So sorry for the long wait, had so much on recently, homework has taken over my life, I've also been ill and I still am so not sure when the next update will be.

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Chapter 19

Zoe.

Over the next two days things began to settle down a bit. The people at work went about treading on eggshells around me for no reason I gave them. Sam and Tess were great and their friendship was a comfort to me.

The ED had changed over the summer Lloyd had left and Rita had joined. Tom and Sam had moved in together and looked happy. Tess had had a fling with Fletch but that was over now and Fletch was expecting a baby with his wife, even though the atmosphere between them was tense no one but me knew about it. The new paramedic Iain was jealous about Tom and Sams relationship, as he and Sam had been together in the army.

I felt at home though. The ED was always busy and full of people. The doctors and nurses felt like brothers and sisters, Tess and Charlie our parents.

I spent most of my time in my office dealing with the mountain of paperwork that had built up over only two days. Jess was in there too watching films or playing with a laptop.

I had the next day off and I was planning on going to Lous house and getting all of Jess's stuff and taking it to mine. I was nervous to go there, worried that I would just cry. I had to take Jess with me, as there was nowhere else for her to go.

When I pulled up at her old house my eyes filled with tears. Jess just ran in and did what I had told her to do, grab all her toys and put them in the boxes I was carrying.

I went in slowly and looked around. It was hard to see photos of her scattered round the small two-bed ground-floor apartment. The food in the fridge was rotting and there was a horrid stench coming from the kitchen and the bathroom. Jess packed her stuff in the boxes and I took one of the boxes to Lou's old room and packed her very small wardrobe of clothes. Jess was filling boxes with clothes and toys well for a five year old. I started to pack up photos and the few books stacked on a shelf. I would sort it out later, when I had the right state of mind and Jess wasn't there.

It was hard but I managed it and then I helped Jess do her clothes. It was then that I realized she needed new school clothes, shoes and a bag. We needed to go shopping.

I put the boxes in the back of my car and drove them home before I set off again to buy school supplies, something I never thought I would have to do.

Jess had grown vastly over the summer and needed new everything. One of the shops in Holby had all the school logo items she would need so we went there first.

It took us about an hour to find everything she needed from that shop, cardigan, polo shirt, P.E. top, blazer… then we had to go and buy shirts, skirts, tights, socks, shoes, hair ties and a bag. It was nearly dark and the shops were shutting as we got into the car to drive home again. I had spent loads, school clothes were so expensive.

Ash wasn't due home for another hour so I stopped to get a Chinese for later for us and some chicken nuggets and chips for Jess, quick and easy to cook.

When we got home I unpacked Jess' stuff from Lou's whilst she played with all her toys. All of the clothes seemed a little too small for her so I would have to go out and buy her some more at a later date.

I cooked her dinner and gave her some of the green beans that one of my neighbours had dropped round the day before. By eight I ran her a bath and she was in bed by eight thirty, asleep within seconds, tired from the shops. Ash got home early enough to give her a kiss good night and then I put on our dinner.

We sat curled up on the sofa eating Chinese. Ash kept feeding me and kissing me. I was really happy. It reminded me of the picnic we went on together the day after we had slept together after Linda's party.

Ash cleared the plates away as I sat in the lounge thinking.

I wondered if being with me was what Ash really wanted now Jess had come to live with me. Was I really what he wanted, what he had expected? I felt like I was pushing him into our relationship, two/three months ago we weren't even together, now we were living together and I had the custody of a five year old.

"Ash," I said as he came back in.

"Yes"

"Do you really want to be with me?"

"Of course I do Zoe, where has this come from?"

"I don't want you to feel like you have to stay with me because of Jess, we could manage without you."

"I love you Zoe. I don't want to go. I want to stay with you." He replied pulling me off the sofa and snaking his arms around my waist, pulling me towards him.

"I love you too. But please, if you want to go, go." I said kissing him.

"I'm not going anywhere." He replied picking me up by my bum and making me straddle him. I let out a high-pitched scream and felt his finger on my lips.

"Shhh, don't want to wake Jess do we?"

I laughed and pushed my lips onto his as he carried me up the stairs to our room.

I woke the next day to hear Jess open the door to my room. It was five in the morning and she was crying. Ash woke up to and after we had put some clothes on Jess came into bed with us. She was upset about Lou, this made me cry too and soon Ash was soothing both of us. We feel to sleep again to be woken an hour later by the alarm clock telling me to get up for work.

At seven I was showered, dressed, had my make up on and was ready for work. Jess was staying with Ash today as he had the day off. I kissed them both goodbye and promised to get home to say goodnight that evening.

Work was quiet that day and I got off early enough to do bath and bedtime with Ash. After Jess had gone to sleep Linda called and I chatted to her for a while, she was sorry to hear about Lou but she was coming down in two weeks and wanted somewhere to stay for the three days she was here. I said that Ash and I would love to have her stay. She was thrilled to know Ash and I were living together now. I was looking forward to seeing her again; she was one of my best friends and was someone I always knew I could have fun with.

That evening I cuddled up with Ash on the sofa and carefully rubbed my hand in between his thighs, smiling up at him I felt him tense up, the more I did it the tighter his muscles became. I looked into his eyes and continued the movement with my hand. He just smiled back happily as I move my lips closer to his. As our lips touched I felt him harden and then strong arms around my waist. I put my hands up inside his shirt feeling his chest. I started to undo the buttons of his shirt as he slowly undid the zip of my pencil skirt that ran down the back. I tugged at his shirt attempting to get it off of his broad shoulders, unsuccessfully. We broke away for a moment to allow him to get his shirt off and me to slide out of my skirt. He then proceeded to unbutton the white blouse I had on. I tugged on his belt and undid it at he front. As we continued to undress we continued to kiss passionately. We were in love and we were making love.

Once Ash and I were naked I straddled him and then felt him enter me, after a few moments I came shortly followed by Ash. It was amazing and I was really happy at that moment. It was the happiest I had felt for a while.

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