"Don't you just feel off?" I ask Alice as we walked to her house. We tidied up our appearance before entering the Cullen household because we told both our parents that we were sleeping over Angela's house, not going to a party.
"110%." She agrees with me.
Alice's home was a modern looking one-story house that was just recently painted to a silver mist color. Once we made it inside, her mother Esme popped her head out the kitchen "Hey, girls. How was the sleepover? Did you watch lots of movies?" Her kind smile made the throbbing in my head increase. Alice's mother was basically my second mom, she is so beautiful like her daughter and has a heart of gold. It felt weird lying to her.
"So many movies, we had so much fun," lied Alice "I'll tell you more about it later, Bella really needs to get going we have a lot of homework due tomorrow."
"Alright girls glad you have fun," Her mom sent us another smile before turning back into the kitchen.
"Oh, yeah we had so much fun last night," I grumble low enough for Esme not to hear.
Once we made to Alice's room I knew this is my chance to finally talk, I couldn't keep my night a secret any longer "Alice, I hooked up with someone last night." I blurt out looking at the ground with dismay.
"And you're just telling me this now! Who was it? How good was it?" Alice was ready to hear my version of last nights adventure.
I spat out the name that was suffocating me "Edward Masen."
"Get out. Get out! No way!" She said in shock"You fucked him! I'm so jealous Bella! How was it, oh my gosh! Is it true that his cock is huge?"
I shook my head a bit "I hardly remember our night but I do remember that he was good, Alice. Like, very good... he made me cum."
"What?!" Alice's jaw dropped "He must be a god, you always told me you can't cum with guys! That's incredible, what does this mean?!"
"I don't know Alice, I'm still shocked about last night. I've never felt anywhere near the way I felt last night with Edward." I told Alice. I was a bit concerned about I was feeling right now. Even though Edward left in the middle of the night after flipping my world upside down, I wasn't as angry as I thought I would be. I actually really would like to see and talk to him again. I don't even know the guy and I miss him!
"Sounds like love at first sight to me," Alice hints.
"Oh gosh, Alice no." I do not want those type of thoughts to poison my mind "Remember who we're talking about here, it's Edward Masen. I totally understand now why he has all the girls in our school fawning over him, he has some type of hypnotizing powers or something."
Alice began pacing at that "That's crazy. Last night was the definition of crazy, I'm having such a hard time coming to grips that this is reality. I totally never expected you to hook up with Masen! Ah! I need the details, Bella."
"You gave me all that vodka" I gave her a glare "I just turned to mush and felt sparks fly with every touch. We danced together again after you left and things just escalated from there. He's an amazing kisser, and yes, his cock is pornstar huge." That I do remember, of course. "It was incredible, but honestly, I feel just so gross just hooking up with someone like that."
Alice's eyes glistened at the information "Wow, I know you're not into one night stands Bells, but that's life. Unexpected things happen all the time, you just got to go with the flow. I mean c'mon, you can't regret having an experience like that."
She was right, I didn't feel any regret. "Yeah, it's the memories that count." I sigh "Last night really was the highlight of our teenage years." I wrap Alice into a hug and groan "I don't want to go to school tomorrow."
She gave me a squeeze "You'll survive, and I'll be right by your side to square up with anyone that says anything about last night to you."
We let go of our therapy hug "Thanks, Alice." I rub my forehead "I'm gonna go now I really wanna work on my homework then think any more about this."
Alice laughs at that "My brains too fried to do homework, I'll try later. I really wanna rest more." Alice walks me to the door and then waves me goodbye as I pull away. It felt like a relief being back in my truck, I missed familiar space.
My house isn't far from Alice's, I've memorized the way home since middle school. I pulled up to my double story wooden home and noted that my mom's car was gone, thankfully. She's probably out with Phil doing some errands.
I threw my bag of clothes by my bed and laid down. Alone with my thoughts, I felt like they were consuming me. My morals were being questioned. I always thought that true lovemaking came from building a relationship of trust and love; never from one night stands. My mind screamed and I tried to ignore the hurls of thoughts until my eyes grew heavy from the fight and ended up falling asleep.
When I woke up for school on Monday, I was filled with pure dread. I didn't do my history homework and I worried about what might the others whisper about me in the halls. Nevertheless, I put on a pair of my favorite jeans and a plain white shirt. My hair was a wreck so I detangled my hair then put it in my classic ponytail.
I looked in the mirror and tried to smile.
Downstairs I made myself a bowl of my favorite coco-puffs cereal, I need a bit of chocolate in my life.
"I feel like I haven't seen you in ages," commented Phil who was eating toast at our dining table. He was already dressed and ready for work.
My mother and father had me when they were young in high school. They never believed in staying together for the sake of me so they never married, they just decided when I was a baby that I would stay with my mother, who was more social and nurturing than my father, Charlie. My mom made it easier for us by choosing to move close to Port Angeles, a city not far from the town we all originated from so I'd visit my father whenever I pleased.
Phil came into our lives when I was only in middle school, his career was taking off in the local baseball team until just two years ago when he tore his labrum during a practice. After resting a bit, he's now just landed a gig working as an assistant P.E. coach at a middle school.
"I stayed up late Saturday night, came home and finished my homework then just fell asleep." I said while eating my cereal "Not my fault you guys were out."
"Well, your mother insisted we go out yesterday because there was finally a sale on the crib she's been eyeing all week," He sips his coffee. "Bought a few other baby toys, too." It was adorable to see that spark in Phil's eye whenever he talked about the baby.
"Oh, really?" I say. Ever since my mom told me I'd finally have a sibling, I've been so excited for the moment to arrive. "I'll see it later, I really need to get to class early today." I started gulping down my cereals delicious chocolate milk. "Bye!" I call out before closing the door.
I pulled up to Port Angeles high school half expecting for something to be different. I pulled into my usual parking spot but something just felt... out of place. It was an odd emotion I was feeling but it diminished as I walked through the parking lot. I was relieved that no one was staring or trying to talk to me.
Port Angeles High School was one of the biggest high schools in our area with almost 1,500 students in enrollment. The school was a large, two-story, brick building with smaller buildings connecting on the side. Inside, the hallways were a preppy bright green and white hallways that suddenly felt sour.
Once I walked inside, I saw the looks. The quick, snide glances people were giving me.
I looked down suddenly feeling exposed. For once in my four years of high school, I wasn't invisible. It was driving me crazy what they could be saying about me. Do these people know who I even am?
"Hey, Isabella!" A nasally voice calls out. I turn and see Misty, one of our cheerleaders stop me. Her blonde hair was a perfect golden color that always catches my eyes in the hall.
I smile wearily "Oh, hi?" I had a feeling what was coming next.
"I was at Laurens party this weekend, you were such a good dancer." She tells me "I never knew you were so cool! You even hooked up with Eddie, too? How was all that?" Misty's eyes were so bright and hazel, it really blended well with her hair. Her eyes though held this intensity that screamed to my core 'Tell me everything'
But, too bad for Misty, I was not easy to crack. "It was a wild night, but I really need to get to class. Bye!" I walked past her quickly.
"Oh, okay!" I hear her voice yell behind me.
Misty was one of the drama queens in our school, it's rumored that she helps run the infamous Port Angeles Angels blog. A website dedicated to obsessing over the most popular classmates. It's quite ridiculous actually. I don't know what's worse, having teens obsess over celebrities they'll never meet or having them obsess/stalk over their talented or just pretty classmates.
I know that if Misty's talking to me, it's only to write an article for her blog on Edward. Five seconds of fame in high school is not worth my privacy. Misty talking to me and the stares must mean I'm on the blog somehow and it's making nightmares come to life.
I sat down on an empty bench near the cafeteria and opened my homework. I begged Alice when I woke up to send me a photo of her completed homework so I wouldn't get an F. I worked too hard in this class to miss a paper assignment. After I copied her homework - and felt guilty the whole time doing so - I rushed to my first class, History.
I sent Alice a text on the way to class: What is the PAA website?
I was never into gossip, let alone a petty website so I don't remember the exact site. I sat in the front row during class so I didn't have a chance to really check my phone. I felt it vibrate through my bag, though. As if the class wasn't going by slow enough.
When the bell finally rang, I was the first one out. I pulled out my phone and clicked on the link. I cursed the school's slow connection so hard at this very moment.
"Aye, Bella!" Fuck, just what I needed.
"Not now, Mike, I'm on my way to class," I tell him as I dodge other students walking the hall.
"I saw how lit you were at Laurens party, it was so rad!" He exclaimed, "I just wished I went to Laurens last party, I usually go but didn't get an invite to the last one."
This slowed me down "What? How do you know how I danced if you weren't there?" I ask, feeling a bit infuriated.
"On the PAA website, of course. You didn't see?" He asks me and when I looked at his face he genuinely looked like he felt a bit bad. Good.
"No." I hiss at him.
I knew it, I'm on the damn blog.
Thankfully my class is right around the corner so I can finally investigate. I glance at my phone and saw the burst of bright colors which meant the PAA page has loaded. "But I'm gonna look at it now, see ya!"
I hear Mike call my name but it was too late, I enter my class and sat down quickly. My body can feel the eyes of my classmates on me. I was filled with so much regret when I saw front page was Edward and I's first dance. The video was posted the night of the party and had hundreds of likes by now, which means that more then half our school has seen the video!
I knew I couldn't play the post now because the class has just started. The link that said 105 comments was right next to Edward and me, making me sweat with anxiety.
What are they saying? I couldn't bare to look...So I just buried myself in school work and read extra chapters when I was done. The 3rd-period bell came now too fast. I kept my eyes look straight and directionless through the halls, trying to pretend like everything's normal. Boy, did I miss last week. I missed the simplicity and comfort of a routine.
I repeated my indulgence of classwork during third period till the bell rang for lunch, my favorite part of the day because I get to see Alice and Angela: my "squad". I told Alice to meet me in the bathroom by the cafeteria asap and I'm sure she already knows why.
"Oh, honey!" Alice grim face greets me with a tight hug. "It's okay Bells, don't stress, it's not that bad!"
"Ugh, I haven't even seen the video or comments. I'm not sure I can." We break apart from the hug but I'm still left with a feeling of embarrassment all over my body.
Alice was already pulling out her phone "You danced really good in the video, honestly" She showed me a clip of us dancing like electricity was in us till the change of beat made me begin shaking only my ass...
"Okay, okay stop!" I push the phone away just in time before two students walk into the restroom. I saw their eyes appraise me and I blushed. They probably saw that R rated dancing, too. I grabbed Alice's hand and pull her into the crowded hallway. "I see myself dancing in that video but I can hardly believe it's me! It looks like something took over my body there," I can't stop internally wincing at the memory
"I don't know what happened there also, but at least your dancing was really good. Everyone in the comments says it fire. All the comments are positive!" Alice tries to lift my mood and I'll give it to her, I feel slightly better that I'm not a laughing stock.
"I'm so sick of you!" Boomed a voice from a circle of students.
"A fight!" Alice got hyped up immediately and drags me along to watch. Alice is tiny but she has a lot of determination and strength that pushes us through a bunch of students to see a standoff between Jacob Black and a classmate named Thomas.
Thomas' face is beat red, hollering at a tense Black who was surrounded by his other basketball team members. I spotted Edward standing behind Black and my heart fluttered. "I hate how you guys just think you can do whatever or whoever you want! She was mine, you knew she was mine, Black!" Thomas was grunting like an animal.
"I don't even know what you're talking about, man. Look at this guy, everyone. He's a psycho!" Jacob snarls.
"Wow, you already forgot? Does the name Megan ring any bells? I heard you fucked her at Mallory's party. You're such a piece of shit, she was my girl!" Poor dude, he looked so heartbroken as he hurled these words. Thomas and Megan have been the cutest couple since freshman year, I'm so shocked they're gonna end such a strong relationship like this.
"She was my love and you just come and ruin EVERYTHING! You have no goddamn respect for anything but your pathetic cock!" The first punch was thrown after that...by Jacob.
Hollering echoes the halls and phones were pulled out to record this brutal fight. Through all the drama, my eyes kept flicking back to Edward though, seeing him almost in a new way. All the other basketball players, except him, were cheering on Jacob as he punched Thomas repeated. I looked away after that, I can't stomach violence.
A whistling sound coming from school security rushed into the circle followed by the football coach before Jacob let Thomas breathe. Security immediately started screaming at the boys for their actions. A bruised Thomas followed security while the football coach dealt with Jacob at the moment when I turned to look at Edward one more time, only to see he was already looking at me.
Edwards' eyes held no emotion as we stared for only a brief second before a teammate started talking to him. I felt a surge of disappointment that he didn't seem interested at all after the night we had. Was I just another one night stand to him? Was he just like Jacob Black and not remember who he got with the next day?
"That was crazy!" Alice says next to me in an excited voice. "I finally get to see a fight in person, I usually just seem them on PAA or snapchat, but never in person!"
"Ugh, don't mention Port Angeles Angels ever again," I grumble and we start heading to the cafeteria. I really need to eat something, my body was lacking energy after this long day. Alice followed to me, prattling about the drama that just unfolded in front of our eyes.
Angela was sitting by herself at our table just eating carrots when she spotted us and smiled. "Where have you guys been?"
"There was a fight!" says Alice before I had a chance to speak "It was crazy, apparently Jacob Black hooked up with Megan Romero this weekend!"
Angela stopped chewing her carrots "Isn't she with Thomas though?"
"Yup," I shook my head with pity.
"They were such a good couple, too." frowns Alice as she took out her lunch.
"I'm gonna go get my food," I tell the girls before getting in line for the cafeteria food. I can see that all they had today was yesterdays mac and cheese and cold turkey sandwiches. Joy.
As I waited for the line to move, I spotted Edward at his usual table. His teammates and him drag four tables together every day at lunch and they're always the rowdiest table. I felt a wave of envy seeing a cute light brown hair girl sitting in Jacobs usual seat, next to Edward. Even from a far, I can see her batting eyes, most likely flirting with him.
I didn't realize how powerful his eyes were. I still remember that sensation I got when Edward Masens eyes were fully focused and desiring me. It felt like a high and right now feels like the crash.
I wasn't really hungry after that so I just bought a crisp green apple and a bag of chips. As soon as I walked out of the line, I was spooked when a voice right next to me called my name. "Hey, there!" Appears a hauntingly beautiful Misty, in her dark green cheerleading uniform.
I meant the word haunting literally.
"Hey, again," I say wearily. It was lunchtime so there was no real way to escape her now.
"So, I didn't get to finish talking to you in the hall, you were such in a rush." She talks in this bubbly voice "I think you're really cool, Isabella, can I get your Snapchat or Instagram?" I wasn't expecting that and was pleasantly surprised.
"Call me Bella," I say softly to her and suddenly felt foolish at how paranoid I was about her earlier. I gave her my usernames so she can follow me.
"So, do you know if you're going to Laurens next party?" She asks me afterward.
That's a good question. "I doubt it," I tell her truthfully "I wasn't even invited to last weekends party, my friend just bought tickets from someone."
"Aw, wow!" She says with cheerleader enthusiasm "You have to come back especially after last time! I really want to dance with you! I'll talk to Lauren, definitely." She smiles
I smile back, feeling flattered "Thanks." I say genuinely
"No problemo at all, Bella. But take some solid advice from me, if you really wanna come back you should update your wardrobe because, like, at the party you were smokin' but at school, you're just looking a bit plain." I tried to not look offended even though the words struck my core hard "I'm not trying to be like, mean I swear! It's just you can be really beautiful if you actually tried." She sent me a last smile "Bye bye, Bells!"
I hated that I got such an intense wave of emotion while standing in the middle of the cafeteria. I had a great idea, an idea I don't fully support, but just feel my gut saying I have to do this.
I walked back to our table in a daze of thoughts. It's senior year, maybe I should go all out. It's my last year of high school, maybe I should do something different for once like wear new clothes, fix my hair, wear lip gloss and make new friends like Misty. I really have this urge now to stand out... mostly so I can attract the attention of Edward Masen again.
I felt such a pull towards him, I had no clue why.
I just have to do this. I have to change up my appearance.
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