OMG…all I can say is that writing a paragraph a day made this one tough. I think I finally have it right so I hope it was worth the wait. If there's any consolation…it's a bit longer than the others. I had a few inquiries about the songs in the last chapter so I will list them…Islands in the stream by Kenny Rogers and Dolly Parton…Hammer time by MC Hammer…You Make my dreams come true by Hall and Oates…Dress you up by Madonna and Love me like you do by Ellie Goulding. The song in this chapter is Drive by Melissa Ferrick and if you haven't heard it, it's a great song so go give it a listen. Anyway…thanks for being patient. I hope you all like this one…and thanks again for reading and reviewing. Take care out there…
This Moment
We all have moments in our lives that we want to commit to memory. Moments we can go back to. Moments where our clarity has no uncertainty about going forward and no reservations about what tomorrow holds. For Jane, this was one of those moments. Perhaps it was the way the light from the car dashboard painted Maura in its soft iridescent glow or the slight curve of a knowing smile that played across perfect lips. Or maybe it was the comfortable silence that enveloped them like a warm, inviting, and familiar blanket. It could have been any number of reasons that gave Jane cause to memorize this moment but there was only one that she knew with absolute certainty she would come back to everyday for the rest of her life. The realization that this was the beginning to her happily ever after and she never wanted to forget it.
The silence between them was palpable and Maura could sense the depth of Jane's thoughts by how still Jane had become sitting next to her on the familiar route home. She chanced a glance to see if perhaps Jane had fallen asleep and was surprised to find that Jane was studying her with a pensive expression. The thought to ask what she was thinking quickly disappeared when a strong hand with slender fingers moved over the center console to rest on Maura's leg just below the hem of her sundress. The move caused her to take a sharp intake of breath as warmth radiated from Jane into her. With a subtle movement, Maura shifted herself just enough to allow Jane's hand to slide to the inside of her thigh.
It didn't take much movement on Maura's part to give Jane permission to move her hand. Neither said a word as Jane's fingers danced along silky skin just below the hem of Maura's dress. With a feather like touch, Jane skimmed along the inside of Maura's thigh feeling the muscles twitch slightly under her gentle ministrations. It was enough to set them both on fire but Jane wasn't ready to cross the line just yet. She was enjoying the tease far too much to give in this early in the evening.
Maura gripped the steering wheel tightly, causing her knuckles to turn white under the strain. The continued silence lent another layer to their foreplay and she couldn't bring herself to break the spell they both seemed to be under. The feeling of Jane's fingers moving across her skin sent tremors throughout her body and she had to resist the urge to grab the hand that continued to torment her and place it where she needed it most. Steeling her reserves, Maura vowed to let Jane set the pace.
The closer they got to Maura's, the more frequently the street lights bathed them in intermittent light followed by shadow. It had a dizzying effect on Jane or perhaps it was the feeling of Maura's skin against her fingertips as her hand moved with the lightest of touches along the inside of a strong thigh. With each brush of her fingers, she moved the hem of Maura's dress higher and higher until she thought she might not be able to stop. Taking a deep breath, she centered herself and found the resolve to slow down and enjoy every second leading up to the moment when she could no longer wait. And by her own estimations it wouldn't be long but she knew that it would have to wait until they got home. She refused to have their first time together happen in the front seat of the car. It was her intention to spend all night reacquainting herself with the body she had once worshiped so many years ago.
"What's going through your mind right now?" Maura's voice was quiet as the silence between them was finally broken.
"Um…," Jane paused briefly to look out the window before slowly turning back to Maura. "I've been thinking about how much I've missed you…especially this." Her fingers trailed just a little higher than before causing Maura to shiver.
It wasn't the feeling of Jane's hand moving along her skin that sent a shiver up her spine but the knowledge that Jane was referring to moments like this. Moments where neither of them needed to speak to communicate a thousand words to each other or how their simple silence could express the feelings that had no words. It was moments like this that she had never been able to find with anyone else.
"Is this what you want?" Maura finally reached down and placed her hand on top of Jane's.
"I don't think I've ever wanted anything more in my life…," Jane turned her hand in Maura's so they could interlace their fingers. "I'm trying very hard to be patient."
"I can tell." Maura lifted their hands up to place a kiss on the back of Jane's. "We'll be home in a few minutes. I just want you to know that we'll take things slow…as slow as you need."
"Slow is good." Jane's mouth twitched up into a sly grin. "I plan on spending all night reacquainting myself with every inch of your body…every dip, every curve…"
"Hmmm…I'm probably a little curvier than you remember." Maura sighed heavily at the thought that her body wasn't as young, tight, or thin as it had been in high school.
"You are more beautiful now than you've ever been." Jane could sense the direction of Maura's thoughts. "We've both been through changes Maur. I'm looking forward to discovering new and exciting things about you." She gave Maura's hand a gentle squeeze.
"That's something I've been looking forward to for a while…," Maura squeezed back before releasing Jane's hand so she could use both to turn into the driveway. When she put the car in park, she didn't turn it off right away but instead looked at Jane who had a small frown on her face. The sudden change in expression had her reaching out to run the backs of her fingers along Jane's cheek. "Did I say something to upset you?" She asked in a soft whisper.
Shaking her head, Jane couldn't find the words she needed to express herself. Maura's touch grounded her but also made her light-headed. It was the sad look on Maura's face that finally brought the words to Jane's mouth.
"No, you didn't say anything to upset me. It's just…," Jane hesitated as Maura's fingers continued to stroke her cheek. "I'm sorry I let my fears and insecurities keep you at arm's length. I must have been crazy to think you'd be anything less than you are in this moment." Reaching over, she turned the car off, pulled the keys from the ignition and dangled them in front of Maura. "Shall we?" She shook the keys lightly, causing them to jingle. A smile was her reward as Maura took the keys and nodded her understanding.
Their comfortable silence returned but the undercurrent of desire crackled like a live wire as they climbed out of the car. Jane watched as Maura came around from the driver's side, crossing over in front of her and the need to feel their bodies touching was so intense that she couldn't stop herself from reaching out to grab an arm before pulling Maura against her. Turning, she pinned the body in her arms against the door of the car and pressed her tall, lean frame against Maura. She placed her palms on either side of Maura's shoulders and tilted her head back letting out the breath she felt like she had been holding since Maura had come back into her life.
Finding herself wrapped up in Jane's arms had surprised Maura, but not as much as the feeling of being pressed against the car door. Even through the haze of desire, it was a moment of clarity for her, it was in fact the moment she realized that Jane was ready. The feeling of Jane pressed against her took her breath away and she watched in awe as Jane leaned her head back exposing her long neck. Nothing needed to be said between them. Maura knew by the slight tremor that traveled along Jane's body that it was becoming harder and harder to maintain control.
"I know you want this as much I do…," Maura leaned forward and placed her lips at the hollow of Jane's throat before trailing her tongue along a slender neck prompting Jane to look down at her giving her easier access to her mouth. "But it would do neither of us any good for Angela to pull up and find that we couldn't wait until we got inside…," she said as her mouth skimmed over Jane's lips.
The light contact of Maura's mouth on her own caused Jane to moan. The way that Maura's tongue had moved along her neck before finding her mouth caused Jane's knees to go weak. She gave a slight nod of acknowledgement before resting her forehead against Maura's. It was more of an effort to keep herself standing than any sort of grand gesture.
"I don't know if I can move…," Jane said with a sigh. "It's all I can do to keep standing…"
Maura wrapped her arms around Jane's waist and rested her head against Jane's chest. "Take a deep breath." She said, not at all sure she could do the same.
"Speaking of getting inside…," Jane pulled back and raised a questioning eyebrow at Maura.
"I've taken the hidden key and put it away so there is no chance of our being interrupted tonight." Maura answered the question that Jane didn't need to ask.
"Then I think it's time we moved along, don't you?" Jane shifted her weight just enough to allow Maura to move away from the car but instead of letting go, she wrapped her arms around Maura's waist from behind and rested her chin on the shoulder in front of her.
"You're not going to make this easy, are you?" Maura laughed as she placed her hands over the ones that were holding her close.
"Nope…," Jane said as she nuzzled at the crook of Maura's neck.
Even though it was only a one-word answer, the feeling of Jane's hot breath against Maura's skin caused her to drop the keys. She bent down only when Jane reluctantly let her go giving her the reprieve she needed to refocus and of course retrieve the dropped keys. Taking a few steps towards the door she was already missing having Jane's hands on her. She couldn't move fast enough to get inside the front door where her needs and desires would finally be sated.
Jane hesitated but only for a second as she watched Maura pick up the keys and move away from her with the mission of opening the front door as quickly as possible. She couldn't help but smile as a surge of confidence washed over her, something she hadn't felt in a long time. Her fears dissolved and were replaced with anticipation. The realization that she never needed to be afraid again when it came to their relationship caused a thrill to race along her skin, the same skin that needed to be touched by Maura or she feared she might just spontaneously combust.
As Jane approached the object of her desire or perhaps in that moment, torture, she noticed that Maura's hands were shaking as she tried to place the key in the lock so she reached over in an attempt to help steady her. The move only caused Maura to shake more as she struggled to do something she had done hundreds of times before.
"Here, let me help." Jane took the key, placed it in the lock and opened the door. Neither of them moved right away causing Jane to run her hands up Maura's arms until they rested on her shoulders. "Are you alright?" She whispered.
"No, not really." Maura let out a shuttering breath.
"What it is Maura? Tell me…," Jane's hands stayed where they were, but her body kept its distance.
"It's just…," Maura hesitated before leaning back against Jane. "I've been thinking about this for so long that I'm not sure where to start."
"How about we start at the beginning." Jane gently guided Maura in the door and into the foyer. "Would you like a drink? A glass of wine maybe?" She moved past Maura towards the kitchen not waiting for an answer.
"Yes, there's a bottle of Pinot sitting on the counter. I'll have a glass of that if you don't mind." Maura moved towards the living room. All of a sudden she was feeling very much unlike herself, anxious and shy.
"Go wait for me in there…," Jane tilted her head towards the living room. "I'll be right back." The confidence she had felt earlier was still there. She could tell that Maura was struggling with things at the moment but she wasn't sure why. It was very uncharacteristic for Maura to be anything but in complete control of her emotions. For some reason it bolstered Jane.
Maura sat on the edge of the couch and waited. Being alone got her to thinking and without realizing it she was analyzing her feelings. She knew that she wanted to be with Jane, she had thought of little else since they had come back into each other's lives. But there was just the smallest seed of doubt trying to take root. Her mind drifted to their time together in high school and a small smile creased her lips. There was no doubt that they had been compatible physically. In fact, their physical relationship had been the best she had ever had, before or since. As she continued to ponder, she realized that there was no room for doubt any more when it came to her and Jane. They had been to hell and back…together and separately. No, it was time to let go of whatever reservations niggled at the back of her mind. This was to be their beginning, their fresh start and Maura's stomach tightened in anticipation. The only thing that mattered to her now was being here with Jane.
"Can I ask you what's put that smile on your face?" Jane asked as she handed Maura her glass of wine. In her other hand she carried one of her favorite beers. It had been a nice surprise to find it waiting for her in Maura's refrigerator.
"You can ask, but I think I'll keep it to myself for a while." Maura gave a sly grin in response as she took a sip of her wine. She sighed at the warm, spicy liquid as it passed her lips and danced along her tongue before she swallowed it.
"That good, huh?" Jane arched an eyebrow as she took a seat on the coffee table across from Maura.
"You have no idea." Maura couldn't stop the insinuation from tainting her words.
"Oh, I think I've got an idea." Jane winked as she took a drink of her beer.
"You've still got it my dear…," Maura set her wine glass down and leaned close to Jane so their faces were almost touching but not quite.
Jane tilted her head as she studied the hazel-green eyes that gazed into her own. She could smell the wine on Maura's breath, spicy with hints of black cherry and it was all she could do to stop herself from finding out if Maura's lips tasted the way she knew they would.
"What? You doubted me?" Jane tried to make light of the situation even though she was on the verge of finally taking what she wanted.
"Never…," Maura sighed as she grabbed her wine glass and reluctantly pulled back. She was enjoying this, the anticipation leading up to that moment she knew she would never forget.
"Yeah?" Jane smirked as she tipped her beer bottle back to take another drink. After she swallowed the amber liquid, she quietly studied Maura as if she were trying to decide what she was going to say next. With a quick nod of her head, the words finally came as if she had suddenly made a difficult decision. "Maura? Would you do something for me?"
Taking a deep breath, Maura steadied herself before answering. "Anything…," she said easily and the confidence that had eluded her earlier returned.
"Would you dance with me?" Jane asked as she set her beer bottle down on the table next to her. Her eyes were bright with uncertainty as she started to fidget nervously.
"I would love to." Maura reached over and grabbed Jane's hands to still them. She felt a ripple of relief wash over her because this is what she wanted, to take things slow, giving Jane the time she needed.
"Um…I've got this song I wanted to share with you…," Jane pulled out her cell phone and connected to the Bluetooth speaker that sat on the shelf next to the TV. With a few swipes, she queued up the song and hit pause. "I know I'm not good with words or expressing myself sometimes but this…," she held up her phone to indicate what she was talking about. "This song kinda sums it up for me."
Maura smiled at Jane to reassure her that she understood. Jane had always used music as a bridge between them, using it as a way to communicate things she couldn't quite bring herself to say or perhaps she just wasn't able to. She could tell by the look of concentration on Jane's face that she would need to listen to the words carefully because there would be something profound in their message.
"Okay…," Jane stood up and reached down to take Maura's hand in her own, pulling her up to stand with her. She pushed the play button, set her phone down on the table, and then ran her fingers through her hair as the beginning riff of the song filled the room.
The music was slow and sexy with an unhurried rhythm that traveled along Maura's skin just as Jane's fingers had earlier. She almost got lost in the sound that surround her until she felt Jane's hands on her hips. Strong hands guided her until their bodies were pressed together as a slow and steady sway moved them across the room. The feeling of Jane's hand's holding her close, the heat radiating from their bodies, and the rapid beating of her heart were almost too much for her but then the first words from the song reached her.
If you want this…
If you want this…
If you want this…you're gonna have to ask
(Nicely please)
Yeah, if you want this
You're gonna have to ask
You're gonna have to ask
Jane's lips moved against Maura's ear as the words left her mouth in a whispered breath. Their bodies continued to move together as her left arm wrapped around Maura's back, pulling her closer. With her right hand, Jane reached up to push long, honey-blonde hair away from Maura's neck so she could continue to sing the words against Maura's soft skin.
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
I'll give it to you slowly
Till you're begging me to hold you
Yeah, whatever you want
Whatever you want
But you're gonna have to ask
The feeling of Jane's mouth moving over her exposed neck caused Maura's legs to shake, making her grateful she was being held. The words that licked at her skin burned to her very core and she wasn't sure where the singers voice started and Jane's ended. And as if everything leading up to this moment hadn't already left her feeling weak, it was nothing compared to what was to follow as Jane's mouth continued to dance along her jaw.
Your mouth waters
Stretched out on my bed
Your fingers are trembling
And your heart is heavy and red
Jane murmured against the flushed skin at Maura's throat before reaching up to tangle her fingers in Maura's thick hair.
And your head is bent back
With a gentle tug, Jane pulled Maura's head back and leaned forward, dipping Maura back in her arms.
And your back is arched
The hand that had been at Maura's back moved lower.
My hand is under there
Holding you up
With a quick jerk, Jane pulled Maura back up pressing their bodies together again. She lifted Maura's hands up over her head and interlaced their fingers before bringing both of their hands down to rest on her own swaying hips.
I'll hold you up
And drive you all night
I'll hold you up
And drive you baby until you feel the daylight
I'll hold you up
And I'll drive you all night
Again, Jane brought their joined hands up above their heads and leaned close to Maura until their faces were so close she could smell the faint aroma of dark cherries on Maura's lips. All the while she continued to move with rhythm of the song.
That's right
That's right
Jane skimmed her lips over Maura's as she brought their hands down but this time she held them behind Maura's back. She couldn't help but smile at the way that Maura was moving against her as if the song had become a part of her. Pulling back just enough to see the dazed look on Maura's face, she continued to mouth the words.
In the kitchen
Jane said with a sexy smirk that had them nodding at each other.
In the shower
A raised eyebrow was followed by a shake of the head as they both agreed it wasn't their favorite.
And in the back seat of my car
This time a grin was the answer.
I'll hold you up
In your office
Preferably during business hours
Cause you know how I like it when there's people around
The question in Jane's eyes was met with a shy smile from Maura.
And I know how you like it
Yeah, I know how you like it
I know how you like when I tease
You for hours
This time Jane brought their joined hands up and around her neck before letting go and pulled Maura close again. Slowly and with purpose, she ran her hands down Maura's back until she found the hem of Maura's dress. Taking the material between her fingers, she bunched it up and moved her hands higher. Slowly, she continued to move against Maura's body as the chorus played. She brushed her mouth across Maura's cheek until their lips met and their tongues began the same slow dance as their bodies. The memory of Maura's kiss was nothing compared to the one in this moment. The velvety softness of Maura's tongue against hers. The warmth of Maura's mouth. The spicy taste of wine on Maura's lips. All of these things were enough to bring Jane to her knees but as the song continued, she suddenly pulled away from the heated kiss and turned Maura around in her arms so her front was against Maura's back.
Oh and how this has just begun
Yeah, this has just begun
Because we haven't even gotten started
I haven't even
I haven't even tied you up yet
I haven't even turned you over
Jane buried her face in the crook of Maura's neck and lightly ran her teeth along Maura's tender skin. She could feel Maura trembling in her arms now as her hands moved from her waist lower to her hips as she continued to whisper the words in her ear.
This is where I want to live
Right here between your hips
Where all the love you hold and hide exists
It's were it lives
Right here between your hips
This is where I want to live
It's where all the love you give exists
And as the song continued to play in the back ground, it got lost in the haze that encompassed them both as Jane's hands moved up and under the front of Maura's dress.
"Tell me what you want Maura." Jane's voice was hoarse and breathless.
Reaching her right arm up to encircle Jane's neck, Maura pulled down until Jane's mouth hovered just above hers. "You…," she whispered. "I just want you."
"Hmmm…," Jane kissed Maura deeply before running her tongue along Maura's bottom lip. "I think that can be arranged." With a gentle twirl, Jane turned Maura around in her arms, reached down, and lifted Maura's legs up off the ground.
Maura wrapped her legs around Jane's waist, enjoying the strong arms holding her up. "Thank you for sharing that with me." She said as the song came to an end followed by the sounds of their heavy breathing.
"I know I'm not good at sharing my feelings…," Jane hesitated slightly. "But music has always been a form of expression for me. I hope it helped…," she said as she started to move towards the staircase.
"I love how you seem to pick just the right song for us." Maura relaxed in Jane's arms as she felt them moving. "Now, please…take me upstairs and make me feel all of those things you whispered in my ear because we haven't even gotten started yet."
The room was dark when they entered prompting Maura to untangle herself from Jane's arms. She moved across the room to turn on a lamp that sat on the bedside table, bathing them both in a soft, warm glow. Silence surrounded them again as they regarded at each other wondering what would come next. But Jane had the answer as she took several long strides until her body was almost touching Maura's.
Jane's sudden movement took Maura by surprise, causing her breath to catch in her chest. She could feel the intensity of Jane's presence and it made her afraid to look up into the brown eyes she knew would be smoldering. A shiver ran through her body when she felt Jane's fingers touch her chin, tilting her face up to look at her. And those dark eyes did not disappoint her. But nothing could prepare her for the feeling of Jane's fingers as they slowly trailed down her throat before pushing her hair away from her neck.
Jane had surprised herself by her sudden move towards Maura. A need she hadn't felt in a long time took over and she couldn't help herself from reaching out and touching. It amused her that Maura seemed suddenly shy and unable to look at her, so she used two fingers to tilt Maura's face up so she could look her in the eyes. She wasn't disappointed to find that Maura's hazel-green eyes burned with the same desire that Jane knew was reflected in her own eyes. And then her fingers moved ever so slowly down to the hollow of Maura's throat, moving with a purpose. Their eyes stayed locked in a steady gaze that neither was willing to break as Jane's hand moved to brush silky stands of hair over Maura's shoulder, exposing an expanse of creamy, white skin along a slender neck. Dropping her gaze, Jane concentrated on the spot at the crook of Maura's neck just below an ear where her fingers had come to rest. She then danced her fingers along Maura's skin until her hand moved behind Maura's head, letting her thumb stay in that spot she had been concentrating on. And then finally, she leaned in and pressed her lips to the spot her thumb had continued to caress before skimming her mouth up and over the outline of Maura's ear, only pulling away when she felt Maura turn toward her. It was the permission she had been waiting for, the permission to taste the lips she had been craving since their kiss downstairs. And taste she did, soft and sweet, drinking in all that was being offered to her.
When Jane's mouth found hers, Maura reached up to frame Jane's face and deepened the kiss. It was the first brush of Jane's tongue against her own that caused her to moan.
The vibration of Maua's moan traveled through Jane and settled in her chest. She leaned in and pulled Maura against her at the same time as her hands moved to the back of Maura's thighs, coming to rest against the satin like material of the dress she was beginning to bunch up with her fingers. Slowly and with one sole purpose in mind, she lifted the dress up and over Maura's head in one graceful movement before going back for more, taking Maura's lips in a fierce kiss that expressed all of the love she was feeling.
The distraction of cool air against her heated skin caused Maura to pull back from Jane as a sudden shyness overcame her. She could feel Jane's eyes sweep across her body, bringing memories and the realization that her body was different then that eighteen-year-old that Jane probably remembered. This thought was the catalyst for a wave of uncertainty that crashed over Maura causing her to cross her arms over her chest.
Jane watched as several emotions passed over Maura's face ranging from desire and wistfulness before settling on uncertainty The uncertainty in Maura's eyes was something Jane wasn't used to seeing and it surprised her. It wasn't until Maura crossed her arms over her chest that she realized what was happening.
"Maura honey, please…," Jane's voice trembled with her plea.
Closing her eyes and taking a deep breath, Maura could barely bring herself to shake her head. The sudden feeling of uncertainty made her feel foolish and she didn't understand what was happening to her.
"I've never been shy around you before. I don't understand why I would feel this way now." Maura let out a shaky breath as she kept her eyes away from Jane's questioning ones.
"Would this help?" Jane asked as she started to unbutton her shirt with unsteady hands.
The sight of Jane unbuttoning her shirt in an attempt to reveal herself caused Maura to reach out to stop her. "Let me…," her voice was light and breathless as she took over.
"I know we've changed a lot over the years but there's one thing that hasn't…," Jane took Maura's hands in her own when she released the last button of her shirt. "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on in my life."
The shy smile returned as Maura slipped her hands from Jane's and pushed the open shirt off of strong shoulders. The body before her was exactly the same as she remembered. And as her fingers traced over the well-defined muscles of Jane's stomach causing them to twitch she finally glanced up to see that Jane was studying her with an intense look of concertation.
There was a serious look on Jane's face as she watched one of Maura's fingers ran along a thin, slightly raised scar but it didn't scare it like it had before. This was it, the moment she had waited for, the moment of her surrender.
"I'm sorry this happened to you." Maura whispered as her eyes and her finger continued to move over the slightly raised scar tissue that marred the otherwise perfect skin.
"I'm not." Jane's voice was strong and steady and when Maura looked up in surprise, she gave a crooked grin before continuing. "It's what brought you back to me and because of that…I've made my peace with what happened."
"Oh, my sweet Jane." Maura leaned forward and placed her lips against the scar just above Jane's right breast and placed a soft kiss there. "I admire your strength and perseverance…I always have."
"I'm not afraid anymore Maura…," Jane ran her hands up Maura's arms, over her shoulders, and down her back only stopping when she came to the clasp of Maura's bra. "And you shouldn't be either." She undid the bra and then slid her fingers under the satin straps before sliding them down Maura's arms.
"I've never been self-conscious around you before but I don't have the same body I did when I was eighteen. It amazes me that you have the same musculature you did back then. I don't think you've gained a pound and if you have it was muscle and not fat. I'm sure you'll notice that I've gained a few pounds but really, who can fight it when the odds are against you. I mean I try to work out, run, and do yoga but sometimes you just can't win. It's just the way it is when your metabolism slows down and you know…hormones play a role as well…," Maura rambled on prompting Jane to place a finger against her lips to silence her.
"Have I told you how much I love your Google mouth?" Jane leaned forward and placed a soft, gentle kiss to Maura's mouth as her finger wandered over the soft skin of Maura's throat. "And for the record, I love every single dip…," she said as her finger continued to trail lower. "And every single curve your body has to offer…," her voice lowered to a husky whisper as her finger continued to move running along the edge of a full breast with the lightest of touches causing Maura to shiver.
As Jane continued to lightly tease, Maura realized how close the pleasure was to pain as she trembled with desire but ached for Jane to touch her more intimately. But even though the pleasure bordered on pain, she didn't try to rush Jane. Instead, Maura stood still and allowed Jane to continue to explore at her own pace until she felt the first brush of fingertips across an already hardened nipple drawing a moan from both of them.
"I need you to lay on the bed…," Jane's voice was a hushed whisper in Maura's ear as she guided them closer to the bed.
"Not until you take these off." Maura yanked at Jane's jeans, undoing the button fly before reaching to pull Jane's sports bra over her head. She let out a sigh of relief when Jane dipped her against the bed, gently laying her back with strong arms. It was those same strong arms that held Jane up so she could hover over Maura and look her in the eyes as a sexy smirk played across her lips.
"It's been a while…I hope I haven't lost my touch." Jane's eyes twinkled playfully as she continued to hover just high enough so that their bodies didn't touch.
"Why don't you touch me and find out?" Maura smirked back.
"You'd like that now, wouldn't you Dr. Isles…," Jane teased as her eyes swept over the body beneath her.
"I suggest you shut up and kiss me detective…," Maura reached up, wrapped her arms around Jane's neck, and pulled her down into a kiss.
The kiss was slow and unhurried as Maura's mouth found Jane's. The soft brush of a tongue seeking her own had Maura arching up so she could feel Jane's body against hers. And when that delicious moment of skin against skin finally arrived, it was all Maura could do to savor it before Jane was moving away again so they were laying alongside each other.
Laying side by side, they stared into each other's eyes, seeking the confirmation that this was something they both wanted. A wisp of honey-blonde hair fell across Maura's forehead as Jane continued to watch for any indication that she should stop, but the only thing she saw was honesty looking back at her, begging her to continue. And when Jane finally accepted her fate, her lips parted on an exhale of breath that moved over Maura's soft skin causing goose bumps. Bringing her hand up to rest in the hallow of Maura's throat, her thumb traced along a bottom lip before her mouth replaced fingers that trailed down Maura's neck and across her chest as their lips met again.
"God Maura…," Jane pulled away from their kiss to allow her lips to skim across Maura's cheek towards her ear. "This body...," She gently pushed Maura to her back and moved so she could lower herself again so they were touching. "And the anticipation of what it has to offer makes me realize that I've been starving all of these years without you."
"Take what you need…please…," Maura closed her eyes and tilted her head towards Jane's mouth as it moved over her ear. It wasn't enough that Jane's lips were traveling along her skin, but her tongue left a wet trail of heat in its wake drawing a low moan from deep within Maura.
Jane's hot breath blew against overly sensitive skin and she whispered words of love and promises of things to come as she dipped her head to skim her lips over Maura's jaw and down her throat. She allowed her tongue to sketch indelible lines, tracing a path towards her final destination just above Maura's right breast. The feeling of fingers running through her hair, guiding her to where Maura needed her most caused her to slow her decent. With her mouth just barely touching the soft skin beneath her, she raised her dark eyes so she could see Maura's reaction. When their eyes met, the hunger and desire she saw looking back at her spurred her to continue until her lips brushed against an erect nipple. Fingers tightened their grip in her hair just before her tongue replaced her lips.
A warm sensation started in the pit of Maura's stomach and radiated out in waves traveling throughout her body and over her skin. It was almost too much too soon but she couldn't stop it if she wanted to. Her eyelids fluttered as she held Jane against her, encouraging her to continue her gentle ministrations.
"I love how soft your skin is…," Jane purred against the curve of Maura's breast.
"I love how soft your lips are on my skin…," Maura's voice was breathless as she pressed herself further into Jane. Closing her eyes, she was in awe at the feeling of Jane's hair floating along her skin before she brushed it away and opened her eyes so she could watch Jane continue her exploration from one breast to the other. Her breath came fast and heavy as her eyes followed Jane's every move. A flick of her tongue followed by a slow, exaggerated lick brought a gasp from Maura just before Jane captured her with her lips and sucked into her mouth.
Jane could feel eyes on her as she moved across the valley between Maura's breasts to settle her lips against the one she had previously neglected. The sound of Maura's breathless moan sent a tremor throughout her body. A sense of wonderment settled over her as she marveled at the power she still had, the power to give Maura what she wanted and what she needed. And she had every intention of fulfilling the promises she had whispered against Maura's skin as she ducked her head lower allowing her hair to slide over the smooth skin of Maura's stomach as her journey over dips and curves continued. Maura's body was exactly as she had remembered, soft, supple, and so very responsive to her touch.
The slow and steady decent of Jane's lips as they moved further down her body had Maura holding her breath in anticipation. She knew where she needed Jane the most but the deliberate path of Jane's mouth conjured up memories of times before and her fingers tightened their grip in the tangle of Jane's hair.
"Maur…honey, your gonna have to loosen the grip if you want me to continue." Jane paused just above Maura's belly button and peered up at her. She smiled against the soft skin she found there when she felt Maura's fingers loosen but not let go. "You do want me to continue…don't you?" A sexy smirk played across her lips as she placed open mouthed kisses along Maura's stomach.
"Oh God, yes…yes…please Jane…," Maura panted as she threw her head back against a pillow and looked to the ceiling as if she might find some sort of reprieve from the onslaught of sensations that raced along her skin.
"Then look at me darlin'…I need to see those beautiful eyes watching my every move." Jane moved her mouth to hover just above the elastic of Maura's lacey underwear. She waited there until Maura looked down at her, giving her full attention to what was to come next. Moving her mouth over to Maura's left hip, she placed a kiss there before moving to the right hip to do the same and then with a sexy smirk she hooked a finger on either side of the lacey material before sliding it down the legs she was settling between. "This is where I want to live…," she murmured against the soft skin on the inside of Maura's thigh. "Right here between your hips…it's where all the love you give exists…," the last lines of the song she had shared with Maura earlier traveled over heated skin as Jane lifted Maura's legs to her shoulders and moved toward the center of her universe.
Maura's vision dimmed at the first touch of Jane's tongue and the urgency to feel more caused her to thrust upwards seeking the contact she so desperately needed. All her senses narrowed to the sensation of Jane's mouth on her as if nothing else existed before this moment and nothing else would exist after it. She could feel strong hands holding her in place as Jane's tongue moved over her, flicking until she thought she might go mad. And as she struggled to feel more, she began to move her hips setting the rhythm for Jane to follow. It was a rhythm that came from deep within her, set by the rapid beating of her heart and the memory of how Jane set her soul on fire. Then, a delicious vibration began in her thighs and with a final rush, traveled upward with an increasing intensity that shook her to her core. She closed her eyes, threw her head back, and called out Jane's name as the universe rained down on her in a shower of stars filled with the brightest of colors and light as her body stiffened and held its place against Jane.
The awe of watching Maura coming undone in her arms hadn't diminished over the years nor the power it had on her own body. The ripple that started against her lips as she brought Maura to the brink and then over radiated throughout her in waves, washing away years of regret. It was the purest form of absolution for her battered soul and she never wanted to be without Maura. Come what may, she would never have to face anything alone again.
When the world finally came back to Maura and her heart rate slowed giving her the chance to catch her breath again and she ran her fingers through Jane's long, tangle of dark hair. She hadn't been sure she would ever come back from the feeling of floating away like an untethered balloon but the weight of Jane's body moving up her own grounded her. Her body felt paralyzed by the pleasurable aftershocks that continued to move over her overly sensitive skin and she marveled at how quickly her body had given in.
"You wreck me…you know that?" Maura let out a tired sigh.
"Really?" Jane let out her own sigh as she settled against Maura.
"You're the only one that can do that to me. The only one who can reduce me to a puddle of mush with the lightest of touches." Maura placed her hand against Jane's cheek and used her thumb to rub along a full bottom lip. "When I'm with you…nothing else seems to exist. The only thing I can think about is where you're going to touch me next and the anticipation carries its own level of pleasure. I've never had that with anyone else."
"So, what you're saying is that I haven't lost my touch…," Jane's face relaxed into an easy smile as the backs of her fingers began a lazy trail along the outside of Maura's breast.
"Not even a little…," Maura rolled over on top of Jane. She leaned in and kissed the lips beneath hers slowly as her fingers brushed away the hair at Jane's temple. Pulling back, she gazed down and gasped at the love she saw reflected back at her through dark, brown eyes. "I feel as if I've waited a lifetime for this moment."
"You don't have to wait anymore Maura, I'm right here and we have a lifetime of being together ahead of us." Jane ran her hands down Maura's back, bringing them to rest on hips that moved to straddle her.
"Tell me what you want." Maura began to move slowly against the body beneath hers.
"I want to be the breath you take just before you whisper my name as you come undone in my arms." Jane's hands moved along Maura's thighs to hold her in place. Pushing herself up into a seated position so she was face to face with Maura, her lips moved to whisper in an ear. "Do you remember the first time we made love?"
All Maura could do was nod against the hot breath in her ear. She closed her eyes as she recalled that night so many years ago.
"Do you remember how you took me? How you owned that moment…possessed my soul with the love we shared?" Jane's voice was becoming breathless as Maura continued to move against her. "I want that…I want the memory of your body…the memory of the love we have for each other imprinted on my heart until the day I die. You're all I want…you're all I've ever wanted or will ever want."
"For someone who claims they aren't good with words…you sure wax poetic." Maura gave Jane a gentle push so she would lay back.
"I can't help it when I have you to inspire me." Jane gave a crooked grin as she laid back and watched Maura with interest.
Maura rested her hands, palm down on Jane's stomach and marveled at the way the sculpted muscles twitched under her exploring fingers. She could feel Jane's breathing coming faster as her hands moved higher until her thumbs brushed the underside of each breast. Her eyes stayed locked on Jane's as she waited for any indication she should stop but when Jane's eyelids fluttered shut she couldn't suppress a small, rather triumphant grin. The skin under her fingertips was soft and supple as she watched Jane's reaction with interest. As her touch moved higher, Jane's hands moved back down to her hips giving her the leverage she needed to move against Maura. The pace was set at a slow and steady grind as Maura brushed a thumb over one nipple and then the other.
Jane took a deep breath and then let it out in a long hiss as she arched into Maura's touch. She could feel the heat building up deep inside of her and she knew it would just be a matter of time before it would burn Maura's skin.
Leaning forward so her body was laying atop Jane's, Maura placed light, open mouthed kisses along a dimpled cheek and then moving to slightly parted lips. She began a slow exploration with her tongue of the mouth beneath her own before skimming her lips down along Jane's jaw to the hollow of her throat. As her mouth continued its decent, her right hand slipped past the only barrier left between them. Fingers dipped beneath satin material until Maura felt all the confirmation she needed to press further.
The feeling of Maura's hand moving down her stomach in an exploration that would surely end where she needed her most caused Jane to gasp. And when those fingers finally found what they sought, the heat that raced along her skin carried Maura's name to her lips in a whispered plea.
"Maura…," Jane whispered on an exhale of breath.
"I'm here Jane…," Maura answered back as her mouth lowered to worship one breast and then the other. With practiced patience, she tasted and tantalized the skin beneath her lips as her fingers continued to stroke and tease.
"Please…," Jane's voice broke on her one-word plea. Her fingers grasp at Maura's neck and shoulders, trying to guide her to where she needed her. She let out a sigh of relief when Maura started to move lower.
Maura smiled against Jane's heated skin as she moved along the curve of a breast before running her tongue along the sculpted muscles of Jane's stomach. She lifted her hands and hooked her fingers in the waistband at Jane's hips to remove the last barrier between them. The move drew a sigh from Jane before Maura continued her silent prayer against the trembling skin beneath her mouth.
The slow decent of Maura's mouth was enough to drive Jane crazy but the anticipation of what was to come was the sweetest anguish she had ever experienced. She let out a soft sigh when she felt satin material sliding down her legs, finally freeing her from its confines and leaving her open to Maura's exploration. It wasn't until Maura's tongue found her that she closed her eyes and wondered if she could survive the onslaught of sensation that crashed over her like a wave threatening to carry her away. It was in that moment that time stood still and everything but the love they shared ceased to exist as Jane slipped under the current and was carried away by the surge of pleasure that Maura offered to her…over and over again.
"I love you…I love you…," the words tumbled from Jane's lips as her body gave in. She could feel the rippling current of Maura's adoration sweeping along her skin as she accepted all of the out pouring of love that Maura had to offer.
"I love you too." Maura allowed herself to be pulled up to lay alongside Jane. Gazing into Jane's dark, brown eyes she could see everything she needed to see as she placed her lips to Jane's with the promise of tomorrow. "You are my beginning, middle, and end…and we haven't even gotten started yet."