Emma Swan
The expression gracing Regina's face excites me and terrifies me all at the same time. I can't tell if she is holding back because she is scared to be with a woman but then again, she seemed to enjoy that kiss we shared a few months ago. Maybe she just doesn't find me attractive at all? Maybe she has actual feelings for me and doesn't want to end up hurt. I pray that's the reason why.
I've never felt so content with another person before. She makes me want to fall in love all over again, which I never thought possible after Neal left me. She makes me believe that I can keep this baby. I just don't think she could ever return my feelings. I know she's into men, I've heard plenty of stories regarding that topic. I know the only reason why she kissed me a few months ago was because she was trying to be a good friend and help me through my rough night.
I am terrified to push our relationship any further with her, but my need for her is a lot stronger than fear. I thought when I took off my pants an hour ago, that maybe something would happen, but she didn't make a single move, which makes me doubt her attraction to me. I just couldn't hold back any longer, I need her now.
Our kiss started off timid as we both tried to process what was to come. I shifted slightly in her lap, so my hot center was pressed against her smooth thigh.
"You're so wet already," she breathlessly whispered against my lips.
I'm not quite sure if those words were ever meant for my ears, but it was the extra boost of confidence I needed. I pressed forward, instantly deepening the kiss, turning the tempo into a frantic, desperate need for one another.
My hands worked to their own accord, reaching for the bottom of Regina's tank top and in one swift motion I lifted it over her head. Only breaking our kiss for a moment as I tossed the top across the room. Regina's lips found a new destination, latching onto my neck. Her soft lips descended down my sensitive skin. My head fell back from the pleasure as she moved to the swell of my breasts. This bra was barley keeping my chest covered since my breasts have begun to swell from the baby.
My fingers snaked their way to the back of Regina's neck, gripping her firmly, while my other hand held onto the back of the headboard for support. Her fingertips swept carefully across my ribs toward my back before she unclasped my bra. As she slid the red straps down my arms, shivers ran down my spine causing my flesh to breakout in goosebumps. I was so turned on by this woman, but I needed to remain calm. I told her I would take the lead.
I pulled away slowly smirking at the brunette bombshell before me. I slowly slid down her legs and balanced on my knees as I gripped her hips and yanked her down to lay flat on her back beneath me. A sultry, ragged breath escaped her full lips and that's when I knew she wanted this just as much as I do. That beautiful sound filled me with the courage I needed to proceed.
I curled my fingers in the waistband of her shorts in which she lifted her hips, so I could pull them off, taking her underwear along the way. I crawled back up her sun kissed skin and began placing small kisses all around her perky breast and then showed the other the same attention.
I trailed my loving kisses all the way down her stomach and across her waistline. I nipped and sucked on each hip in a teasing manner in hopes that I was turning this woman on in the process. As I started to lower myself her hands cupped my cheeks forcing me to still my actions. My heart furiously hammered in my chest, thinking maybe I pushed her too far. My curious eyes drifted up to meet brown orbs staring intently at me.
"Are you sure about this?" She asked full of concern.
"I've never been more certain."
I turned my head, leaning into the inside of her palm. I placed a reassuring kiss to her warm flesh as she raked her free hand through my hair. Every move she makes is tender and gentle, with my concern as her top priority. My heart was swelling as it beats for the woman below me.
I tried to think about what I would want her to do to me and used that as my guide. I lightly dragged my nails on the inside of her thighs all the way up to the outside of her glistening folds. I wanted her to crave me just as much as I am desperate for her. I needed to tease her.
Regina squirmed beneath my tantalizing touch and I knew she needed some kind of contact. I placed featherlight kisses all around the top of her mound and the outside of her folds. Thick heat radiated off of her center as her desire grew. With an unsteady hand, my index finger skimmed her slit, coating my finger with her desire. She trembled beneath my touch inspiring me to ease one finger into her center, eliciting a sexy gasp from above. The small sound motivated my ego to be a little bolder with the brunette.
"And you said I was wet..." I teased spreading her essence all around her center. Her only response was a low, deep moan that caused my thighs to clench together to suppress my own need. I don't think I have ever been more turned on than in this moment.
"Emma," she began in a trembling breath, but I cut her off by sliding another finger inside her tight walls. Regina instantly released a moan that send another wave of chills to trickle down my spine.
My eyes flicked up just in time to watch her head fall back into the pillow as her back arched off the mattress. I placed another kiss above her bundle of nerves as I moved my fingers to stretch her walls. I smiled against her smooth mound as I pumped my two fingers slowly inside of her. I took in every second and memorized every part of her because I know I am damn lucky to be here right now.
"Emma, I need more," she panted as her hips gyrated frantically in search for more pleasure.
"What do you need? Tell me," I muttered as I picked up my pace.
"I...I...just more," she muttered incoherently.
I slid another finger inside and watched the way her petite body lifted from the bed. She has to be the sexiest woman alive. I swallowed hard knowing what I needed to do next. I slowly licked her bundle of nerves, that was anxiously waiting for my tongue.
"Fuck!" She hissed as her nails dug deep into my shoulder.
That's when I lost all control. My tongue was swirling around the sensitive bud and sucking as my fingers slammed aggressively into her tight center.
"Emma," she moaned as her free hand forcefully grabbed a fist full of my hair and held me into place as her hips grew wild. I curled my fingers hoping to hit her sweet spot.
"Right there Emma...don't...stop!" She was completely out of breath as she begged for her orgasm. Her skin was glistening with a slick coat of sweat, the sight alone was making me lose my train of thought. I stroked her sensitive spot inside as I continued devouring her clit. "Emma, I'm..." her body stiffened but I proceeded with my actions not wanting her orgasm to slip away. "Fuck! Emma!" She screamed, reinforcing my decision to turn up the television earlier.
My eyes stayed focused on the goddess below as her orgasm ripped through her body. Her legs trembled violently next to my head causing my heart to pound with anticipation. The warm liquid ran down my hand, turning me on even more.
I want to make her feel like this every day.
Regina's body relaxed as I removed myself from her soaked center. I kissed my way back up to her face, planting one rough kiss to her mouth, because I needed to feel closer to her in this moment. She moaned the second she tasted herself on me.
In one swift motion Regina flipped us, pinning me to the mattress below. She hovered over my body and stared directly into my eyes. Her intense gaze left me feeling vulnerable and exposed, in a way I never quite felt before. She placed a gentle kiss to my lips and suggestively rolled her hips against mine.
"You must be dying," she implied in a seductive tone.
"Dying! Please Regina I need it rough and quick!" I begged as I stared up into her sparkling eyes.
Regina didn't waste another minute. She kissed me hard one last time before she slithered her way down my body. There was no teasing or temptation with her. She obeyed my plea and entered two fingers without any delay. The overwhelming sensation was pleasure, pain...it was pure ecstasy.
I was so wet already from watching her body reach its highest climax along with her sexy moans, that her fingers slid in and out effortlessly. I bucked my hips forward and cried out with pleasure. I'm not sure if it was because I'm pregnant or my lust for this woman, or maybe both, but my senses felt heightened and I was already dancing on the edge. Her full lips sucked my clit sending a rush of heat to explode violently through my veins.
"Fuck Regina! You're gonna make me..." I rushed out as my voice shook.
She moaned against my bundle of nerves sending a vibration of pleasure through my body. Each thrust of her fingers hit my most sensitive spot at the same time she licked aggressively. It was a perfect combination to send me over the edge. I gripped her thick raven locks like she had done to me and pulled her in closer as I began to come undone. My hips were in a frenzy as I fucked her face uncontrollably. I never felt an orgasm rip through me quite like this one. Everything around me was a blur and I started to see spots. My body stiffened, and she proceeded to help me ride out my orgasm.
"Gina. Gina. Gina. Fuck! I...I..." I tried to scream but my voice was hoarse from my pleasure.
My mind was in a fog as she licked up my entrance. I pressed my palms to my eyes trying to regain some focus as Regina slipped between my arms and kissed me gently.
"So, is this nickname Gina, going to become a regular thing now?"
I nodded enthusiastically as I tried to catch my breath. She rolled her eyes seeming unamused, but I think the name is cute for someone who is always so prim and proper. "Best. Orgasm. Ever," I panted while gasping desperately for air.
"Seriously?" She questioned in disbelief as her face scrunched up.
"I swear!" I cupped her face and pulled her back in for another kiss. "I've never experienced pleasure like that before."
"Well that I can believe because I felt the same way," she confessed as her cheeks flushed, solidifying her admission. I tried to fight my smile, but I couldn't, this woman makes me feel all mushy and giddy inside.
"Thank you, you are the bestest friend ever," I playfully teased, pulling her into another kiss even though she was laughing at my words.
Regina tried to fight against my kiss while she swatted my upper arm. "You're an idiot."
"Maybe," I shrugged casually, tightening my hold around her waist. "But I'm also kind of a genius for suggesting this."
Her lips pursed out and twisted as she fought against her grin. Regina rolled off my body, but I kept my arms securely wrapped around her, not wanting to pop our intimate bubble. She curled into my side and rested her head upon my chest. This small action caused my entire body to relax to its fullest point of contentment. I haven't felt this calm in a long time and I know it has everything to do with being wrapped in her arms. It wasn't long until we both fell asleep naked and cuddled up into one another.
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The next few weeks my mind flipped back and forth on my decision regarding the small bean that's slowly making itself known. Every day I glance down and examine the way my stomach is growing. I know most people can't tell, but I can. Sometimes, I feel a heavy weight, like there's a brick resting in the pit of my stomach. I'm sure it's all in my imagination, most likely a symbol of the weight of this situation that I've yet to make a decision on.
My mind was a roller coaster ride of indecisiveness. Some days I'm up at the highest point, enjoying my baby bump, thinking about names and the gender. Then other days I'm crashing down the slippery slope at full speed. I can't focus on anything as everything whips around me. Each day flying by bringing me closer to my due date. Then I reach the bottom of the roller coaster, where I know I can't raise a baby. I never had a mother, so how on Earth do I expect to be one?
"I've got Rocky Road!" Regina called out as she entered my apartment, with her arms filled with groceries.
Four months pregnant and I'm at the stage where I'm no longer tired and nauseous. I'm craving greasy junk food and carbs, but Regina is strict with my diet. At least she brings me ice cream all the time.
"Yessssss!" I ran to the brunette almost knocking her over as I pulled her into a hug.
She chuckled softly to herself and handed me the cold pint with a spoon. I popped the lid off the top and shoved my spoon right in while Regina opened my refrigerator and proceeded to put the other groceries away.
"So, I'm thinking I can mix this with my other favorite thing and be the most satisfied pregnant girl ever!" I exclaimed taking another greedy bite and sneaking up behind the brunette.
"I think the hot chocolate would melt the ice cream," she admitted while closing the refrigerator door.
The moment she turned around she quickly stumbled back, startled by my close proximity. I took the only step forward and smirked confidently.
"That's not what I meant," I dipped my finger into the frozen treat and pushed my finger between Regina's full set of lips. She didn't even hesitate, she sucked my finger clean and smirked mischievously.
"Emma, we just fooled around before I left for the store," she playfully swatted at my arm and stepped out from my trap.
"I know but you know I'm insatiable right now," I followed behind her like a lost puppy and kissed her cheek provoking her to laugh.
"Believe me, I know! I'm the one that's in your bed every night," she confessed as she began to walk away.
I roughly gripped her wrist and spun her around to face me forcing her warm body to press flush against mine. My body tingled from the connection alone. I set my ice cream down on the table and proceeded to kiss her swollen lips from our earlier activities. I took a few steps forward backing her up against the table. As I kissed her deeply I slowly laid her down across my kitchen table.
"Emma, not here," Regina gasped ultimately breaking apart our kiss. I ignored her suggestion and attacked the sensitive flesh below her ear, knowing all too well she could never resist after that.
"Sssshhhh Miss Mills! I'm trying to study," I playfully teased as my fingers found the hem of her skirt.
"Study?" She exhaled trying to contain her excitement while I pushed up her mini skirt.
"Yeah, I'm going to study the way this ice cream melts against your hot body and where my tongue ends up licking it off," I explain in a slow seductive tone. She groaned in response and I smirked knowing what I do to her.
God I wish she was all mine.
I placed a small dab of ice cream against her warm flesh, right above her folds and watched as her body shivered from the coldness. My heart hammered with lust as I licked up the Rocky Road from her hot silky bud.
"Jeez Emma! Why do I always walk in on you?" Ruby screamed triggering Regina's body to fly forward. I stumbled back and tried to pull Regina's skirt back down, even though we were already caught. "Are you two together now?" Ruby asked in shock, slamming the door behind her.
"No," we both answered in unison.
"We're just friends," Regina coldly declared as she adjusted her skirt.
A sharp pain sliced through my heart causing me to wince. I have no reason to feel this way, we always say we are just friends, nothing more. I just know my feelings are growing stronger for her and I have no idea how to tell her.
"Friends don't go down on each other on the kitchen table!" Ruby snapped while she crossed her arms firmly over her chest. Her eyes shifted frantically between Regina and I, waiting for an explanation.
"Rubes, this pregnancy is driving my hormones crazy. I just want sex all the time. Regina and I have an understanding," I tried to explain.
"Understanding? What you two need to understand is, this is not what friends do. Emma, we have never hooked up or Belle and we've been friends for years."
"It's different with Regina...I don't know, to us it makes sense. Haven't you heard of friends with benefits?" I had nothing else to say because in all reality, it didn't make sense to me. I still wanted men, but dear god I wanted her too.
"I'm not mad, you two can do whatever you want. In fact, I'd be ecstatic if you two got together, just stop lying to yourselves."
"We are just friends," Regina repeated stubbornly.
Ruby's hands shot up in surrender. "Fine. I guess now would be a good time for a subject change. Anyways I wanted to tell you, I heard August got twenty years in prison."
"What? Are you serious?" Ruby nodded while my mind raced with too many thoughts about my ex-boyfriend. "I'm glad Neal ran off then," I said and for the first time in a long time, there was less pain speaking about my ex.
Ruby nodded and started to walk away to her room. Before she was behind her closed door, she shouted over her shoulder, "Happy Humping, loves!"
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Later that evening Regina and I were curled up watching television yet again. Regina was focused on the bright screen that was lighting up my dark room. I slowly pulled my tank top up and stopped just below my bra. I studied my stomach that was once defined with tight muscles. Now it's been replaced with a tiny human inside, creating a very small but noticeable bump. As long as I wear loose fitting shirts, I guarantee nobody would even know I was pregnant, but I see it.
I notice the way there's a small pouch instead of abs. I notice the area growing more firm with a protective layer around the baby. I feel the added heavy weight.
My hand slowly sneaks down to my abdomen. My fingers tentative dance across my flesh, my eyes staying glued to the area like an alien might pop out at any second. My index finger draws random patterns across the bump, like I'm testing the waters before I dive right in. My chest constricts knowing there's a baby in there and I hate myself. I hate that I can't make up my mind. It's a poor innocent baby but I can't find the strength to make a decision.
"Do you feel something?" Regina asks ripping me from my emotional inner turmoil.
"What?"
"Do you feel the baby moving?" She nods her head toward my stomach. I blink to regain some focus and find my hand protectively splayed across the baby bump.
"Oh, um no," I stammer wondering how my mind subconsciously decided to lay my hand over the baby.
"Oh," she sounded a little disappointed, but I couldn't pinpoint her emotion. The brunette scooted a little closer into my side, her leg gliding across mine. "You're finally starting to show. Well, I mean, I guess I'm the only one who would notice."
"Yes, you are the only one lucky enough to see me naked."
"Lucky? Oh, please Em, you are always begging for my orgasms," she teased inspiring a carefree laugh to burst from my lips.
"Hey, I don't hear you complaining," I retort. I maneuvered my body, so I could face Regina. Our noses almost touching while her warm breath brushed against my lips.
"I think my tongue might give out soon."
That adorable red muscle poked out between her lips and she playfully squeezed it to make sure nothing was wrong with it.
I giggle like some love-sick teenager and pull her closer into my embrace. "I love this side of you."
"What do you mean?"
"You're so different when it's just us. When we are out there in the world, you're stuck up," this instantly earns me her most strict and pointed glare, "...you walk around with a mask up and walls built up around yourself. Like you're terrified of anyone getting to know the real you. In this room, when it's just us, you're so much fun and relaxed, like you can finally...breathe."
"Well, that's exactly how I feel Em. You're my best friend and I've never felt this content with anyone before. My sister is the only one who knows this side of me. The real me. Well and now you."
Best friend.