One week later...
Alice POV
I sigh looking at Jasper Whitlock's profile picture.
His face is so gorgeous, I just want to reach my hand through the screen and touch his cheeks. His pale skin appeared to be incredibly smooth and chiseled. His dark blonde hair fanned in all sorts of directions. His blue eyes looked as deep as the ocean and held such secrets. My head plopped to my bed and I groan, hating this feeling of being restricted.
I just didn't understand! We were so perfect together last weekend, I've never felt such chemistry with anyone before and trust me - I've had a lot of spark flying relationships before but this was twice as strong but also twice as confusing.
What are you up to? -A
There! My heart was beating wildly after find sending the message.
My hands were pulling my hair in frustration over how flustered I feel. I've always been so confident texting guys but this time, I felt my fingertips sweat from that one message alone. I tried to message Jasper a few times last week, he's always responded hours later and his messages were very vague.
My phone vibrated, I gasped alone at the thought that he even responded so quickly! I'm smoking a fat J right now. Hbu? -J
I didn't know what to think after learning he's getting high right now but I do know that I need to respond quickly before I lose him for hours again. I'm just chilling. I've never been high before whats it like? -A
It just relaxes you, I highly recommend trying it -J
I've never had a strong urge to smoke but I've always wondered what it was like, I saw this as a perfect opportunity to hang out with him again We should smoke together ;) -A
After the message sent, I kept telling myself this was no big deal. A lot of people have smoked weed, I smell it in school, during events and hear the pot stories from my classmates all the time. I want to know myself what all the hype is about.
It has been over five minutes since I sent that last message with still no response. I was now laying on my bed with my head past the corner of the bed and hanging upside as I cursed myself for being so forward and stupid.
Ping
I jump and grab my phone faster than any cheetah ever could Tomorrow after school? -J
I'm down -A
I tried to seem cool but in reality, those three words had me jumping on my bed screaming "Yes! Yes! Yess!" filled with giddiness at the fact I was going to hang out with Jasper again! I raked through my closet for the appropriate clothes to wear tomorrow, I had a few options in mind. I searched through the PAA website to see what his fashion sense at school is like, but no results popped up, which means he must keep it very casual.
I laid down my outfit of choice hanging off my closet doors and smiled at myself in the mirror. I was very happy Jasper agreed to meet with me but I was nervous also at the fact I was gonna try marijuana for the first time.
-x-
When I parked at school the next day, butterflies were flying in my chest. I spent extra time with my make up this morning making my winged eyeliner look perfect so I couldn't see Bella or Angela before class.
I debated throughout the morning whether or not I should tell them about my plans after class. I knew that mentioning the Angela about trying weed was gonna make her very upset, but what about Bella? The past week I feel like Bella has been blossoming. I was very impressed she kept up with her new style and hair. Tthe changes made her more confident. Plus I'm very happy that I can talk to her about fashion and she seems a little bit interested! Yey!
On my way to lunch, Eric, one of the school's photography members was taking photos of me walking through the halls. I gave the camera flirty smiles, feeling confident that I was gonna be on the Port Angeles Angels blog tonight. I was wearing white wedges, white mid-thigh length skirt with blue tribal patterns and a light blue top. My diamond necklace my parents gave me for Christmas glistened every step I took.
By the time I made it to the table, I was disappointed I once again never spotted Jasper in the halls. I never see him in school, it sucks! Where are we meeting today?-A I sent a text to Jasper since I didn't see him in the halls
Angela was the only one at our table, eating her usual sandwich. "Hey, cutie." I greeted her as I sat down in my regular chair.
"Check it out." Angela has on a serious face "Coming from the cafeteria food line" I look up and saw a very gorgeous Bella walking with Jacob Black towards our table.
"Oh hell..." My eyes bug out seeing our sweet Isabella walking with such a jackass basketball player. "Should we do something?" I ask Ang.
"I dunno... they're coming here so let's see."
When the pair arrived to the table, Bella gave me a strained look. Jacob was smiling ear to ear though as Bella took her seat next to me. He follows suit and sits next to Angela, who looks disgusted, as if she smelled a wet dog. Her reaction almost made me burst out laughing if the situation wasn't so dire. "So before I let you ladies enjoy your lunch, Isabella, I was wondering if I can get your number?"
Bella gave a weak "Sure," before reciting her number.
I look at Jacob, like really looked at his handsome face. His skin is tan, he has light brown eyes and spiky black hair. Those eyes of his were big, some girls called them dreamy but I say they're like a fog. It was his smile that gave light to his face, which he needed because something about his vibe he gave off was a strange one. I was very sensitive to energies and everything felt so tense and suffocating at the table now. I hated the feeling.
For some reason, I felt this burning desire to look up. When I did look up across the cafeteria, I looked around to find the pair of eyes that disrupted our energy and eventually saw that Edward Masens focus was on our table.
I was curious, Bella made it seem like he couldn't care less about her even after the party. But there he was, glaring at the fact that Black was at our table. Once he noticed me, he looked away.
"I'll call you later," winks Jacob. Once he left we felt like we could all breathe.
"Oh god that was so awkward!" complains Bella.
"I feel like we need sage to cleanse that chair now!" I joke "Good luck with that phone call Bella, he seems intense." Bella agrees with me and tells us the detail of their conversations. I was trying to be fully engaged but I had a hard time because of the important question in my head.
Once lunch was ending and the conversation shifts to more lighter topics, I asked the table if they had any plans after class, knowing already what their answers should be...
"It's Friday, I work." Angela rolls her eyes. I knew she'd say that.
"I actually have plans," Bella says and I did NOT expect that.
"What?! What are you doing?" I demand. Bella never has plans that don't include us! I was kind of hoping Bella could tag along tonight with Jasper and me. I was feeling nervous about trying weed and being with Jasper again.
I was excited at first but now, I just don't know what to expect from him.
"I'm going to the movies with Misty," she shrugs "I promised her we'd hang out."
I try to ignore the stinging burn of betrayal at the thought that my best friend was hanging out with someone else other than me. "Oh, okay..." Keep cool, Alice, it's ok for Bella to have more friends.
"Blonde, dumb-as-rocks Misty?" Angela asks with attitude.
"Come on, don't be rude, she seems nice," Bella tells her.
Angela rolls her eyes, something she seems to be doing more nowadays. "Wait till you get to know her," Angela warns "I'm gonna go to my locker, see ya guys." She quickly gathers her stuff and leaves the table.
"What's her problem?" Bella asks once she leaves "Haven't you noticed she's been ruder lately?" Looking at Bellas' eyes, I had a clue that maybe Angelas feeling threatened by Bellas makeover. Bella's hair was in fluffy, uniformed waves and she has started wearing blush to add more color to her face. I don't understand how Bella changing her style had to change Angela's attitude because ever since Laurens party, she's been acting distant. She's hardly responding to the group chat anymore.
"I don't know what's up with her Bella. Maybe we should talk to her like hang out after school one day. Ugh, I would love to go shopping with you all!" I suggest with a smile.
"Alice. Look what I'm wearing. Now don't mention shopping again for the rest of my life." Bella snickers at my sad face.
The bell rang signaling fifth period and my nerves tighten under my skin, reminding me of what's to come in a couple hours. As we cleaned up our table I finally find my words. "I'm hanging out with Jasper tonight."
"Really? That's nice," She tells me even though I can see the slight confusion in her eyes. "What are you guys gonna do?"
"Just chill," I say nonchalantly. I wasn't ready to drop the weed bomb on her now.
Bella gave me a face "Netflix and chill type of-"
"No, no Bella." I chuckle "Just hang out, maybe go somewhere to eat."
"Well have fun, tell me about it later." Bella smiles at me. I smile back, so happy to have such a nice, genuine friend like Bella who always has my back no matter what happens. "Bye!" She waves at me before entering her class.
-x-
Olympic National Park -J
That's what Jasper responded to me during lunch, it was the big park five minutes from our school. As soon as the final bell rang, I was the first one out into the parking lot to beat the traffic of cars. The park was very close to our school but I've never been here before.
Parks and hikes just weren't my thing.
After I park, I pop open my trunk and switch my book bag for my GUESS white, cross-body purse. I also took off my wedges and put on my black pair of sneakers I keep in case of emergencies, I had a feeling there's gonna be a lot of walking involved.
After closing my trunk, I hopped on top of it to wait for Jasper. I went on the PAA website and as I scrolling through today's news, I kept my eyes peered out for me. I was filled with pride once I reached down to the fourth post and saw my shots. I should really thank Eric for getting such good lightening and angles, my white outfit really made me glow.
After ten minutes of waiting and checking all social media with no sign of Jasper, I was beginning to get filled with doubt.
Where are you? -A I messaged him. If only I had his number to call him! I thought grumpily.
I was filled with that burned, rejection feeling again. Wondering if I really was a fool for trying to meet up with him again. My heart was throbbing with hurt when Jasper appeared from the sidewalk.
I breathe in deeply to push away my emotions and gave him a tight smile. Seeing him in person helped push away the feelings and bring back the curiosity and desire. He looked so good in his dark blue jeans and a gray shirt. "Hey, sorry for running late, I walked here." He glances at my eyes and quickly looks away.
"Aw, why didn't you tell me, I could have given you a ride?" I give him a small, encouraging smile while trying to ignore how awkward the air was.
He rubs his face "Nah, it's fine don't worry about it." I simply nod. I was taking in how deep and husky his voice sounds.
I saw Jasper glance around "Follow me," He turns around and I couldn't help but admire how tall and fit he was.
I was too busy checking out his back profile to notice that were walking quickly away from the opposite way to the entrance of the park and we just walk right into the forest. That's when alarm bells in my head started sounding. I skipped to catch up to him "Uh, what are we doing?" I ask him.
"Taking you to a peaceful spot." He says while looking forward. We were engulfed by large trees and dirt. Roots, rocks, and sudden hills made up the path and I wonder how peaceful this spot could really be. As I look at the mysterious stranger in front of me, walking confidently through the shrubs, I ponder momentarily if I was being lured to my death.
I shook those thoughts from my head and caught up to him.
"You do go to Port Angeles High School, right?" I say, hoping conversation will brighten the mood.
"Yes, ma'am I do." Is that a hint of a southern accent?
"I don't see you in school," I tell him forwardly and not caring if I sound weird or desperate.
That made him around to look at me with a smile "Oh, really? Were you looking for me?"
I smile now that he was walking at my pace and seeming friendlier "Maybe," I tease.
"I'm at Port Angeles every day, you just aren't observant." He copies my teasing tone. Maybe I'm not usually observant, but this past week I was keeping my eye out for him with no avail.
"Nope. Not true at all." I tell him shaking my head.
"Are you sure? Because I see you in the halls every day."
I felt myself flush deeply the way Bella does "What?" I slap his arm "And you didn't say hello to me!" Jasper chuckles at that
"I'm sorry, ma'am." He says and I confirm that he does have a slight southern accent. How charming "Next week... I might say hello."
"Might, huh?" I raise my brow at that. Jasper then just took off running and jumps over a big log in our path. He gave me his hand to help me climb over the stump. It was thrilling to see him getting out of his comfort zone. Once he let go, my hand felt cold and empty again. I just wanted to nestle my hand in his again but I knew that could be too much for him.
"We're almost there," He informs me and I got excited to see where he was leading us. I'm glad the mood has shifted to a comfortable and almost playful banter. The many times he'd look into my eyes would shoot happiness through my body, I had no idea why he made me react in such a way.
Suddenly there was a light at the end of the forest, finally. "I see it!" I feel relieved we weren't going to smoke in the middle of the woods. I took off running "Race you to the end!"
I knew I wasn't going to win, I was just so full of energy I need to let it out.
The cool air wiped around my head and I breathed in fresh air. I was laughing as I ran like a child because I was still ahead of Jasper and almost to the clearing! Suddenly, Jasper whipped past me "Noo!" I whine at losing my first place streak and at that moment, I felt my foot trip over a root. I caught myself though and steadied myself. I slowed down and walked out into the sunlight, feeling blessed I did not fall and get dirt on my outfit.
He brought me to a canal that ran through the forest. It was stunning because of how tall and majestic the trees look. The sun was coming down behind the trees, giving the forest a heavenly glow. I was breathing hard still while Jasper was already sitting comfortably on the grass, peering at nature.
"It's stunning." I stood next to him, suddenly regretting wearing a white skirt.
"It is," Jasper agrees as he opened his book bag. He took out a jacket and placed it next to him "Sit here," he gave me a knowing smile and I gratefully took his offer. I sat down as close as I can to him.
Jasper took out a green bag which had all his weed junk. "How will we get back after we smoke that?" I ask.
"I just know the way back," Jasper tells me "This is my favorite spot to be alone. Miles from civilization, no one will disturb us, trust me."
"Alright," I say, trusting his word. "How often do you come here?"
I watched as he sprinkles the grinded weed in a sheer slip of paper. "Since I was a kid. This was my uncles favorite fishing spot." He says. I was surprised he took me somewhere so personal "Hold this," He hands me the silver grinder as he started rolling. I brought the grinder up to my nose to smell the grinded marijuana and was surprised it smelled quite pleasant. Usually weed smoke makes me gag. I observed the flecks of green looked soft and were all different shades of green.
"Okay, give me the grinder," Jasper says and I obey. The piece of paper was rolled into an almost perfect cylinder.
"So, that's a blunt?" I ask him as he filled the top with more weed.
He chuckles "Nope," he twisted the top of it "This is a joint. Blunts are brown."
"Okay, got it." I reply, feeling nervous again "I don't know anything about weed."
"I can't believe you haven't tried. What grade are you in?" He lit the tip of it and takes a deep drag.
"I'm a senior, how about you?" Jasper let out a big breath of smoke and I wrinkle my nose. There's that awful smell I hate "Weed has the worst smell!" I waved it away from my face.
Jasper breathes out the next hit the opposite direction of me "Sorry. You know, the bad smell will go away once you smoke it. Then next time you smell it in the hall it smells sweet and reminds you of good memories." He passed me the burning joint. "Hit it lightly and make sure the smoke goes all the way to your lungs. Don't keep it in your mouth."
I took it from him with shaking fingers and follow his instructions. I breathe in gently and sent it to my lungs "Hold the hit for a few seconds then release." I held in the smoke even though my lungs burned slightly. I breathe out into a choke, followed by a coughing fit. I felt my body temperature increase and my whole body feel abnormal.
After almost coughing out a lung I only had the ability to say one word: "Water!"
"There's water in the canal," Jasper responds casually. I was so appalled. There was no way I could survive even the next ten minutes without drinking water! Jasper choked with laughter at my expression and brought out a water bottle from his bag.
"I was kidding, here you go." The water looked like gold to me. I drank it graciously, then began to giggle at the joke Jasper played on me. I felt Jasper nudge me and I saw he was passing me the joint again.
So far I didn't feel paranoid or weird, just light and gleeful. I took another smaller hit and breathed it out, watching the smoke blend with sunrays was beautiful. I took another hit and watched my vision get a bit wavier.
"I'm a senior, also, by the way," Jasper tells me as I pass him the joint. He was looking at me with a lighter expression, I found myself getting lost in his eyes... His blue eyes had a mixture of blue shades that warmed my body up like marijuana.
I snapped out of it before I looked stupid "It's weird I've never seen you before. You were there since a freshman?"
"Yeah... I'm the quiet guy in the back of the classroom." He looks forward, taking another hit.
"Nothing wrong with that," I reassure him.
He gave a small grin"I know," He hands me the joint again. I look at how small it has gotten, it's almost out.
My thoughts have obviously slowed down because I was just staring at paper burn for a hot minute. Didn't even realize I zoned out till Jasper says "You good?" I giggle at the moment I had and nod.
"Yes, sir." I snicker "Just high." I took another hit before letting him finish it off.
Boy, oh boy, I am high.
I took in everything at that second. The sound of the stream sounded so pleasant with the birds singing in the background. My body was buzzing, everything was feeling like one. Nature looked pretty, like art and I was feeling amazing. This was definitely an experience I needed to have. I should go out in nature more often.
"Thanks for taking bringing me out here to you're spot. It's beautiful." I murmur to Jasper.
A beat passed before he responds, "You're beautiful."
I look at him, the sunlight was hitting his face just right, making his face glow and his was gaze soft. His eyes held an emotion I couldn't read but it made my heart come alive "I thought you didn't like me..."
His face morphe into a grimace and he look towards the trees. "I'm sorry about last time," he spoke. I wish he didn't feel any ounce of sadness, I couldn't help but place my hand on his. He glances at my hand "But I mean it when I said I'm not a good person, Alice." Yet he still flipped his hand over to grab mine.
Our eyes mirrored intensity, his blue eyes still reminded me of the ocean "You seem like a good person to me," I say truthfully "Except when you're pushing me away." He looked down at the grass, a frown was on his face. I knew in my heart he likes me and wanted to be with me, but I had no clue what demons were holding him back but I wanted to help him.
I place my hand on his cheek like how I've been wanting to do "Don't push me away..."
He looks at me again and something changed in his eyes as he pulled my face to him. Once our lips made contact, it was like a balloon bursted in my heart. His lips were so soft and molded against mind perfectly. Being high made me feel everything multiplied. Every inch of his lip made mine tingle. Anywhere he placed his hand on my skin felt like it was on fire. It wasn't long till Jasper was on his back with me on top. My hand was on his cheek and his hands rubbed my back.
This is what heaven could feel like.
I broke the kiss to breathe. After catching my breath I ask "Is there any more weed?" I want to be higher with him and feel nothing but sparks.
"Of course."
Sorry for the wait everyone! But I'm back, this story is not abandoned, I just had many distractions in my life come up. This story will finish, it's truly you guys commenting and messaging me that pushed me back on my feet. How did you feel about an Alice POV chapter? Comment your thoughts!