"Well, I can't get home right now, Will. I am in the middle of a case, and you know that! Yes, I realize that Henry is extremely ill, but this was part of the deal, I have a job that takes me away from home a lot of the time, and you agreed to that. We didn't have to stay together, I could have had my mother come and live with me, taking care of Henry while I was away. But no, you wanted to help raise my son."
"He's our son," Will hissed, "and he is missing his mommy. He doesn't understand why his mommy won't come home when he's so sick!"
She shuddered a little at the anger in his voice and she tried not to burst into tears at the guilt trip that Will was laying on her. It wasn't like JJ wanted to be separated from her son, especially when he was so ill. "I wish that it was so simple as coming home, Will. But I have the weather to contend with, and there aren't any planes flying out right now."
JJ pinched the bridge of her nose as she listened to the angry breath that Will drew in. She didn't want to prepare herself for yet another tirade from him, berating her on the fact that she was useless as a mother. Feeling eyes on her, she looked over and saw Hotch giving her a sympathetic smile. She nodded and held up one finger before turning her attention back to the phone. "Seriously, our child matters less to you than that case? That they can solve without you?"
"No, Will, he doesn't. But I have to be here, and I have to go. We'll talk later." JJ hung up before Will could respond, expelling a harsh breath through her nose. "Sorry about that, Hotch, it's just, Will is really upset about the fact that I'm refusing to come home."
"We could handle this case a man down, Jayje, and we'd be fine."
"And if I were to go home right now, all I would be able to do is focus on Henry and how sick he is. It wouldn't do me any good at all, and I would rather be here. I know, it doesn't make sense, but, I think that I would drive myself crazy just waiting and watching."
"I understand." Hotch reached out and rested his hand on her shoulder, his thumb rubbing back and forth against her collarbone. The move comforted her, and she leaned into it, letting her guard down a little. "There was a time that we thought Jack was going to have more health issues than he does. Haley freaked out on me when I missed an important appointment, but it had completely slipped my mind. Had I been there, though, it probably would have been just like you said. Though, I would have been on the phone to Garcia, having her look up everything that the doctor was telling us."
She managed to laugh a little as she nodded. "And she would have found out everything that she could for you."
"Of course, because she's our resident tech genius."
JJ nodded before sighing a little. "Sometimes, I like to think of her as an angel in my life. She's done so much for me."
Hotch gave her one of his rare smiles and she felt the truth of her miscarriage trembling on her lips, trying to flutter free. The mood was broken, though, when Emily joined them. The frown on her face seemed to indicate that she thought there was more to the situation than there really was. "Hey, Garcia has some information for us."
"Good, I'll gather everyone in the conference room," he replied smoothly as he stepped away from JJ and left them behind. JJ couldn't help but stare after him, a deep frown on her face.
"What is your problem, JJ?"
The words should have sounded more accusatory than they were, but she took it in stride as she shook her head. "Will is just bothering the crap out of me right now. Like, I'm not worried enough about Henry as it is, but he's trying to guilt me into dropping everything and coming home to check on him. It's not like I can do anything, you know? I'm not a doctor, Emily, I can't fix Henry faster." She sighed as her shoulders dropped, and Emily reached out for her hand, squeezing it lightly.
"I'm surprised that you can focus on the task at hand, honestly. I would be worried sick."
JJ shrugged a little. "I am. My heart aches for Henry. But if I were there, I would just be driving myself crazy. Plus there's the fact that Will and I are going at it like cats and dogs at the moment. He's asked me to marry him, but this is exactly the reason why I've said no so far. We're just so different in some ways. And I just know that if I get pregnant, he's going to want me to stay home from the moment I get the first positive pregnancy test."
"Like he could really keep you from going out in the field," Emily said darkly, and JJ nodded, giving her a knowing look. "Besides, I would so kick his ass if he tried any of that shit on you."
"Thanks, Blackbird," she said, giving Emily a small wink before letting go of her hand and gesturing with her head towards the door. Emily nodded before following her into the conference room. They both avoided Spencer, since he was still a little touchy around them. JJ supposed that it was only her fault, though, since she had kept the truth from him.
Garcia gave her a gentle smile before launching into the information that she did have on the case, but there was scant amount of new things to learn, since there hadn't been a tornado in the forecast for that day. Sighing, JJ tried to keep her focus, but all her thoughts were turned towards her son at that moment.
"I wish that I could be of more help here, guys. But as soon as I have a few more parameters, I can get you everything that I need. I wish I was more psychic to go with the being the Office of Supreme Genius."
"That's okay, Garcia, we know that you're doing your best." JJ looked up to see Hotch wearing one of his patented 'I'm proud of you' faces, and she couldn't stop the little thrum of jealousy that rumbled in her stomach. Which she knew was ridiculous, since she was still with Will, and would be for a long time to come.
"All right, I'll hit you back soon! Stay safe, and remember: There's no place like home!"
Garcia closed the video link, and JJ deflated in the chair a little. Glancing over at Rossi, she saw that he had taken careful notes on his tablet, and she couldn't help but smile. That was one of the things that had quickly endeared him to her, and she wished that she could be as dedicated, especially since she was still so new to the profiling side of the job. "All right, I'll get us lunch. Maybe one of the detectives can recommend a good take out place," the older man said as he pushed away from the desk. "I wouldn't expect too much, though, since this is rural Kansas."
They all nodded, and JJ watched him leave the room, wishing that the rest of this case would fly by so that she could be home with her son.
