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Chapter fifteen
Natsu's p.o.v
Lucy's been acting weird lately. I mean, weirder then usual. I've been busy with my own thoughts, so I wouldn't notice her weird self that she usually is, but even now I can tell something's wrong with her and it's worrying me to no end. I want to confront her, but remembering last time, that wouldn't be so wise.
On top of worrying about Lucy, I've been coming to terms with my feelings. And by this, I mean I've come to terms with liking Lucy, or loving more like it. I mean, I've always felt a attraction towards her, but that was just a small crush I set aside. I mean, after setting my crush aside, I guess it grew into something more than attraction. Being with her fueled new emotions and fondness.
She's always been likable, so I'm not to surprised by my feelings. Im more surprised in how I set them aside for so long. I mean, there's so much to like about Lucy that no one even knows. Like how, when she wakes up in the morning, she always has the morning light in her eyes with a sleepy glaze, making her eyes look almost like caramel. Or how, after taking her hair out of her ponytail, it turns into a mess of waves and curls, spreading over her back. Or how, when she talks about something she has an interest in, her body becomes sort of tense and relaxed, filled with excitement, and her voice goes an octave higher, at a faster speed.
I could go on for hours naming good stuff about Lucy, or stuf I like about her. The heartbreaking thing that I was forced to come to terms with was she doesn't like me back. I mean, I might have made it obvious to her, which caused her to avoid me, or act weird like she is, which obviously means she doesn't like me. I'll just have to suck up my feelings and ignore my instincts around her and focus on making her happy.
I got out of my thoughts and stood up abruptly, smiling to myself, going to Lucy's room to see what she was up to.
Third p.o.v
"Lucy, I'm bored," Natsu said in a whiny tone, sitting next to her on her bed.
"Go entertain yourself," Lucy said, looking at her ceiling, which Natsu guessed meant she was thinking.
"What you thinking about Lucy," Natsu asked, completely ignoring the former reply.
Lucy blushed, shaking her head before sitting up to look at him. "Nothing important."
Natsu nodded, understanding that Lucy wanted to ignore those thoughts. "We haven't been talking as much Lucy," he said in a sad filled tone.
Lucy nodded, sorrow quickly filling her eyes. "We've both been busy with our own thoughts lately, we haven't focused on each other."
Natsu nodded once again, "Yeah, but I miss our conversations, we have about absolutely nothing that is easy and laid back." He suddenly laid down on Lucy's lap, which shocked the latter herself, before she just started petting his head, playing with his spiked hair, which was surprisingly soft.
Natsu's breathing soon settled to a peaceful pace after a few minutes of silence, which Lucy then guessed that he had fallen asleep.
Lucy's p.o.v
I sighed, looking down at Natsu. A guilty conscience had washed over me the moment Natsu mentioned our isolated states towards each other. It's not like I meant for that to happen, I've just been too caught up in my thoughts. Coming to terms with my feelings has put a lot of thoughts in my head.
I've been going over all the things that had led me to loving Natsu. I thought he was attractive when I first met him, I mean I'm sure every girl did, and I guess that attraction grew without my knowledge. Looking back at it, I'm not all that surprised. I mean, I was bound to like him more with how sweet he is and protective over me. And looking back to these past events, I realized how serious Natsu has gotten for me, he's completely gone from his once childish state to the mature man that he was meant to be.
Everything that I'm not surprised about had come at me like a freight train. Which led all my thoughts to be jumbled and caused me to think of 60 different outcomes that could happen with the situation. The top ones being, magically, that Natsu could return my feelings. Or I could completely ignore the feelings once again and be miserable. Or I could tell Natsu my feelings and deal with his teasing and jokes.
Of course, the first outcome would be the best if there was some magical miracle that caused Natsu to like me. I mean, before all this I would've never even consider it an option with Natsu being as dense as he was, but now I have bumped it up to a miracle with how more mature he has become.
Snapping out of my thoughts abruptly, I looked down at Natsu. I started to notice the small things I liked about him. Like how, when he slept, his nose would sometimes scrunch up and the corners of his eyes would crinkle up at the action. Or how his hair would become a mess due to his tossing and turning. Or how his lips looked incredibly soft.
And by soft, I mean they looked really soft. Suddenly, without thinking about the situation or the consequences, I suddenly moved my lips to meet his. And when his eyes suddenly widened at the contact, I would be lying if I said my life didn't flash before my eyes at that very moment.
First cliffhanger everyone, hope you enjoyed it. Both have come to turns with their feelings and you got that surprise at the end. See you next chapter.