I apologize for the short/rushed feeling of this chapter...I was all excited writing it and have no beta lmao. Enjoy!
It was the first week into November and everyone in the house was on pins and needles...any day now they would be receiving the results of Castiel and Samandriel's blood test. Both of them had talked it through, making sure that this was definitely something they needed to do before informing Dean and Benny. Though they meant to keep it quiet, it didn't take long for the rest of their make shift family to catch on to the growing tension in the house. Everyone of course had been supportive if not just as freaked out as the rest of them.
Samandriel couldn't wait but there was a very heavy knot in his stomach that churned every time he caught Castiel staring off into space. Did it mean that his parents...weren't really his parents? And if they were...what happened? It was unsettling and it was taking everything he had to keep from calling and screaming at his parents for the truth. But he had promised Castiel that they wouldn't say anything until they had those test results.
There was a hesitant knock on the bathroom door and he jumped, nearly falling off the counter. He didn't even remember walking in here..his shirt was on the floor and a towel was sitting on the tub edge. Oh yeah...he had set out to take a shower but got distracted. Sighing heavily, he called out for whoever it was to enter and rubbed at his face. A subtle warmth washed over him and hands were rubbing at his bare arms. He spread his fingers to peak at his boyfriend smiling softly at him.
"You ok cher?" Benny asked, thumbs rubbing along the joints in his elbows. Samandriel nodded, scooting forward to rest his face against Benny's chest, humming when his arms wrapped around him.
"Did you forget how to shower?" Benny teased. Samandriel huffed out a small laugh, fingers pinching at the slight pudge of Benny's sides.
"No...I just got distracted I guess," Samandriel's voice coming out a bit muffled but Benny heard him, giving off a little hum as a response. Samandriel pouted up at him when Benny moved back, pulling his shirt off over his head.
"Come on...don't need you slipping while you're all spaced out," Benny grumbled but there was a hint of a smile on his lips. Samandriel felt his cheeks warm and nodded, slipping off the counter to pull off the rest of his clothes. Though nudity was really not a problem between them anymore, Samandriel still blushed at the site of the rippling muscles in Benny's arms and shoulders and the softness in his stomach. Don't even get him started on Benny's thighs, thick and tight from all the squats he does from picking up beer crates.
"You got enough to ogle at?" Benny chuckled, turning to show off his nice round ass. Samandriel swallowed hard and bit his lip, quickly pulling off his underwear so he could press his body against Benny's. The need wasn't always a sexual one and thankfully, Benny understood and knew the differences. Both of them sighed at the skin contact when Samandriel suckered himself to Benny's back, arms wrapped around his middle tightly.
"You alright cher?" Benny asked softly. Samandriel didn't answer, just snuggled in closer. He had voiced his worries and his fears enough times to know it was becoming annoying. Benny sighed and rubbed at his arms, moving them closer towards the bathtub. The spray of water was almost too loud but soon the room was filling with hot steam and it was enough to make Samandriel relax.
"I'm just worried..." he finally said once they were under the water. Benny turned them so Samandriel was under the spray, a little pleased groan leaving his lips when Benny's fingers scratched along his scalp.
"I don't blame you sweetheart...I never thought something like this would happen to our little group but...if it does come out positive...I'll be thankful that you two found each other," Benny said softly, his thumbs moving to catch any soap suds from falling down into his eyes. Samandriel nodded, tilting his head back at Benny's prompting, allowing for his boyfriend to wash out his hair. He felt utterly useless as Benny continued to take care of him, his eyes growing a bit wide when the mountain of a man knelt down to wash his legs.
If he was anywhere close to being in the mood, he would have been achingly hard right then and there. Especially when Benny looked up at him with warm eyes and a soft smile, fingers kneading into his calves. For just a split second he felt as if he didn't even deserve any of this...Benny taking care of him, making sure to be gentle around his ass and soft cock. That not being in the mood would actually disappoint his boyfriend. He tried, closing his eyes and willing that flutter in his chest to go lower. No matter how hard he tried though he just couldn't, he was too numb for it and he didn't understand why. Usually the sight of Benny's own arousal was enough to get him wanting but right at that moment it was just another part of Benny. He let out a shaky breath and suddenly his face was being cupped by two large hands.
"Hey...baby...what's wrong?" Benny asked, the new pet name making Samandriel suck in a quick breath.
"N-Nothing...I'm sorry..." Samandriel swallowed hard, his face turning a dark shade as he glanced down at his still uninterested cock. Benny frowned and glanced down as well only to jerk his head back up with an even deeper frown.
"Angel...you have nothing to be sorry for...absolutely nothing. Hey, look at me," Benny demanded with a gentle tone. Samandriel blinked a few times and finally settled on staring into his face, bottom lip caught tightly between his teeth.
"I will never be upset with you if you're not in the mood ok? If I'm making you uncomfortable I'll go..."
"No...please? I'm ok, I promise," Samandriel pleaded, his fingers digging into Benny's shoulders. Benny nodded before standing back up, pulling Samandriel close against his chest. There was a twinge of regret in his stomach when he felt Benny's arousal start to deflate. He had to remind himself that this wasn't the most important thing in their relationship...that moments like this didn't always have to end with an orgasm. He couldn't quite remember when that line somehow got blurred but Benny was always quick to jog his memory.
"Alright, let me finish up before this water turns freezing," Benny laughed, pressing his lips against Samandriel's temple. Samandriel smiled, grabbing up the loofah to start washing his boyfriend's body. Benny grinned at him, grabbing up the shampoo to wash his hair. When Samandriel knelt down to scrub at his thighs, he felt the stirring in his belly and sighed with a little relief that it was in fact still there.
Once they were both clean and wrapped in the towels, they hurried into the bedroom to change into warm clothes. Samandriel always choosing one of Benny's flannels to snuggle in while the man himself would pull on his hoodie. They were just about to crawl under the covers to spend the rest of the day curled up around each other when there was a soft knock on their door.
"Yeah?" Benny called out. The door swung open slowly to reveal Sam, his body leaning in to peer into the room. Samandriel's heart sped up in his chest at the tight look on Sam's face.
"Something just came in the mail...it's addressed to you and Cas..." Sam said quietly. Samandriel swallowed hard and had to take a few breaths before hurrying off towards the family room. Castiel was already sitting on the edge of the couch, a large envelope in his lap. Dean sat next to him, teeth anxiously chewing at his thumbnail. The others were scattered around, either pacing or sitting and staring at the envelope. Samandriel must have made a noise because Castiel's head shot up, his eyes turning a bit a glassy as he reached out for him. He hurried over and sunk down on the couch, his fingers gripping onto Castiel's tightly.
"Do...do you want to open it?" Castiel whispered, the fingers of his free hand ghosting over it. Samandriel felt like he was going to be sick...and he didn't know whether he could keep it down if it wasn't the answer they wanted. He shook his head and Castiel nodded, turning pleading eyes at Dean. He could never deny Castiel anything but even he was hesitant about opening it, his hand reaching out slowly to pull it out of Castiel's lap. Samandriel felt the couch dip behind him and sighed softly when a warm hand slid up the back of his shirt, rubbing soothing circles at the base of his spine. It was enough to keep the full blown anxiety attack at bay.
"Alright..." Dean took in a deep breath and ripped it open, keeping it in until he was reading through the letter inside. Samandriel watched him, his own heart starting to race by the second as Dean's eyes got wider and wider.
"Holy...fuck..." Dean said almost breathlessly. He glanced between the two of them before reading it again.
"What does it say?" Castiel asked, the annoyance in his voice making Samandriel smile just a little. Dean rubbed a hand down his face and barked out a laugh, his entire face lighting up.
"You two...are brothers...twins in fact," Dean answered, handing over the document. Samandriel's head swam, almost slumping back against Benny as the air rushed out of his lungs. Castiel gasped, snatching up the paper to read over himself. There were tears streaming down his cheeks as his hand covered his mouth.
"Does...did that mean..." Castiel whispered, his eyes finding Samandriel's. He nearly drowned in the pain swimming there and Samandriel pulled himself out of the almost drunk like haze surrounding his brain. He pulled Castiel to him, hugging him tightly.
The images of his mom from her visit came swimming into his mind...the looks she gave Castiel. The almost longing and deep sadness...the way she nearly clung to him as they said goodbye. Eve may not have even known what it was...but deep in her subconscious mind...it recognized Castiel as her's.
"No...I don't think that's it at all..." Samandriel whispered, nearly pulling Castiel into his lap when he began to sob. They held each other for a long time, only pulling apart when Castiel became too exhausted.
"I can't believe it...twins..." Castiel laughed softly, wiping at his face with the tissue Dean had handed him. Samandriel nodded his head slowly, chewing on his lip to the point of making it bleed. Without another word he shot up from his seat and hurried back towards his room. His cell phone was still in the pocket of his jeans and he fished it out once he found them in their laundry basket. Benny was just entering the room when he pressed the call button, staring hard at the wall in front of him until someone finally answered.
"Alfie? How are you son?" his dad asked. Samandriel swallowed down the large lump in his throat and closed his eyes.
"I don't know...can you and mom come down here? I need to talk to you about something important..." he asked. Joshua made a humming noise and he could hear some paper rustling in the background.
"Your mom has a doctor's appointment tomorrow in the morning but we can be there by evening...would that be alright?" Joshua asked worry evident in his tone.
"That's perfect...thanks dad," he said and hung up. He turned to see Benny leaning up against the door frame, his brows raised up in a silent question.
"My parents will be here tomorrow night..."
"Angel..."
"I'm ok...but I can't really relax until I hear it from them...I need to know that they just...didn't give up Castiel because I can't believe they would," Samandriel said, hiccuping a bit as his body shook with intense need to break down crying. Benny opened his arms to him and Samandriel went willingly, burying his face into his shirt. He didn't realize that Benny had picked him up, carrying him back out to the family room until they were sitting down on the couch. He pulled away, instantly finding Castiel curled up in a ball on the couch, Dean crouching down in front of him.
"Is...is he ok?" Samandriel asked, crawling over. Dean shrugged, not taking his eyes off his boyfriend's unmoving body. Samandriel moved behind Castiel, wrapping his arms around his brother and pulling him in closer. It felt so strange to actually be able to call him that. Before it had been a tease...the empty space in his heart being filled by being close to Castiel and possibly hoping for something like this. The surge of relief and happiness he felt poured through him and he so badly wanted Castiel to feel the same. Castiel sighed heavily and Samandriel leaned up a bit to see his twin's eyes close, his breathing becoming slower. Dean smiled at both of them, leaning in to brush his lips along Castiel's forehead before standing up and grabbing at the blanket off the couch to cover them.
Samandriel smiled in thanks, turning his gaze over at Benny to mouth the words I love you. At Benny's bright smile, he relaxed back into the couch and fell asleep rather quickly.
Samandriel couldn't keep still, the house was too quiet and Castiel wasn't talking. Benny and Dean had cleared the house, making the others occupy themselves somewhere else. The two of them had decided to go "grocery" shopping while they waited. Samandriel knew they were in the Impala a few streets away and most likely wouldn't budge until they had the ok to come back. It was one of the hundred things he loved about Benny.
His...their...parents would be there any minute now and Samandriel felt like he was ready to burst from his skin. He wanted this over and done with, just rip the band aid off and tell them the horrible truth. He had to stop in his pacing to rub at his stomach, trying in vain to quell the swirling. He still wasn't even sure if Castiel was upset with him or not. When he told him about calling, Castiel had gone quiet, nodding before disappearing into his room. Samandriel knew he had acted rashly...but they needed answers.
The sound of a car pulling up into their drive way had Castiel's head snapping up, the color draining from his face. Samandriel took in a deep breath, trying to still his frantically beating heart before kneeling down in front of his brother.
"I think I should talk to them first..." he said softly. Castiel nodded slowly, his arms hugging around his middle as he stood up. Samandriel stopped him with a hand on his arm and he opened his mouth to say something when Castiel hugged him.
"Whatever happens...whatever they say...it doesn't change anything between you and me...ok?" Castiel said vehemently. Samandriel nodded eagerly, clinging to his brother until the doorbell sounded. They stared at each other for a moment before splitting, Castiel into the kitchen while Samandriel went to open the door.
It was hard pretending to be so happy at seeing them, hugging them both and ushering them into the family room. He couldn't be happy until he knew the truth and god he was praying so hard it wasn't the worst.
Eve knew immediately something was off, her eyes kept scanning the room almost as if she was expecting someone to pop out. Which wasn't too far from reality, with so many people living in the house it was a constant thing. Joshua took a few moments before realizing the tension residing deep in Samandriel's shoulders and his wife's rigid posture.
"Alfie...sweetheart...what's wrong?" Eve asked carefully.
Samandriel's hands wrung nervously in his lap, his eyes cast down as he whispered very quietly, "Do I have a sibling?"
Both his parents gasped and almost tried to fumble for a response at first. There were was a few stuttered answers that only quieted at Samandriel's intense glare at the both of them. His mother deflated, her shoulders slumping forward as her eyes turned glassy.
"You...you did," she finally said, the first traces of tears starting to spill through. Samandriel's glare softened, his own throat tightening at the pure anguish on his mother's face.
"What happened?" he asked. Eve opened her mouth but only covered it with her hand, waving her other one in front of her. Joshua scooted closer to wrap his arm around her.
"He died Samandriel. You were twins...and...the doctors never explained to us what happened. One second the both of you were perfectly healthy...the next...we were told your brother died. We never got to hold him...or name him. It nearly shattered us but...we had you...our miracle baby. It was the hardest thing we ever had to do...lying to you and never telling you about him. But...we thought maybe it would be for the best..." Joshua explained quietly, his own tears making tracks down his cheeks. Samandriel couldn't breathe, couldn't even move. He was so numb, someone lied to his parents...and stole Castiel away from them...only to hand him over to the most vile people ever.
"I'm so sorry sweetheart...it was never our intention to hurt you...but I guess we failed anyway," Eve sobbed. She sounded so broken and it was killing him to hear his mother this way. She was the strongest woman he had ever known and to see her like this...he took in a deep breath and moved to sit on the coffee table that separated them. He grabbed his mother's hands and made her look at him.
"Mom...that doctor, he lied to you...to both of you," he said through clenched teeth, trying to keep the tremble out of his voice. His parents stared at him, his mother almost pulling her hands out of his but he gripped them just a bit tighter. Before they could say anything, he grabbed up the test results and handed them over. It took a bit but suddenly their eyes widened as a wave of fresh tears poured down.
"He's...he's alive? My baby...how?" Eve asked, her eyes wide and reaching for Samandriel almost desperately. Samandriel smiled even though he was crying just a tad harder now.
"It was a feeling we both had...but...he's here mom..." he said softly, turning to look towards the kitchen just as Castiel moved through the entryway. Eve gasped, her hand covering her mouth again.
"I...I knew...something inside was screaming that...oh my god, Castiel..." she whimpered. Castiel stared at the both of them before he was rushing forward, crashing into Eve's arms just as she stood up. Samandriel could barely see them through his tears but he was laughing softly. Eve was holding his brother so tightly, kissing the top of his head, forehead and cheeks. Joshua had his head in his hands, his shoulder shaking a bit as he cried. At Eve's gentle prodding, he finally stood and scooped Castiel into his arms, hugging him to the point of clinging.
Once they were just a slight bit more calm, they sat back down, Samandriel perched on the table while Castiel sat between their parents.
"So...you...you did want me?" Castiel asked, voice so small and almost fragile. Samandriel swallowed hard and wrung his hands together as he watched his mother's face crumble. She reached out and pulled Castiel close, his head resting on her chest.
"We always wanted you sweetheart...always. If I had known...or any kind of inkling...no one could have stayed in my way to get you back," she said, rubbing his back slowly. Castiel nodded, taking in slow deep breaths. Eve smiled, laughing a little as she kissed his forehead.
"Every year...on Samandriel's birthday...we would stay up after he had gone to bed and blow out a special candle...just for you. Every single year..." she said softly.
"This year will be different though," Joshua said softly, reaching over to pat Castiel's leg.
"I guess the birthday they gave me isn't even the real one," Castiel spat out, sitting up with an exaggerated huff. Samandriel sighed, rubbing his face only to find himself being pulled in to sit between Castiel and his dad. He laughed a little and snuggled into the warmth that was his family.
"Did...did they at least treat you well?" Eve asked timidly. Castiel went still next to him and Samandriel bit his lip hard...he really didn't want his mom to know...it would only make her feel worse. Eve sucked in a breath at their silence and tried to still her frantic crying but it only came harder.
"Oh baby...I'm so sorry...god I am so sorry," she pleaded, rocking Castiel a little.
"It's not your fault...and...now that I know that you didn't willingly give me up...that they stole me from you...I can finally put that part to rest..." Castiel said softly. Eve nodded, finally starting to calm back down.
"God...what you must have thought of us..." Joshua growled out, pushing his fingers through his hair.
"That doesn't even matter anymore...I know the truth now and as hard...and horrible as it was. It brought me here...and we all found each other again," Castiel said softly. Samandriel smiled brightly, hugging around his brother's back while their mom and dad's arms circled around them.