"Are you sure you don't want to stay on the bus with us?" I asked Gwen. She crinkled her nose and shook her head quickly.
"No, i like very much being on bus with girls instead of sweaty stinky men. I'll pass even if I do not get to see Dean." she replied.
"Well that makes one of us," I chuckled. I would probably rip my hair out if i was on the Divas bus, especially since there was the Total Divas special treatment bus and the 'lesser' divas bus. Too much estrogen and cattiness for me. I'd much rather hang with the guys. "Alright well I'll catch you at the next stop, ok?"
"Sounds perfect to me. Oh and Lita say she wants to talk to you. So maybe call her. I'll see you later." Gwen gave me a hug before dragging her luggage to the bus towards the back of the line. I looked down at my phone and noticed that there was a text message from Lita herself. God, it was still so surreal having a conversation with her. I tried so hard not to fangirl when she even looked my way and I was getting better finally!
Let's grab lunch at the next stop. Need to talk to you!
Ugh, she was a damn angel! But i wondered what she wanted to talk about. A terrible thought crossed my mind-what if she didn't want to train the girls with me anymore? Our progress had kind of halted ever since all this drama popped up between me and some of the girls. I hoped that really wasn't the case. I have no idea what I'd do without i texted her back.
Sounds good!
I wanted to add a desperate please don't leave me but I decided against it. For now anyway. Instead I hauled my duffle bag over my shoulder and prepared to climb aboard. Seth met me at the entrance looking like he was out of breath.
"Oh hey. Did you get all your stuff?" he asked.
"Yeah. Were you running before you got on here? You're going to exercise yourself to death one day."
Seth simply shrugged and gave me a peck on the cheek. "Best way to go out. Anyway, i wanted to tell you that Rome and I are going to be flying out of Phoneix when we get there. Got to do some meet and greet stuff, then tape some things for the network so we won't be back until Sunday night."
"Whoa wait...you mean I'm going to be alone for like 4 days?What the fuck!"
"You won't be alone! You'll have Gwen and Dean! And maybe you can make other friends on the playground!" he said with fake enthusiasm.
I shoved Seth aside and headed into the bus. "Uh no. After the house show in Phoneix, Gwen is heading back to Russia to help her dad out with some family stuff. And Dean and I...well..."
"You and Dean are still weird because-?" Seth looked like he was waiting for me to fill in the blanks. I wanted to but it was just too hard. I didn't even know how to confess what happened. So i just kind of retreated to the bunks where Roman was already settled into his.
"Were you planning on telling us what happened between you two?" He asked, obviously having heard the conversation I was having with Seth just seconds before.
"You say it like you're for sure something happened..." I stared back at his grey eyes that only challenged me to say more.
"Well there's a reason Dean isn't riding with us." Seth chimed in. I didn't like how they were both looking at me, arms folded over their muscular chests and tense electricity filling the air.
"Wait, he's not?" I asked, genuinely surprised. "Why not? Is he going to leave too?"
"Nope...he told us what happened that morning when we were working out. Said it wasn't fair to his best friends." Roman said.
OHHHH FUCK.
"O-oh..." Was all I said.
Roman and Seth exchanged looks and all I wanted to do was retreat into my bunk and disappear into thin air. I knew this would come again to haunt me. What i didn't get was why dean decided to tell them all of a sudden. He seemed like he didn't want to say anything after Gwen and I had our talk with him. Yet now he was nowhere in sight, leaving me to face Roman and Seth's wrath all by myself.
"Is that all you've got to say for yourself? 'Oh'?" Seth asked a little bit of irritation mixed with his simple sentence.
"It wasn't my fault, ok? I stopped it as soon as I realized it was him. I thought that if you found out then you would hate for me and Dean to be friends and this is all kind of turning into that thing with Jeff. I don't want you guys to hate Dean because something happened between us. Anyway he was your best friend before we ever even met."
"Yeah but best friends don't watch their friends girlfriend jerk off, even if your were having a naughty dream about me."
I raised my eyebrow suddenly confused. "wait...What did Dean say exactly?"
"He said that he woke up to you touching yourself and moaning Seth's name when he was sleeping beside you. He was ashamed because all he did was watch you instead of leaving." Roman said.
So the fucker lied even more and only told a partial truth. Way to fucking get me into deeper shit Dean. "He said he was kind of uncomfortable to be around you."
"That's not the complete truth." I gathered the courage to tell them everything. I mean if they already knew about half of what went on why not tell them the whole truth. "He said he might be in love with me..."
"Well duh. He acts like he's only your friend but we're not stupid. We can see how much he's into you." Seth chuckled. "We're not really worried about it. We trust you now. And we've all had our fair share of shit to work out together."
"I know that much but...you guys are okay with him feeling that way about me?"
"You don't feel the same way about him do you?" Roman asked.
"No...I'm not in love with him." I replied quickly.
"And he's not in love with you either. We've known Dean for what...6 or 7 years now. Not once has he ever been in love with a girl. Trust me, you're just his flavor of the month. Well, you and Gwen anyway."
"I'm not just a flavor, Seth. Dean really cares about me!"
Roman patted my head. "He's just trying to be a good guy. Underneath all that dirt and grime he's pretty decent. Let him take his little road trip and clear his head. It'll be fine."
"I thought he was joking too but i swear he's serious when he says that he's in love with me!"
"Leena, don't let it get to your head. Trust us when we say he's not serious. Worry about keeping yourself occupied this weekend while we're gone. For now just relax. You really need it." Roman laid back in his bunk and pulled his headphones over his ears. Seth jumped up into his bunk and stretched out leaving me standing there like an idiot. I couldn't believe that they thought Dean was joking. Of course they didn't see the way he looked at me when he blurted out those words. He was intense, eyes dark and full of passion and anger. I knew he meant every word he said. But Roman and Seth weren't going to believe me no matter how hard I tried. But then again why should I even try to convince them? Technically I got what I wanted. The truth was out (well most of it anyway) and they seemed to be okay with me still hanging out with Dean. He was younger than Roman and not that much older than Seth so maybe they thought of him as the weird middle child that wasn't even competition for them. They already had me so no one would take me away from them. What was there even to worry about?
I pressed my head to the cold wood of the bunk and sighed. Fine. Fuck the drama, I'll just move on with my life, right? Seemed like a great plan. Like Dean said, you gotta Hakuna Matata that shit.
I sat across from Lita clutching my small coffee cup. We had found a little place to chill at while the house show was in Phoenix. The boys had already taken their plane and we're on their way to their gigs. I still had a few hours left with Gwen after my time with Lita and before the house show so day one without Roman or Seth would be complete.
"Why are you so tense girl? I can see it in your eyes already. this isn't going to be a bad conversation!" Lita chuckled.
"No, no...I know. It's just...So the only friends I've got here are Roman, Seth, Dean and Gwen. Roman and Seth are gone, Gwen will be going back to Russia for the weekend and then I'll be alone. It's the first time I've been without them and I don't think I like it very much..."
"What about Dean? I mean I heard threw the grapevine that you and him were a thing too but i wanted to hear it from the horse's mouth."
"No, we're not a thing. I'm together with Seth and Roman only, and that in of itself rubs the girls the wrong way. Like they never heard of polyamory before." I said.
Lita took my hand in hers. "Don't let them get to you, Leena. Trust me, i know what it's like to have the whole locker room talk about you. When i cheated on Matt with Edge everyone hated me. Cheating was a mistake yes, but I was happy once I moved on to Edge. The only person that had my back was Trish. She helped me threw everything. And even that little AJ girl has been giving me the side eye just because I dated Phil before her."
"It's just so difficult Lita! I'm a strong person but I swear they just make me want to cry when I hear all the shit they talk about me. Not even like a sad cry just like an angry cry, It's frustrating. Especially now that they won't listen to me or take me seriously. Some of them do, yeah but I need ALL of them to listen." I whined. Ugh i hated how these bitches made me feel.
"Which is why I wanted to talk. We've got to find a way to round these girls up and get them to work. Or else, this division is going to stay stuck a joke for reality tv." Lita said.
I squeezed her hand and sighed. "I just wanted to bring it back for the adults. Fucking Linda Mcmahon wanted to make everything PG because she was running for office but look at that, she failed. Can't we go back to PG-14?"
"Leena, I'm going to tell you something. With you and Gwen, you two will become the next generation to revolutionize this division like Trish and I did. I believe in you that much."
Oh man, why did she have to say that?! You best believe I started bawling like a baby. Lita only chuckled and came around the table to coddle me in her arms. "You don't even know how much it means to hear your say that."
"Just don't go all crazy on me if I one day start dating some guy that becomes your husband in future."
I chuckled and wiped my tears away with a buttload of napkins. "I promise i won't pull an AJ on you. But also in my defense I don't think Roman and Seth would be your type. And i know you've gotten your fill of the Hardy's so you won't go after Jeff."
"Speaking of which, how was dating Jeff? What's your history? If you don't mind me asking."
"Oh no...Let's see he was 30 when I was 18 and we started dating. He dumped me because he found out he got his old flame pregnant and then like half a year after that they were married. I had to haul my ass back to my hometown and keep doing the wrestling thing on my own. When I did my little stint in TNA last year we had a little fling because we got drunk on night. The way he was around me it was like he wasn't even married. So i have homewrecker on my conscious."
"Pfft, that's nothing. Everyone makes mistakes. We make the worse kind of mistakes when we're in love. I'm not saying what we did was right but we're not pieces of shit for going after what we wanted either." She took a sip of her soda and pushed a few stray hairs out of my face. "You're still young anyway. You've got plenty of enough time to make some more bad descisions."
"I know but I want to try and make better ones. Which is why Dean is wrecking my shit! Ughh...Men are fucking terrible with their hot bodies and nice personalities." I laid my head on her shoulder feeling defeated.
"OK, you'll find out that it's mostly because you're spending so much time on the road together. You have that sudden connection, you're around them all the time, things spark in the moment then after they fizzle. Eventually you'll get to the point where the honeymoon phase is over and the right one...or two...will still want to be with you."
"Dude, love sucks. Big time."
"I know, sweetie. But let's try and keep you focused on other stuff in the mean time, right?" She smiled at me and I couldn't help but return the expression.
"Like getting these girls into shape and calling them out on their bullshit."
"Well, let's not go for drama right off the bat."
"Lita, I'm apart of the WWE roster. Drama follows me EVERYWHERE."