Lucy pov

I sat there frozen. "You.. Do?" He nodded. I kept staring at him. His eyes were closed tightly and his hands were clutched. I felt like I was

"Then.. Why.. Did you abandon me?" He opened his eyes and stared at me. "I liked you… ever since.. And you…" I croaked out. I put a hand over my mouth. "Lucy.." I kept staring at the ground. The gray concrete was cold when my hand touched it.

"I can't.."

"What?"

"I can't.. Do this…" I stood up. "You.. I can't forgive you.." He stood up as well. He towered over me when he stood in front of me. "I won't forgive you" I say. I stepped back.

"Lucy?" He said. "Now that I'm gone you want me?!" I say. "Lucy please" I felt so angry, for no reason. "No natsu don't try and make me forgive you!" I seen him frown.

"I can't believe.. I liked you." I say. He looked like he was slapped. "I can't believe I fell for you.." I felt the lump in my throat come up. The tears were daring to come up.

"I'm not going to fall for your lies anymore.." I barely got out. "I can't keep doing this! I'm so sick of crying over you! Over lissana! over me!" I swallowed.

"It was a mistake natsu. When I said I liked you"

His face was dull. Not showing any emotion.

"I didn't mean for this to happen. It.. Slipped out of my mouth.. I just wanted to forget about you."

I looked at him, his face was grim. And his head was lowered looking at his feet.

I turned on my heel. "Natsu." I looked up at the sky. It was still cloudy out, it looked so gray and dull.

"Next time I see you, I won't be crying."

I breathed out. I started walking. I didn't look back, I didn't want to look back. I didn't want to see his face. I didn't want to feel the guilt, I shouldn't be the one feeling guilty.

It should be everyone else but me.

…

"Hey Lucy?" Levy said.

"What?"

"Who's this.. Natsu dragneel? I seen him once before.. Remember at the hospital?"

I nodded.

"He's… just some guy from my old school."

Levy made her mouth in the shape of an 'o' she smiled and continued working. I sighed.

Natsu pov

"Hey natsu? Are you okay man you don't look so great"

I looked in the mirror in the locker room. I had bags under my eyes and I could see my cheek bones.

"I'm fine. Just lack of sleep I guess"

He nodded and walked away. I kept staring at my self. I looked pathetic. A coward. A mistake in Lucy's life, that's what I was.

My skin was a yellowish now. I couldn't sleep. Many reason why, and Lucy was one of them.

I rubbed my eyes and walked away. I couldn't afford looking at my self all day..

I didn't eat lunch. I felt like puking if I did. Was this what they called depression?

I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking of everything again. Lissana… Lucy… everyone I disappointed. Was I really a mistake in Lucy's life? I was… I hate my self for that.

And how could lissana just leave like that?

I can't forgive her either… I can't forgive my self either.. Why did I leave Lucy? What was I thinking? Wasn't she the one always on my mind? What happened?

I kept thinking. It made my head hurt. But they kept repeating in my head. Lucy was still on repeat. She always was. I felt my head spinning.

I almost went to see Lucy today. I didn't. After all she wanted to forget about me.

Does.. That mean… I forget about her too?..

…

Lucy pov

I played with erza in gym. At least this time it wasn't volley ball. We played badminton instead.

I hit the birdie and it went flying to erza. She hit it next and it came back to me.

We kept playing. At the end I was sweating. I never actually played gym up until now. I smiled.

"Hey Lucy.. Which highschool do you plan on going to?"

I started there and thought. The name popped up into my head.

"I think it was… fairy tail? Yeah fairy tail. I plan on going there for high school"

"Really? That's great news Lucy! I'm going there as well!" Levy squeeled. I smiled. I turned to erza who was calmly eating her lunch.

"Erza?"

"My parents are trying to get me into there too. They have great sport courses there"

Happiness filled me. That's great! At least I have some people to talk to.

"That's amazing. Everything is falling into place isn't it" levy said. I grinned. "It sure is.." I looked around us. Thank god.

"What about natsu?" Levy said. Me and erza froze. I turned my head and looked at her. She had the same look as levy. Except erza gave me the deadly look. The one telling me I shouldn't even bother with him.

"I don't plan on doing anything related to him."

"Why is that?" I closed my eyes. "Because. All he was is some guy I knew from my last school"

"Oh yeah.."

Erza came to my house this time. She wanted to talk to me. I shut the door when we entered my room.

"So what do you plan on doing with natsu?"

"Nothing. I don't even want to bother with him any more. Like I said, he's just some guy I knew in my old school"

She stared at me.

"I don't want to bother with the past anymore. I want to leave it all behind. I want to start fresh for once. To forget about lissana and natsu with everyone else. I'm only bringing you,levy, and jellal with me"

"What happened to lissana anyway?"

"My dad sued her.. I guess. I don't really know what happened. I was just questioned by the lawyer remember? At the hospital." She nodded and sat on the floor. I threw my bag to the side somewhere and laid on the bed.

I sighed. I heard erza grumbling. "What is it now?" I say. She stood up and looked at me. "Lissana deserves more than being sued.." I sat up.

"I can say yes to that…"

I yawned. I was so sleepy. Erza stayed till 11 since jellal was late picking her up. I didn't go to bed till 1 am. Since I still had homework and we didn't even bother studying.

Levy had to cancel. She had a date or something with a guy. She said it was 'just a game practice'. I smiled.

I haven't seen natsu since… I'm glad. It was true, what I said to erza. I did want to start fresh. I wanted to forget about him, lissana and everyone else with them. I didn't want to remember something like that.

I know I won't be able to forget it. Not ever. But I just wanted to leave it behind and move on.

I want to start fresh.

…

Oh god I'm so sorry I don't get this in earlier. I was so busy with school and other junk. Yeah.

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