A/N Second chapter! this will be in Roses point of view, you will get to see the contrast between the two characters.

Warning: Self-harm, Depression, and Anxiety are big parts of the story it may trigger a relapse.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Harry Potter universe only JKR does.

Rose:

My whole body is trembling with excitement. Im sitting on my desk in the corner of my turquoise room staring at the letter I just received from Hogwarts, and it feels heavier than usual!

Is this the day I have been waiting for my entire life? I am most probably Head girl for Hogwarts this year! Well maybe if I finally decide to open the beautiful, tremendous, letter that most likely determines my entire future. No pressure though, letter.

Did I just mentally talk to a letter? Maybe my family has finally made me insane.

"ROSE, WAKE UP!" Speak of the devil, my deafening mother has just summoned me.

"All right I will be down in a minute, do you want to see me naked!" I practically screech back.

"Don't be testy with me, little lady." Jesus christ, come off your high horse, mother.

As I try to ignore my annoying mother, I throw on a gray sweater and jean shorts. My hair -which I've decided to not brush because of the bush that it becomes- is tied in a floppy bun, errant pieces are flying around my head. When I look in my vanity mirror I see that my face looks slightly flushed from deep sleep, and freckles cover most of my face. They remind me of stars spattered across the night sky at dusk.

My eyes slowly graze my short and slightly curvy body. I wouldn't describe myself as fat, but I'm not a bony little thing either, Im a pretty normal person except for my red hair. I bet I could blend in, in any crowd if my hair were brown, I just have that kind of body type. I'm definitely not tall, I could not be spotted in the street because of m height. I stand only about 5'4 because of my moms short genes.

As I slip away from the mirror, I put on my white scuffed converse, and head down the stairs. I'm barely on the last step when my brother jumps on me and starts screaming about becoming a prefect for his fifth year.

"Rose! Rose! I got a prefect badge! Doesn't that mean you have to patrol and all that crap. Can you take it away or tell headmistress McGonagall that I don't want it? Please Rose, please!" Can you believe he said all this in about two seconds?

"No Hugo, I think becoming a prefect would help you learn to have more responsibility. And anyway I still have to open my letter, so will you please get off me!

As he climbs off me I think I hear him mutter that I'm 'just like mum', but nothing - even annoying little brothers - can kill my happy feeling. I'm sitting down on my kitchen table as I start to rip the seal that holds the letter together, and just as I thought, a head girl badge fall into my lap. I'm so happy and excited that all I can do for two minutes is sit and stare at it in awe, until reality starts kicking in and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs.

"Rose, can you not make us all bloody deaf!" My father, the sacred Ronald Weasley, is scolding me.

"I'm Head Girl. I'm Head Girl. I'm Head Girl of Hogwarts!" I scream back. As you can probably tell my family is very loud and boisterous.

And now instead of scolding, I'm getting hugs and praise.

"I'm so, so, so happy for you, Rose. We never doubted you." My Mum whispers proudly in my ear as she squeezes the air out of my lungs. I think soon she will attempt to pick me up from the countertop.

"Rosie you absolutely deserve this badge, we are all so proud of you!" My Dad shout/whispers in my other ear, as he hugs me and Mum.

I really, really love my family.

After the group hug was finished I ran upstairs to call my best friend Alice Longbottom. I've known her basically my entire life and we know everything about each other, she is my sister. the only thing that is a slight setback in our relationship is that I'm in Ravenclaw and she's in Gryffindor with the rest of my cousins and brother.

RingRingRing.

"hello?"

"I. Got. Head. Girl."

"Rose I'm so excited for you! But guess what happened during my summer vacation in Venice. So I met this hot guy who was all like 'I love your blue eyes' and then..."

And as I sat and listened to Alice explain in painful detail about her summer romance, I wondered if I would ever feel remotely like she did with a mystery boy than I do in real life, with real people.

Would I ever find someone who even liked me the way Alice liked her 'hot guy friend'. I've only ever dated one guy and that was back in fourth year with lysander Scamander, who, after he dated me realized that he was gay. I'm not against the LGBQ community, but your self esteem takes a blow when you make someone realize they are gay. Its not that I'm not a likable person, even some Slytherins like me, but I don't think people see me as dateable.

Which sucks for my romance life.

"Hello, Rose! Can you hear me?"

"Yeah,Yeah... Why don't boys like me." Great, Rose, Just let it spit out. That is so you.

"What? Of course guys like you, almost everyone likes you." she replied in an almost annoyed voice, like, how could you no know this, voice.

"I don't mean it like that, I mean like, like."

"You do know the only reason you aren't swarmed by guys is because your cousins are so damn protective of you and your girl relatives, right?"

"Yeah, yeah, but if any of them really liked me wouldn't they at least try and deal with my family?"

"I don't know Rose, but maybe thats a great way to realize when someone loves you. When they deal with your family." she chuckles at that, then we say our goodbyes, and before I know it I'm in bed and going back to school in the morning.

Oh the joy.