I read all your comments guys and really thanks for the support. Also a little aclaration HERE is the big talk! I hope you like I like the drama and all about but I'm not really good writing about it so I do my best and this is what it comes... Hope you like it!

By the way English isn't my firt language so sorry for my mistakes and the future's one!

It was a low blow my answer, I know, I'm just too angry still do not want her to go but my pride is too big to tell her otherwise, stay. I know we've been hurting with these actions and honestly don't know if this can be arranged, all I know is that neither wants to let go.

-"So, what are you waiting for?"- Eliza yells at me, - "Go, stay with her!" - His voice clearly with anger, disappointment, sadness and a little broken.

- "Yes, it will be great to finally be with someone who does not leave me" -

-"Say the person who left one in the airport! You are a quiter too! You left here in the airport! What make me thing that I'm different from her! You're a quiter too! You bail!... Then go! I was wrong I have nothing here in Seattle. "-

- "You didn't mean that"-

-"Am I wrong? Of course not! You know I'm right at this point and don't even know why the hell I came here, was the best choice I could take, I don't belong here in Seattle, clearly no with you, so let's forget about this happen and let's get to our happy life's and cute the crap… I can't take it anymore, go fuck her"

-"Fuck of Eliza! If you didn't care you wouldn't be such a drama queen, so yeah I'll be with her, stay with her, I'll call her my girlfriend, may be my love why not? I don't have any more attachments, it was stupid for me to trust you, I'm done"-

Ok, I don't know if what is said is actually what both of us meant, I'm really hurt by de accusations she made, I try to calmer myselft but the anger is clearly there I just close my eyes…

- "Arizona ... I can't ... I, I ... -"

- "I should have known … I should leave you got a flight to take and I have a date, I was wrong to come here, cute way to endg things, end where it all began. "-

- "Arizona, please ... Don't say that" - Shee gets up from her chair and walks over to me, kneeling, taking my hands in hers and looks me straight in the eye. –I haven't told you the reason why I'm here ..." - And as if fate was not against us, my phone rings, we both know it could be an emergency so I take the pocket of my jacket when wee see on the screen the name of the caller, Eliza loose my hands, she stands up and returns to her chair, but doesn't take a sit instead she starts taking her stuff.

- "You know what Arizona? You have nothing to complain about, I put the first mark to the end of us but you was who finally took it when you decided to sleept with Carina, cute name, not even waited to jump into the arms of another woman ... Take you what? A week, less, forget me, so excuse me if I do not find the right words to tell you all without getting angry or break me ... Now I understand what it feels when someone cheats you ... You said it yourself, once a cheater always a cheater "-

Wordlessly I get up from the chair of coffee, I take my bag and head for the exit. No matter if Eliza is stopped or if it goes the other hand honestly I don't care. It's over, is the end, tears begins to emerge from my eyes. It's raining, I'm in the parking lot I stay there, stop, static, paralized. I don't even care that it's raining, it's over. The last thing she said to me hurt, but I have no one to blame but me should not believe those words "We could date, we could kiss, we could actually be something." God, her last words are repeated over and over in my head was too low blow. I finally realize I'm halfway through the parking lot and it's raining, road to my car and inevitably tears start coming out. I turn to my house.

I realize that pass seven in the evening and I can not stop thinking about Eliza, just right now should be flying to Boston. Stop stop! We should no longer think about it but it is inevitable. I'm in my room with the TV on and don't know even that program because I really ain't paying attention. I get up and walk quickly toward my closet, I have a sweatshirt for her, well it is mine but she used to use when she spent nights here at home, God! Its smell like her, her essence still in this jacket and it's the best thing that could happen, a certain way I said goodbye to the woman I love because I love her, that's why it hurts so much, but I also know that this wasn't reciprocated and had to let her go, only this jacket I left, I turn once again to the bed, snuggle and I appreciate so much the smell of this jacket ...

Yes, my heart is broken right now and it's just somebody's fault, well rather than two parts, I can not help but wonder, What would have happened if our conversation had gone completely the opposite? If we had left one whole side? Or if we had insisted? I think both let go we very easily and who knows it was probably for the best, I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and maybe right now is not for us to be together, maybe not in this life ... I need someone currently only listen to me or hold me or is there crying with me at least I know who to call. I immediately took my phone and searched through my contacts number one I find of my best friends. April, she is aware of this situation without thinking twice called.

- "Hey, are you busy?" -

- "Leaving surgery, Are you okay? You sound a little sick Maybe?" -

- "Oh April! Right now I could really use a hug "-

-"What happened? Ok, give me 30 minutes and I'll be there in your house, just let me talk to Jackson to look after Harriet, and I'll be there "-

-"Do not! Go with your daughter "-

- "Arizona what are friends for, I see you for a while" -

- "Thank April" -

And that concludes my call with her, I feel better knowing that someone will listen to me and nothing can advise me, well not to advise right now, the mere fact of knowing that someone will be with me makes me feel better. I have Andrew but he has been busy in the hospital, and gives me a little sad even talking these kinds of issues with him, especially because of the fact that I've been sleeping with his sister, I know he liked Eliza, always I said it, or when she was preparing dinner four us, was for Andrew too. Was his favorites night because it meant having homey food, not preheated food as we normally do ... so definitely not the best choice to talk to him about it. I thought Amelia, but lately she's been going through a lot, so Owen's sister, her marriage in general, I don't want her to worry. April has heard me although recent months was not exactly a good friend and especially good support when she took over as chief of surgery, and yet here it is, ready to leave her daughter one night to come to me a couple of scarves, don't know what I've done to deserve these friends, but God thank you. I'm a bit quiet but I realize that my eyes are swollen, since I left the coffee I've been crying like crazy, I go to the bathroom and rinse my face so that I remove a bit, and heard the bell. I know it's April so on as fast as I can open the door and ...

- "Listen, I had to say what I wanted to say at the coffee so I need you to shut up for a moment and just listen. I like you. I like you very much, very much. I like you so much that I could say that actually Iove you and would not be exaggerating. I like you and I like everything about you. I like the way you made me lose my mind and each of the reasons why I like you. I like you're from the north and also to stop losing does not mean have you. I like that you leftover words and they were precisely those that were needed to be here today. I like to look into your eyes and what I see in them. I like that this is what I always wanted and never imagined something like this. I like you've stolen my heart almost as much as remembering to take what is yours is legal. I like you that you look like a dream and I wake up knowing you're real, I like thtat even more. I like you. I really like not much either, I like at least infinity. Not only do I like Arizona, I love you, all about you I love you, I did not come to Seattle for a stupid compensation plan with Bailey No, I came for you, I've been crazy thinking about you and I need you more than you imagine, I know I was stupid especially the way I spoke to you at that coffee and I'm really sor- ... "- in a split second I interrupt with not words, not screaming, with a kiss ... God! I missed these lips, I can feel the tears running down her cheeks, I take her by the hip and try the best to bring her closer to me.

- "Sorry, I had to, you were talking like crazy and I didn't know how to stop, and when you started to say all those things I didn't know how to react and I know probably how we ended things at the cafe it was not the most appropriate, but you have to know something, at least now we can say what we had to say and if this is goodbye so unless proper goodbye, no rage words shou- ... "- and now I am cut by those lips, is a very simple peck, fast but with many feelings involved in this kiss, this kiss says more than anything we didn't tell us a while.

- "Can we sit for a moment?" - Eliza asks me, without thinking twice I led her to my chair, I know we have a lot to talk but I can not help thinking that this woman is here with me now

- "You're not in Boston" -

- "Nope" -

- "Eliza ..." -

- "I'm sorry Arizona, really sorry about everything, for having abandoned I'm really sorry, the way I spoke to you, I'm deeply sorry you have to know something I dindn't mean to hur you, well yes a Little, I was devastated I had a hard time returning to Seattle and suddenly when I do I realize that the woma I love is in the arms of someone else, I couldn't take it"-

- "I'm hurt, and even angry, Can we talk honestly as adults? This time there are no easy ways out, please, if this will end, at least it on better terms than a while, I can't take another conversation like earlier"-

-"Yes, let's talk"-

-"Why you left?"-

- "Honestly, I felt patetic and pety for myselft never had me fired and really gave me a lot in my ego, if I know it's not good but it brought back so many memories and didn't know how to react, I know, I should come to you answer your calls and tell you I needed time, I just don't know the situation consumed me Arizona ... Arizona I ... "-

- "Look, I don't want you to tell me something if you're not ready to tell me but I need something Eliza, I need a reason, please" -

- "I know, it's just what I'm about to tell you may change your thinking a lot about me and that's what I fear" -

- "Hey, I'm not judging and I won't" - I approach a little and took her hands.

-"Okey.. I suffer a crisis of anxiety, a normal one, amm… When I was a teenager I wasn't exactly what you can call a model of persona, an exemplary one, I was entirely irresponsable and God! I didn't have any boundaries, I never took what corresponded me like tha majority of the teenagers so I tought it was like a stage. But my case was special, I had suffer a lot since I was a kid… When my sister died I couldn't take it, I didn't tolerate in many ocassions I blame myselft, I mean at the end she was in the party with me and I convinced her to drove… Look, when I was in high school I had alimentary problems, I was always de freak one for the fact that I like girls and wasn't really accepeted, I was so concerned in what people may think about me, I always were very hard with myselft especially with my body the kids at school used the word "Butt" to refer to us, and God that bothered me a lot, and so far, what a woman can not like another woman and be feminine? Then I started exercising and taking pills to lose weight, I exercised 3 times a day, and underwent a horrible diet, really Arizona you have no idea, that's not the worst part, I looked like a skeleton with time so to prove that it wasn't a "Butt or a dike" but a girl with different tastes ... Then I suffered an anxiety attack, I was going to a psychologist, I started watching my diet in the best way, and all that kind of stuff ... no is justified when Bailey fired me, gave me anxiety, I was very concerned about what people were thinking of me, I know that you don't live in critical but I don't know, I was afraid even of what you were thinking of me, if I was a failure, a loser or something like that; so I fled, brought to my mind that and the death of my sister, I could not tolerate, I began to feel that anxiety again, and so I disappeared, I didn't want you to see me in that state, return to Boston with my mom for a week, and started taking my medicine, you have no idea what it feels like to suffer this anxiety and not knowing what to do with it ... "-Her voice breaking and tears begin to run down her eyes, I give her a strong grip so she knows I'm not judging, on the contrary, this woman is amazing and too strong ...

- "You don't have to say, hey, hey, look at me, I'm not going to judge, and not even think about the fact that you have fired you a loser Elizathat in my life, fa ..." - She interrupts me

- "I still don't finish" - I nod - "I had a girlfriend who was with me since high school, it was my first serious girlfriend, her name was Jennifer, was my first love, and helped me become the person I am, I'm not saying I'm an exemplary surgeon or a person, but I'm just better than before you know? I suffered bulimia Arizona when I was in high school, almost 4 years at least, Jenn helped me go through it, for her I decided to become a better person, I was afraid to lose her, and honestly she was the only one that stayed with me during that crisis, my mom didn't say anything, but I could see it in her eyes, disappointment, fear that one day she wake up and have no daughter, so I fight against it, for her, for me. Until that day in college, the day of the accident of Karina, my parents began to blame me, it was my fault, I knew I didn't have to convinced her to drive in that state, and I always were compared with her, she was the perfect daughter, when she died I started again taking pills, anxiety suffering ... It took me about three months to return to exceed that part, and during those three months, I lost Jenn, was it twice as hard to overcome that stage, I know, it's probably stupid after I got fired suffered an anxiety again, but there it was, and I dindn't want you to drag you into this Arizona ... "- she begins to cry more and more, and Oh God! My heart crumbles to see her in this way.

- "Hey hey, okay, love, I'm with you you're perfect Eliza, for me and for everyone you're amazing, I don't care the person you were before, because it has made you the extraordinary woman you are now, that's what interests me and the people who are we going to be tomorrow who knows, all I know is that you are so extraordinary, and you should not feel that way "- My fingers down her cheeks wiping her tears. The doorbell rings - "Shit!" -

- "I should go, I'll let you be with your girlfriend" -

- "No no no please, it's only April, I asked her to come, please, just give me five minutes, please? – she just nod and I get up from the couch to the door.

- "I brought tequila, vodka, charanda, champagne, beer, wine, Bailey's, snow chocolate chip, two bags of Cheetos, 3 packages of popcorn and lots of sweets, where do we start?" - While April says all that she walks toward the kitchen, it's like a sister to me so I don't need her to indicate what she can't o can do, this is like her house, but she didn't realize that I was accompanied - "Shit! - that's all she says when she sees that Eliza is sitting on the couch .

- "I think I should go" - Eliza says

- "No, I umm ... I leave you guys here and I call you tomorrow" - she turns to me and I just nod. - "It's good to see you Eliza, goodnight" -

- "I can say the same Kepner, enjoy your night" -

After hearing the front door closed once I head to the couch and I lay in the couch and I took Eliza by her hands and pulled her towards me so that we're both lying, she between my legs while I caress her beautiful hair.

- "I killed her Arizona"- and the tears beggin again.

- "Don't say that, honey" -

- "I did it, I disappeared for a month completely when Karina died during that month honestly don't know what my parents would be doing but began to ask all my friends were I was and Jenn discovered where I was staying she was driving to meet me and during the road, a truck came out of nowhere, and it was inevitable... ". -

- "Sweet heart, you did not kill her, it was an accident," -

- "So I return, and Bailey fired me… Brougth the worst of me, how Edwards almost died because I couldn't break the rules for fear, when I know that it was the best but keep going on the stupid protocol because I was like paralized, it's just brought me so many memories so I bail, I left, I was anxious again couldn't stand again criticism, I could not bear that you will go through that, I could not bear to see me in that state, don't worry nothing happened, but I couldn't take to lose you in tha way Arizona that you didn't even know who I was so I decided it was better if I was not in your life anymore, we would avoid all that ever with Jenn, so I ran, for you own well, to spare you going this shit over and over again, I could take to lose you because another woman but for this I will never forgive mylseft…"-

- "You should have come here with me, I would have liked to be with you in those moments Eliza, but we have a problem here…" -

She laughs - "Do you think? I'm going, I told you I had to... "- she begins to rise but I grabbed by her wrist ...

- "You see Eliza, the problem here is that I'm madly in love with you ... And I love you "- I know she can see the sincerity through my eyes, and a small smile appeared on her mouth.

-"And now that?"-

- "Now let's get some sleep, we need it and tomorrow we will see we need to rest, love, and tomorrow we continue with the talk I'm just tired and you need to rest…It's been a long day full with emotions so let's call the night" -

- "Arizona ... This is the way it was supposed to say" - She stands up and takes my hands to my feet, She takes me by the hips and her eyes beautiful, green, look at me directly. - "I love you" - and her lips are connected with mine in a perfect kiss. When we break we just started each other in the eyes…

-"I love you too"-.

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