Chapter 12 – 'Finding Me'
When I got home from being in prison it was as if the whole experience had never happened, no one spoke about it and I was ignored as usual, dad didn't mention anything or apologise. I spend as less time at home as possible but I was struggling...they still hadn't gave me my pills back.
Mandy and I were planning to go get them after school on Tuesday, we were going to meet outside the gates and go from there as Mandy was better at persuasion than me so she would have an easier time getting them back than if I went by myself but that plan all changed on Monday night after school.
I got home from school and walked through the front door everything seemed normal and I didn't suspect anything until I walked into the kitchen for a snack and saw both my parents stood there waiting for me.
"Err hi mum, dad...are you two okay?" I asked looking at them
"We got a call from the police saying the pills they confiscated from you were ready to be picked up so we went to get them" my dad said
"And then when we get there we find out they are depression tablets" My mum said looking at me.
"Leo why have you got these?" my dad asked
"Because I have depression"
"Of course you don't you are a child you don't have depression"
"No mum you can get depression at any age" I replied..."I have been diagnosed
"Leo I suppose Mandy told you this but you aren't depressed" my dad stated
"Look I am depressed and Mandy told me nothing I know how I feel"
"This is because of this whole Bonnie thing...I know you have not forgiven yourself but once you do everything will be better for you" my mum said
"You don't get it do you...I bullied Bonnie because I was depressed, I did it as a cry for help...I do have depression and if you don't like that well tough"
I took the pills out my dad's hand and stormed out the door intending to go to the clinic.
Half an Hour later I was sat with Mandy as she broke off a bit of chocolate from the bar she had and handed it to me. She shook her head as I told her what had happened.
"What do they know? Your mum apparently had depression but was just crying over a man what does she even know about it"
"I don't know I can't wait till I am sixteen I am getting a job and moving out I swear down"
"You can come live with me!"
"I don't think I will be allowed Mands" I said laughing to myself as we were talking my dad stormed in, he must have followed me.
"THAT'S IT I HAVE HAD IT, GET IN THE CAR LEO"
A lot of the patients looked up as dad was shouting, they all looked confused as to what was happening, I ignored him but he was annoying Mandy.
"WILL YOU SHUT UP, SOME OF US ARE TRYING TO RELAX HERE"
One of the carers who heard the noise came into the living room to see what was going on
"Is everything okay in here?" the carer asked concerned
"NO IT'S NOT OKAY I HAVE TOLD MY BOY HEAPS OF TIMES I DON'T WANT HER NEAR THAT CRAZY GIRL" Mandy had had it she went for him but the carer held her back.
"Hey hey, no don't do that it will make things worse" she said placing her hands on her shoulders to hold her back and she sat down.
"Mr Fitzgerald, I suggest you leave, these young people are sensitive and I don't want them stressed"
"Not without my son" he said as he walked towards me and grabbed my arm pulling me up
"Ahh dad you're hurting me" I complained
"LEAVE HIM ALONE" Mandy screamed at him she was getting wound up and I knew that meant an attack was coming.
"Dad get off me..."
/Leaving it there what will happen? Will Mandy have an attack? Will Vaughan go too far or will this be the end of Leo and Mandy's friendship/