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What Could Have Been

Chapter 3

BPOV

I woke up to gentle sobs coming from down the hall. I decided to go see who was crying. I put my robe on and opened my door, the floor was cold on my feet but I walked silently to Jake's room when I heard the sobbing again. Why? Why was Jake crying? What had happened? I opened his door quietly as to not wake him. He was crying in his sleep. I walked in and closed the door locking it behind me. I walked over to Jake's bed and then I crawled under the covers to lay next to him. He looked so handsome and so sad as well, my heart sank in my chest. I feel so bad for all of the things that have happened to him.

I gently wiped the tears from his cheeks and traced the curve of his lips with my finger. He moaned so softly and smiled that 'Jacob smile' I loved so much and I couldn't resist, I leaned over to kiss him ever so softly as to not wake him. He kissed me back and I felt so safe with Jacob that I didn't pull away or try to stop him from wrapping his arms around me. He's like his own sun, safe and warm at the same time. I snuggled down into his arms, finally we were safe from all the bad memories, at least for tonight. I felt a pull to Jake and I couldn't resist another kiss to those soft lips. I tilted my head up and kissed him again. He moaned again, this time his grip tightened and he opened his big brown eyes with surprise.

"Bella?"

"Jake?"

"What's going on?"

"Sssshhhh, I'm here now. I'm not leaving you ever again."

"I don't understand."

"Just kiss me again. Please? I don't want to think tonight. I just want to feel."

"Are you sure? Are you real?"

"Yes and yes! I am really here and I want you very much Jacob, more than my next breath."

JPOV

I bent my head down and kissed Bella again softly. She moaned and slid her hand up into my hair pulling me closer to her. She felt so good in my arms, my heart was full of love for this beautiful woman I knew and loved from the day we met as children. Our kisses got deeper and longer, air didn't mean a thing because we breathed as one.

I was the one who broke the kiss to ask her again if she was positive that she wanted to do this.

She said, "yes! More than you know."

The look in her eyes told me that she wanted and needed me in this way tonight. Bella pulled the covers off of me and straddled my hips. She kissed me again playing with my tongue like it was a game of tag. I wanted this girl so badly, but I couldn't think past this moment, right now. I was really going to make love to the woman I loved, for the very first time. No one else existed, just Bella and me alone in this moment. I moved my hands up her thighs to her waist and tugged on the tie to her robe and slid my hands up her stomach to her breasts and then up to her collar bone. I moved over to her shoulders under the robe and slipped it off.

She smiled and then began rubbing her hands up and down my chest, ever so softly. Her hands felt as soft as feathers on my skin. Bella pulled her shirt up and over her head revealing creamy white skin. I was in awe of her breasts. They were average size, not too big but just right and her nipples stood at attention, begging for me to reach out and caress them. And me being me I did just that. My God! She was perfect! I leaned up to lavish kisses on her breast, first the left and then the right. I sucked each of her pert nipples and listened to the moans she released. She sounded so beautiful right now all I could do was try to keep control. I couldn't risk the Alpha in me coming to the surface to claim what rightfully belonged to him. I didn't want to hurt the angel in my arms by being too forceful and rushing to make love to her.

I would always be gentle with Bella because it was and is a given, when you mate with your soul mate, you are gentle. We kissed softly and took our time loving each other. She got up off the bed in order to slip her white panties off and then climbed back up on top of me. I could smell her arousal and fought back the wolf in me. I was looking at an angel in all of her glory and I can tell you that from that moment on, I would never look at another woman. And I would never look at Bella the same way. She was mine and mine alone. She kissed me again and this time she slid her hands down from my chest to my abs and slowly inched her way to edge of my boxers. My body shuddered and I looked at her through hooded eyes as she said, "let's take these off Jacob. I want to see all of you."

"Okay"

I was a little nervous because us wolves aren't exactly small and I didn't want to freak her out and have her running for the hills.

"Lift up," she told me so she could pull my boxers off. I shuddered when her hand brushed my manhood and I moaned her name.

"Bella!"

My back arched up right off the bed at her touch and she looked very pleased with herself at the effect that she had on me. Bella kissed her way down my stomach until she found my now throbbing manhood. I moaned so loudly that I thought I would wake my dad. That would have been fun to explain, caught in the act. Thank God my dad's a very heavy sleeper. An atomic bomb could go off and he still would not hear a thing. I wasn't sure how much longer I could handle this torment, so I moved my hands up to her breasts and started massaging them. She moaned my name and moved her body up next to me. I continued with her breasts, kissing them, pinching her nipples. I took one of her full breasts into my mouth and sucked her nipple gently. She moaned again.

"Oh, God! That feels so good...don't stop Jacob, please!"

Then she pushed me down toward her stomach. I started at her breasts and went down to her belly, kissing along the way until I reached the inside of her thighs. I slid my hands in between her legs to open her up to me. I looked up into her eyes and saw a slight rosy blush grace her cheeks. She was beautiful and I watched her as I started to dip my face into her pussy. I took my time because I only knew a little about pleasuring a woman this way through the Pack mind, especially when Jared was around. I don't think there was a thing he didn't know how to do. I took in her musky scent inhaling deeply. And then I flicked my tongue and found her little bundle of nerves and watched her arch her back off the bed.

"You like that, baby?'

"Yes! Oh God, yes Jacob!"

"Do you want more?"

"Please?" was all she said, and I continued lapping at her folds. I was enjoying myself a lot. I could really get used to this whole thing. And she tasted so damn good! If I was ever starving I would be happy with just eating Bella.

"Jacob, I feel funny."

"You alright baby?"

"Yes, I just feel so tight in my tummy, like I'm wound up!"

"That's normal honey, it means you are close to coming."

"OH GOD JACOB! I'm gonna cum!"

"Come on baby. It's ok, cum for me."

"Aaaahhhhhhh!"

Once her body settled down, she looked so sexy. I moved in between her legs, when she paused to ask if I had protection I smiled at her and said, "yes I do." I reached into the top drawer of my dresser and pulled out a condom. She nodded in agreement and I tore the foil packet open and rolled the condom on.

"Are you sure Bella? Sure you really want to do this? Because we don't have to, we can wait."

Please be sure, please be sure!

I was really starting to hurt because I was so damn hard!

"I'm sure Jake, I want this with you and no one else. I need you so badly that I'm afraid I'll burst wide open. Please Jacob? Make love to me."

I was ever so gentle with Bella not to hurt her because we both were new to this. And I wanted our first time to be good and not a bad experience. I moved into her with just the tip of my shaft. Her passage was so damn tight, I wasn't sure we would fit together without a lot of pain. She shuddered a little.

"Are you alright, baby?"

"Yeah, just go slow."

"Okay, I'll inch my way in a little at a time alright?"

"Sure, sure."

"Ok, here's a little more baby, if it hurts too much just tell me and I'll stop ok?"

"I will tell you Jake, if it's too much."

I pushed in some more and she didn't seem to be in pain. I got almost all the way in, when I felt the barrier.

"Bella? I need to push the rest of the way in, tell me if you need me to stop ok?"

"Ok, Jake I'm ready. I know it will hurt for a little while but I trust you."

I took a deep breath and then pushed a little harder to break through the barrier and she squealed. I stopped moving and breathing, afraid that I had hurt her too much.

"Just stay still Jake. For a bit, so I can get used to your size ok?"

"Ok, baby. I won't move until you tell me."

It only took a few minutes for her to be more comfortable with my size when she finally told me to move. I moved in and out of her slowly at first until she felt more comfortable.

"More Jake. I need you to move faster."

"Ok babe, are you alright?"

"Yes, Jake, don't stop!"

We both started moving together, faster and our breathing was labored. Hands were everywhere and our kisses were longer and deeper. We were climbing higher and higher, the closer we got. I was trying to rein myself in but it was getting a lot harder to do then I expected. I wanted her to finish first. But before I could think about it any more, Bella flipped us over, so she was now on top and I was under her sinking even deeper into her tight, hot, wet folds. My God! I was gonna die when she started riding me, like there was no tomorrow. Up and down, faster and even harder then before.

"Holy Shit!"

"Baby? Are you close?"

"Yes, so close! OH, GOD JACOB! I'm cumming!"

"That's it baby, cum for me, please, come with me!"

That's all the incentive we needed and we both exploded together. She was coming down as I was still climbing. A few more thrusts and I was spent and she collapsed on top of me, kissing my lips softly, and snuggling even closer to me, even though we were glistening with sweat. I pulled out of her and moved her onto the bed, so I could remove the condom. I tossed it into the trash can and we pulled the covers up over us and fell asleep in each others arms.

Morning came too soon and the house was unusually quite, which was odd because by now Sue and my dad would be talking and laughing about something. But there was nothing. No sound at all, we were truly alone. I looked down and there was Bella sleeping. I still can't believe last night really happened. I thought I was dreaming. I got up quietly so not to wake Bella and searched for my cut offs, then I went to my dad's room but he wasn't there. I walked to the kitchen and there on the fridge was a note that read:

Dear Jacob and Bella:

Sue is taking me over to Charlie's today so we can go fishing.

We should be back by supper.

Breakfast is in the oven.

Love,

Dad

I turned on the oven to warm the pans of pancakes and sausage, then I went into the bathroom to shower. I turned on the hot water to heat up, while I shrugged off my shorts. I looked down and noticed I had blood all over my groin and thighs, from when I took Bella's virginity. Wow! More proof that this really happened! Ok, so I was in denial, I was just having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that Bella and I made love. What guy wouldn't if he had a woman like her? Anyway, enough of my denial. I got in the shower and let the water run over my tired body. It felt good to feel all of the tension finally disappear. I remembered every detail of our love making, all the sounds, all the touches, everything was wonderful and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Not one damn thing. She's always been the one for me, and I will never give her up not now, not ever. So you can suck it Edward! (No pun intended)

BPOV

I woke up when I heard the shower running and I opened my eyes. I was naked and in Jake's bed? OH SHIT! Billy's going to be pissed when he finds out I had sex with his sixteen year old son! I can't believe I did this to Jake. How am I gonna be able to look him in the eyes? I got up and noticed there was blood on the sheets. Shit! I need to get these washed before anyone sees them. I got off of the bed and put on my robe. I stripped the bed linens and took them into the hall to put them into the washer. I added the soap and turned it on. I went back to Jake's room and found my shirt and panties and took them to my room and put them in the hamper.

I found myself denying what happened. I am so selfish! Man I hope he can forgive me. Oh, CRAP! Charlie! He's gonna kill me and Jake when he finds out. (Note to self: first chance I get to go home to dad's hide all of the guns!)

I called through the house but no one was there. I smelled food and walked into the kitchen. I read the note on the fridge and smiled. Walking over to the oven I opened it and the food was warmed so I turned the oven off. I wanted to shower and clean up so I walked back down the hall to the bathroom and knocked on the door, no answer. I turned the knob and opened the door peeking around it, kinda scared to face Jake. He was showering and wow! He is so tall and buff, his russet skin is so shiny in the water. I opened further and asked:

"You done yet?"

Jake turned around and said, "yeah, just finishing up."

"Food is done and I started a load of laundry."

"Okay, thank you. Bella, are you sorry about last night?"

"Last night? Was amazing, but we need to take it a little slow for now okay?"

"Sure, sure, okay."

My God, he is so beautiful and I didn't realize just how big he was! But damn! Now I know what I had lost and hopefully I can get it back and keep it this time. Jake got out of the shower and traded places with me. On his way past me, he kissed me on the lips and I blushed and kissed him back. Jake smiled and went to his room to dress. I showered remembering every touch, every kiss, every beautiful moment of making love to my soul mate, my lover, my best friend in the whole world! MY JACOB! He was mine now and no one or no thing will ever take him from me because I will fight to the death for him and only him. I didn't realize until now, just how much I'm in love with Jake.

I thought I loved Edward and he was all I needed. Maybe I did at one time but he broke me inside and left me alone. But as time passed I found out that I wasn't in love with him like I thought I was. There was no pull toward Edward, it was always toward Jake and now we have to be careful so no one finds out about us, until we are ready to tell them. I finished my shower and grabbed my bath robe. I went to my room to dress as quickly as possible because I wanted to eat breakfast with Jake. I went to the kitchen and sat down across the table from him. He already had everything ready and waiting for me to join him to eat.

"I'm starving! That looks sooo good!"

"Bella? How are you feeling? I didn't hurt you last night did I?"

"No, Jake you didn't hurt me. I am a little sore but that's to be expected the first time you have sex. You actually healed my soul and I thank you for that."

"I want to say something to you but I don't know if it's the appropriate time just now."

"Me too! Jake my feelings for you have changed, gotten stronger and I don't want to lose you not now, not ever!"

"Bella, you and I have always been able to share our feelings with each other without ever having to say a word to each other. We have a strong connection that can't be broken."

"I know, but Jake we have to be careful around everyone else. There will be some who are watching us closely."

"I know about Victoria lurking around Forks. Sam spotted her in the woods one day when he was in town, picking up supplies for Sue Clearwater's store."

"V-Vi-Victoria's in Forks? What about my dad Jake? She'll kill anyone in order to get to me! Because Edward killed her mate James in Phoenix. She wants to hurt me to get back at Edward!"

"Don't worry Bella, I won't let her hurt you or anyone else. Charlie's safe Bella. Sue, Seth, and Leah have been staying with him while you're here with us."

"Okay, that makes me feel a little better that my dad's protected and safe. I feel a lot better about leaving him alone now. Is the Pack doing patrols in and around Forks and La Push?"

"Yes, Sam has everyone on twelve hour shifts, well everyone except me. He wants me to stay close to you, just to be safe. So no wandering off anywhere without me ok?"

"Okay Jake, I promise unless someone is with me I won't go anywhere."

"If you need anything or have to do girl stuff just take Leah with you ok? You know, when I'm not around alright?"

"I promise Jake, and thank you."

"Anytime Bells."

JPOV

We finished up breakfast and washed all of the dishes as well as finishing the laundry. We made my bed again with clean sheets and opened some of the windows to remove the smell of sex in my room. I didn't want to have to keep people out and end up having to answer a lot of questions we weren't ready to answer. Bella smiled the whole time we were doing the chores, once we were done, we sat on the couch and watched TV. The Notebook was on and she really likes that movie. I didn't have a problem with watching a chick flick as long as I was with her.

Charlie called to tell us that they were on their way back from fishing, so everyone would be eating dinner at our house tonight. I let Bells know that they were coming, so she wouldn't freak and give our secret away in front of them. I want to tell her I love her but it's too early for that. Maybe a few weeks or months down the road and we'll see how we're doing by then. I can't imagine my life without her in it.

We finished our movie and picked up a little bit around the house before Sue, Seth, Leah, Charlie and my dad got here. We were nervous about being caught and for once going for a run wasn't an option. I couldn't risk phasing right now with the Pack always being in my head. The only downside is eventually they will get suspicious about why I haven't phased. But for now I can get away with it. I think I might just go for a run in human form for now. I walked up to Bella.

"I'm going running for a bit, in human form, so the Pack can't read my thoughts ok? I'll be back in a while. I will take my cell with me. Call me when they get here. Oh and Quil and Embry are just at the edge of the tree line. If you need them, just yell and they will come running."

"Okay Jake, I will but be careful alright? I don't want you to get hurt. And watch out for Victoria and stay close to where the Pack is patrolling, so they can help you if you're in trouble."

"I will Bella, I promise."

I hugged her and kissed her forehead and then I headed out into the woods behind my house for my run.