Chapter Two
There was a knock at the door. I sighed and got up; I know it wasn't Edward because he would have just opened the door with his key. I put my book down and walked out the room towards the door.
"Bella hurry it's me." I could hear Jasper's soft voice through the door. I opened the door and he was staring me down his eyes a dark hazel, it was almost time for him to feed.
"Is there something wrong Jasper?" I asked confused. What was he doing here?
"No, I just didn't want to be alone in that house." He said inviting himself in.
I closed the door behind him, "Well if you didn't want to be alone why didn't you go to the party with the others?" I asked.
"Is there a problem with me being here?" He asked sounding offended.
"No of course not Jasper I'm just curious. I thought the whole idea of you not going tonight is so that you could be alone, feeling other people moods including yourself all the time have the be rather tiring and stressful." I said sitting on the couch in our little living room.
"Tell me about it. Sometimes I wish I didn't have this so called gift." He sighed sitting next to me. I too have a gift but it's not really a burden like Jasper's gift or Edward's.
"I'm sorry Jasper." I whispered.
"Oh don't be silly Bella, it's not like you're the one who gave me the gift." He smiled at me and I smiled back.
"Well if you ever need anyone to talk to Jasper then I'm always here for you okay?" I assured him.
"Thanks Bella, that actually means a lot to me." He said still smiling.
"What are sisters for?" I giggled.
"Yeah, um sisters right," He cleared his throat.
"Is Renesmee sleep?" He asked.
"She should be I just put her to bed. I'm really hopping that she won't have any nightmares tonight."
"Is that why you didn't go to the party tonight?" He asked.
"Yes, I just didn't feel comfortable with leaving her here with a babysitter when her nightmares are so violent." I said shifting a little.
"Yes, Edward told me about those horrid nightmares of hers, well she seems to be fine now her mood is peaceful." Jasper said.
"I just hope that it stays that way." I bit my lip softly. I really wanted to know why he was here.
"Jasper if you don't mind me asking, why are you here?" I asked looking down.
"Oh I asked Edward about Renesmee to make sure he didn't need me to watch her tonight and he told me that you had agreed to stay home with her, and he asked me to check on you both to make sure you're alright."
"Ha, I don't need a babysitter Jasper." I huffed.
"I know but I wanted to come over." He shrugged.
"I feel like there's something you're not telling me Jasper. What's the matter?" I asked skeptically.
He sighed, "Nothing Bella."
"You're a liar." I teased. He chuckled softly.
"You know Edward is very lucky to have you." He whispered. He surprised me with that statement, it came out of nowhere.
"I do love him. I'd do anything for that man." I said smiling.
"Really, you would?" Jasper looked at me.
"Of course, he means the world to me. I love him so much." I said.
"I wish I felt that way for someone." I looked up at him.
"You do don't you, for Alice right?" I asked
"No not really, at least not anymore. We're drifting Bella, and I think she's cheating on me." I gasped.
"Really, what makes you think that Jasper?" I asked.
"I just have a feeling Bella, and besides I don't feel the way for her like I used to. I think I'm in love with someone else." He admitted. This was all starting to freak me out. Jasper and I were not the closest of friends, I mean we rarely talk to one another and I'm never really alone with him neither and for him to confess so much to me right now was making me very nervous.
"Who are you in love with Jasper?" I asked. He looked up at me his eyes filled with passion and hunger it caught my breath.
"You Bella, Isabella I'm in love with you." He admitted.
"Shhhh before Renesmee hears you!" I covered his mouth with my hands. He stared me down awaiting my next move.
"You're talking nonsense Jasper; you don't love me you're in love with Alice." I whispered removing my hands from his mouth.
"I can't deny the feelings I have you anymore Bella, that's what has been bringing me down lately. Alice and I have been fighting a lot lately and just seeing Edward the way he touches you and holds you it makes me literally sick to my stomach. And to hear you two make love I wished I was deaf." He confessed to me.
"When did you hear us make love?" I asked embarrassed.
"That day when we all took Nessie hunting to give you two some private time, you two thought everyone was gone but I stood behind that day because Alice and I had a fight the night before and we needed space from each other to cool off. And I heard you two upstairs, you moaning his name. It made me absolutely sick to my stomach." He growled.
I was shocked, "Jasper, I don't know what to say. I love Edward."
"But you can love me too. I can be so much better than Edward just give me a chance Bella." He reminded me so much of Jacob right now.
"Do you hear the words that are coming out of your mouth right now? Edward is my husband! We have a child together for Christ sake! And I love them both. I could never do something like this to him or to her."
"I'm sorry Bella but I can't help how I feel." He said looking down.
"How long have you been feeling like this Jasper?" I asked turning away from him, I could not look at him right now.
"For a while now Bella, you've made me realize why I'm so unhappy with Alice." He whispered. I turned to face him.
"Jasper, please I'm begging you don't do this. This is wrong you need to get rid of these feelings because it's going cause a world of hurt for everyone. Nothing good is going to come out of this." I said looking down. It picked my chin up making me look into his eyes. From the look of them his feelings were really serious it made my heart skip a little. No this cannot be happening! I love Edward and nothing is going to change that.
"Bella just let me kiss you. Just one time, if it doesn't have an effect on you then I will leave you alone and we can both forget about this conversation ever taking place, deal? "He proposed.
"I will not cheat on Edward, Jasper." I protested.
He put a hand gently on my face, "Shhh Bella just relax." He leaned in closer. I wanted to move away from him as far away as possible but I couldn't move my body wouldn't. I wanted to know what it felt like to have our lips touch but I really didn't want to cheat on Edward. But I really can't resist Jasper right now. This is so wrong and I know I'm going to regret this later. Jasper leaned in closer and our lips barely touched.
"I've been waiting for this moment for a long time now." He whispered and then kissed me gently. He pulled me closer to him, pulling me onto his lap as our kiss deepened. I could feel his cock hardened as sat on him, kissing him, our tongues dancing with each other in motion. He rubbed his hands down my back as I grinded slowly against him. Things were starting to get hot, we were both breathing heavily as Jasper pulled away to kiss my neck biting it softly I moan a little hating myself for enjoying this. I ran my fingers through his hair as he continued to kiss my neck I could feel my pussy starting to get wet. Jasper then laid me down on the couch getting on top of me still kissing and biting my neck.
My breathing was starting to get louder and quicker as Jasper slid a hand down my pants into my wet panties and started rubbing my clit. I moaned out a little louder as he kissed my lips. He slid a finger inside of me slowly.
"Stop, p-please," I breathed.
"Let me taste you Bella." He whispered hotly into my ear which turned me on even more.
"Jasper we can't do this please stop." I really didn't want him to stop though, but I can't do this. He slid another finger inside of me I cried out as he starting moving them in out of me.
"J-Jasper s-stop please," I moaned.
"Bella but you like it." He groaned. This made me angry. He's right though. I wanted him to keep touching me and kissing me I wanted his hands all over my body but I couldn't do this to Edward and I won't.
"Jasper get off me." He pulled his finger out of me and sucked them clean of my juice.
"Bella, let me make love to you I want to make you feel like you never have before." He said.
"I said get off!" I pushed him off easily, which I would have never been able to do if I was still human. He went flying and hit the wall I'm surprised he didn't break it.
"You could never make love to me Jasper because I'm not in love with you Jasper; I think it's best if you go!" I said pointing to the door.
"You haven't even given me a chance Bella, I can be so much better than Edward. Please!" He begged.
"I said leave!" I shouted. He looked at me a little hurt but determined.
"This isn't over. Bella, I will have you." He promised looking at sternly. Damn, that was sexy I almost thought about him taking me right now ripping my clothes and fucking my brains out but I wouldn't let him know that he needed to leave.
"Good night Jasper." I said turning away from him. I heard the door slammed behind me. He was gone. I took a huge breath feeling relieved but I knew this wasn't over. This was far from over. In fact I believed that this was only the beginning.