Hello everybody! Like I said, I'm sorry for such a slow build in this relationship, but like I said before, with this prompt, I shouldn't rush one.
Chapter twelve
Lucy's p.o.v
It's been a week after the whole incident. Things were as normal as they could get. We went to the guild on occasions. Natsu basically lived in my house, as well as Happy. Happy was always doing something with Wendy and Charla lately, so it's only been me and Natsu lately. Of course I don't mind, me and him were best friends.
I've been good, as long as Natsu is next to me, I don't have any nightmares or bad thoughts. When I take a shower though, and I'm alone, I can't help but think about the incident. How I could have avoided everything if I was smarter, or how I was most likely too flirty. There had to be something I did to deserve it. Maybe I was being punished for something I did.
All I know is that Natsu was really nice to me all the time. Sometimes I think I don't deserve him, I mean, there are girls he could be dating, but he's here with me, taking care of me. Maybe I'm wasting his time and he's too nice to tell me he wants to go. I know I probably sound needy, but it's not like I mean to, I just want Natsu to be happy and I don't think he's all too happy with me here.
"Natsu, you do know you don't have to be here with me," I say shakily, my voice clearly wavering at the thought of being alone.
He looked at me with wide eyes, clearly surprised at my sorta question. "Why would I do that? I love it here with you," he said, smiling a bit at the end.
"You could be doing something more with your life than being here with me, you know," I said, clearly giving good reasons.
"Not really Lucy. I'm pretty productive here, more than I am on my own," Natsu said, as if he was trying to convince me.
"Are you sure? You could really be doing something better, like taking jobs or maybe even dating someone," I say, blushing at the last part, also slightly grimacing at the thought of him with another girl.
Natsu blushed at the last part as well, I'm guessing from the slight pink tint in his cheeks. "Ya, but you're more fun than anybody else, and besides, I only go on jobs with you," he said, his blush more prominent now.
"You're so sweet, but if you say so. Just know that you're not tied down here," I say, trying to keep down my blush as good as I can.
I can't be thinking of Natsu in a romantic way at all. He wouldn't like me anyway, he's way too dense to realize anything. What am I talking about anyway? It's not like I have feelings for him. And if I did, they wouldn't be returned anyway.
Natsu's p.o.v
Lucy's so weird. Why would she think I wanted to spend my time with anyone else? She is the most important thing to me in this world. I would do anything for her if it meant her happiness. I know I sound like a sap, but it's true. Her happiness is very important to me, if not my number one priority. So if I have to stay with her, which is more like a blessing then a curse, I will.
What am I even saying, I sound like an idiot who's in love. Which isn't possible, because Lucy is my best friend, and you don't feel that way about your best friend. Plus, I'm not what Lucy deserves, which is a mature and nice guy. I'm only nice, not mature, so Lucy wouldn't want me. I guess if I wooed her it would work. What am I talking about? Lucy is my best friend, not my crush.
I can't even think about crushing on Lucy! That would surely ruin our friendship or be taking advantage of it. I know that Lucy is in a fragile state, so I have to protect her and cherish her so she can be fine, not fall in love with her. That will cause unnecessary problems on both ends. And Lucy doesn't deserve any more troubles on her end.
I feel so bad knowing that it would be partially my fault, or entirely my fault, if Lucy got hurt again, so I had to help and protect her, that means helping her from evil men, including me. I'm pretty bad, thinking about Lucy in any other way than a best friend way, but it's hard.
She's such a lovely person, always so sweet and caring. So forgiving. And she's so pretty and gorgeous. Like I've said countless times, anybody would be lucky to have her as a friend or girlfriend. Gosh I'm turning into such a sap, for someone who needs help, not someone crushing on them. I'm pretty sure anyone would though, when it comes to Lucy.
I face palm at my thoughts. How could I be such a jerk and think about Lucy when she's in such a fragile state? I'm definitely going to be punished for being such a bad person, I mean, how could I not, she's my family, my nakama, and I'm thinking about her like that. She could have feelings for me though, I still remember the night in the hotel where I heard her moan my name. It could've been on accident, but I doubt that.
Thank you guys for still reading this, even though I have really slow updates. It means a lot to me and I almost gave up on this story, but you guys always follow and favorite my story so who would I be to deny you of my bad writing skills. And sorry for not much action in this chapter, but more on their thoughts instead.