Newt's POV:

I awake that night feeling sick and I run to the bathroom and throw up in the toilet. When I'm done I walk over to the sink and look at myself in the mirror. I notice more veins on my neck as I run my finger over them. My heart aches of fear. Knowing that it could be any day that I would turn. A memory of a nightmare runs through my head of when I had dreamt of Gally calling me a coward and doing the things he did to me in the glade. I knew my friends were worried about me and I especially, shouldn't be bottling anything up because of my condition.

I knew I wouldn't get anymore sleep alone so I leave the bathroom and head to Thomas' room. I open the door quietly and see him asleep. I walk over to his bed and shake him awake.

"Thomas, Thomas get up" I say

"What? Newt, why are you up? You should be asleep" he says sitting up.

"I feel sick and I found more veins on my neck. Thomas I'm scared" I say

Thomas and Minho were the only peopl I showed weakness around. I didn't like myself being seen as the weak leader, the one who almost. I can't even bring myself to think of it again.

"Hey come here" he says and pulls me into a hug and kisses the top of my head. "We'll find that cure don't you worry, I won't let you get to the stage. How sick do you feel?" He asks

"I threw up"

"Aww Newt. Do you want to stay in here incase you feel any sicker?"

"Yeah, I doubt I'll get sleep alone anyway" I say

"Ok" he says and makes room for me to lie down. We then stay quiet for a little while as I snuggle into him.

"You know how you and the guys were wondering why I was yelling out that I was a coward?" I ask

"Yeah"

"I'll tell you, just, don't get mad and don't hate me"

"Newt, I would never hate you"

I sighed preparing myself for Thomas to know half of the big secret I kept. He wasn't ready to know this bigger part just yet.

"It was when I was in the glade, after I was given the position of second in command. Someone else wanted the positions and they'd beat me up almost everyday and call me names, specifically a coward. Especially after something I did which I'm not comfortable sharing. They'd say I didn't deserve the spot, that he should have it. Everyone would hate me once my secret was let out out"

"Who was it Newt?"

I contemplated if I should say his name. Could I trust Thomas with this? Of course I should, or why else would I be in a relationship if I didn't have trust?

"It was... It was Gally" I say and I feel him tense.

"That son of a..."

"Thomas please don't tell anyone and please don't do anything stupid"

"No promises there..."

"Thomas please" I beg and he looks at me.

"Alright fine"

"Thank you, I just want to forget about it" I say even though in the back of my mind, I was failing to believe him.

"At least you told me"

"Yeah, we should get some sleep" I say and roll over

"Night Newt"

"Night"

Thomas' POV:

"Denver! Are you serious? Why the heck did Vince organise to go there when he knows that we'll have an issue?" I question Jorge who had just told us where the Right Arm were headed.

"It's where their main base is Thomas, you can't just move a hidden base" Jorge says

"What problem do we have?" Minho asked

"Denver is a highly secured area that doesn't allow any one with the flare to be roaming around there so, we need to decide what to do with Newt" Brenda says

I look to my left and see Newt look at the ground, as if he knows what's coming.

"We either keep Newt here on the berg which has a high chance of being searched or we just hand Newt over" Jorge says

"No! I will not let you do that! The second option is out the window! It ain't happening!" I say angrily. How could they think up that idea?

"I'm with Thomas on this one" Minho says "I'm not dumping Newt in some shucking location which we know nothing about"

"It should really be up to Newt to decide guys, I mean I agree with both of you but, it's Newt we're talking about" Teresa says and I look at Newt who was now looking up. He then sighs and stands up and goes over to one of the Windows, grips the ledge and turns around. These next few words broke my heart.

"Hand me over"

"No! Newt I'm not letting you just give up!" I shout standing in my seat.

"Thomas, I've brought enough trouble upon the group already, you don't need anymore"

"Thomas, it's Newt's decision, if he wants to leave us that's fine, it's what he wishes" Gally says and I turn around in anger, remembering my talk with Newt last night.

"You just want him gone Gally! You always have!" I shout

"What are you talking about?"

"Thomas stop" Newt says

"I'm talking about what you did in the glade" I say

"What did I do?"

"Thomas..." Newt starts

"A lot, a lot that was unnecessary over jealousy and selfishness" I say

"Like what?" Gally questions

"Thomas just stop" Newt says getting slightly angry

"Sorry Newt but they need to know who Gally really is. A monster. You beat up Newt everyday, bullied him, called him a coward! Newt is no coward! You're the one that's scared of bloody walls! You just wanted second in command for yourself so you could run the glade into the ground!"

Everyone then looks shocked

"Maybe you're right, but that was the old me"

"Was it? You're still the same!"

"You don't know everything"

"I know enough"

"Obviously Newt left out a key detail"

"Stop!" Newt yells

"He told me enough"

"Not the truth"

"What truth? What else is there to know except that you're a bully?"

"He..."

"Stop it!" Newt yells and tackles Gally to the ground.

"Don't want them to know do you Newt" Gally says who earns a punch to the head.

"Newt chill!" Minho orders pulling Newt off of Gally who gets himself free. Newt then stands in front of me.

"I knew I shouldn't if told you! I knew you'd do something like this! I knew it! You're just like them! You're just like Wicked!" Newt yells

"Don't you dare say that!" I yell at him

"I can say whatever I want!"

"No you can't!"

He then punches me.

"Don't be treating me like someone lower than you Thomas! Like your subject! Thinking you have any sort of control over me and what rights I have!" I was backed into a wall at this point with Newt towering over me. "I hate youand I will never trust you ever again!" He yells and then runs to his room and slams the door.

What had I done?