September 17th, 2007
7:10pm
I watched the video I had taken of our session earlier today and got totally horny again. I started to rub myself, thinking maybe I would masturbate while watching it, then it hit me; what the fuck was I thinking. I have a hot girl chained up in the basement. I'll never have to masturbate again!
But towards the end of the video, it dawned on me that there was a bit of a discrepancy in the things she said. When she was trying to make a deal with me, she said "I know how to make you feel good" and that she would "fuck me all night long". This does not sound like a girl who has only fucked once, and who acted scared to death when she thought I was going to fuck her. I think she is trying to manipulate me.
I can understand wanting to escape, and saying anything she has to say to make things easier on herself, but this is outright sexual manipulation; using her pussy to manipulate me...MY pussy. That pussy is MINE now. I will use it when and how I please.
I'm getting more pissed off as I write this. The bitch lied to me. I was actually feeling sorry for her and was considering lightening up on her, in the stupid hope that maybe she would come to accept me, maybe even love me someday. God, I'm an idiot.
I have an idea for a brace to put on the massage table that will hold her head in place and force her mouth open but still allow the use of her lips. It's basically a brace that is attached to the edge of the table, at the head end. I bought a giant vinyl "C" clamp at the hardware store the other day. I will attach two rounded off dowel rod ends to it, then attach the "C" clamp to the brace. It's hard to describe, but basically how it works is that the open end of the "C" clamp will be roughly where her cheeks will be, with the back of the clamp at the top of her head, almost like she is wearing a hat that happens to be attached to the table.
Once her head is in place, I can tighten the clamp, which will cause the dowel rods do push in towards her head. I will make her open her mouth and then tighten the clamp until the dowel rods push her cheeks inward enough to cover her teeth. The end result is that she couldn't bite down without biting through her own cheeks. You can understand the effect by pushing your cheeks in with your thumb and index finger and trying to bite down.
I am going to test her again tonight while I'm installing the brace.