Lucy pov

Sometimes I wonder about everything. Life and death. Its funny how it works. You live for a long period of life, then bam! you're dead. Your mortality has run out. What are we supposed to do with our lives? No body gave us a plan, not even god him self. I guess that's his gift to us, life and how we want to live it. No plan no nothing.

What is our main goal? To have kids, or end up alone. To live a long life, or a short life. To be free and courageous, or over thinking and stay at home locked away from the real world.

If we have no purpose, then make a purpose. To live. That's really our goal in life, to spend it as we want. You can smoke, do drugs, whatever. You chose. It maybe unhealthy and I really don't recommend it, and i'm not saying to do that either. I'm saying its your life and you can choose how you want it to be. Be a superstar, be a sports player, doctor, journalist, or simply nothing. its your choice.

Id rather live my life to the fullest. Corny I know. But still. I want to do everything in life. The ones that give you a rush of adrenaline, the ones that make you feel warm, or simply no feeling at all. I want to experience as much as I can. Because in the after life, if there even is such a place. All we're going to do is be a ghost, or in heaven dancing with an angel, or down there. In hell, burning.

I don't really believe in hell. Because I was in it once already. I don't plan on going back either.

Either way, we have to live. I want to be happy in life. To smile brighter than everyone else.

Happiness is the key.

I sit beside natsu. Its lunch, ever since he caught me hes been beside me 24\7. I reminded me of when we first met. I picked at my food. He seemed to notice, and he nudged me. He looked at me. His eyes telling me to eat. But I don't. I simply don't feel hungry. He looked away and started eating his food. Taking in huge mouthfuls, one by one. I put my fork down and laid back a bit. "Lu-chan you shouldn't starve your self all the time. Its bad for you" Levy tells me as she sits in front of me. I looked at my food, and then back to her. "I had a big breakfast. So i'm not that hungry" I smiled so I could reassure her. She nodded and went back to her food.

For that entire time, I just talked. And let my food go to waste.

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I stared into the distance. Thinking. Why the hell am I talking to natsu? I shouldn't even be bothered by him, lest interact with him. I shouldn't let him come into my life again. If so.. then why am I letting him so easily back in. Last time he did I was scarred for life, I'll never forget those moments in life. Natsu Dragneel. Why was he such a big part of my life now?

Technically he saved me, right? I mean he's right, I don't even know what would've happened if natsu didn't come. The thought scares me. Lissana scares me. Life scares me. It seems that almost everything scared me now a days.

What was wrong with me?

And what is happening to my plan? I had one, it doesn't seem to be going accordingly. I thought i'd forget everything as soon as I entered school. And people would see me different. Nothing has changed this past month. I sure as hell know I haven't, i'm still that weak little girl afraid of everyone and everything.

"You alright?" Natsu asks me as we walk side by side home. I shook my head "No. Not really" I tell him, this time I didn't lie. "Whats wrong" He stops and puts his arm in front of me, making me stop also. I shake my head again. "Nothing" I lied. "Then how come you said no?" He moved his arm and put his hand into his pockets. "Over thinking. I'm worried about my plan, about becoming 'fresh'" I shivered under the autumn cold. "Don't worry about things like that Luce, it'll wreck you" I sighed and looked away from him.

"I'm already wrecked. How can I get even more wrecked?"

"Luce you're not wrecked."

"Hows that?" I ask him. He stepped forward to me and leaned into my face. "You never used to smile, or laugh. Not even to erza, and all you had was erza back then" I stared into his onyx eyes. "You have so much friends that care about you, me, erza, levy. And you always smile, you never even notice" He finally stepped back, giving me some space. He gave me that warm smile.

"I'm still that weak little girl though, I'm still that victim" He shook his head no. "No you were never weak. You were the one who stood up to lissana, didn't you? You were always strong-" I clenched my fist, " I was never strong!" I tell him. "If I was strong I'd be over lissana. I'd be over everything! I only stood up because I was scared, scared of losing you. Scared for my own sake. Scared for everything" I stared at him, but he kept a straight face. "You were scared of losing me?" He asked me, I nodded. "Yes I was natsu, I was scared of losing one of my friends, you were one of the first to become my friend. So yes natsu I was scared. I was scared of us not being friends anymore" His eyes went low.

"I don't care about that anymore though" He looked down now "I'm so tired of this. This was one of the reasons why I wanted to become someone new, right when I got into High school" I shivered again. He looked at me, but since I was in an angry mood I looked away. I heard his jacket unzip and him walking towards me. He wrapped it around me. I looked at him as his zippered it up. He stood there in his uniform, skin showing.

"I don't want your jacket" I tell him. "Too bad, you're cold. Just wear it until we get home" He put his arm around me and pulled me away. "Don't natsu I-" He interrupted me " I don't want to fight today luce" And with that said. I stayed quiet. He let go of me and walked beside me. We both stayed silent, in the station, on the train, and even on the rest of the way home.

Once we stopped at my door I took off his jacket and turned around to give it to him and thank him.

He was already gone.

I looked around for him. But he wasn't anywhere to be seen. I held his jacket, the smell of his cologne on him filled my nose. I smiled and grabbed my keys and went inside. I put the jacket beside my bed, ready for him in the morning. I'll thank him and give it to him tomorrow. I have a feeling he'll come again like usual.

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Natsu pov

I shivered under the cold as I went home. The cold finally got to me. But I could handle it. It'd be okay anyway. I was only a few steps away from home anyway, I could endure it. My jacket went to a good cause anyway, as long as she wasn't cold.

I spent my evening reading. I was into books now more than ever. They always seemed to fascinate me. Plus it makes me even better in English. I finally fell asleep after finishing the book I was reading.

In the morning I walked to Lucy's house. It was even more colder in the morning. I shivered under the cold. Waiting patiently for her to come out. I heard her open her door and walk out, locking it. She looked at me and smiled. I felt my self falling hard again. "Here's your jacket, thanks for letting me use it." she says as she hands me it. I put it on and smile at her. "No problem" We started walking to school.

She seemed happy today, finally. I thought she'd be mad about yesterday. Trying to pick another fight, but I liked it when she did. She got her problems out in the open, even if it was at me.

Lucy pov

Erza smiled at me, batting her eyelashes trying to persuade me. "No" she smiled even more. "Erza no I don't want to be third wheel, it's you and jellal's anniversary. Not mine" I crossed my arms. "Please lucy? It's important for me" I shook my head no again. "Yeah because he's your boyfriend. Not mine. I'm not exactly important in this situation anyway". She grabbed my hands. "Please?" erza batted her eyelashes even more. Pouting her lip. "If I can bring someone" She smiled and nodded, "so it'll be a double date?" I shrugged my shoulders.

"I guess so"

"Thanks lucy, you're the best" Erza said before she got up and walked away. Digging in her pocket for her phone, to tell jellal the news. I sighed and sat back in my chair. Oh shit. Who am I bringing? I didn't think about this… I don't wanna bring sting. He already has a girlfriend, she might get the wrong idea..

Natsu.

"Natsu" he turned around in his chair. "What?" I breathed out. "Do me a favour…please?" he nodded without hesitation. "Can you come with me to dinner with erza and jellal? I don't want to be third wheel. They said it was okay" He smirked at me. "Are you asking me out Lucy Heartfilia?" I blushed slightly. "No. I just don't want to take sting with me" He smiled "Sure…" he trailed on.

"Fine, I'll go by my self"

"Luce I'm kidding!"

I took one last look in the mirror. I looked at my black dress, it was below the knee and it was tight. But comfy. I curled my hair and even put make up on. I hope natsu actually comes. If not I'll kill him.

I walked to the door and grabbed my coat. I checked my phone before I left, no messages. I grabbed my shoes and put them on. I heard someone knock on the door. I got up and opened it. I stood there in shock. Natsu stood there, smirking and me with his elbow on the side of the door. He looked down at me.

His hair was gelled up, and he wore a black tuxedo without the bow. I stood in awe. It made his jawline even more chiseled than before. He kept staring at me too. "Shall we go?" He asked me and offered me his arm. "I thought you wouldn't come" I held on to his arm, again I could smell his cologne. "Of course not, after all you're all dressed up. I could never miss such an opportunity" I punched him slightly in the side. I felt my neck going red.

"I ordered a taxi by the way, it should be up the street" He pointed. There stood a yellow taxi, it was parked. Still running. Once we got there he opened the door for me, I sat down. I felt anxious and nervous now. Seeing him like that, I never did before. And that made me even more nervous. I'm lucky this is a double date.

"Why the hell is he here?" erza asks me. She frowned staring at natsu. "Well you're the one who said I could bring someone" Jellal put a hand on erza's shoulder, making her sigh. "Yeah you're right.." She turned around with jellal with her. We all started walking to the restaurant. I felt natsu's hand on my back. I went red again. I slapped his hand away. He laughed and shoved his hand in his pocket. I felt even more nervous than before.

"That was amazing" I stretch my arms out. Full. It was a quick meal. Dinner and home really. We had strawberry cheesecake of course, erza's favourite. "Happy anniversary" jellal says to erza. Leaning in for a kiss. They started making out, I felt uncomfortable now. "Ew" Natsu said staring at them. "Why are we even here" I say. They finally stopped, looking annoyed at the both of us. "Grow up both of you" Erza stomped away, embarrassed. I laughed.

Finally we parted our ways. The other two took a cab, natsu wanted me and him to walk the rest of the way. "Thanks for dinner!" I yell at them before they shut the door and drive away. I wave at them until they disappear in the distance.

We started walking home. "That brought up memories" Natsu yawned. "Back when we used to hang out, I remember that time at that arcade. We pigged out on pizza and versed on pacman" I smiled thinking about it. "To be honest lucy, I wasn't there for lissana" I looked at him. "I over heard you and erza talking. So I came. I lied about meeting her" He kept looking forward. "Really?" I ask him. He nodded.

"You sucked by the way" He scoffed at me. "What do you mean?!" I laughed. So did he. I wiped the tear from my eye.

And just like that my heart dropped. I felt my stomach rising up, dancing. I felt fear again. Like I was still stuck in that dark small room. My eyes laid on her, Lissana. She stood there at a cafe, outside shivering. I stopped, unable to move. "Luce what's wrong-" He stopped and looked at her too. His fist tightened, I could almost hear him. But by now I was zoned out. My vision was all on her, so were my ears.

She turned to us. I felt my heart dropping even more. My stomach started moving and twisting.

"Natsu?" she called out.

I felt like fainting again

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I'm so sorry, this could've been up earlier. But lazy me forgot to and now it's 1 am. -.- oh well it's up.

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