Hi all.

I'm really sorry that it's taken me so long to update this but I've had a lot going on; I planned my birthday week where I did something everyday, then I was up London on my birthday and out at Faces Saturday, followed by work on Sunday where I spent most of the day with a splitting headache. Only to be rushed off my feet at work all last week, including being offered the opportunity to work another day making selections calls, which I accepted so may struggle to update even more, although this does not start until next week and I hope to update this at least twice this week if not more.

So it occurred to me today that we'd not heard Caleb's point of view on the affair, hence this chapter about what's going through Caleb's head.

Chapter 20

Why?

Why?

Every question began with why.

Why had he given her an ultimatum?
Why hadn't he just been happy with what they had?

Why hadn't he thought harder to keep her all those years ago?

Why did Hanna have to think about it anyway?

Why wasn't he enough for her?

And he couldn't answer one of them.

But what affected him the most was the idea that he wasn't enough for her, that deep down underneath everything else that she felt for him, she wanted more, and Caleb knew he physically couldn't do it. Loving Hanna anymore than he already did was impossible, no one loved anyone more than Caleb loved Hanna.

He toiled with the idea of what he would do if she didn't choose him, even though the idea made him feel sick to his stomach, but the answer was Allen Town. He'd done work there before and it had earnt him a great deal and if he was caught he had nothing to loose. He'd still get visits with Harry in prison.

But as long as he still had Harry everything was not lost, if Hanna made her decision everything to Harry would be just as it was and Caleb would make sure it stayed that way, including Harry being his son and not Mark's.

Harry called Caleb his hero and he wasn't going to let this fling ruin that, Caleb would still be there for his son, even if it meant putting himself through seeing Hanna happy without him.

Short I know but I promise to update again this week.

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