Hey! Now I know I haven't updated this in a while but I was listening to 'The Host' on audio book and realized I just had to listen to Mel and Wanda's inner conflict to understand what I should write for Ian and Luvon. So here's this.

DISCLAIMER: The characters do not belong to me they belong to Stephanie Meyer's author of the wonderful book 'The Host'

Understanding

I walked down the hall of the center with a guard behind me.

It's so annoying. Ian said in my head, It's like I'm four and we have to be walked to the bathroom by Kyle.

He showed me the memories of when Kyle had to take him to the bathroom and they'd both hated it.

That's what we get. I said to him, If your still here they won't trust me, they think you could break out and hurt someone or me.

I know it's an option. I wonder how Mel did it. I know Wanda said she got out when Wanda was overwhelmed. Maybe I can break out if Wanda kisses me again.

Technically she's kissing me. I'm the body now. I said biting my lip. I really didn't want that to happen. No matter how much both I and Ian wanted to kiss her, it wouldn't be fair to any of us. Though there was one thing I did want to talk to her about.

It's really rude of you to ask her. I ignored him. For the record I object.

There is no record. I said as we reached a room. I knocked.

It took a moment before she opened the door, when she did a smile immediately spread across her face. "Luvon, come on in." I did. She stopped him when the guard tried to enter as well. "If it's alright we'd like to speak privately. I will be fine. I assure you neither the soul nor the human inside will harm me."

I felt warmth glow up in my heart. She knew we wouldn't hurt her, and she'd added me in the equation.

She knows better than anyone what you're going through. Ian said sadly, And she knows how to approach the situation.

I nodded. She did, and she was handling the situation with such grace and understanding that I would probably fall in love with her wither it was Ian in here with me or not.

She's amazing but she's mine remember? Ian said defensively.

Your really jealous aren't you. I said getting a bit defensive myself.

Only when it comes to my Wanda. He said.

I heard the door close and tried to focus more on the present, there would be lots more time to have silent conversations with Ian.

"I'm so happy to see you." Wanda said stepping towards me.

I wanted to pull her into my arms. Whenever she'd hugged him or even touched him Ian had always felt better. But I didn't, I knew that if I did I would get bombarded by nasty "Mine" comments by Ian and it wouldn't be fair to me to get attached when she couldn't ever really be mine.

I took a deep breath, "I came to ask some questions." I said walking over to the bed and sitting down.

"Alright." She said sitting next to me.

I took a steadying breathe, "I wanted to ask you about what you went through with Melanie inside your head. Before or while you were in the caves."

She sighed, "It's hard isn't it?" I nodded. "Well, first you and Ian will spend a lot of time together so the both of you have to get along or at least call a truce."

I felt a little smug, Ian had to be nice to me.

You have to be nice to me too. Ian retorted.

"You need to take each other into account." She said. She looked straight into my eyes, "Ian. Remember how hard it was for you to try and be with me while Mel was there? The first time."

Ian produced the memory and I watched it. I watched as he tried to get her to physically respond to him while in Mel's body but all it happened to do is make Mel angry and hurt Wanda.

I winced, I could see it from Wanda's point of view, if Melanie loved her Jared as much as Ian loves Wanda.

More. Ian said understandingly. He understood how it'd felt for Melanie yelling inside Wanda's head.

"I'm sorry." I said rubbing my hands on my thighs. "Ian didn't realize what a struggle it'd had been."

She smiled and grabbed my hand. Our hand. I corrected myself.

Thanks

Your welcome.

Our hand kind of tingled at her touch. "It was hard but I got through it. And you will too. Both of you."

I tried to take a deep breath, "You know…. No offence but I think it's a bit harder for me than it was for you. "

She raised her eyebrows and cocked her head to the side, "How?"

I closed the hand, she held, around her small one, "Because Ian's a man." I said simply. When she still seemed confused I elaborated. "Male emotions aren't as complicated as the female emotions but the physical drives are."

Comprehension dawned on her and she blushed and nodded, "Oh."

"We dream about you every night." I said, "Ian is fond of your moments alone and together in the caves."

She got redder, it really was adorable. "And if he is then you are too." She said in a small voice.

I nodded, "I'm getting rather attached to you. Ian doesn't approve. He calls you 'His Wanda' all the time and I understand his feelings."

Wanda nodded. "I think I understand now." She began, "What Jared felt like. When I came into the caves in Mel's body. He was shocked, hurt and he probably cried a lot."

And I understand how Mel felt. Wanting to touch and respond to Jared but not wanting to do it while Wanda called the shots. And defiantly not wanting her to fall in love with someone else. Ian said with comprehension.

"I understand what you were thinking." I said, "I can see Ian's memories of you in the caves and I can understand how you must have felt."

She chuckled, "Now all we're missing is someone who understands how Ian felt." She frowned, "Though if we could escape that mess I'd be grateful. I'm not sure I could go through that as graciously as Jared did."

I nodded, "And I'm not sure Ian could handle it."

Nope. He said matter-of-factly I probably couldn't.

"You know," She said, "I do understand one thing…. I understand how hard it was to control the emotions around Jared." She half smiled at me, "I'm impressed Luvon."

I felt heat rise up into my heart and cheeks. I looked into her round and gray eyes, both Ian and I imagined leaning forward and kissing her like Ian use to. Ian was filled with jealousy and I was filled with guilt. I wanted to kiss her without him getting angry. He wanted to kiss her too but he wanted to do it without me, and that couldn't happen.

"You know…." She said softly leaning forward, "I know how it feels but I really want to kiss you right now."

Without knowing what was happening our body leaned forward and our lips met. I felt our body tingle, we were in a room alone, we didn't have a time limit and we didn't have anywhere to go. My…. Our hands slid to her waist and hers went around my neck and she buried her fingers in our hair.

Ian was slower to respond this time because he felt the urge too. He would have done it too, if I hadn't been there.

I pulled away as Ian started protesting. "I'm sorry." I said to both him and her.

"It's fine with me." She said, "But I'm guessing I'm not the reason you stopped."

I nodded, "He's very…. Possessive."

She nodded, "Mel was too. She punched him for kissing me and basically beat up Ian in my head. It was horrible."

Ian and I both winced. We imagined Mel beating us up and I cringed.

"But that's why I didn't want to kiss you before Ian." She said again, "That's why I was holding my head and told her to calm down."

We relived the memory in our head, both of us taking the position of Wanda and Mel. I watched her reactions in the memory and Ian imagined what she'd been saying.

"I'm sorry." Both Ian and I said together.

She nodded, "And I'm sorry that you both have to go through this."

I grabbed her hand and kissed it. That was okish with Ian. "I'm not sorry." I said without thinking. She raised her eyebrows again, "Ian being caught and being my host gave me the opportunity to meet and save you."

Ian thought of that. In a way it was lucky for me too, that was my objective in going out there, to get her out. And I guess in a terrible messed up way I guess I did get her out.

"So," Wanda said after a moment, "Have you given any thought as to how we're getting out of here to go home?"

I stared at her, Home?

She means back to the caves. Ian translated.

I understood, she'd want to go back there. And of course she'd want to being Ian along and with Ian came me. I thought it through, how would we get out of the center?

We can't go back. Ian said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Why not what?" Wanda asked.

"I'm sorry." I said, "Can you give me a moment?" She nodded and excused herself to use the restroom.

Why not? I said again this time in my head.

They'd search the area again and again. It'd bring up Wanda and Melanie's missing person case. Then that would bring up Lacey's missing person case. They'd have hundreds if not thousands of seekers combing the desert looking for the entrance to the caves. This time they wouldn't give up.

I heard Wanda flush the toilet and heard the water from the faucet running.

But they need her. You said so yourself when she was going to leave.

Ian mentally sighed, Then I guess we'll have to settle somewhere nearby and help them from a distance.

Wanda opened the door and stared at me with a shocked expression, "I know…." She said blankly, "We can't go back."

Again thanks for being so patient. I might as well say it again. (I said this on one of my other fanfiction's) I've got carpel tunnel and it's been pretty bad lately so I'm trying to maintain it by wearing braces and anyone who wore them would know that it's almost impossible to type in them. So I have to write in small segments meaning it might take a while to update.

Thanks for your patience and leave me a review, I love those things, it lets me know you want more.