Chapter Six

"I'm going hunting with Emmett, I'll be back soon okay?" Edward kissed my forehead. I nodded. I was glad that he was leaving; things were still pretty tense from last night. All Edward and I did was just sit on our bed, he on his laptop doing whatever and me reading my book. Not saying a word to each other. I wish we could sleep, I think that's the thing I miss the most about being human. Renesme, thankfully didn't have any more nightmares for the night, came bouncing in smiling big.

"Mom, may I go to the mall with Kaylee and her mom today?" She asked still smiling. I looked over at Edward, he was smiling too.

"What time honey?" He asked.

"Around noon, that's what Kaylee said. She said all I have to was ask mom and her mom wants to talk to you to make sure." She was still smiling. She always smiles so brightly and bigly when she wanted something, that's how she got a cellphone out of Edward last month.

"Well I would love to talk to Kaylee's mother before I make a decision." She rushed out the room before I could finish my sentence to get her cellphone I guess. I chuckled.

"Well I see you can handle it from here. I 'll see you later then?" he asked still smiling.

"Yes of course darling." I could feel a small smile formed at my lips. He chuckled and sped out just like Renesme did seconds ago.

"Okay Kaylee she wants to talk to your mom." I heard Renesme coming back down the hallway. Wow she sure do moves fast.

JPOV

"Hey Jas, open up man. Edward and I are going hunting today; do you want to go with?" Emmett knocked at my door. There is no way in hell I was leaving anywhere with Edward.

"I'm not going. I don't feel like going hunting today." I lied. I really want to go hunting but not if Edward will be around. I won't be able to control my thoughts and he already suspects something.

"Well why not Jasper? Us three always go out hunting." He said.

"Well I'm not thirsty, you guys go ahead, I'm just going to stay here." I said quietly.

"Will you at least open the door? You've been locked in there all night. What is going on with you? You're starting to worry me." He sounds frustrated. I tell Emmett everything; we're the closest in this house.

I wish I could tell him what's going on but I can't. I'm not even sure myself about what's going on. But one thing I do know for sure is that I'm not going hunting if Edward will be there too. It's too early in the game; Bella hasn't fallen for me yet. If Edward knew of what happened last night, Bella would never want to talk to me or even look at me ever again. And I just can't have that. I won't have that.

"Emmett everything is okay, I just don't feel like haunting. I'm going to go a little later." I said.

"Are you sure?" He wasn't going to give up and I was starting to get a bit irritated with him.

"Yes man, I'm sure now please just go on." I wasn't going to say another word after that. I didn't have to though because I heard him leave. I blew a breath of relief.

BPOV

"Renesme do you have your card Aunt Alice got you?" I asked Renesme as she was getting ready. Of course Alice would get her a debit card so that she could shop for clothes whenever she wanted. And she did. Renesme was into to fashion and was proud of the clothes she wore just like Alice. I think Alice is trying to turn Nessie into a mini her.

"Of course mom, you should never leave home without it." She smiled that bright smile of hers. I love her so much.

"Come here sweetie." I said holding my arms out. She ran to me and gave me a hug. I could hear Kaylee's mom, Linda car pulling up.

"Now you listen to Kaylee's mom, no talking to strangers, and remember what I said about cloaking." I said hugging. Cloaking is hiding the fact of what we are. Acting as if we were humans, the Cullens had to teach me when I first changed. We've been teaching Renesmee as well, she caught on quickly and now I think she got the hang of it. It's not so hard for her being that she's half human.

"Yes mommy." She hugged me back tightly as we heard the doorbell ring.

"Come on lets go get the door." I didn't have to say that twice because she sped quickly before me to the door I already heard her opening and greeting Kaylee and Linda. I chuckled as I left the bedroom to go greet the guests.

"Isabella, how are you?" Linda smiled brightly. She was wearing some funny yellow sundress with tiger lilies printed all over it and some white flip flops. Alice would die of heart attack if she saw the tackiness of it all.

"For the last time Linda, it's Bella. Not even my parents call me Isabella." I smiled playfully.

"I'm sorry; you know how old minds work. They just tend to forget things a lot." She giggled.

"I guess so." I said still smiling.

"Well our agenda for today is just to get some shopping done, maybe I might let Kaylee here talk me into getting the girls a medi and pedi, we'll have some dinner and I should have her back home by seven. Sounds good?" she asked.

"Sounds great to me." I smiled. I'm glad that Renesmee is going out for the day. Maybe if she has a good time today she won't have any nightmares tonight.

"Good then, well I have your number and I will call you if we need you." She said.

"Sound's fantastic. You ladies have a wonderful time." I said.

"I'm sure we will, come along girls." Linda smiled once more at me and turned to leave with Kaylee right behind her. Renesmee turned to look at me.

"Go ahead sweetie, have fun and remember your manners, and cloaking darling. That's really important." I whispered. She smiled and nodded and left out the door closing it softly. Now I was in the house all by myself with not a thing to do. I guess I could try to read some more until Edward gets back I suppose. I sighed and went to go grab my book and as I walked to the bedroom to go fetch it, a desperate knocked ringed at the door. What now.

JPOV

I just had to talk to her. We have to talk about what happened last night. I felt like I was losing my mind back at the house pacing about in my room thinking of nothing but her and that night of ours last night. I couldn't stand it any longer and now here I'am, pathetic as a whipped puppy dog knocking on her door.

"Go away Jasper." She said softly as though I was in the room with her.

"Bella, I need to talk to you please." I begged.

"We have nothing to talk about." She said monotone. The lacking of emotion in her tone felt like a slap to my face.

"So you're just going to pretend that last night never happened?" I growled through the door.

"I don't know what you're talking about Jasper, please just go away."

"I'm not leaving until we talk about it. I'm losing my mind Bella please, for my sanity's sake; open the damn door." I heard her sigh and I could hear the door being unlocked and she opened it, stepping aside so that I could walk in; she wouldn't even look at me. That hurt.

"Make it quick Jasper." She said coldly.

"How could you be so coldly to me after what happened last night?"

"Last night should have never happened Jasper, and you know that!" She yelled.

"I don't understand. There was something between us last night. Bella come on you had to feel it." I felt desperate now.

"You used me Jasper. You knew I was vulnerable from the fight with Edward and you used me. That's not love. Now you need to leave." She pointed to the door.

"No I'm not leaving until you admit that you have feelings for me Isabella."

"Jasper why are you doing this? Why are you trying to break up our family, my family? I love my husband and my daughter and I'm not going to hurt them. You've already done enough damage. Why are you so willing to sacrifice the life you have now to be with me? Do you think you will be able to survive without your coven? You will be nothing without the Cullens. So you need to be wise right now Jasper. Forget about every single feeling you have for me. Try to build your relationship back up with Alice. Be my brother, the one I love. Not the person I will hate forever if he tears my family apart." She said looking up at me her eyes pleading. I sighed.

"But I can't just deny the feelings I have you Bella." I looked down.

"Jasper you really have no choice. I'm not leaving Edward for you and that's the bottom line. Last night was a mistake. It should have never happened and it won't happen again. You need to let this go." She grabbed my hand and held it tightly.

"Just let it go." She whispered. I nodded. I don't know what to do. I just know I need to get away from this house. Away from here, at least for a little while. I took her hand and kissed softly.

"Good bye Bella. Take care of yourself." Then as I took a deep breath I left. I thinking I'm going to take a trip for a while.

BPOV

I took a deep breath. If I could right now I would cry. I think I really hurt Jasper, but it was for the best. I love Edward. Jasper should mean nothing more than to me but a brother. But still I can't help but feel a little weird about all of this. Last night was incredible, amazing, too much for words. It's like my mind is at battle with my body. I know what I did was completely wrong but yet I crave more from him. I long for him to touch me like he touched me last night.

"Stop it Bella, this is wrong and you know it." I whispered to myself shaking all those bad thoughts. I feel so lost and confused at this point. Things will never be the same. There was a quiet knock at the door.

"Bella, open up, It's me Alice." I heard Alice's voice through the door. Shit. I forgot all about her being able to see into the future. What if she already saw all this happening! She knows about what happened last night! I don't know if I'm able to face her. I swallow hard as I open the door.

"Alice hi, come on in" I put on a fake smile hoping she doesn't see pass it. She smiled back at me and walked in. I closed the door behind her as she went to go sit on the couch.

"So what brings you here today." I sat on the opposite couch next to her. She turned to face to me.

"Oh I came to talk to you about something." She said sweetly.

"Oh? What about Alice?" I could feel myself getting nervous all ready but I won't let her see that.

"Jasper." She blankly said.

"What about Jasper, Alice?" Inside I was yelling! She knows! She knows about everything that happened. I was freaking out in the inside but I managed to keep my composure on the outside.

"I know, I know about everything Bella. There's no need to pretend that I'm ignorant to the fact that you slept with the man I deeply love last night." She said, her voice sounding like glass shattering.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I instantly denied it.

"Bella, stop lying, I saw it! And Jasper admitted to it last night. I know, and I must say I'm really hurt that you would do something like this. I thought you were my sister." She said looking down.

"I think you should go." I whispered. She looked up at me and her eyes I truly saw that she was hurt and I felt a pang of guiltiness hit me like a ton of bricks.

"You're right I suppose. I just came here to tell you to be careful towards the next move you make. I wouldn't want Renesmee or Edward getting hurt okay? She smiled. I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything I felt like all the words have been drained out of me. She stood up and walked towards the door and then she looked back at me.

"I would never forgive you for this Isabella Swan." She whispered and then she was gone. She left me sitting in the living room looking down at my hands feeling nothing but sorry for myself. Things will never be the same.