Samandriel groaned when he felt his phone vibrating near his head. His hand slid under the pillow and shut it off without even opening his eyes. He had been so warm and comfortable, the idea of waking up made him make an unhappy noise. Sometime in the night he must of have forgotten where he was because he froze when an arm wrapped around his waist, pulling him back against a very solid chest. His eyes finally popped open and realized he was not in his own bedroom.
"Shhh Angel...you're at Dean and Castiel's remember?" A very deep southern drawl said behind him. Slowly he turned and let out a little embarrassed laugh when he saw Benny grinning sleepily at him.
"I do now..." he laughed again and rubbed at his face as Benny chuckled. He could feel eyes on him and he tried to not blush but he was never that lucky.
"You sleep okay?" Benny asked. Samandriel cracked open an eye, biting his lip as he took in the man next to him. His face was so warm and open with such a gentle smile stretched on his lips it made Samandriel shiver a little.
"Yes...I didn't want to wake up though," he answered with a little pout. Benny grinned, nodding a little bit.
"I know the feelin...well, it's about 7...you have time for some breakfast?" Benny offered. Samandriel's eyes widened before he found himself nodding eagerly. Benny laughed, reaching out to rustle his hair just before he crawled out of the bed. Samandriel watched him pull on some clothes. It was the first time he had gotten to see the man clearly without a shirt. He couldn't help the flutter in his chest...Benny had an amazing body. All solid muscle rippled in his shoulders and back, down into his biceps. But he wasn't ripped like a body builder...he was beefy and Samandriel bit his lip when he saw the slight tummy Benny had. When he had realized he had a preference for men, he had quickly found out that fluffier men were his type. And Benny's body was perfection in his eyes. Now that he saw exactly what he wanted in the flesh, he had no idea how to go about even trying to get it.
Samandriel knew he was staring and far too long for it to considered healthy. Benny turned and grinned at him before pulling on a long sleeved Henley. Samandriel blushed, pulling the blankets over his head as the heat in his cheeks intensified.
"When you're done hiding Angel, come into the kitchen," he heard Benny say, amusement lilting his tone. Samandriel sighed, waiting for the door to close before he pushed the covers off his body. He found his clothes near the door, quickly pulling them on while wondering who had brought them in here. There was a small mirror hanging over Benny's dresser and he frowned at his appearance. His hair was sticking up in every direction with lovely dark circles under his eyes. It had been the best sleep he'd had in a while but it wasn't near enough. His face warmed again with the memory of that solid weight at his back, making him feel safe.
It gave him a little hope that maybe Benny saw more to him than what he even saw in himself. But Benny was gentleman...and probably only did those things because of his nature...or maybe Dean had asked him to be nice? He had no clue...but he had to be careful. He had a horrible habit of becoming too hopeful and having his heart shattered. There was a little knock on the door before it was slowly being pushed open revealing a set of dark blue eyes.
"Hey Samandriel...Benny told me you were up. How are you feeling?" Castiel asked coming in to the room. Samandriel smiled over at him, eying the rather huge sweater hanging off his thin friend. He had on boxer shorts that looked too big for him with socks pulled up to his mid calf. Castiel glanced down at his clothes and shrugged with a goofy smile.
"Dean had to go to work and I like wearing his clothes," he said. Samandriel gave his friend a smile, pulling on his own sweater from last night and pushed his feet into his shoes. Castiel gave him a knowing look and Samandriel laughed softly.
"Sorry...I'm OK. A little out of it I guess. Not used to waking up in a strange house...not to mention in someone's bed," he mumbled, his face burning red when he realized how that came out. His head shot up to gauge his friend's response. Castiel only shrugged his shoulders again and yawned, his eyes crinkling on the sides.
"It happens...I'm just glad you got some rest. Storms scare the crap out of me sometimes and I have a hard time sleeping," Castiel said leading him out the room but before he could close the door Castiel turned to him whispering, "If something did happen between you and Benny though...it's OK. I think he really likes you."
Samandriel swallowed hard, his arms wrapping around his middle. It was something he always did when the nerves or the anxiety was rising to high and too fast, "N-No...nothing happened, we just..."
"Hey...no that's...I just wanted you to know that if it did...we wouldn't say anything. Usually, whatever happens in this house with our close friends stays here. I kinda figured nothing would happen though..." Castiel said with a thoughtful smile. Samandriel frowned, his emotions going through loops in his mind. Had that been an insult towards him?
"Why?" he asked softly.
"Benny's not a promiscuous guy...he doesn't just let people in his bed unless he has some kind of feelings for them..." Castiel explained. Samandriel bit his lip and couldn't fight the stupid grin from spreading.
"But...he hardly knows me," he said quietly. Castiel only shrugged, he grabbed up his hand to lead him into the kitchen where the yummy smells of bacon filled the air. Just like Castiel had promised...nothing was said about him sleeping in Benny's room.
It was his own fault but he had been having so much fun that he didn't realize what time it was until his phone started ringing around 9. He swallowed hard as he read his uncle's name on his caller id. His eyes met Castiel's and knew something close to fear crossed his face. Castiel was shushing everyone, even Sam rushed over to turn off the radio.
"Just say you went for a walk before everyone woke up or something," Castiel said softly. Samandriel nodded and held his breath as he slid the screen to answer.
"Where in God's name are you Samandriel!" his uncle's voice boomed through the phone. He had to hold it away from his ear a little with a wince..
"I woke up early and wanted to take a walk..." he said timidly. There was a silence on the other side for a second then his uncle sighed heavily.
"Did you forget that you were to stay in your room until I saw it best for you to come out?" he said slowly. Samandriel had forgotten that part entirely but he closed his eyes, his heart beating furiously in his chest.
"I-I just needed some fresh air uncle...I'm sorry. I'll come home..."
"No, I'll come get you where exactly are you?" he barked. Samandriel raised wide eyes at Castiel as his friend frantically wrote down something...a name of a park he was assuming. Benny was rushing past them while he told his uncle what was on the paper.
"Well...you did walk far. I'll be there in a moment...then we are going to church. When we get home you are to do your homework. Is this understood Samandriel?"
"Yes sir..." he said and the phone clicked. Pressing his elbows into the table he pressed the heels of his hands into his eyes. Everything had been going so good...and he was having fun! A hand was rubbing his back in slow circles when he heard footsteps next to him.
"We should be able to get there before he does," Benny said, a frown pulling down the corners of his mouth. Samandriel felt a burn at the back of his eyes...he didn't want to leave. Castiel gave him a hug before he was engulfed in Sam's arms.
"Call us if you need anything OK?" the younger boy said. He nodded before quickly following Benny to the garage. He was about to head towards the bike when Benny whistled low, pointing towards an old beat up truck. Samandriel shot up a brow at him and grinned as he crawled into the cab.
"So...why didn't you pick me up in this last night?" he asked as Benny started up the truck.
Benny barked out a laugh with a shake of his head, "Because it seemed less creepy? And...I don't know cher...maybe I wanted to impress the boy I had seen staring at me a while back," he said with a smile. Samandriel pressed his lips together as he blushed yet again, turning his head to glance out the window. Though it was embarrassing he couldn't stop smiling the whole way to the park.
Thankfully, no one else was there when they pulled up. He went to scoot out but a hand on his arm stopped him.
"I was serious Angel...if you need me to come get you at any time...call me," he said, his eyes boring into his own. Samandriel nodded, fighting off the insane urge to crawl into the man's lap and hold on for dear life. He got out and watched him leave, giving him a sad wave. It wasn't even 2 minutes later when his uncle's car pulled up. Quickly he ran over and instantly slid into the back seat of the car, his aunt Naomi barely acknowledging him from the passenger side. His cousin Malachi grinned at him and he swallowed hard. This was so not going to be fun.
They entered the church and he felt a little calmer, his family only treated him as a nuisance here...never raising harsh words towards him in fear of others hearing. Malachi was always on his best behavior too. He had no idea where the girls were and he really wished Anna had come. He followed behind them, staying quiet until he heard his uncle call for him.
"Samandriel this here are the Novaks...Lilith and Azazel..." Zachariah said with a huge, fake smile. His eyes widened as he took in who he now knew were Castiel's parents. Lilith was beautiful but in a very cold, statue sort of way. Her blond hair hung around her shoulders in waves while her blue eyes stared straight at him. They weren't dark or held any of the warmth he saw in Castiel's. And Azazel was out right creepy, especially when he grinned over at him. He shook their hands, his skin crawling when their fingers touched.
"I was hoping...that you two could shine some light for my poor nephew...he seems to be loosing his way just as your poor Castiel did," his uncle said with an underlying threat in his voice. Samandriel frowned up at him only to flinch at the flash of anger in his uncle's eyes. He wasn't loosing his way at all...maybe he was actually finding it. He wanted to scream it at his uncle but he was in a church and no matter how his beliefs differed from his family...he still believed in God. And prayed that he would help lead him out of this mess.
Lilith bristled at the mention of her sons name while Azazel grimaced, his arm wrapping around his wife's shoulders. It was so forced it made him sick.
"He was such a good boy...always listened and never once disobeyed us. Then he met that Winchester...and everything changed. He wasn't our sweet little boy anymore. Something took root inside and pulled him away from us," Lilith said sadly as if this speech had been rehearsed, a small little pout on her lips.
"We tried getting him help...brought him to church more often...had him speak with your uncle. But he wouldn't listen and we realized that we had to let him go. Lest he bring us straight down with him...if you value your faith Samandriel, listen to your uncle," Azazel said. Samandriel blinked up at him, biting down hard on his tongue, so badly wanting to scream at him. Instead he gave them what they wanted to see, a forced smile and a nod.
"May I go to the gardens uncle? I wish to pray and repent there," he said quietly. His uncle nodded with a wide smile, waving him off. He didn't hesitate hurrying out of the church where the air had become stale and stifling. The gardens weren't very big but they served in hiding him and helping him keep his calm. He usually never got this angry but he could feel the blinders being yanked off. No wander Castiel had run screaming from those people.
How in the hell did they have a son so sweet and caring like Castiel? Yeah he had some pretty naive parents but they had never treated him badly...only his uncle, his aunt and Malachi. Something was really off here and he couldn't piece it together. He spent over an hour thinking quietly to himself, the smell of roses lifting his spirits greatly. As he was leaving he could hear hushed whispers on the other side of one of the bushes he was crouched next to. He recognized one of them to be Lilith's.
"Oh Naomi...I am so sorry you have to put up with the little brat all year," Lilith scoffed, bitterness dripping from her words. Samandriel squeezed his eyes shut and bit hard on his lip.
"It's quite alright Lilith...I never did like that side of Zachariah's family anyway. The Pike's have always been...loose in their faith. No wonder their son is the way he is," Naomi groaned.
"I'm sorry...did you say Pike?" Lilith asked. Samandriel peaked through the bush and frowned at how wide Lilith's eyes were. Had she heard of his parents before this? And why did she suddenly look terrified?
"Yes? His sister Eve married Joshua Pike...is there something wrong Lilith?" Naomi asked with a quirked brow. Lilith shook her head vigorously, her hands raising to smooth her hair.
"Of course not...I just remembered that my husband and I need to be somewhere soon. It was good to see you...I hope you the best when it comes to your nephew," she said quickly before spinning on her heel to hurry back into the church. Samandriel blinked a few times, trying to figure out what the hell just happened. He watched as Naomi stared after her, shaking her head she followed a moment later.
He waited a few more minutes before standing up, brushing off his pants and making his way into the church. He found his aunt and uncle pretty quickly, he was relieved to see that they were ready to leave. The moment they got back to the house he hurried into his room to collapse down on his bed. He was exhausted. For the first time since getting out of the truck he was able to check his phone, smiling at all the text messages.
Message from Castiel: Hey...just wanted to make sure you were OK?
Message from Sam: Did you get caught? Are you OK?
Message from Dean: Cas and Sam just told me what happened...you in trouble at all?
Message from Benny: Hey Angel...just checkin up on ya.
Samandriel felt his chest twist in a pleasant way and smile as he answered, letting them know he was OK He left out the conversation he had overheard, wanting to talk to Castiel in person about it. He saved Benny's for last and blushed a little as he typed out the message.
Message from Samandriel: I'm OK..was forced to go to church but other than that I'm just tired. Thank you for helping me.
His phone binged quite a few times with responses but the one he was waiting for the most didn't come for a few minutes.
Message from Benny: Sorry about that, had to go on a food run with Dean. Good to hear that...and thanks is not needed. Hopefully we'll get to see you here more often.
Samandriel grinned, hugging his phone to his chest as he slowly fell asleep.
Samandriel had expected to see the Impala waiting for him down the street from his uncle's house that next Monday but he was more than pleased to see Benny. He bit his lip and walked towards him, grinning at the motorcycle rumbling loudly. He had been terrified of it at first but now it just made Benny that much more drool worthy.
"What are you doing here?" Samandriel asked with a bright smile. Benny laughed, his hand rubbing at the stubble on his chin.
"Well...would you believe me if I said I wanted to see you again?" Benny grinned, a slight blush dusting his cheeks. Samandriel had to hold back the very inappropriate giggle and laughed instead.
"I'd like to believe it...but I don't understand why though," Samandriel answered truthfully. It had been something on his mind all weekend. Why would a man like Benny even waste his time with someone like him?
"I'm still figuring that part out myself Angel...there's just something about you. You want a ride?" Benny asked, his smile slowly fading. He could tell the older man was afraid he had gone to far and he didn't like seeing that tightness in Benny's eyes. Samandriel nodded and took Benny's hand, moving to sit behind him. His arms wrapped around him tightly and shivered when he was able to feel all that muscle against him again. Benny let out a soft sigh before the bike was roaring down the street.
They pulled up just as the bell was ringing so he didn't get much of a chance to say goodbye, just an awkward wave before he had to rush into the building. But he could feel Benny's eyes on him the entire time.
He didn't get to see any of his friends until lunch time rolled around and he was grateful to see their relieved smiles when he walked up to them. He didn't have to look to know that Malachi was watching him but he was beyond caring at this point. Now that he knew exactly what went on at that house...all their arguments about how "dangerous" these people were to his eternal soul was complete bull shit.
They ate their lunch while talking about classes and such, his eyes constantly finding Castiel's. Samandriel stood up and motioned for him to follow, walking outside towards the little area where he had eaten by himself.
"Everything OK?" Castiel asked chewing on his lip. Samandriel sighed heavily, his arms crossing over his stomach.
"I...met your parents," he answered. Castiel's eyes widened and he forced out a bitter laugh.
"Oh wow...that must have been fun. Let me guess they gave you this...heart breaking story of how I strayed from them towards sin?" he laughed, his eyes rolling dramatically. Samandriel nodded, not being able to laugh a little himself. He still couldn't see any of those two in Castiel what so ever.
"Can...can I ask something? I just don't want to offend you..."
"Of course."
"Are you adopted? Because...they're so cold..."
Castiel barked out another laugh but this time it was genuine, "Yeah...I am. It was one of their many excuses to try and get me to come back. That I should feeling guilty for being a waste of their "investment". Whoever my real parents were I'm guessing were geniuses or something...no idea. They refuse to tell me anything...and I couldn't even find my birth certificate. It doesn't matter though because the second I turn 18...I won't have to carry their last name anymore...I'll be a Winchester," Castiel said with a dreamy sigh. Samandriel smiled brightly, tentatively reaching out to give Castiel a hug. He was pulled in and felt the air whoosh out of his lungs as Castiel wrapped around him.
"I don't know what this is...but I'm just so glad you're here," Castiel mumbled in his ear. Samandriel didn't know how to take that...but it made his chest squeeze tight and his eyes burned with tears. No one had ever said that to him. He clung onto Castiel's shirt, laughing a little breathlessly.
"I'm glad you're here too Castiel."