Stiles POV: Next on the list for the day was group therapy with Ms. Morrell.
"I want to go back to the topic of gilt today. It might surprise you to hear me say that guilt is a good thing. It's a rather mature emotion. Malia you said something about gilt the other day. You said it came with a visceral reaction" Ms. Morrell said.
"I said it made me feel sick to my stomach" Malia said.
"Guilt often becomes physical. You feel it in your gut. It's not just psychological" Morrell continued.
Stiles turned and he could see the Nogitsune just a few feet away.
"How does guilt make you feel Stiles?" Morrell asked.
"I'm sorry what?" Stiles asked turning around.
"What does it make you feel?"
"Nervous" Stiles said seeing the Nogitsune out of the corner of his eye.
"Like a sense of urgency? You feel an urgent need to make up for something you've done. To apologize. These are healthy responses. Does anyone know what we call someone who doesn't experience guilt?" Morrell asked.
"Sociopath" Oliver said.
Stiles rubbed his neck slowly.
"That's right Oliver. I'm sorry everyone but we need to take a breath. Come with me Stiles I'd like to talk to you a minute" Ms. Morrell said standing up.
They walked quietly to her office. She looked at the red veins on Stiles' neck and back.
"It's called a Lichtenberg figure. They appear on lightning strike victims. The fact that they're appearing on you after a shot of wolf Lichen is both significant and strange" Morrell said.
"By significant and strange do you mean hopeful and optimistic?" Stiles asked.
"When the marks fade the Nogitsune's grip over you will return."
"What are these? Sleeping pills?" Stiles asked when she handed him a bottle from her cabinet.
"Amphetamines. Sleeping is exactly what you don't want to do. You're vulnerable when you're asleep."
"So all I have to do is stay awake?"
"For now if your friends haven't figured out something by the time those marks are gone I'll come find you."
"To tell me what to do?"
"No to give you an injection. Pancuronium Bromide. It causes respiratory paralysis" Morrell held up another bottle.
"That sounds a lot like death."
"It's used for lethal injections yes."
"So when the Nogitsune takes over you're going to kill me?"
"I'm going to do what I've always done. Maintain the balance."
"I already have a backup plan and from what I'm kind of feeling through our bond something tells me you even try coming at me with that stuff she'll kill you. I've missed our talks. Thanks for the illicit drugs" Stiles turned to walk out.
"You're right Stiles she will kill me so Stiles… stay awake."
Later at night since he couldn't sleep anyway Stiles tried to get into the basement but the door was locked.
"What are you doing?" Oliver asked from behind him causing Stiles to jump.
"I need to get through here to the basement" Stiles said.
"Doctors don't even have a key to this door. Only Brunski" Oliver said.
"Is that the head orderly?"
"He's got keys to everything in here."
"Does he keep them on him at all times?"
"If you want them you'll probably have to figure out a way to trick him."
"Well part of me is getting very good at playing tricks" Stiles said before walking off.
He went into the bathroom took a handful of water from the sink drank some and splashed the rest on his face.
"Okay okay just got to stay awake Stiles. You just gotta stay…" Stiles saw Malia naked in the shower in the mirror looking at him.
"Don't worry Stiles you didn't just accidently walk into the girls' room" she told him.
"Thank god. Um okay so what are you doing in the boys' room?"
"Showering."
"I can see that. I mean I saw that. Well actually I didn't see anything really. I just… there was too much steam to uh… not that I would prefer less steam…" Stiles rambled with his back to her.
"Stiles I don't care. In the woods there was no boys' and girls' room. And if you really need to know they keep the water temperature in the girls' room too low. It's much hotter in here. Ever since I turned back to human I just can't seem to get warm."
"Maybe you just have a low core temp. You know you might just be sick or…"
"I used to have a fur coat."
"Or it could be… hey it might be that. It's probably that" Stiles looked away when she got out of the shower and walked over to him.
"What are you doing?" she asked wrapping a towel around herself.
"I was kind of wondering why you punched me."
"Did you think I was going to thank you?"
"No maybe. We did kind of save your life."
"You're right Stiles. Thank you. Thanks for invading my home. For putting me on the run. For turning me human so that I could look at my father every day and try to figure out how to explain to him that the reason my sister and mother are dead is because I almost ate them on a full moon. Thank you so very much."
"We were just trying to help" Stiles said softly.
"You want to help me? Find a way to change me back."
"You want to go back? To being a coyote?"
"What do you know?" Malia asked grabbing him by his shirt when she read the look on his face.
"I might know somebody who can teach you. How to change."
"What do you want?"
"I need to get into the basement. Which means that I need to get the keys off of that orderly. The big one."
"Brunski."
"You help me and I'll help you."
The next morning Malia and Oliver faked a fight and when they got separated Stiles pulled Malia up and she gave him the orderly's keys. Oliver smiled then went back to acting as they took him away.
"You okay?" Stiles asked Malia.
"Yeah" she said smiling.
That night Stiles went back to the door.
"Come on. Come on" Stiles begged trying key after key.
"I thought this guy had a key to everything" Stiles said to himself before a hand landed on his shoulder.
"I do. But nobody had the key to that room" Brunski said.
Two other orderly's dragged Stiles into a white room.
"Into the quiet room little man. Want to tell us where you got these?" Brunski asked holding the pills Morrell gave him.
"A vending machine" Stiles said.
"I always love the sarcastic ones. Give him five of the Haldol" Brunski said.
One of the orderly's pulled out a syringe while the other held Stiles' arms.
"Wait what's that? Is that a sedative? Okay hang on. Hang on! I can't go to sleep. Okay I'm sorry I'm sorry look. Get off me man!" Stiles felt the needle go in and soon the effects hit him.
"I can't go to sleep… you don't understand. You don't get it. I gotta stay awake. I gotta stay… I have to stay awake" Stiles fell to the ground and couldn't get up soon the fight left him and he fell asleep. When he opened his eyes he was trapped inside a locker.
"No no. Hey. Hey! Hey let me out! Let me out! Let me out!" he banged on the door.
"Let me in" the Nogitsune said.
"What… what do you mean?" Stiles asked softly.
"You know."
"Okay screw you and your stupid riddles."
"No riddle this time Stiles. You know what it means."
"Let me out. Just let me out. Let me out. Just let me out!" Stiles begged.
"Let me in!" the Nogitsune yelled right in front of the locker.
"No no no shh! Hey hey hey shh. Shut up" Malia said when Stiles woke up struggling.
"How did you get in here?" Stiles asked once he focused on her.
"I broke the lock. If I concentrate I can be pretty strong. Get up" she helped him get up slowly.
"There's another way to the basement. Through the Closed unit. Where they keep the real psychos" Malia said walking out the door.
Luckily all the crazies were asleep. Once finally in the basement Stiles saw the sign for Self on the wall just like in his nightmare.
"Do you know what you're looking for?" Malia asked.
"Something to do with that" Stiles said walking toward the wall.
"What does it mean?" Malia asked touching the sign on the wall.
"Self."
"Maybe you should tell me more."
"You might not like me if you know anymore."
"Try to remember that I'm a werecoyote who murdered her own family. I won't judge. I promise."
Stiles told her everything about the Nogitsune.
"Stiles… do you hear that?" Malia asked lightly knocking on the wall.
It was hallow. Stiles picked up a pipe and smashed a good sized hole in the wall. There was a body in it.
"This is him" Stiles said softly.
"The Nogitsune?" Malia reached in slowly and pulled out some pictures that were with the body.
"Recognize them?" Malia asked handing over the pictures.
"One of them. I have to get this to Scott" Stiles said looking at a picture 50 years old and seeing Kira.
Suddenly darkness swarmed his vision and his mind. He stumbled over to an old couch.
"Are you okay?" Malia followed.
"Could you do me a favor? Could you just check the lines on my back? Just tell me if they're fading" Stiles said lifting the back of his shirt.
"Yeah they're gone actually" Malia said.
Then darkness took him the Nogitsune took full control back.
Stiles was forced to watch as the Nogitsune seduced Malia and have sex with her on the couch. Stiles wished he couldn't see or feel he wanted to be numb. Not intentionally but enough to make him ill because he betrayed Selene.
Then when Malia was asleep he left.
Selene POV: "Stop!" Selene walked over to the group fighting by the armored car.
Since she used her Alpha voice everyone stopped.
"I can see why you didn't want me to be a part of this Scott but I can't feel Stiles anymore so I have to do this my way" she said softly her eyes bright Alpha red.
"Give me the finger and scroll" Selene told Kincaid.
Slowly against his will he brought Selene the silver finger and scroll inside. She held out her hand he dropped it in her palm.
"Selene he will be back for vengeance" Aiden said. Selene looked at Kincaid.
"Leave town tonight pack up and go if I see you again I'll slice your throat from ear to ear" she ordered then she walked away knowing the others would follow.
Just Selene and Scott went to see Deaton with the scroll.
"There isn't much here unfortunately" Deaton said looking at the scroll.
"Does it say anything?" Scott asked.
"My Japanese isn't great. But it appears to say that one method of expelling a Nogitsune is to change the body of the host" Deaton said.
"Change the body?" Scott asked.
"Which begs the question how do we change Stiles' body?" Deaton asked back.
"By turning him into a werewolf" Selene spoke up.
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