A/N - I know I am uploading a lot of chapters but I haven't had internet in a week so I have being catching up on my story enjoy :)

Chapter 20 – Pain never Goes

I walked into Mandy's room on that cold winter day in November. I knew straight away she was upset, she wasn't as hyper as normal and wiped tears from her face, thinking she was remembering her abuse I walked in and put my arm around her slowly, she didn't say a word but leaned her head on my shoulder.

"Hey you, what's the matter mm?"

She put her head more into my shoulder, which she normally did when she was scared or worried.

"It's my brother..."

"Angus?" I asked now knowing everything about her family life, I stroked her hair gently as it fell down my arm.

"Yes...he's getting married"

"Oh well that's good isn't it?"

"Yes he send me an invite but... I can't go"

"Why not? I know you haven't seen him in years but he invited you he obviously still cares about you"

"But my dad will be there...he still hates me.."

This was the bit I didn't know about, she always said her dad hated her and that's why she left to go live with her mum but she never said why.

"Mandy...I am sure he doesn't hate you"

"He does...trust me" she says still with her head on me

"Why do you think that you are his daughter"

"Daughter's don't do what I did"

"And what did you do? You can tell me Mands"

"I acted up a lot, overdose, drinking, staying out late"

"As most teenagers do"

"Most teenagers don't cause their dad's girlfriends to leave town though do they?"

"Why don't you tell me what happened?"

"My parents had split I was cool with that and I would have being cool with him dating someone new, but he just let's this women I barely know move into our house without letting us get to know her"

"What was her name?"

"Grace...she was a traveller, had a daughter my age Josie"

"So you two didn't get on?"

"No it was me, I wouldn't give her a chance I was constantly starting fights with my dad, I was bad mouthing her, I wouldn't let her try to get to know me, I was upset and scared I guess I didn't know this women"

"So then she left?"

"I started a fight with her daughter, I called Grace a tart, I kept pushing her away so she left, she went back to her family and left, dad never really recovered he loved her"

"So you think he hates you?"

"He does...he has always blamed me, then one day we had a huge fight and I left to live with my mum and then the whole abuse thing and I ended up here"

"Mandy he doesn't hate you.."

"Yeah right...don't lie I ruined his chance of happiness" she said lifting her head and wiping a tear obviously full of regret.

"You were young, and you are right you won't just take it and be happy I mean look how well thing went with my dad and Allie"

"You didn't cause that though"

"Yes well I don't have a big mouth like some people" I laughed trying to cheer her up "Mandy I know speaks her mind and if she doesn't like something she tells you in most harsh way possible, and that is my Mandy"

"And break my family in process"

"Hey you don't talk like that, now we are going to go to this wedding and we are going to talk to your dad to and if he doesn't want to know that's his lost because I tell you something he has one amazing daughter"

She looked at me still looking looking down but slightly brighter

"Hey where's that pretty smile? Show me it"

"I don't want to" she said keeping her head down

I tickled her knowing she was ticklish and couldn't resist it

"NAAA stop it" she said not able to stop the smile, I smiled at her

"There's my favourite smile" I said