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CHAPTER THREE
OMG! Yesterday was fantastic, I made the decision to go out with Carina, and I don't regret, was one of the most beautiful dates I have attended. It was fun, everything about this woman says "fun". Things should be as well always, it was strange a little strange to me, we went to the games, that is to say, that place had bowling, billiards, foosball, God! Was how to get to my inner child, but after thant she took me to dinner at a romantic restaurant with the best view to Seattle, an excellent night without a doubt. I can't believe I think twice to give her a chance, after the beautiful dinner we ended up in my house, having sex, but, what does it matter? Eliza said that has several job offers in Boston, and also when I met her in the elevator she only told me that, not even touched the theme of our relationship, I guess it's better to leave it as well... So since I'm single, I do not feel this guilt, except that I do feel it, I am sorry, I feel that it is wrong to be going out with Carina, perhaps I have to talk with Eliza… No! She could have said something more or if she cared she would have sent me a message so… doesn't matter. There is a woman who is trying something with me and honestly, it makes me feel something, not like Eliza, but damn! I may need to stop comparing them. I am tired of people gent it and out of my life, no more, I want something that will last, someone with whom I see a future, someone with whom I share my life, not only pass the time. I am tired of people leaves me, I already know that I don't need anybody to be happy, but the truth is that sometimes you need someone to be able to hug, kiss, talk, of those people who know all about you and know exactly what you need, that's what I want. A soul mate? I don't know if you can call it that, but that is what I seek, I don't want to, I am tired of the passenger. Yes, I thought that Eliza was the person that would have that, but she left and she'll is going to do it again, so she has decided to move on with her life, and I 'm doing with mine.
I can't help but have a smile on my face, Carina, is impressive, it is what I love about it, screams fun, sexy, tenderness, mystery, good job Robbins, she deserves your attention, let Eliza leave as she did and enjoy what is to come. I don't know if it this has happen to you but you have to lie to yourself the same thing over and over again so you can star believe it. I am doing that now, I know everything that Carina could give me, and that is what stops me, that when I think of that special someone, I still don't see myselft with her, I see myseltft with my beautiful brunette that I hate now, well, hate, that is to say much, let's just say anger. Let's be realistic, she only came by the end of her contract, so... Let's stop fantasizing.
Today will be a great day, I have decided that, nothing and no one can ruin, a change of attitude is coming, it will be a great day, and at night I will go out with the beautiful Italian. Yes, that will be the day of today, just perfect, no disturbance, no discomfort, no anger, no disappointments, no no no, jus fun and that new feeling of starting something good. Attitude is everything.
I'm walking toward my office, I need to make a paperwork before I can begin my routine and check patients, when I open the door of my office, I find myself with a decoration of flowers, red roses to be exact, just to side, barely visible, a coffee with a bread... Wow, this is awesome, I can't help the smile that formed on my face, is too beautiful, and yes, if the intention was to amaze me, they succeeded, leaning a little toward my desk, I see that the flower arrangement contains a note, open it and says:
"Today, after many weeks in silence, I have written because in the background makes me grace that the universe will remember each time it seems appropriate that I had deep inside for a long time." Eliza xX
Wait What! Is everything that says the note?
I do not mean that expected a letter, but I don't know what it means, and there it is, the uncertainty of not knowing what to do, I head toward the chair and I take my coffee and note with me. Taking a drink! Mmmm!.. Just as I like, that smile again, is it good? This is the last chance? What do I do? What do I call her? Sent her a message? God. Before I can think of something coherent, my thoughts dissolve while Richard enters my office.
-"Robbins Are you busy?"- He asked me, his face of wonder while he presence the flowers in the room, -"Wow, that italian really likes you."
I look to the other side. -"I was about to take care of paperwork, but tell me what can I do to help?"- Richard is getting closer and took a seat in front of me, it seems serious.
-"It is not really anything in particular, I would just like to chat".
"Okay? Lest's talk?"- I replied a bit confused, I do not understand that he wants to talk to me, sure is the situation with his wife. From all this the theft of work was given, I have been a little his support, although I thought that Avery and he would be well after Eliza get fired.
"Are you alright?"- I don't know exactly what he means.
-"Yeah, why?"-
-"Look, I know I have no right given the situation, But Minnick and you, I don't suppose you ended in a good place."
-"I am not sure if we should talk about this."- I turned to see again the note. That is, I understand, really Eliza did not steal his job and after a while Richard was getting the idea of us coming out, even with his reservations, but I don't know if he is the right person to talk about, in a certain way, there is a conflict of interests here.
-"I know, it's just that, you are my friend and I care for you, and I've been noticing things, but, look Robbins, is not my subject, but, what you and she had is something that I didn't understand, but, let me tell you one thing, the person you were when you were with her, she brought you something that I haven't see in you for a while, you've become an incredible woman, both as a surgeon, only I can't avoid it, there was a spark while you were with her, just saying, and I wondered that maybe there is something that we could do something, that woman is a pain in the ass, but you deserve someone of value and she is, I just want to understand if you're ok with the decision to "let it go".
-"The flowers are from her. Eliza"- Not really expecting that of Richard, do I want her to come back?
"I know look I don't want to discuss with you just think about it, maybe you should give it a moment of speaking"- I can see the honesty in his eyes, as if he knew something… Me eyes focus in the flowers. -"Just said, nice day Robbins, you don't mind what others think, if it makes you happy, go ahead, you have my support always, I just want to see you happy." With that he heads for the door, and gives me one last look. This has become more confusing, without thinking twice, I am looking for my phone and start to write a message:
"Thank you for the flowers, and the breakfast, can we talk? Arizona xX
I really don't expect her to answer, she didn't do during the time she left so it's no different. I begin to see on iPad my itinerary and my pone rings.
"No need to thank me, I know you have crazy days. Are you sure you want to talk to me? Eliza xX
"Says the person who does not drink coffee, Yeah I want to… Arizona xX
"Well my flight leaves at 7, So 5 will work with you? Eliza xX
Tears immediately in my eyes, she's actually going….
"So, you're leaving? Yeah works for me. Same place? Arizona xX
When we were dating we used to go to a restaurant a bit out of the city, where they sold all, we had a couple of dates where I met more to of this incredible woman so, would have to be there, where everything ends?
"I wouldn't prefer another place for anything in the world. Eliza xX.
-"Thank you for the flowers they were beautiful"-. This is pathetic I've never felt uncomfortable with Eliza, and here we are, as two stranges, I don't even know where to begin.
-"You already mentioned I know it sounds pathetic, but, there is a rose for each hour that I wans't with you, is my way of saying, "I'm sorry"- that is sweet but I am really angry with her for letting me without any explanation. -"Because I'm really sorry"-.
-"Stop…".
-"I thought you wanted to talk." She looks at me straight in the eye and I feel that look that tells me that she is what I need, to whom I want in my life, who I see in the future. But, yes, it is time to let her go.
-"I just wanted to say goodbye to you…"- My eyes turned to the floor, I do not know what to say, I don't know how to act, I don't know anything.
-"Then this is our goodbye then?" - Her voice a little broken, I believe that we both hope otherwise but neither is willing to give up.
-"I suppose."- I looked into her eyes, and she crosses her arms, I can see that you are thinking strongly, and it does not feel right, I can't say goodbye to her, I just can't.
-"She is beautiful, DeLuca's sister, I can see why you like it".
-"Yes she is"- a great moment of silence, I turn around and I see the time, It is a Little affer 6 in the afternoon, we have been an hour sitting talking about nothing, nothing relevant, and she leaves in lest thant an hour.
-"I guess we should get going, you don't want to be late for your flight."- Really? It is the only thing that comes out of my mouth at the moment, and I'm cursing, I can't believe that this is going to happen, but honestly she gives me nothing, I don't know what she wants. I get up and she immediately takes me by the wrist -"Wait"- She said, and my heart melts with that little touch.
-"I havent' said what I came to said, I mean I think about this momento a hundred times, and what I will say but I can't Arizona, It just…."- Before she ends I cut her off.
-"You can´t? You're seriosuly saying that? You can´t? You left me! I wen to your apartment like 15 times, and guess whats, It was freaking empty! And you said you can't do this? Go, Eliza, leave, is the best thing you can do, aparenttly the only thing you know how to do!- The anger in my voice is evident.
-"I know! Do you have a freaking idea how I felt?"-
-"Of course not! Because you didn't answer anyone of my calls, o messages, I'm don't read minds!"-
-"Well you don't read minds but you didn't wait to long to find another person"- Here it goes… -"Maybe we should leave things like this"-
-"I think we left things when you skip town"- Tears in my eyes and my voice broken, I can't look her in the eyes, this is too much… -"I shouldn't be here… I shouldn't have come"-.
-"Yeah, you should be with Carina having a lot of sex and kissing and that things"- I can see that she's angry too.
-"Yeah I should be with here she does not resign"-
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