Lucy pov

"Your… promise?"

He nodded. And gave me another warm smile.

I felt angry for some reason. But happy. A good happy. Mixed with the anger I had at him for years. I still never really got it out.

"What.. Happens.. If I don't forgive you"

He shrugged his shoulders. "Anything" he put his hands in his pockets. "I just want you to be happy." I kept listening to him as he went on. "Whatever it takes. I want you to be happy" I looked at the ground.

"Then.. Why didn't you do that before?"

I didn't bother looking up. I didn't want to look at him. "The me before would've been happy to hear that, the thing is is that I'm not the person I was before." I stared my feet next. Trying to concentrate on everything else but him.

"I-"

"Before I wanted to hear those words so bad. But now I feel so mad I can't even… just.. Ugh!" I say frustrated. "You're still so selfish!" I look up at him now. And he's not smiling anymore. "You're still doing this for yourself. To make you feel better about yourself." His eyes went dark a bit.

"It's still as long as you're happy.. Right?" I say. And I could see his hand clench. And his shoulders went tense. "You're wrong" he says. "Then why do I still feel like you're doing it for yourself?" He went quiet again.

"I don't care about the promise. I'm happy. Just not around you." I turned on my heel, I stood there. My back facing him. I breath out a bit. "You can keep your promise, or not. It's your choice" I walked away.

I didn't care anymore. I didn't want him in my life anymore. I was so sick of this. This ugly feeling. And it was always him causing it. And I really don't care about that promise.

I am happy. I was happy, before he came. The light was about to be brighter, brighter than before.

The light became dim.

Natsu pov

I stood there again. I didn't breath until she left. I blew out and breathed in again. How was I still selfish? Was.. I really like that to her? I spoke the truth. I wanted her to be happy. I'll drown in this regret if I have to. I'm already rotting in it anyway. What do I have to lose?

I'll prove it to her. I'll prove that I'm not the slefish boy she knew. I'll make it up to her. I promise. Even if its the last thing I do.

I kick at the ground. I wait a few seconds before I leave.

Lucy pov

I sat at lunch. Picking at my food. I'm guessing erza or some one noticed because they all went quiet. I stopped and looked up. Erza is staring at me, so is levy and sting. Gajeel sat beside levy. So I looked down again.

"You okay?" Sting asks me. I nodded and look up at him. "Of course. Why?" I ask him. He frowned a bit "nothing.. It's just you've been like that for 2 days now" I sighed. "Look Lucy if you're having problems just tell-"

"Tell you. I know. But I'm not having problems. It's just.. I feel.. Sick" I lie to her. I didn't want them worrying about me. I smile. "I'm okay though. I'll live" I smile at erza now. And she gives me a half hearted smile.

After lunch I wait to go home. I just wanted to end today already.

I walked down the street as I went home. I felt lonely now. Since natsu followed me usually. But I haven't heard from him in 2 days. The last time I seen him was beside the school, and I got mad.

I take a mental note: never go to the side of school buildings, problems always lie there.

I sigh. Geez. I hate this feeling. I clutch the straps of my bag and continued walking.

I stopped at my door. And turned my head. I looked down at the street. And I seen his house. It seemed quite. I shake my head and look for my house keys.

"Lucy?" I turn my head and look at natsu. He stood there looking at me. I breathed out. "What are you doing here?" I ask him. "Walking you to school, what else" he stepped up and stood beside me. "Where were you all this time?" I ask him. He smiles smugly. And bends down to me so his face is close to mine.

"Were you actually worried about me?" He lifted his eyebrows. "No." I walk away from him. But he caught up quickly. "Then why did you ask?" I shrugged my shoulders. "Because. Usually you bug me, like now" he laughed a bit.

"You care"

"No I don't. I haven't all this time, why should I care now?" He went quiet. "Because. I'm-" I stop him. "I don't want to hear it right now" I look up at him. He just closed his eyes and looked away. And we started walking in complete silence.

…

"Lu-chan?"

I looked up. I was in the library with levy and my friend juvia. I met juvia on the first day of school, she was pretty nice. So far I know she's grays girlfriend, and she likes to swim.

"Are you okay?" She asks me. I look at her strangley. "Yeah. Why'd you ask?" They both look at each other. "Well its just.. You've been hanging around natsu lately. Erza told me to warn you about him and-"

"I'm alright. And I don't need a warning" juvia looked at us confused. "Juvia wants to know about natsu and Lucy" I sigh. "He's just.. Some guy I knew from this old school of mine. Nothing else." I continued reading again.

"Really?" Levy asked me. I looked up at her. I nodded and went back to reading. "Alright.." She whispered again. Eventually she also went back to reading.

Levy pov

I didn't believe Lucy. I didn't mean to be rude, or even ask. But it pondered in my head all day, and I couldn't get it out.

I sat beside gajeel. He had is eyes closed. I sighed and looked down at my lap. "Shrimp" he said. I looked up at him and he was facing me. "Tell me" I sigh again. "No its alright." I tell him. But he keeps staring.

"Who's this natsu guy?"

He froze for a second. Then he crossed his arms. "That pink haired dumb ass? He's just some guy from-" I grumbled. "I can tell he isn't some 'guy from my old school' or 'a nobody'" I pout. I watched him, his expression changed and he sighed heavily.

"I've known him awhile now."

My ears were now wide and open. He started talking about how he met him and why he stuck with him over the years. "And Lucy?" I ask him. "How does he know Lucy?" He looked away from me. His shoulders tensed.

"That's a long, dreadful story"

He kept looking away from me. I poked him. But he didn't budge. "Tell me" I ask him, silent. "Please?" I ask again. I lean over him and look at him in the face. He groaned. "Fine! But don't blame me of you cry"

It'll make me cry?!

Lucy pov

I walked down the street. Cars fly by me as I breathed in the night air. I was walking back from the book store. I needed to get a new book again.

I looked at the people walking by. I smiled at a few. I dug into my bag and grabbed the book. I stared at the cover as I walked, not looking where I was going.

"Yes Mira I'll be there in a sec"

I stopped. I felt my knees go weak. I looked up. And I felt like throwing up. Lissana stood there on the phone. She smiled and laughed as she talked. What should I do? What.. Am I supposed to do? I

Her eyes met mine once she noticed me. I covered my mouth as I dropped the book. Her blue eyes went wide, so did mine. She put the phone down. I stepped a few steps back.

"L-lucy?"

I felt my vision go blurry once she called out to me. I turned around and started running. As fast as I could go. I felt my head starting to spin. I just about crashed into my door before I opened it.

I walked into my room. And everything came at me at once. Flash backs. I covered my mouth as I staggered into the room. I felt like crying once I thought about lissana. I held my stomach.

I could feel her kicking me almost. Just thinking about it. I felt powerless. Weak. Like I was in a dark small room when I thought of her. I sat myself down beside the bed. Shit…

I sat there. Staring at the wall. The tears came to my face. I touched my face. It was wet. I started to sob. I bended my knees and grabbed them and hugged them for dear life. Like I was about to disappear.

I heard the door bell. I ignored it. Soon the front door opened.

"Lucy?" My heart stopped once I recognized his voice. I sat there silent, but I was still sobbing. "Lucy?!" I heard natsu saying as he looked in all the rooms. He opened the door. And his face dropped. He ran to my side. I cried even harder.

"Luce what's wrong?!" He looked at me from head to toe. I felt my hand grab onto his arm. By this time I was crying hysterically. I couldn't stop. And I felt like throwing up.

"It's alright Luce" he kept telling me. I knew it wasn't. It didn't feel like it was. "Just let it out" he held my tight. Rocking me back and forth as held me, trying to console me. "It's okay." He kept saying in my ear.

For once I felt safe.

Once I stopped crying I kept my face hidden in my knees still. He was still hugging me. I could feel his warmth.

"Luce tell me what's wrong" he asked me. I wiped my face and lifted my head. "I don't know.. It's just.. Everything again." His grip went tighter. "I was thinking about lissana again." I say and look at him. His eyes seemed dark again. "Well don't." He wiped my face. "Don't think about her" I look away.

"It's just.. I seen her. I seen lissana. She looked at me and-" He sighed. "Stop Lucy. Slow down." He tells me. I breath in. "I was walking.. Back from the book store. And she was there. She called my name and looked at me.. I-I ran." He squeezed me again.

"That fucking bitch"

I looked at him. "Where did she go?" He asks me. I sighed and pulled on his sweater. "Fuck.." He said under his breath. "Don't natsu." I tell him. "No Luce I will. She needs to rot in this guilt. Just as I am. She needs to pay for what she did-" I pull in his sweater again.

"I know." He sighed. He pulled me closer to him. "Where's your phone" he asks me. "In the kitchen" he lets go of me and walks to the kitchen. I get up and follow him.

He grabbed it and dialed a number. "Wait what are you doing?" He put the phone up to his ear. "Calling erza" I tried grabbing the phone, but he kept moving and dodging me.

"Don't rat on me!" I say and hit him. "Ow! Jesus Luce stop! I need to tell her" he shushed me. I stood there, listening.

"Hey erza. It's natsu. What? No no. It's.. Lucy…. Yeah she's alright… she was crying…. I didn't do it!... What ever just get your ass here…. Okay… yes.. Later" he hung up the phone. I stared at him. He put his hand on his head.

"So?" I ask him. "She's coming over. She said for us to wait here." He walked over to the couch. He sat down and looked at me. I sighed and sat beside him.

"You didn't have to do that. I'll be fine" he scoffed. I rubbed my eyes, they're probably puffy now. "No you aren't fine, all thanks to that bitch lissana" I put my head back and groan.

"Natsu please don't do this" I tell him "no. I don't like that you're crying by yourself, what would've happened if I didn't come here?" I cross my arms together and pout. I face the other way.

"I'm fine. It was my fault. I should've confronted her. Call erza and tell her that" he sighed. He sat there. Staring at me. I grumbled and stomp my way to the phone and dial the number to her cell phone.

She yelled into my ear the entire time when she answered. After convincing her she stayed home. I hung up the phone and sighed in relief. I looked at natsu, who was staring at me.

"Is she coming?" He asks me. I shake my head "no she isn't now" he closed his eyes. I sat beside him again. Silence lurked around us. "Lucy.." I looked at him.

"It's my fault"

He whispers. He sat there with his arms crossed, facing me. "Stop it natsu" I tell him. He put his head down "please? It's my fault.. Really its-" I stopped. He sat there quiet and still. "I'm sorry" I say. "Don't be. There's nothing to be sorry about" he lifted his head up and smiled at me.

I rubbed my eyes again. "I should go. I'll be back in the morning though." He got up and walked to the door. He stood there for a second and walked up to me. "Don't worry about lissana. I'll take care of it" he walked out the door before I could say anything.

I sat in my spot. I sighed and put my head back again. I put my hands on my eyes. Oh god. What did I do. I rub my eyes again and stand up.

I sighed and yawned. I looked at the coffee table. A yellow sticky note was place there. Someone stuck it to the table. I picked it up and read it.

"I'm only a phone call away, or down the street. Don't be shy if you need anything

-natsu"

I looked on the back, his phone number was written there. I stared at it. I stuck it by the phone and walked into my room. Changed into pajamas, and laid in bed.

I turned onto my side and closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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No more spoopy :(. Now I'm excited for Christmas, the count down is on XD

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