Shakes POV

A few hours later Tasha returned, but during the few hours I had to myself I really thought and reflected hard on many things. First was how much I missed my family and friends, and even though I had hope I would see them again, I was still afraid I Owouldn't. My situation seems so crazy that I'm not sure whether I will survive this for one reason or another. I mean I'm in such an unsanitary state that I might get a disease or something.

I also thought of dying. It started to scare me when I really thought about it. I only live once, and I have no idea what happens when I die. I'm guessing time just goes by, or... I really don't know. I would just stop existing, I guess. But what would that be like? I tried remembering what it was like before I existed because maybe that's what it's like before I die. I gave up on that idea pretty quick because I realized it's impossible to remember what happened before I was born. I'm just afraid of death because when I die I'll be walking into the unknown.

I then thought of my family and friends. My parents work together in the same company, and they are always away on business trips, so I never really saw them much as a young child or even through today. My brothers pretty much raised me up until I was about 13, that's when their drug dealing started up. Then I was old enough to take care of myself, however my parents sent me money all the time to take care of financial stuff and they paid the bills. I don't really care that I didn't see them much and I'm not angry, but sometimes I wonder what kind of person I'd be if I had good parents. Thankfully I have a lot of good friends who helped influence me into being a good person, since I didn't have many people who taught me right from wrong and good from bad. I was able to figure most of it out myself, but I'm glad I had some guidance. I thought of Humphrey, Salty, and Mooch. How they have been great people to be around since I first met them. We would explore our neighborhood together and hang out playing video games and music. I also remembered how we would take trips to the beach and camp there overnight. Listening to the waves crashing and looking at the stars to help light the dark night.

Then I thought of Janice. How only a month or so before I had asked her to homecoming, and how she said yes and we became close friends. You could also say we fell in love. She such and amazing person and pretty too. But it's strange saying you fell in love with someone not even a month after truly getting to know them. But I really felt something when I was with her, and she made me feel happy. I didn't have anyone to share my love with until I shared it with her, and nobody had shared their love with me until she shared hers with me. Just that thought of her makes my heart crumble.

Then there's Tasha, who I literally just met. I don't know what came over me but I had an attraction to her. It was so strange, because I usually can manage around girls but Tasha is really something. She's cute and all, but the first time I saw her I got the same feeling I got with Janice. I'm not sure what has come over me, especially since I tried to tell myself I have Janice, but that made it worse, it made me more attracted to Tasha, and I think it was the feeling of wanting to be 'bad'. I'm not referring to sex or anything, just that I wanted to see what it would be like to be risky; Like I wanted to get caught. It's such a bad idea I know, and it could just be my dick talking because it has been about a week since I was able to...get off. But I swear it was more of my heart talking to me than anything. I guess it's because I'm so lonely and just need someone to talk to. Maybe I can talk to Tasha about it. I'm sure she'll understand.

I tried to fall asleep for a half hour but I couldn't, and I wasn't that disappointed because that was when Tasha walked in with some food. She greeted me and walked up to me untying my hands and letting me eat. My food was on a dirty metal tray and it consisted of mashed potatoes and old looking beef. I didn't complain because I was so hungry and ate the whole meal without saying a word or noticing that Tasha sat down in front of me like she did a few hours before. To say that this food tasted bad was a huge understatement, but I didn't complain. When I finished I looked up surprised to see she was still here. She looked at me and laughed.

"What?" I asked slightly smiling.

"Your face looks funny when you eat," she said.

"Doesn't everybody's?" I asked still smiling.

"I guess so..." She said.

"Don't you have to go somewhere?"

"No. Why, do you want me to leave?"

"No, no," I said quickly. My cheeks turned a bit red as I said, "I like your company,"

"Aww. Isn't that cute?" She giggled.

I admired her for a moment, her witty sense of humor and cute looks. I muttered to myself, "Just like Janice,"

"What?" She asked looking confused.

"Oh nothing!" I said being dragged out of my trance.

"I know you don't know me and I don't know you, but you can talk to me about anything, you know," Tasha looked at me, almost concerned.

"Well, actually there is something I'd like to talk to you about," I seemed to surprise her a little.

"Ok," She paused, "What is it?"

I took a deep breath and exhaled, "Ok. Have you ever had strong feeling for two guys and not known what to do?"

"Oh God!" She said, which hurt me a bit. She picked up on that and said,"Sorry, Ido t mean it like that. I just...I don't know. I kind of jumped to a conclusion...But no, I haven't, why?"

"Well, there's this one girl I really like and she really likes me," I paused waiting for her reaction.

"Go on." She sounded interested.

"And there's this girl I just met and she...tugs my heart a bit too. I don't know what to do. I mean I know I shouldn't cheat and all but I also can't figure out what to do if I can't even figure out why I feel this way," I looked at her, and for the first time she wasn't looking at me. She sat with her legs straight out and her hands rested behind her hips.

"Look," She said. "I know I just met you, but I'm glad you feel like you can have a deep conversation with me, but I'm not sure I want to continue this conversation,"

This took me back a bit as it wasn't the answer I expected. I felt my blood starting to pump a bit harder through my body as my body wondered what I did to cause this reaction from her. Do I dare ask her why? I decided that it would best to find out what sh'es thinking.

"What makes you say that?" I asked.

"Because...I know this new girl your referring to is me," She said frowning a bit before continuing, "And I don't think you want to see the other me,"

"What are you talking about?" I asked genuinely confused.

"Don't worry about it," she said getting up grabbing my metal tray and walking towards the door. I couldn't just let her leave, because now I felt bad for her.

"I want to know the other you then." I said trying to get her to change her mind,"It can't be that bad because I've seen a Tasha with a great personality and funny sense of humor, not to mention she's really cute,"

She stopped at this and turn around smiling, "I knew you'd want to know,"

She came back and sat down in front of me again. Dropping the metal tray to the side.

"I'm Tasha and I'm 17 years old," she said still grinning.

"I'm shakey and I'm 16," I said not sure where she is going with this.

"It's nice to meet you shakey. Ok now that we have the basics covered, where did we leave off? I think it was where you said you wanted to know every side of me," Tasha said.

"I'm all ears," I said starting to smile again.

When Loves strikes twice, it's time to roll the dice

a split in the heart, like a line on a chart

talking unto me, weary as can be

the decision is unbearable, my emotions unwearable.

I think so hard, to draw a card

Telling me who, I chose to speak to

To tell them I, would rather die

Than see them fall, from my love and bawl.

I am so glad to have finished another chapter and am glad to see where the story line is going. I hope you all like this little plot twist going on between Shakey and Tasha. Anyways we Have over 14,000 views, which mean a thousand few since the last upload which is crazy.

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