Natsu pov

I walked beside erza. Gray and levy stood on the other side of her. I sighed.

"You bastard. You better not try anything today. You too gray" I nodded. I knew what she meant. Wherever there was erza, there was Lucy.

"What did I do?!"

Erza said she wanted us close together. So if anything happened we wouldn't be around Lucy. I felt anxious. To see her. To know she's here, It made me feel joyous inside, I could feel the butterflies already.

"Man.. This is annoying" gray blew out. Erza elbowed him in the side. "Shut up snow cone" gray looked at me and gritted his teeth. "It should be just him, not me" spouts.

"Enough" erza says before we step inside. I looked around, the building was huge. So this was were I was going to spend the rest of my school years? I smiled.

"Oi erza" I heard a voice say. I look in front of us. A guy with blonde spiked hair waved his hand at us. Erza frowned. "Where's Lucy I thought you were with her" My chest tightened when I heard her name.

"Outside."

I turned around and ran outside the entrance. I didn't even think about going outside, and here I was. Heading out the door already.

I didn't care if I didn't tell them I was leaving, they didn't seem to notice either. I ran outside, she wasn't there. So I ran to the side of the building where there was an open area. My eyes scanned everywhere for a sign of her.

Bingo.

She stood there looking up at the sunny sky. Not noticing me. She was hot now. Her hair was now a nice shade of blonde, it was long and silky. Her legs were pale and smooth, not a single hair. Her skirt was a bit shorter and her chest was huge.

She wasn't that cute little girl with the dark circles under her eyes, even though they suited her at the time.

She wasn't any kind of hot you'd go after. She was the-i-want-you-in-my-pants hot. It made my head spin.

I never seen Lucy in a skirt before. Beside the school uniform when it was below her knees. It was now above the knees. And it didn't even make her look slutty. It made her even more beautiful, if that's even possible.

I could feel my self falling hard

She jumped and looked at me once she knew I was there. Her eyes were now a nice nutmeg color, not a dark brown. They shined in the sun light. I couldn't help but stare, I was mesmerized.

"Lucy?" I heard that guy say again. He ran besides Lucy. Lucy looked away and looked at him, disappointment sunk in. "Let's go inside now, erza wants to see you" he stared at me as he grabbed Lucy's hand. I felt a burning anger inside me.

"Okay.." She said in a quiet voice. She walked away with that guy inside. I stood there. I couldn't help but feel jealous. Why was he holding her hand? Were they?…

I walked inside. I seen stars and darkness. I felt the ground beneath me. "Erza!" I hear jellal say. "Where did you run off to?!" I opened my eyes. Erza stood infront of me angry. Her eyes were sharp, already stabbing me.

"Outside. Jeez erza you aren't my babysitter" I got up and held my face. I seen lucy staring at me. I widened my eyes. Her gaze showed nothing. Not even a single sign of sympathy.

"But you act like a kid" I kept looking at Lucy. Finally she looked away and turned around. She walked away. "Wait Lucy!" That guy says and walked beside her. The others went as well.

I shook my head a bit and started walking behind everyone.

Fuck.

...

Lucy pov

Natsu looked at me. I felt angry and saddened. Why was he here? Of course. It's happening again. He's going to ruin everything again. Just when things were brighter.

I could feel the light dimming already.

I stood outside after everything was over. Waiting for everyone else. I felt my heart drop when I seen natsu running towards me.

He didn't say anything. But everytime I looked at him, he smiled. It made me even more pissed off.

"Like what you see?" He says when I look at him again. I scowl. "I see nothing." I say. He smirked. "Then why do you keep glancing over at me?" I crossed my arms. "So you won't get close to me" he took a step closer to me. I looked at him, he smiled.

"Please step away from my girlfriend" sting comes in between us. I push him away from me "You wish" I say. He smiled at me, but frowned at natsu. "Oh,I do wish" natsu kept staring at us both. It felt awkward and uncomfortable.

"Ready?" Erza says as jellal stood beside her. Levy behind the both. Gray walked beside them. Scowling and frowning, he was mad since erza had to babysit him and natsu together.

He noticed me staring, his expression changed "Long time no see Lucy" he looks at me and smiles. "Yeah.. It has" I smile back at him. "You guys met?" Erza ask. We both nod. "When.." I stop. I cover my mouth.

The flash backs came. I felt the vile taste in my mouth already. I could feel the fear I felt that day. When they burned my bag or when they threw those eggs at me.

I remember gray trying to defend me. I didn't really know what happened, I blanked out. I fainted. I was so scared.

"You okay?" I nod my head and smiled. "By the way gray, thanks" I say. I could tell he already knew what I meant. He winked and bowed.

Sting put a hand on my back. "I'm fine Sting" I say and start walking. "I'll be going now." I wave at the others. "Wait lucy" natsu says and grabs my arm.

"Can I walk you home?"

I looked towards erza. She clenched her fist. Gray and levy looked at me funny. I didn't know if I should say yes.

"I already am"

I look at sting. He walks towards me and stands beside me. I look at natsu again, his eyes softened and he let go. Sting wrapped his arms around me. I started walking with him.

Once we got around the corner I tried getting out of stings grasp. I wasn't his girlfriend, so why was he acting like this? Another player. I laughed at the thought.

So natsu was back. Great. Excellent. Right on time too. Right when things were getting better.

That fucker better not ruin it.

Natsu pov

I stood there. Anger and jealous went through my body. I felt like punching that guy. Why was he so touchy towards Lucy? It should be.. No.. I couldn't. She's not mine to begin with.

Then why was I jealous? Oh right. I had a crush on her. Plus I'm already falling for her, again. I felt like mentally slapping my self.

This was the first time I seen a guy around her who was close to her like I was to her those years ago. I breathed in and out. I held my hand tight and let go.

"You idiot.." Erza says under her breath. I don't look at her, or answer her. I kept staring at the spot where they both stood and left.

"I'm leaving" I say and walk away. I felt so annoyed. Like a fly was bugging me. I kept thinking about it.

"I didn't mean for this to happen. It.. Slipped out of my mouth.. I just wanted to forget about you."

She really did forget about me. After all this time. How come I couldn't forget her? Was I the only one with these feelings? Did.. She really mean.. For it not to happen?

I shouldn't think about it. It was my fault to begin with. Well.. Technically lissana's. But I knew I was the guilty one.

Rotting in the guilt.

...

Lucy pov

I sat in my apartment. Thinking as usual. I looked at the screen. I wanted to write something. I felt the need to write something. But nothing came to mind. I started writing a while back. I just haven't in such a long time.

I used writing for something to say. Whatever I wanted to say but I couldn't, writing would help. And right now I had many things to say.

I stared at the screen.

"Years of saddness, emptiness, and nothing"

"This same dizzy feeling"

The sound of the keyboards is all I hear.

"why did you leave me?"

That one went to natsu.

"was I just some game to you? A toy to be played with?"

I held my breath.

"I'm sorry is said, but there is no forgiveness"

"tears were shed"

I held it.

"the feelings being reburied"

I froze and eventually stopped. I stared at the words. I put my finger on the back space, deleting the words. I let go when it became blank once again.

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So busy.. Ahh.. Late chapter again. Ugh. I feel horrible for being late again -.-.

BUT IM SO HAPPY I GOT THE AMAZING BOOK IS NOT ON FIRE FOR MY BIRTHDAY (its on the 23rd of October ;)

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