Samandriel couldn't help but cling onto the older man's leather jacket, the knuckles of his fingers almost turning white. Benny, the glorious mountain of a man seemed to feel his anxiousness, only chuckled softly, one of his hands that was impossibly warm closed over his. Samandriel loosened his grip only to gasp when Benny's large calloused hand wrapped around his fingers.

"Almost there Darlin," he drawled, his voice barely audible over the rushing of air. Samandriel had never been on a motorcycle...and he really was trying to enjoy it. But everything was flying by them in a blur, the only thing he could focus on was the the rumbling under him and the wonderful sage scent surrounding him from Benny. He didn't mind being on the bike...in fact he wanted this ride to go on for far much longer than it was...but he was nervous. What if this party was everything that his family had warned him about? What if Benny was the type of guy to take advantage? Oh God...what if they really weren't on their way to Castiel's house? He swallowed hard and tried to ask something but his voice locked up in his throat. Benny's hand squeezed at his wrist, moving to grip the handlebar to make a left turn.

Samandriel yelped with how low the bike dipped in the turn, earning him a barked out laugh. Benny slowed the bike in front of a simple two story house...the yard looked well cared for and Dean's all too familiar car sat in the driveway. A few other cars were there and he could hear the muffled sounds of music coming from the house. Samandriel frowned a bit taking in his surroundings. Ok...rumor 1 completely destroyed. He had been told that where they lived was in the worst part of their town. If he remembered correctly, they weren't even close to it. This neighborhood was only maybe 20 minutes from his own...

"Not what you expected?" Benny asked as he helped Samandriel off the bike. He frowned again with a shake of his head.

"Not expected...was told. Just wondering why people are so dumb to believe in certain rumors," Samandriel replied quietly. Benny chuckled swinging his leg over the bike.

"You haven't seen nothing yet cher, c'mon," Benny said, his hand finding its way on the small of his back. Samandriel fought off a shiver and let himself be led up the concrete walkway, the music inside the house growing louder. He frowned again...it didn't sound like normal music...if he was correct, it sounded more like the game...Rock Band. He looked at Benny over his shoulder only to be met with a little grin, an arm reaching out to push open the door.

"Oh you have got to be kidding me..." Samandriel said in a rush of breath. He stepped through the door and couldn't help laughing as he looked around. Sure enough, there were 4 people in front of a modest size tv, playing the video game Rock Band. Dean had a guitar in his hands while sharing the mic with someone he didn't recognize. To the right was a small dining room where he saw Sam, Sarah and Castiel standing in front of the table over loaded with food, the peals of laughter almost louder than the music.

"This is the wild parties everyone is so scared of?" Samandriel asked with some exasperation. Benny bit his bottom lip trying to stifle a smile as he nodded.

"Mmhmm...now...don't give us too much credit just yet. You know...we do sometimes drink...and sometimes couples do find a nice corner to make out...but other than that...this is pretty much it," Benny answered. Before Samandriel could answer an arm was sliding over his shoulders and he was met with dark blue eyes.

"I'm so glad you made it Samandriel," Cas said giving him a warm hug. Samandriel couldn't help but laugh a little as he returned the embrace. He could smell the alcohol on Cas's breath but he wasn't sloshed over drunk.

"Cas is really the only one who drinks...well besides myself," Benny teased reaching out to ruffle Castiel's already unruly hair. Cas grumbled something at him making the taller man bark out another laugh. He was led closer into the family room where he was greeted by several others. The girl he had seen Dean share the mic with he finally realized was Dory. Charlie was coming down the stairs, her arms full of several board games with an older boy following close behind her.

Looking over his shoulder he caught sight of Benny leaning against the wall, drinking slowly from a beer as he watched the others silently. He wanted to go over and try talking to him but Castiel was starting to pull him towards the kitchen. He followed him through the house until they were out back and Samandriel couldn't help but laugh at his friend stumbling around. Castiel's eyes were so bright and a huge smile stretched on his lips as he spun around in the grass. He tripped on his feet and giggled on his way to the ground, falling in a heap.

"Are you alright?" Samandriel chuckled hurrying over to him. Castiel grabbed at his hand, pulling him down next to him.

"Mmhmm...of course I am! I'm really glad you came Saman...Sam...you need a nickname...where's Dean? He's really good at nicknames," Castiel giggled looking around for his boyfriend. Samandriel grinned with a shake of his head.

"I'm glad too," he said quietly. There was a warm press on his arm and he looked up to see glassy blue eyes staring at him.

"You...you remind me of me. I was...so proper and scared. My parents hated me...hated everything I was or did...but then I met Dean..." Castiel gave a gummy smile, his eyes turning incredibly soft, "and...he showed me what it was like to be free. That I could make my own choices. He was just...happy that I was...you know...happy. Even if I hadn't fallen in love with him...we'd still be best friends...and I'd still be here. I...I don't...I'm not telling you what to do...but you have to do what makes you...happy." Samandriel looked up in his face and swallowed hard at the tears brimming in his eyes. He reached out and took Castiel's hand, squeezing his fingers.

"I'll try..."

"No...not good enough. Promise me Saman," he tried to say his name again only to wave his hand in front of his face before grabbing at Samandriel's wrists gently.

"Don't let them break you ok?" Castiel whispered as a tear rolled down his cheek. Samandriel nodded, pulling Castiel into a hug.

"I won't Castiel...I promise," he said softly. Behind him there was a shuffling sound, when he turned to look up he saw Dean smiling almost a little sadly down at them. He moved a bit closer and Cas was suddenly turning to him, reaching up with grabby hands.

"Hey baby...you ok?" Dean asked kneeling down.

"Mmhmm...Dean...he needs a nickname...to hard to say when I'm inebriated..." Castiel mumbled falling into Dean's open arms. Samandriel laughed softly but felt a sharp twist of envy setting in his chest. Dean hugged Castiel close, his fingers running through that thick mop of hair.

"I bet. Thanks for staying with him, Samandriel...he only gets like this when...shit starts to bug him," Dean said softly. Castiel hummed happily snuggling further into Dean's chest. Samandriel shrugged pulling a little at the grass by his leg.

"I don't mind," he answered with a little smile. Dean returned it, nodding a bit.

"You staying over or did you need Benny to take you home later?" Dean asked. Before he could answer Castiel was laughing like an idiot.

"He's staying duh Dean...sheesh you never listen to me," he cracked up. Dean rolled his eyes but a smile was easily seen on his face.

"I'd like to stay but...I'd have to be back early in the morning..." Samandriel said. Dean nodded, moving to pick Castiel up in his arms as he stood up.

"Well, come back inside. I'm gonna put this one to bed," Dean grinned walking back into the house as Castiel continued to giggle in his shoulder. Samandriel watched them until they disappeared through the door, a knot slowly forming in his throat. A part of him was pretty envious of Castiel and his relationship with a guy like Dean...he'd give anything to have someone take care of him like that. To actually want too. He stayed outside for a few more minutes, breathing in the warm arm. It was nice to know that even though he was out there by himself...he wasn't truly alone here.

He came back into the house and smiled when Sam called him over, eagerly pulling him into the beginnings of a very heated monopoly game.

It was nearly 1 am when he found himself back outside, his eyes closed and face upturned towards the moon. Huge puffy clouds were moving towards them in the sky, the light of the moon creating an almost ethereal haze. He had finally come out of his shell during round 2 of Monopoly, completely killing everyone else in the game. It was one of his favorites and everyone always underestimated him because he was so quiet. He was having so much fun getting to know everyone...it was nice to finally come out from behind the wall a little.

People were still playing games though a few had passed out on the couches in the living room. Castiel even came back down, looking a bit steadier then before. He tried to apologize but Samandriel only waved him off, giving him a hug instead. Now he was sitting on one of the chairs with his arms around his knees, enjoying the quiet once again. He took in a deep breath, the air around him was beginning to smell like rain. He let his eyes slowly blink open, the clouds were much closer and he could see some lightening off in the distance. He shuddered...electrical storms were not his favorite thing. The door on his left opened and he froze when Benny moved to sit down in the chair next to him.

"Havin fun?" Benny asked quietly, his voice a gentle hum. Samandriel nodded sitting back against the chair, hugging his knees closer.

"Good...it's nice having a new face around here," Benny said with a little chuckle. Samandriel bit his lip and smiled, warmth settling in his cheeks. Benny grinned at him, moving so his body was facing his.

"Castiel told me you were having trouble at home?" Benny asked quietly. Samandriel frowned, looking away. He didn't want to talk about this now...he was having a good time and the object of his infatuation was within a foot from him.

"Hey...I only ask because...I remember what Castiel went through. I want to help ya if I can," he said.

"Why? You barely know me," he said finally, looking back at the mass of man next to him. Benny frowned, shrugging his shoulders a bit as his hands folded together over is knees.

"Because I want too? I trust Cas's judgment and he likes you...whether it be cause he sees himself in you or whatever else...he wants you to be in our little group of misfits," Benny laughed, his light blue eyes shining in the moon light. Samandriel smiled, feeling the butterflies in his chest spin around.

"Ok..."

"Do you have a cell phone?" Benny asked holding out his hand. Samandriel nodded, fishing it out of his back pocket to place in his fingers. He watched as he punched in a phone number before handing it back to him, "If you ever need savin...call me ok? Dean usually has his hands full with Castiel and his little brother..."

Samandriel swallowed hard and took back his phone, his fingers tracing over Benny's name on the screen. "I-I will...thank you," Samandriel said softly. Benny grinned reaching out to squeeze his wrist.

"Get some sleep Angel...wake me up when you need to get back to your house in the morning," Benny said before going into the house. Samandriel watched him go, his heart hammering in his chest as the butterflies swam around even faster. He was just about to dance around when a huge clap of thunder exploded in the quiet night, making him nearly scream as he scrambled to get inside.

Samandriel rolled over onto his side for probably the hundredth time that night. The storm was in full swing and every time the thunder rolled, he would jerk awake. He knew there was nothing to really be scared of but he was terrified all the same. The couch he was lying on was comfortable and nearly pulled him back to sleep when a loud crack of lightening hit the ground probably not too far from where they lived. He jolted up right and tried to catch his breath, his fingers clutching at his heart through his thin t shirt.

Somewhere in the distance he heard a door open and close. He almost ignored it when someone was obviously walking closer to him. He looked over his left shoulder and swallowed hard. Benny was smiling softly at him, his hand outstretched to him. He quirked up a brow but took it anyway.

"Come on Angel," he whispered, leading him down the hall.

"What..."

"I've been listening to you toss and turn out here long enough...you need some sleep," he said opening the door to his bedroom. Samandriel bit his lip and shuffled into the room, hugging his arms around his stomach. There was a bright flash of white light and a loud clap of thunder followed right after, making him yelp. He jumped, nearly tripping over his own feet. Large warm hands steadied him, keeping him upright. He sucked in a quick breath when he was gently pulled back to lean up against Benny's solid chest.

"Shhh cher...I've got ya," he drawled, those same warm hands rubbing up and down his arms. Samandriel finally relaxed, his tensed up muscles finally unknotting. Benny pulled away, leading him over to the bed. Samandriel froze, staring up at him with wide eyes. Benny only smiled, shaking his head before guiding him to lay down. Samandriel swallowed, watching as Benny crawled in next to him, his arm snaking around his middle to pull him into his warmth.

"Sleep Angel," he whispered, his lips brushing ever so slightly along the shell of his ear. Samandriel shivered, snuggling further into his arms before letting his eyes flutter closed, instantly falling asleep.