being running almost all the town in the last minutes."-

Says still a little agitated.

- "Witch confirms that running is your thing, like idiocy. In any case you still don`t dare to use your magic?"-

The brunette answers with her back to Emma.

She still can`t believe that the blonde is at her home.

The missed phone call left her thinking and looking at her phone for a few minutes. When it didn`t rang again, she thought maybe it was a butt call.

Once at the study Regina tells Emma to take a seat on the couch.

- "If you've been running like a fool you're probably thirsty. Water?"-

Regina offers still standing.

- "Got something stronger?" –

Emma says sitting down.

- "How about a hammer blow to the head?" –

- "I was thinking about some alcohol" –

The blonde says resigned that this will be more difficult than she thought.

Regina moves to the cabinet where she has the alcohol grateful to put some distance between them.

Serve 2 glasses of whiskey. If she has to face Emma now then she will need a little liquid courage.

She approaches Emma with the glasses. The blonde extends her hand to take it, but Regina places it on the table.

The Emma looks at Regina hurt but she isn`t looking at her, so she take the glass and give it a generous sip encouraging her too.

- "Regina, I understand you're angry. But you have to understand that the things you said about me, my parents and my childhood are still a sensitive issue for me." –

She continues trying to justify having run away.

Regina still without looking at Emma takes a seat in front of her in the other chair.

- "Ms. Swan; if you think that's the way I react when I'm angry, then you do not know me as I thought."-

She answers, looking up to fix her eyes on the blonde's.

- "I'm hurt." –

She says sincerely.

- "I`m wounded and surprised. The truth is that, although it is true that it is not the first time that I get hurt thanks to you, the other occasions could be said that their weren't intentional . But run like that? When I had just opened my heart and shared my deepest secrets. That was not unintentional. That was cruel. And I would never have expected you to be cruel to me. "-

She tells her while she sheds a tear that she doesn`t care about drying. She doesn`t see the meaning of hiding anymore.

- "I freaked out."-

Emma says.

-"You're right. What I did has no excuse. But imagine the fear I had, how you get me; that I`ve spent the last days unable to stop thinking about everything you told me. And again I tell you that you are right. I no longer want to be a victim of a life that is not 100% mine. And I've been too much of a coward for not taking care of what I want. Of what I feel. "-

She takes her glass again and finishes it in a sip.

Regina finishes hers and stands up to serve herself more. Seeing Emma's glass equally empty decides to bring the bottle directly.

She refills her glass and beckons Emma to serve herself more.

The blonde decides that she doesn`t want alcohol to interfere with what she is trying to say. She already has enough with her head and heart working at a thousand per hour.

The silence is deafening.

Regina doesn`t sit down again.

-"Well then; What does Mrs. Jones want to do? "-

Asked the impatient brunette.

A chill runs down Emma's back when she hears Regina call her by her married name again. It feels like an insult.

- "First of all I want a divorce." –

Answer firmly looking Regina up.

- "Well dear you`re barking at the wrong tree." –

The brunette answers while rounds Emma to turn her back and try not to hurt so much knowing that Emma is still married. She ends up standing in front of the window.

-"I know. But I don`t want you to ever tell me Mrs. Jones ever again . It sounds wrong."-

Emma stands up and stands behind Regina.

- "If you had considered that your name was going to change to one that you didn`t like before getting married you wouldn`t be in this situation." –

Regina answers looking outside.

- "Regina ... please." –

Emma pleads without being sure why she is pleading. Whether it is for Regina to look at her or for her to understand that she is trying to fix things. Or both.

- "Why did you come Emma?" –

Regina ask trying to end this meeting that leaves her increasingly hurt.

-"I came to see you. To fix this. If there is anything left to fix. "-

The blonde replies without thinking and stares at Regina's back, which tightens when she hears her answer.

- "Emma ... I" –

She starts but doesn`t know what to say. She only knows that she wants this pain to leave from her chest. Emma decides that she won`t give up, because she has hope. Hope Regina still loves her. It is this new hope that gives her the courage to get even closer to Regina.

She knows that she hurt her in a cruel way and that she didn`t take into account the feelings of the brunette that night she ran away.

But she also knows that she would be happy if Regina allowed her to spend the rest of her life making up for it.

Very slowly Emma raises her right hand and places it on Regina's left shoulder. She can feel her tensing again.

- "Emma, I can`t go one like this. I understand that you don`t love me. But you didn`t even have the courage to speak to me."-

The brunette begins already relaxing and feeling that she has nothing to lose anymore.

- "But I'm going to ask you to at least take into account that, despite what everyone think, I do have feelings. And I would prefer that we only speak the just when necessary to raise Henry. At least for a while. Until I get used to the idea. "-

She says finally turning to look Emma in the face. Big mistake Regina realizes too late that she's lost in the blonde's eyes. Fortunately, the fact that Regina finally looks at her makes Emma give up trying to reason and start talking from the heart.

- "Regina; you are the last person, along with Henry I want to see sad. And seriously I have come to try to fix this stupid situation. "-

Start Emma.

- "I know it's not ideal that the Evil Queen is in love with the Savior, but there`s no need for you to keep insulting." –

Regina says hurt.

-"No no. The situation is stupid, because I have been stupid. Because all this time I spent looking for my family and trying to have my happy ending, I didn`t realize and at some point I got lost." –

The blonde continues. Regina can only look at her. Try to understand where Emma is going with all this.

- "I don`t know how I'm going to fill a divorce. But I understand now that Hook is not my happy ending. He's the happy ending for a princess, but I'm not a princess, I never was. I stupidly try to fit in that title and it got worse and worse. I lost myself at some point. I could only be me when I was with you. "-

Regina`s still looking Emma`s eyes. She`s lost in them, but unlike the last time, now she can read them. Emma speaks with sincerity, and it makes her remember why she fell in love with her in the first place; for her heart; for her innocence and at the same time for her stubbornness.

For her truth For being the most real person she has ever met.

- "If you keep looking at me like that I won`t be able to finish saying what I want you to hear." –

Emma says again without filter and real.

The brunette lowers her head but raises it again with curiosity in her eyes.

- "And why couldn`t you finish telling me what you're trying to say while looking me in the eyes? At least you should have the decency to do so if you reject me again. Do it looki ... "-

Regina's lips suddenly find resistance. Emma's lips are on hers.

Emma is kissing her. But the brunette is confused. Didn`t Emma come to reject her as a grown woman? Why is she kissing her?

The blonde notices that Regina doesn`t return the kiss and separates her lips but unites their foreheads.

- "I guess my fears have come true. You don`t want to try this with me and ... and I understand ... I apologize. I didn`t want to ... "-

Once again her lips join Regina's, but this time it is the brunette who initiates the kiss.

A kiss in which they get lost. Tender but with the passion that characterizes them both.

- "Emma ..." –

Regina says opening her eyes and ending the kiss just for lack of air.

Finding the blonde's hands around her waist and hers; one between Emma's hair and the other on her cheek.

-"Hi…"-

Says the blonde.

When Regina realizes the position they are in, she instinctively lowers her hands to her stomach and takes a step back.

- "Emma ... we can`t." –

She says without being able to look the blonde in the eyes.

- "Are you fucking serious woman?! How can we not? I know I behave like shit the last time, but I spent these days trying to understand at what point I became such an idiot. Because since I met you I haven`t felt anything by halves; if I was angry; I was furious. If I was sad, I was devastated. That means that when I was happy I was really happy. And I have never felt that with anyone. "-

While Emma starts talking, Regina tries to come to herself. She is stunned and doesn`t pay much attention until she hears the word "idiot", from that moment she only can hear Emma's voice telling her everything that comes from her heart. Still with her hands on her stomach she can`t take her eyes off Emma, not even to blink. Her eyes fill with tears.

- "And I never thought I could be attracted to women. It was never an option for me. Until two days after running from your vault I understood; I'm not attracted to women, I`m attracted to you. "-

Emma ends up more agitated than when she ran through the town.

-"We can`t. I can`t."-

Says Regina.

- "Emma, you're married. And I…"-

- "You what Regina? Because I'm sure that a few seconds ago you were kissing me in a way that makes me believe that you want this too. What the hell is going on now? "-

Emma continues frustrated.

- "And I am ME. Don`t you get it? I have done so many bad things that I can`t have a happy ending. I do not deserve it."-

Regina's voice is almost a whisper. As if she were telling a secret that she shouldn`t.

-"Are you crazy? Regina you are the person who has worked the most for her happy ending. What the hell is holding you now? "-

Emma can`t understand what`s coming out the brunette`s mouth.

- "Emma; Every person who has dared to love me ends up dead. There is no happy ending for me; fate has shown me again and again that my happiness is not in its plans. "-

Regina has her eyes full of tears that start to fall by accumulation.

- "And I love you so much; with every fiber of my being, I won`t risk losing you too."-

- "I don`t have the world record in keeping my partners alive either. Except for Hook, but he doesn`t count. I did not choose him; he offered. "-

Emma starts rambling.

- "He offered himself again and again and again." –

Says Regina.

- "Yes and I felt cornered. And I thought maybe that was my story and resigned me and I got lost. "-

Regina keeps the biggest of silences and pays attention to what Emma is telling and the expression she has and she sees again the Miss Swan she fell for. The one that says what she feels without thinking about the consequences. Her eyes light up and she realizes that Emma is her true love. And that she still has one more thing to do.

- "I know that maybe you don`t want to have anything to do with me anymore. That is to say; that kiss hasn`t been like the others of true love, maybe you have unloved me in these days, but I am willing to make you fall in love again. If you give me the opportunity. "-

- "Emma I ..." –

- "No Regina. Let me finish. I'm willing to make this work. Because I swear to you that after that kiss there's no way I'm going to be your friend again or just the other mother of your son. "-

The blonde continues trying to convince her.

- "Emma, wait a second ..." –

Regina tries to explain something to Emma, but the blonde won`t shut up. She just wants Regina to understand that she is also entitled to her happy ending.

- "Please Regina; I understand that you are hurt. Hell, I know that I hurt you; hit. I'm just asking you to give me a chance "-

Emma comes closer and tries to put her hands on the brunette`s waist. But the moment her fingers touch the belt that secures Regina's pants, she can`t feel it anymore and find herself surrounded by a lot of purple smoke.