Chapter 9

"Wait, what you mean he just got up and walked away?" Gwen asked. I leaned against her shoulder and tried to block the tears that were forming at my eyes.

"I thought...I thought we were getting closer and it seemed so right! The way he kissed me...it gave me chills and I felt things for him that I didn't feel before. It felt so serious and he just...blew me off. I don't know what I did wrong." Gwen rubbed my back and I'm sure she didn't know exactly what to say either. I tried almost the entire ride back from the camp to get Seth to talk to me, to tell me what was wrong, what I did wrong?. He dodged every question, answering with "I'm fine," or "Nothing's wrong." It was so frustrating. The last half of the car ride was just filled with this disturbing silence. No music or sounds from outside, just the dull hum of the heater.

He went to his hotel room immediately and slammed the door behind him. I couldn't even bring myself to knock on the door and beg him to talk to me. I heard him talk to someone on his cellphone but I couldn't make out what he was saying. That was when I retreated to my room and Gwen saw me practically in tears.

She thought that maybe it was best for me to check on the girls, see how their training was going. She told me they had improved so much already, which i'm sure was true. Lita was still teaching them afterall. I agreed and held onto Gwen as we walked into the gym together. Seeing the girls already in the ring bought a smile to my face. And when they saw me they all rushed over, practically fighting to hug me.

"Leena! You're ok! We were so worried!" Nikki said.

"Wow, I didn't think you guys would be this happy to see me!" I said, genuinely surprised.

"Are you kidding me? Lita's been working us like a dog. She makes you look like a bunny." Natalya rolled her eyes in Lita's direction.

I chuckled. "Don't get too comfortable. I'll be getting back to training with you guys soon. Even if it is just watching."

"Have you been crying? Did you and Roman have a fight?!" Eva Marie gasped. as she noticed my puffy eyes.

"No Roman, Seth!" Gwen said faster then I could stop her.

"Seth? Oh you guys are really close. What happened?" Alicia asked, gently touching my arm.

"It's a very long story and it's been so awkward and draining around him. He's not even talking to me and I have no idea what I did wrong."

"So basically, he's acting like a stereotypical woman?" Lita chimed in. All of us laughed which made me feel a hell of a lot better.

"Hey, we were going to go to Karaoke tonight and you're more than welcome to come but um...at first it was a couples thing but you look like you could have some fun." Naomi said.

"Nah, girl. Invite Seth. Then you sing a grimy ass song or something like Respect. You know, give him the ol' Aretha. Teach his ass a lesson!" Cameron added.

"Oh yes! Good idea! I think you very much will be enjoying insulting him." Gwen smirked.

"Well, I might be able to convince him but maybe you could ask Dean to ask Seth for me?"

"Piece of cake. I put one of his hand on my boobies and he does anything I want!"

We all laughed again and I realized that having girl time wasn't all that bad.

Seth's POV

"Why the fuck did you bring me here?" I growled to Dean as we entered the Karaoke bar. The Divas had reserved a large table big enough to seat them and their partners.

"Look, from what you told me it looks like you needed some time to breathe a bit but also you're not done with Leena. Remember, you're the one that told me the reason you stopped her that night even though you wanted more. Damn you and Roman always hide behind these shells and never want anyone to come in." Dean replied.

"As if you're a fucking open book, Ambrose. I had my reasons."

"Of course but just...knock back a few drinks. Chills with the guys. Watch these girls get drunk off their asses and sing songs about female empowerment, it'll be great. Hey, i bet you someone will sing 'Respect' by the end of the night."

"Oh yeah? How much do you want to bet?" I questioned.

"I bet that it wont' be Leena that sings it and if I win you have to tell her why you stopped from going all the way."

I rolled my eyes. "Fine, I guess I'll bet that it will be Leena, since she always gets drunk anyway and if I win...you have to take off your shirt in front of Gwen."

"Dude that's fucking cold. Why would you do that? You know how I feel about my scars..."

"And you know how I feel about Leena and how it felt when she left. It fucked me up. We're both even with this bet. Now buy me a fucking drink."

Dean growled before he left to go to the bar. I sat down at the end of the table, far from Leena. It was barely audible over the screeching of the person currently singing but I heard one of the Divas tell Leena that she should sing next. I never really heard her sing before but by the way she was trying to pass her turn up she might not be that good, or maybe she was embarrassed now that I was here. Whatever. I didn't want to come to this stupid bar anyway.

Dean came back with two shots and I quickly downed it, feeling the fire slide down my throat. Hopefully I could just get drunk and forget all about our camping trip or even save myself from being called out by one of these girls. I was sure the Divas knew something was up between Leena and I. They had been giving me dirty looks ever since I sat down. Catty ass bitches. The girl singing finished her song, thank God and the Divas literally dragged Leena onstage.

In the spotlight she looked uncomfortable, adjusting her tight skirt that fit her like a glove. Her hair was curled this time, big bouncy beautiful curls that framed her face. It was so different seeing her dress up so cute, look so gorgeous. But behind that pretty face was a tongue of venom and i knew I was about to be poisoned. It took her a bit to find a song and I thought maybe she was trying to find a metal song to sing, one that we'd both enjoy. But i was wrong. The music started playing and the melody was soft but still very much pop. I had no idea what it was but Leena's voice came out light an airy, a little off key but it wasn't too bad.

The other girls clapped and hollered at her. I wanted to look away but I just couldn't. She picked such a nice song...at least I thought so until i heard the lyrics and their deeper meaning. Her voice suddenly soared as the chorus hit.

"Baby don't forget my name when the morning breaks us/Baby please don't look away whenthe morning breaks us/Oh your touch so bittersweet/ Baby don't forget my name when the morning breaks us!"

She said every word with such emotion that it made her sound better. Meanwhile the words were hitting me like nails in a coffin. I knew why she had chosen the song. It was about a one night stand, pulling away and turning your back on them, seeming to throw them away as if they were nothing. Was that really what she thought I did that night at the camp? I should've fucking sang this song instead. She had no idea what she was doing. My anger was getting to me but Dean grabbed my shoulder.

"Just listen for a second. Realize she's confused, Seth."

I thought that maybe he was just saying that because he had won the bet. But i knew Dean cared about us all. I sighed deeply and turned my eyes back to Leena. She was facing me know, her eyes locked on mine.

"I know it hurts you, I know it burns you/ hot and cold in a lonely hotel room/ look into me, tell me why you're crying I need to know..."

She gasped for a second, trying to hold back her tears. I knew at that moment that she was only trying to make things right. It read on her face that she was hurting because she hurt me that night. And it wasn't that she hurt me then i just...Fuck. Dean was right. Again. I had to tell her. I just had to. As soon as she finished singing and made her way back to the table I grabbed her hand and pulled her away from from the group. I took her towards the back of the bar where we were shrouded in darkness and the noise was muffled.

"I was scared!" The words were spilling out like word vomit. "I'm still scared. I'm scared you're going to leave again and-and forget about me. I'm scared that I mean nothing to you. I'm scared of being with you and you realizing you only want to be with Roman. I should've never asked to be with both of you guys. It's breaking my heart and I know that you don't want to make decisions right now but I'm just so...confused."

"Oh god Seth!" She wrapped her arms around me. i held onto her for dear life. I've never really shared such emotion with anyone else, especially not at a fucking karaoke bar. Her voice was a delicate whisper in my ear. "i promise you, Colby, i'll never leave your side again. I'd rather die. You made my heart soar when you kissed me. I thought everything felt so right. I'm sorry. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I want to be with you, i mean it."

I pulled away to see the tears she'd been holding back slide down her cheek. I had been afraid to fall in love all this time. It wasn't just a fear of her leaving, it was a fear of giving someone my entire being. I was afraid to love her.

"I love you..." i whispered.

She smiled, pressing her forehead to mine. Though she was a loudmouth 99% of the time, she had nothing to say. It didn't worry me though. She was a woman of action anyway. Her lips crashed onto mine, her fingers completely entangling themselves in my hair. They way she held me said it all. We broke after a long minute, catching our breaths. We didn't even noticed the clacking sound coming in our direction.

"Having fun cheating, you slut?!" Naomi said. She was full of anger and i could tell we were about to feel the blunt of it. "That's my cousin-in-law you're hurting!"

"No, no Naomi! He knows! Roman knows! He knows about this!" Leena frantically tried to explain. It only confused Naomi further. This polyamorous idea was a total bust. It only caused problems for the three of us but you always run away from the things you want the most in life. And i wanted Leena.