Emma Swan
One month seemed to disappear into an oblivion. Each day blurred into the next until it was time for Henry's one-month checkup. Regina had a class and wasn't able to make the checkup which she continuously expressed how unhappy she was about missing it.
I stepped into the nursery with Henry asleep in his car seat. As I set the car seat down, Regina tumbled in.
"Did you just get back?" She asked appearing a little flustered, which is very unlike her.
"Yeah, we just walked in." I raised one eyebrow and examined her flushed cheeks in amusement. "Are you alright?"
"Yes of course. I just felt guilty about not making the appointment, so I rushed home as soon as class was out," she explained. She instantly bent down in front of Henry's car seat to unbuckle him. "How did everything go?"
"He's perfect. Usually babies drop a little weight when they go home but he's actually maintained his weight."
"That's wonderful to hear," she happily cheered, picking Henry up and kissing his little cheek.
My heart overflowed with so many emotions. I can't believe I found this amazing woman who looks at my son with nothing but love. She has done everything for us and I know I owe her the world. Not to mention, her with my son kind of turns me on.
"Em? Did you hear me?" She asked walking away from the crib.
My eyes flicked to her now empty hands and then back toward the crib. She must have laid Henry down inside, but my mind spaced out once again leaving me clueless as to what just happened right in front of me.
"I'm sorry, what?"
"Why don't you go lay down, you look exhausted."
"No, it's fine. I have to clean bottles, finish up my paper for my online class and then I have a shift tonight at Granny's. Which reminds me, are you still free to watch Henry tonight?"
"Emma, I have your work schedule on the calendar, we already discussed this. I take Henry when you're at work in the evening."
"I know I'm sorry," I mumbled waving off my mistake.
Truth is, everything is becoming a little overwhelming. I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind. I'm lucky if I don't have to check my phone more than five times in a row to see what day it is. I try really hard to stay focused on things that are happening around me, but I can't. It's like my mind slowly slips away without my permission to negative thoughts that I fight with myself not to think about.
Her warm, gentle touch lightly rests upon my shoulder causing me to jump slightly, unaware that she was still here.
"I'll do the bottles, you go take a nap," she kindly offered only forcing me to fall in love with her all over again.
I leaned forward to kiss her cheek as a thank you and left the room without another word. I could tell by her cold stare she was about to interrogate me on my odd behavior but how could I answer her when I truthfully didn't understand myself?
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A soft hum rang in my dreams while featherlight fingertips stroked my tangled curls. I mimicked the sweet sound as I cuddled into the warmth that was surrounding me.
"Emma?" Her gentle soothing tone was waking me from my slumber. "Time to get up, you have work in an hour." My eyes finally fluttered open, trying to focus on the beautiful woman before me.
"Hey," I croaked out before clearing my throat.
"Hey, you," the raven-haired beauty seductively rasped, causing my heart to sputter with lust.
She smiled brightly that brewed an urge deep inside my soul to kiss her, hard. I reached forward behind her neck and locked my hands together, pulling her on top of me. I connected our lips and kissed her with a desperate passion. A deep moan broke in response prompting me to pull her in even closer.
"Em," she groaned against my lips, but I refused to allow her to break our connection, "Emma."
Before I could comprehend the situation between us she was slipping away. A surge of pain and anger burst beneath the surface, something I never really felt toward her before.
"You have to get ready for work."
"Seriously?" I scoffed as I scrambled to sit up in bed. "You never tell me no. What's going on with you? We haven't slept together in months!" I snapped without one actual thought to the repercussions of my words.
Shock, confusion, anger, hurt, all those emotions flashed across her face letting me know just how thrown off guard she was.
"You were very pregnant, and you said it was uncomfortable and you weren't in the mood," Regina's voice was gentle and understanding but that didn't distinguish the fire burning under my skin. I was no longer in control of my anger; the flames were growing rapidly, and I knew all logical thinking was thrown out the window.
"So, what? I'm not pregnant anymore so we are done fooling around? Too busy with Henry?"
What did I just say?
"You need to calm down Swan-"
"Swan?! Oh, I'm Swan now?" A whole new explosion of anger burst through my veins. I couldn't explain this new feeling taking over and I certainly didn't like it but for some reason I couldn't stop it.
"Emma what is the matter with you? You've never yelled at me like this before and I don't appreciate the attitude," Regina declared sternly while she backed up from my face. I felt like a scolded child only adding more fuel to my fire.
"Forget it!" I shot up from the bed and stomped into the bathroom leaving Regina behind.
The other woman didn't wait very long before she followed me. She leaned against the doorframe with her arms folded protectively across her chest, while I started brushing my teeth.
"Are you sure you can handle going back to work right now?"
"Why because I'm an emotional wreck? Anything thing else you would like to point out, captain obvious?" I mumbled around my toothbrush and foamy mouth.
I spun back around knowing I was on a downward spiral and I needed a minute to regain my composure. Embarrassed wasn't a good enough word to describe the way I felt for lashing out on her. I took a deep breath and tried to get a grip on my raging emotions.
"No Emma, it's because I don't think your body is physically ready, you shouldn't be lifting anything."
She wasn't fighting back, she was actually being loving and supportive.
"Granny is having me host, so it won't be much strain to my body," I calmly informed the brunette, still refusing to make eye contact from my humiliation.
"Good. I'm glad to hear that," Regina replied as her head fell forward, apparently something interesting was happening with her shoes.
Suddenly I found myself lost in a trance of her beauty. I stared at the brunette intently as my fingers discovered the hem of my shirt and in one swift motion, I lifted the fabric up and over my head. My eyes were quickly drawn to her chest that was rising and falling at a faster rate, but she refused to look up from her fascinating shoes. They must be producing money for how hard she's staring at them.
I shimmied out of my leggings and tossed them aside. I examined the way her dark eyelashes blinked rapidly, her lips twisted into a pout as she bit the inside of her cheek.
What the hell is wrong with me? I was just arguing with her and now I'm desperate for her touch. I'm craving those thick lips to connect with mine. My skin is crawling for those dainty fingertips to create a path up and down my body. I need her to soothe the ache that is pulsating between my legs.
Regina took a long, deep breath and slowly stalked her way over to me. Her eyes were still locked onto the floor as she firmly lifted me up by my ass and slammed me into the wall. Both our breathing became uneven as we stared into one another's eyes. Silky, wet lips crashed against mine into a rough, desperate kiss. Her body pressed firmly into mine, pinning me tightly against the wall. I held onto her face as I return the passionate kiss I was seeking.
Regina was the one to break the kiss. Her sorrowful eyes shifted back and forth pleading to find some answer in mine.
"I want you Emma. Don't you ever think that I don't want you," she kissed me once more, but this time the kiss was gentle and sealing a promise of devotion to me, "but right now you need to go to work. When you get home, we will have some fun," she commanded sending a new wave of arousal to my core.
I nodded not knowing what to say as she placed me back onto the ground. I was truly at a loss for words as my mind spun from the whiplash of emotions along with that steamy kiss. So, I began slipping into my work pants.
"Where's Henry?" I asked a little confused on the time.
"Sleeping in his crib," Regina responded in a flat tone accompanied by a bewildered expression.
So, I did what I have been doing for the past two weeks and walked away trying to avoid any of her questions.
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My shift at Granny's was fairly easy. Thanks to the older woman, she allowed me to sit down at the register during any down time, so I wouldn't over exert my body. I shouldn't really be working just yet, but I need the money and I am taking it slow.
During those slow periods at work tonight, my mind began to wander. I know I am not the same person since having Henry. My hormones are still all over the place, which is to be expected, but it's so much more than that. My body feels like I'm on the brink of exhaustion all day, to the point where I can hardly function. I feel like a zombie.
The worst part is my lack of interest in anything. My stomach turns just thinking about it, so I force myself not to but it's even when I look at Henry. I know I love him with everything I have, there's no doubt in my mind. I just can't fully enjoy the time I spend with him. I'm the same with Regina as well. I feel like I'm constantly picking fights with her and I know she's never in the wrong. I just can't seem to control my temper.
I'm running ragged. I have my online classes, I just started work and taking care of an infant. I'm drowning. Not to mention I'm actually drowning in bills. Between paying rent, groceries, my online classes, anything Henry may need, I don't think I can stay afloat.
I arrived at home just a little after midnight. I cautiously tip toed through the dark house, careful not to wake Henry or Regina. My feet lead the way straight for Henry's nursery without a second thought.
The moonlight was glowing through the window, but my son's nightlight was the true light through the room. Regina's long back was exposed as she was bent over Henry's crib. I wasn't sure if my son had just woken up or maybe Regina was just putting him down. I lingered in the doorway for just a moment as I took in the private moment.
Regina leaned back with her hand still inside the crib. A proud smile slipped across her face as she peered down on my little boy. My heart skipped a beat watching this small interaction. They are so precious together, I can't seem to get enough of them. Regina must have felt me staring because she peeked over her shoulder like she was expecting me to be here. Our eyes locked into the dead of the night and I found myself frozen.
A sneaky smirk replaced her gentle smile as she stalked her way toward me. There was a hungry, predatory glint in her eyes that kept me locked into place. She leaned in without any hesitation and kissed me tenderly. The weight of the world and everything my mind has been stressing over lifted away. My body melted against her warm frame seeking out her protective side that I knew could save me from my mental torment. Regina didn't bother breaking the kiss as she lead me back to her room...our room.
Once we stepped inside, she guided me backwards toward the bed. Carefully, she laid my body down onto the bed. I expected her to lay on top of me but instead she chose the spot next to me. Her fingertips lightly drew random circles over the top of my exposed chest.
"Emma the doctor said no intercourse for six weeks."
I sighed and turned on my side to face her. She smiled softly filling my heavy heart with guilt.
"I know and I'm really sorry about earlier," I tried to apologize as all my emotions came flooding back.
"It's okay, I know you are going through a lot right now and your body is fighting to get back to normal."
She's so accepting and loving it's killing me that I'm behaving this way. I pecked her full lips, hoping that maybe she could feel my sincerity about the situation.
"Thank you for understanding."
"Of course, that's what I'm here for."
"Gina," I whispered while staring deeply into her enchanting brown orbs. "I really need you right now." I know I sounded desperate, but I didn't care anymore. I needed her like I needed air. I was suffocating without her touch.
"I'm not going anywhere," she pulled me into a hug, but I jerked away.
"No, I need you right now."
"Emma we just said the doctor-"
"You don't have to be inside me to satisfy me."
Her plump bottom lip was sucked between her teeth as she contemplated her options. The struggle was evident on her face, but I could feel her desire for me was slowly outweighing her morals.
Her lips fell to mine in a soft kiss before she whispered against my mouth. "You need to be on top and taking control. I don't want to hurt you." I nodded and eagerly rolled on top of her as I kissed her delicately.
Regina lightly pushed my shoulders, so I was leaning back against her legs. I watched with anticipation as her long-manicured fingers reached for the top button of my work blouse. My eyes never strayed as they watched her slowly unbutton her way down. Once she popped every button, she slid her fingers inside the white fabric. Her fingers lightly trailed up my abdomen teasing my needy flesh until she reached my bra. Each hand cupped my breasts over the fabric and lightly squeezed. My breasts were sensitive and swollen, but Regina knew this and was very aware how she should caress them. She squeezed a little harder sending a warm rush to my center. My head fell back with a small gasp provoking her hips to squirm below me.
Her fingers continued their torturous journey to my shoulders where she brushed my blouse down my arms as her nails faintly scratched my over sensitive skin. I reached behind my back and unclasped the hook while she pulled the bra away from my chest.
Her fingers fumbled as she unbuttoned my dress pants. I sat back and removed my pants as she tossed her own shirt to the ground. I sat back on her thighs and kissed the swell of her olive toned breasts. My heart hammered brutally in my chest from pure excitement. I hastily unclasped her bra and pulled it from her body to see her heavy breasts full of need. My skin was itching to be with her. I felt like a drug addict, twitching for my next fix.
I sucked one perky bud into my mouth and listened for her gasp. A sound I was all too familiar with whenever my mouth was wrapped around her nipples. I used my teeth to suck, nip and bite just to hear more of those deep, sexy groans. I pulled away, rushing to remove her leggings because I couldn't handle being too far from her body in this moment.
As I crawled back up her legs I took a minute to memorize every part of her. I ran my hands up her toned thighs, watching her wiggle beneath me. I sucked in as much air as possible, as my own need was growing frantic. I slid my hands under her petite body, so I could grab her thick ass and hear her yelp in return. I kissed her smooth mound that was always bare, knowing how I often I am down there. I ran my hands over her hips, across her flat stomach to her full breasts. I squeezed both firmly, watching her back arch off the silk sheets below. I rolled her sensitive buds between my fingertips, earning a husky moan. I used my fingertips to glide up to her shoulders and down each arm finding every curve of her toned arms.
I leaned down so my golden locks were a curtain, shielding our faces from the world. A world where we are never who we truly want to be in life. I planted one tender kiss to her swollen lips. I wasn't going to fuck Regina Mills tonight, no, I was going to make love to her.
Regina's nails dragged down my back leaving behind red marks filled with pleasure. I deepened our kiss letting her tongue dominate mine since I'm on top, taking control tonight. Her warm, wet tongue was faint with mint. I moaned into the kiss and on instinct Regina's hips began to move against mine.
I was still swollen and sore from giving birth, but I was soaked with my desperate need for her. I knew my pleasure would wash away any uncomfortable pain that I might be experiencing.
I leaned back slightly finding my rhythm. Regina's hand slipped to my ass, gripping tightly as her other hand found my breast. I picked up speed when I heard her moan a few octaves higher. We were both glistening with sweat as we slid across one another. Our bodies were lined up perfectly as we continued, in sync. A perfect motion that we always found together. Our minds, our bodies coming together as one.
I bit down hard on my lip as I felt my orgasm building deep in the pit of my stomach.
"Keep going," her voice was strangled and barely made it out, but it was enough to send shivers running wildly through my skin.
"Fuck Regina," I groaned as I picked up speed.
I leaned down, attacking her lips with a strong desire to feel the close intimacy we shared.
"Oh god Emma!" She screeched as her nails dug deep into my ass while her palms were pushing down with force, so she could reach her highest climax.
"Fuck," was all I could manage to mumble.
My body stiffened, and my toes curled as I allowed my orgasm to take control. Her hands cupped my face, pulling me in for one last kiss before I buried my face into her neck. I took in her calming sent of apples that was now mixed with sex.
"That...was...amazing," she gasped, struggling to find air between our heaving bodies.
"Mmmhmmm," was all I could mutter. My eyelids grew heavy just as my body went limp. I was too tired to move so I stayed on top of her. I was on the edge of reality and dreamland. "God, I love you."
"I love you, too."