I apologize profusely for my lack of updates. So much crap and too big of a wall of writer's block. But never fear, I will never stop writing until this story (and all my others) are finished.

We get a bit of smut in this chapter!

Samandriel groaned loudly as he pushed open the door to the library. Three hours he had stayed after school to study for his math test. He could have stayed even longer with the group but his head was pounding and his limbs were aching to just relax. Thankfully it was Friday and with this extra study session he wouldn't have to work too hard this weekend. Maybe just a little refresher and he'd be ok for the test on Monday.

A huge smile was beginning to worm its way onto his face when he saw Benny's truck sitting outside waiting for him. He missed riding on the back of the bike but it was way too cold for that now. Even though Benny had tried to warn him against it, they tried it once. When Samandriel got off the bike, his entire face was numb and it took Benny hugging him for 15 minutes to thaw out.

Pulling his jacket closer around himself he was about to hurry over to the truck when someone walking around the corner caught his eye. As soon as he recognized who it was he hurried towards the truck. His cousin Malachi for some reason was still loitering around the school with one of his friends. He was no longer afraid of him but the things he would say were rather aggravating. Most of which were just insulting jibes towards his new family or relationship. He tried to just let it roll off his back but there were some times when it stayed with him.

The second he heard them begin to laugh he was almost jogging towards the truck. The good mood he had struggled to keep with him all week was still there and he refused to let them ruin it. He pulled open the door and nearly moaned at the heat surging out of the cab.

"Hey Angel…" Benny said with a warm smile, his arm outstretched to allow him room at his side. Samandriel returned the smile and quickly scooted over to snuggle close. Benny always smelled wonderful but the spicy cinnamon scent was something new and he loved it. He nuzzled his face into his boyfriend's neck, taking in a deep breath.

"Hi…" he finally replied, laughing slightly when Benny squeezed his side.

"You ok?" Benny asked before pressing his lips to his forehead. The truck slowly pulled away from the curb and Samandriel caught sight of Malachi staring at them, a strange expression on his face.

"I'm just fine," he said, turning away and forgetting all about his cousin.

The rest of the ride to the house was quiet, only the soft hum from the radio interrupting the silence. Samandriel was finally warm and really didn't want to get out of the truck once they were outside of the house. Even so much as whining when Benny tried to playfully push him off. He snatched up his book bag and practically ran through the garage and into the house, the chill trying its hardest to latch onto him again.

"Finally! Thought we'd have to come pry you out of the library!" Sam laughed handing him an apple crumb muffin as he walked past. He held it close to his chest and grinned, the muffin was still warm and smelled amazing.

"Thanks…are we still doing movie night tonight?" Samandriel asked before taking a bite. It was so soft it nearly melted in his mouth, he couldn't help moaning rather loudly.

"Yeah, first movie starts in an hour!" Sam called out on his way towards the family room. Benny moved up behind him and without a word Samandriel raised up the muffin so his boyfriend could take a bite.

"Mmm…I make a good muffin," Benny grumbled next to his ear. Samandriel grinned finishing off the treat before hurrying off towards their room, his book bag finding its place in the closet. He was about to change into his sweats and one of Benny's sweaters when arms were grabbing at him from behind and he was tossed onto the bed. He laughed openly as Benny crawled up, hovering over him.

"Missed you this week cher," Benny sighed laying down on top of him, pressing his face into the crook of Samandriel's neck. He could only smile as his hands rubbed up and down his back, one of them finding their way into Benny's short hair. The weight of his boyfriend was comforting even though at first it was always hard to breathe a bit. But his body always figured itself out, almost sighing with relief that Benny was there wrapped around him.

"I missed you too…" Samandriel replied letting his eyes close as Benny got more comfortable. They laid there for a while, neither of them moving even an inch when Sam started calling for them about the movie.

"I don't wanna move," Benny grumbled, lips tickling the skin of his neck. He couldn't help giggling, his shoulder and head squishing together to keep Benny out. His boyfriend was having none of that, chuckling as he quickly dove for the other side blowing a raspberry against his skin.

"Benny!" Samandriel laughed trying to wrestle the bear of a man off of him. Benny finally relented, rolling them over so Samandriel was sitting on his stomach.

"Do you wanna watch the movie with them then?" Benny asked slightly jutting his bottom lip out in a pout. Samandriel shrugged tracing his hands down the front of Benny's chest. His fingertips grazed over Benny's nipples and grinned at the quick intake of breath. Their touches were still pretty innocent and Samandriel tried whenever he could to further explore Benny's body. He still had yet to see the man fully naked and it was something that made his body yearn. He wanted to feel that warm skin along his own but Benny was still nervous about rushing him.

"Maybe we can catch the next one…" Samandriel answered quietly, his eyes latching onto Benny's as he raised up his shirt to just below his chest. Samandriel bent down to brush his lips along his stomach, tracing the trail of hair up. Benny tilted his head back with a gasp, his fingers closing around Samandriel's wrists to keep him from raising up his shirt any further.

"Angel…"

"Shhh, I want this Benny…please?" Samandriel whispered, his body sliding down to where he was straddling the growing bulge in Benny's jeans. Benny opened his mouth to argue but the only sound to come out was a strangled groan when Samandriel rolled his hips. Samandriel took advantage of the moment to lift up Benny's shirt more, revealing his already hard nipples. Before he could be stopped he leaned down, rolling one with his tongue as his hips continued to roll over Benny's.

"Fuck Angel…." Benny growled, his fingers finding their way into Samandriel's hair, gently pulling at it to get him to move to his other nipple. Samandriel couldn't help grinning, easily sucking the other one between his lips and teeth. Benny arched his back into the touch, his other hand moving down his side to grab tightly at Samandriel's ass.

"Get me so damn hard sweetheart…make it difficult to say no to you," he laughed breathlessly. Samandriel sat up a little, his hands pushing against Benny's chest to center himself.

"Then why do you?" Samandriel asked, his voice lilting with a moan as Benny's hips jerked up against him. The friction between them felt amazing but it wasn't enough, he needed more and he was growing impatient of waiting. The noises he could often hear at night coming from Dean and Castiel's bedroom drove him crazy. He wanted everything with Benny, he wasn't scared or nervous like he had been.

Benny stared at him for a moment before he found himself being rolled over, hips pinning him to the bed as Benny hovered over him. He lowered down until their lips were just barely grazing and Samandriel whined deep in his throat every time Benny moved just out of reach.

"Because…I don't want to rush you….and I'm scared that I'll hurt you," Benny answered softly. Samandriel's lips parted to argue but Benny dove forward, kissing him hungrily. The warm wet slide of Benny's tongue made him moan, wanting more of it and more of Benny's weight on top of him. He wrapped his arms tightly around Benny's neck and pulled until he was finally resting down on him again.

"You won't hurt me…" he mumbled between kisses. Benny growled at him, arms moving to hug around his body as the kisses turned almost desperate. Samandriel hung on, crying out when Benny started grind their bodies together. Jolts of pleasure surged up through his gut and he shuddered, planting his feet on the bed to raise up and meet Benny's thrusts.

"Fuck…I love you so much cher," Benny panted. Samandriel gasped, pulling away to stare up into his face. The open fear settling deep in Benny's wide eyes screamed that he was being completely honest and terrified made his heart nearly stop. There was no doubt in his mind how deeply he felt for Benny…and he knew how much Benny cared for him…but he never imagined this. He craved and wanted what Castiel and Dean had so badly…and here it was being handed to him on a silver platter.

"I-I love you too Benny," he whispered, knowing full well that his eyes were welling up. Benny smiled brightly as he thumbed away a fallen tear. Then they were kissing again with just as much hunger as before, their bodies rocking against the other as they chased their releases. Benny was moaning and shuddering above him but Samandriel knew it wasn't enough, not even when his hand snaked between them to cup Benny through his jeans. Those little words changed everything and it paled in comparison to how just rutting against each other felt.

Without saying a word, Samandriel pushed at Benny's shoulders, getting him to roll back over on his back. His face was burning with a bruising blush as he got up on his knees, his fingers fumbling with the button of Benny's jeans.

"Wait…" Benny said grabbing at his wrists. Samandriel leaned in and kissed him, sucking teasingly at his bottom lip.

"I want to try something…please?" Samandriel asked, looking at him through his lashes. The little trick worked and Benny was collapsing back onto the bed, his chest heaving with each shuddering breath. Samandriel bit his lip as his fingers finally pulled down the zipper and his pants were sliding off. He thought he would be nervous but the anticipation of finally getting to see every inch of his boyfriend was making his head spin.

"Oh wow," Samandriel gasped, his eyes widening at the long line of Benny's dick against his briefs. There was an obvious wet spot and he blushed even more, knowing that he was the cause of Benny's arousal. Licking his lips he slowly pulled down the briefs, almost teasing himself with the reveal of Benny's cock. Once the underwear was low enough to get a complete eye full, his mouth dropped open. He was so long and thick, the head pulsing as he continued to stare. Benny took in a deep breath, his hand sliding down his stomach to grip the base of himself, giving it a good squeeze.

"See why I'm scared I'll hurt ya?" Benny said with a bitter laugh. Samandriel looked up and saw the tightness around his eyes. Almost like he was scared Samandriel would actually run away once he saw how big he was. Yeah he was wondering if it would hurt but he was also anxious for it…his body almost vibrating with the need to feel it split him open.

Without answering him directly, Samandriel leaned down further, catching an pearlescent drop with his tongue. It was salty but wasn't entirely unpleasant, he actually liked the taste of it. Castiel had tried to warn him during one of the many embarrassing sex discussions, saying that it had made him gag slightly at first. He smiled inwardly knowing that it wasn't going to gross him out so much. Slowly he guided his tongue up along the pulsing shaft to press a kiss to the head of Benny's cock. A high pitched noise escaped Benny's throat, his fingers digging into the bed when Samandriel flicked his eyes up with a shy smile.

"You won't hurt me….it's not possible with how much I want you…and this," Samandriel groaned giving small kitten licks to the slit before giving it a gentle suck. His body shuddered slightly as more of Benny hit his tongue. Benny let out a cry, his hands yanking a little roughly at his hair to pull Samandriel up. Their lips slammed together and Samandriel moaned, opening his mouth to allow Benny's tongue to slide along his. His fingers closed tightly around Benny's shaft, not really knowing what to do but move his fist up and down. Benny reached down and helped guide him, his breath hitching each time they squeezed around the head of his cock.

"Angel…I'm gonna cum," Benny growled out against his mouth. Samandriel sucked in his bottom lip, pulling away to look down. His free hand pushed away Benny's, wanting to bring him to orgasm by himself. He sped up his movements, even growing bold to rub his thumb against his slit. It seemed to be the right thing to do, Benny was crying out curses as his hips jerked up, fucking up into his fist. Samandriel was grinning, loving at how destroyed Benny looked with his back arched and face completely scrunched up to fight off the orgasm as long as he could.

"Oh fuck!" Benny cried out, his hips stuttering in their rhythm. Samandriel gasped as large white ropes spurted out of his cock, landing thickly on Benny's chest and stomach. The more he slipped his hand down his cock, the more seemed to come out and Samandriel licked his lips as Benny writhed on the bed. He finally stopped once Benny was soft, his fingers completely covered in his spend. Tentatively he raised his hand up to his mouth, licking slowly at the cloudy liquid. It was a bit more bitter than his first taste but no more unsettling. He slowly licked his hand clean, only to blush crimson when he caught Benny staring at him with wide eyes.

"Damn Angel…that's…if I could get hard again fuck," he laughed collapsing back on the bed. Samandriel grinned and bit his lip before leaning forward, running the flat of his tongue along each spot to clean up the splatters of cum. He was licking up the last one by Benny's nipple when a loud growl left the older man's lips and he was pinned down on the bed. Samandriel just smiled innocently up at him, slowly licking his lips.

"Jesus Christ…you are going to be the death of me," he grumbled with a lazy smile. Samandriel shrugged, opening his arms to let Benny move in closer. He was surprised when he licked into his mouth, sucking the taste of himself off his tongue. Both of them moaned and he was suddenly reminded at how hard he was. He had been so preoccupied with Benny he had forgotten. Whining he raised his hips up only to giggle when Benny cupped him through his jeans, giving him a gentle squeeze.

"Mmm, need some attention there cher?" Benny teased giving him a firmer squeeze. Samandriel mewled, pushing his hips up to get more friction against his hand. He didn't care what Benny did to him, just something and soon. It all felt amazing but when Benny started to undo his pants his heart jumped up into his throat. Everything before had been with clothes on so when he felt a warm grip on his dick he cried out. Benny chuckled above him, spitting into his hand before wrapping his fingers back around him. The smooth slide was enough to make him see stars.

"Feels so good," Samandriel gasped biting down hard on his lip as Benny sped up slightly. There was a little glint in his boyfriend's eye and he was about to ask when he started to shimmy down. Something even warmer and wetter surrounded the head of his dick and he squeaked, sitting up to see Benny's lips close around him.

"Benny…oh my god," he moaned, falling back down on the bed as more of him slipped into his mouth. It was like nothing he had ever felt before, every nerve ending in his body was strung and he tried to keep his hips glued to the mattress. But with one long suck Samandriel's eyes rolled back and he jerked up. If he had been coherent enough he would have apologized but Benny only moaned, his hands sliding under his ass to urge him on. He didn't need any other prompting, his hips finding a rhythm rather quickly as he thrusted up. Benny swallowed him down easily, his tongue and throat working around him as if he was hungry for every inch of him.

Samandriel held his breath, hoping that maybe he could last just a bit longer than he usually did. His vision was slowly whiting out and he felt ready to burst, his entire body humming with the need to let go. A strangled moan left his lips when he felt fingers brush the cleft of his ass, sliding lower to add just a little pressure against his hole. He shuddered hard, licking at his dry lips almost frantically.

"D-Do it," Samandriel stammered, his heart beating so fiercely he was sure Benny could hear it. The finger at his hole circled around his rim a few times before it disappeared and Benny was slowly pulling off his dick. He cried out and reached for him but Benny only shushed him, pushing him back down gently.

"We ain't done sweetheart…but if you want this part…I need something a little more than spit," he said roughly. Samandriel nodded and tried to relax but his body was too strung out. As Benny crawled off the bed he continued to stroke himself slowly, it wasn't the same but it was enough to have him keening and arching off the bed.

"If that isn't a nice sight," Benny chuckled, crawling back on the bed. Samandriel's vision was a haze but he was aware enough to see Benny coat his fingers with something. Before he could even get the words formed into a sentence Benny was swallowing him back down, moaning lewdly as he hit the back of his throat.

"Oh! Oh my god," Samandriel whimpered raising up to fuck into his mouth, only to freeze when that finger returned to massaging at his hole. He couldn't help tensing up, the pure pleasure of Benny's mouth on him distracted him just enough to relax. He was so close, just on the edge when the tip of Benny's finger slid slowly into him and he whimpered. It didn't hurt but it did feel strange, a low throbbing sensation started to grow in the base of his spine as it slid further into him only to pull back out. He felt incredibly empty until it was making its way back in, only a bit further this time. His brain was splitting in two, one focused on Benny's mouth working on his dick while the other was so intrigued by the new feeling overcoming him.

He spread his legs further and swallowed hard, a cry leaving his lips when the finger sunk deep into him. It felt amazing but still weird and when his finger moved, brushing against something he shot off the bed crying out. Benny did it over and over again until he was sobbing, his hips moving almost frantically between his boyfriend's mouth and finger.

"Benny! Oh fuck!" he cried, fingers digging into the sheets next to his head when the finger inside rubbed at the spot. Everything froze for one split second until it exploded, his vision going completely white. His body was one strung out nerve ending, coming down from the high very slowly. When his vision finally cleared Benny was kissing all around his face, a huge smile stretching his slightly swollen lips.

"Mmm, there he is," Benny chuckled brushing their lips together. Samandriel couldn't find his voice, only able to hum softly just before everything went black.

Benny smiled down at his completely passed out boyfriend and shook his head, kissing his lips softly. He still couldn't believe that he finally admitted how he felt about him…telling someone you love them was terrifying He'd only done it once before…and it had ended badly for him. Samandriel was different…he knew this but the fear was still there, rooted down deep where all his doubts swam around.

Falling for Samandriel had been easy and happened so quickly that he had to catch himself. He'd been tricked before so he knew what signs to look for. Thankfully Samandriel had proven each one wrong and even surprised him several times. The most recent had been when he helped Samandriel with his history homework. He loved the way his face lit up and got all excited when was informed of Benny's passion for the subject.

It was something he had always wanted…to be a history teacher or even an archeologist. He remembered watching an old documentary of the Titanic and fell in love with the whole idea of it.

"What's stopping you then?" Samandriel had asked after they retired into their room. Benny shrugged almost shyly, throwing his shirt into the laundry basket before crawling up onto the bed.

"Don't know…it was just something I thought I might like to do some day," Benny said. Samandriel stared at him, quickly stripping down to his boxers. He yanked on one of Benny's sweaters and hurried to sit next to him.

"But if it's something you really want to do…and would love…then why not? You have the money, use it to go to school."

"It's not that easy angel…"

"Are you scared that you're behind?" Samandriel asked softly. Benny shrugged again but Samandriel could see the cloud of doubt hanging above his head. Samandriel took his hand and traced along Benny's fingers.

"You don't need to be…we'll help you with whatever you don't understand." Benny glanced up at him and bit his lip, a ghost of a smile finally catching on his lips.

Samandriel didn't know yet but he did actually go to the community college to find out what he needed to do. He had his high school diploma but never took his SAT's. The idea of college was never really there on the table. His only thought was to get away from his family. He was supposed to go down and take some sort of placement test and he would find out then whether he should go to a community college or the university.

Benny chewed on his lip, gazing down at Samandriel for a few minutes before getting up, pulling on some sweats. He hadn't been lying about wanting to keep things slow with Samandriel but he was more than willing to try out certain activities. With a smile on his face he left the room, making a beeline towards the kitchen. He wasn't exactly trying to avoid the others but he wanted to grab a few things to snack on and go back to the room.

He froze when he caught Dean leaning up against the counter, beer in hand and a smirk on his face, "So…it's nice to hear you and Alfie are getting along," Dean snickered. Benny rolled his eyes rubbing a hand down his face.

"Like you should be one to talk…you and Castiel are damn loud some nights," Benny grumbled hurrying over to the pantry. Dean chuckled next to him, taking a swig of his beer. Benny grabbed a few things, dropping them onto the counter.

"Honestly though…he doin ok?" Dean asked softly. Benny looked at his friend and nodded, remembering all too well how many times he asked the same question about Castiel. The two boys were so much alike it was scary sometimes.

"Yeah…what about you and Cas?" he asked moving around to grab a few sodas from the fridge. Dean made a noise and when Benny turned he was rubbing the back of his neck.

"He's been having those dreams again…you know the one where he can't see the boy's face?" Dean asked, continuing when Benny nodded, "Well the most recent one…he can see the guy's face now. And it's Alfie…" Dean said. Benny froze, slowly putting the sodas next to the pile of food before turning to face his friend.

"What?" he questioned.

"Yeah…it took him a while to finally tell me but…all this time…it's been Alfie. I have no idea what this even means…and neither does Cas. He's too worried to bring it up…doesn't wanna freak out the poor kid," Dean said with a sigh. Benny nodded, leaning against the counter next to Dean.

"I don't know what to say…" Benny said after a few minutes of silence. Dean nodded slowly, pushing off from the counter.

"Don't bring it up yet ok? Cas is still trying to figure out what this all about…and he wants to talk to Alfie first about it."

"Sure…we'll come join in a bit," Benny said, clapping Dean on the shoulder before moving back towards the bedroom, arms full of different kinds of snacks. Samandriel was still passed out when he came in, snoring softly but rolled over onto his stomach. The slight curve of his back and ass made him bite his lip, fully appreciating the gorgeous view of his boyfriend's body. He put the snacks down on the nightstand before crawling back on the bed, wrapping his arms tightly around Samandriel.

Samandriel stretched out, his eyes slowly fluttered open at a loud peal of laughter coming in from the other room. Glancing at the clock on the nightstand told him he'd been asleep for about an hour though it felt much longer. Benny was on his back, one arm flung over his head while the other was still being used as Samandriel's pillow.

"Benny," Samandriel whispered, rolling over to lean across Benny's chest, fingers tracing the side of his face. Benny groaned softly, twitching a little in his sleep. Samandriel kept it up until Benny's eyes finally blinked open, settling on his face.

"Hey….how long were we asleep?" Benny said voice thick with sleep. Samandriel sat up stretching out his arms as he yawned.

"About an hour…you wanna go watch the movies now?" Samandriel asked. Benny nodded sleepily, slowly getting out of the bed. The both of them pulled on some clothes and once he had the sweater pulled down, Benny wrapped his arms around him tightly, hugging him close to his chest.

"You know I meant what I said right?" Benny whispered into his ear. Samandriel pulled back to look into his face and smiled, standing up on his toes to kiss him lightly. Benny clung to him a bit, his arms tightening as their lips moved slow and chaste.

"Yes…I love you too…" Samandriel said rubbing his thumb against Benny's cheek. The older man blushed, nodding almost shyly as he swept down to kiss him again. Samandriel couldn't help smiling against his lips, his hands moving up his arms to wrap securely around his neck.

"Fuck it, let's just stay in here," Benny grumbled, not even letting a breath of space between them as he flung them back onto the bed, Samandriel trapped underneath. He let out a loud laugh, his limbs moving to allow Benny to press flush against him.

"Mmm, won't they be disappointed," Samandriel grinned smoothing his hands up and under Benny's shirt, gently dragging his nails down his soft skin. Benny growled low in his throat before diving in, kissing and nipping at Samandriel's neck.

"They can deal with it," came a muffled reply. Samandriel grinned wide, biting his lip hard as he tilted his head to the side, fingers finding their way into Benny's hair.

Castiel pressed on his bottom lip with his thumb, chewing at it with a nervous intensity. He had hoped the dream had been a fluke maybe, something that his brain wanted to screw him up with now that he and Samandriel were close. But they were occurring more and more and there was no denying it. He had been petrified to talk to Dean about it, almost just forgetting the whole thing. But Dean knew him too well and with just one look Castiel was spilling.

Somehow Castiel had been blessed with the most amazing boyfriend...fiance. Dean listened to the whole thing and never once got upset or worried. Now he just needed to talk to Samandriel about it...without freaking out his best friend. That thought made him sick to his stomach. In the beginning he never understood the intense need to be Samandriel's friend...to get to know him and practically force himself onto the poor kid.

In all honesty though, Samandriel almost seemed just as desperate as Castiel was for their friendship...to feel connected to each other. Once the awkwardness of new disappeared it was so easy. Even Dean and Benny had commented several times that they acted like they'd known each other for years...instead of months.

Castiel had an idea what it was...but he was too scared to even think it...hope for it.

The door to Benny's bedroom opened and he blew out a relieved sigh when Samandriel slipped out, one of Benny's flannels hitting him at his knees. Castiel smiled and quietly approached him, touching his shoulder just before he turned.

"Oh god...Cas...you scared me," Samandriel laughed, his eyes shining brightly even in the dark hallway. It made Castiel smile even more. Samandriel had changed and grown into his own skin after living with them even in the short amount of time. He took Samandriel's hand and lead him through the house towards the back porch, making sure to hand him Benny's jacket before slipping outside. Samandriel hugged the large coat around himself, his eyes tight with worry as he looked at Cas.

"There's...something I need to talk to you about and I have no idea how to even start," Cas said quietly, giving him a nervous smile. Samandriel laughed, playfully rolling his eyes. Cas found himself being pulled into the little swing Dean had installed last week, both boys sitting close to keep warm.

"What is it? You know you can tell me anything," Samandriel said winding their arms together. Cas bit his lip and looked up into the clear sky, taking in a deep breath of the sharp clean smell of winter.

"This is going to sound really weird...and I hope this doesn't push you away but I've been having these dreams for a long time. And usually, the boy that's in them, I can't ever see his face but now I can. It's you..." Castiel said slowly, his eyes staring straight forward. He heard a gasp and jerked his head to look at his friend, surprised to see his eyes wide.

"I know this is weird...I'm sorry..."

"No...Castiel, it's not weird. I actually have them too," he said sitting up, his hands moving to grip at Castiel's fingers.

"You do?" Castiel asked swallowing hard. Samandriel nodded quickly, tears welling up in his eyes as the grip on his fingers turned almost desperate Castiel laughed, pulling his hand away to gently wipe away some of the tears that escaped.

"So...what does this mean then?" Samandriel asked. Castiel bit hard on his lip, should he tell him? Should he admit that there are times when he feels something even stronger than just a friendship bond? Samandriel eyes widened with so much earnest affection that Castiel couldn't lie even if he wanted too.

"I think...we should get a blood test done..." Castiel whispered, holding his breath. Samandriel stared at him for a moment before all the color drained from his friend's face but there was the tiniest bit of a smile at the corner of his lips.

"I think you might be right..."