Chapter Eight
"Really daddy, you mean that? Don't kid with me!" Renesme was smiling so huge. Edward and I was telling her the news of Edward lifting Jacob's banishment.
"Yes Nessie, I mean it. But there are some rules darling." He said softly.
"Of course, there is." She rolled her eyes.
"Renesme, mind your manners." I said warning her. She looked down embarrassed.
"Sorry dad." She whispered.
"It's fine Renesme; your mother and I feel that these rules are fair and we expect to be them followed. Understood?" Edward started.
"Yes sir." Renesme said quietly, she looked up at Edward.
"Jacob is not allowed around here if me or your mom isn't around. Okay?" Edward said. She wanted to protest, I could see it in her face but she remained silent.
"Yes dad." She said biting her lip.
"Also, the kissing will not happen again. You are not allowed to kiss anymore. Nothing more than hugging. And if I catch it again you can forget about seeing Jacob ever again. And I mean that Renesme." Edward was really expressing how serious this was.
"I'm not a little kid anymore dad. It's not fair that you have to give me these petty rules." Renesme said.
"Excuse me?" Edward was little shocked. That even surprised me a little. Renesme never talked back to us. We never had any problems with her. Even when Edward first banned Jacob she didn't put up a fight nor go against his word. Of course she was upset but she never did put up a fight.
"I may have been born three years ago but I'm not some ignorant little girl. I do know what sex is." She sneered.
"Excuse me?" I piped in. I cannot believe she just said that. Who in the world has told her about sex? I will kill Jacob if he's been putting these thoughts in her head.
"Did Jacob pressure you into something like that Renesme?" Edward was keeping his cool.
"No." She simply said.
"Then how in the hell do you know about sex?" I said.
"Why does it matter how I know it? I'm not an idiot. I know what sex is and if I feel like I'm ready for something like that it should be my decision of when and where I want to do it." Her face was expressionless. I've never seen Renesme act this way before or talked this way. I felt like I was going to throw up. To hear your baby girl talk about sex, it literally makes me sick to my stomach.
"Have you lost your mind? Do you have any idea who you're talking to?" Edward said roughly.
"I just want you guys to stop treating me like a little kid. Because I'm not a little kid anymore; I want to start seeing Jacob as my boyfriend and not as a little play date as you may see it. I want to be able to go out on dates with him. We never get to go anywhere together like real couples do." She said.
"Because you two are not a real couple Renesme; you are certainly not ready to handle a relationship right now." I said. She rolled her eyes.
"Are you guy's serious right now? I know a lot more than you think I know. And I know when I'm ready to take on something like this. I just wish you two would understand. But you will never understand." She stormed off to her room.
"Renesme get back here!" Edward finally yelled.
"No! I'm through talking with you guys; I'm only wasting my breath." She said as she closed her door. What the hell just happen? Did Renesme just literally become a woman over night? And I really want to know how the hell she knows about sex. I swear if Jacob has been pressuring her into something that she's clearly not ready for I will kill him myself.
"What do we do about this Edward?" I asked Edward. I looked over at him and he was shaking, he was so angry.
"I really don't know Bella. But when Jacob get here we will have a little talk with him, that I do know." Edward said. And he too walked off to go into our room. This is just great I feel like my whole family is just falling apart. I can only imagine what else is here to come. And something in my gut is telling me that whatever it is it's not going to be good.
JPOV
Alice really had me thinking about a lot. I really hate that I let her get to me like this. I was going to leave and finally be rid of Bella and everything else that is negative here. I have no idea what to do. If I leave I can never come back, but if I stay and try to work things out with Alice things will never be the same. I still feel so strongly about Bella. And the thing that bothers me the most is that I have no idea how or why it was her I started to love. Being with her last night, being able to share that delicate moment with her made me feel complete. What the hell do I do? I feel completely lost and so damn confused.
"Are you going on a trip?" Emmett walked in. I was so infused in my own thoughts that I didn't even notice him walk into my room.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"I'm talking about that." He pointed at my suitcase.
"I'm not going anywhere." I simply said.
"Then why do you have a packed suitcase?" He asked sitting down next to me.
"I was going somewhere but had a change of mind and that's all to that." I said dismissing the topic from our conversation. I guess Emmett caught my drift because he didn't badger me anymore on it.
"I came to see if you wanted to toss the football with me. I'm bored and kind of horny but Rose won't have sex with me." He grumbled. There's never a filter or boundary with Emmett he will tell you anything and everything regardless if it's appropriate or not.
"And why is that?" I asked feeling fortunate that he decided to change the subject.
"I don't know she's in one of her moods again. I hate when she gets like this. She's so difficult to be around." Emmett said looking down.
"Just give her some space, women can't help but to act crazy every once in a while. I'll be more than happy to toss the football with you." Even though I'm not in the playing mood, I feel sorry for my dear brother and I would really love something to do that will get my mind of these issues for a while I suppose.
"Awesome, I will meet you downstairs then." His face lit up and it made me smile. It also made me think of what Bella told me. She's right. I would be nothing without my coven. The Cullens are my family and leaving them could be the worst mistake of my life. I'm just going to have to find a way to work through all of this, because I've definitely made a decision. I'm not going anywhere. And with that thought I head downstairs behind Emmett, football in hand.
BPOV
"Maybe she's right Edward." I said.
"What do you mean Bella?"
"We do treat Renesme like a child. And she's not. She's so mature in so many ways and we chose to be blind to that fact because we didn't want to give up on our little girl but that's not fair to her to treat her that way. She's right. She's not a child anymore Edward." I said. And saying that aloud kind of made me a little sad. I didn't want to give on my little girl but I can't keep her my little girl forever.
"So you think that the way she treated us just now was okay?"
"I never said that Edward."
"There's still so much for her to learn, she doesn't know everything." The man was just ranting now. Some of the things he was saying weren't making sense. He's so upset. I don't think he knows what he's going to do. I sighed. I don't know what to do. This is the first time we've ever experienced any rebellion from her. There was a knock at the door. I heard him coming a mile away. He decided to come on his motorcycle this time. I went to go open the door.
"Hey Jacob." I said clearing my throat.
"Hey Bells, is she here?" Jacob was so anxious. The smell of his strong cologne and wolf smell, hit me like a ton of bricks. He was in some dark jeans a black t-shirt and his leather jacket. And his hair was done nicely. He was obviously trying to impress Renesme.
"Yeah she's here, but we need to talk to you about something first." I said cautiously.
"Yeah sure, what's up?" He asked coming on sitting on the couch.
"It's Renesme." Edward said. I closed the door and went by his side.
"You already told me the rules, I get it." He said rolling his eyes.
"It's not just that Jacob." Edward said.
"Then what is it?"
"Promise you will be honest Jacob." I said.
"What's going on? You guys are starting to freak me out." He said smiling a bit.
"Have you been pressuring Renesme to have sex?" Edward asked bluntly.
"What? No! Why would you ask me that?" He asked the smile immediately disappeared
"She knows about sex Jacob and we sure in hell did not tell her about it. So if we didn't then who did?" Edward said straight faced.
"It wasn't me, I swear!" Jacob was getting upset.
"Jacob you don't have to explain anything to them." Renesme was immediately in the room.
"Nessie what is going on?" Jacob asked jumping up from the couch.
"Nothing is going on. Let's go somewhere, alone." She said immediately by his side.
"Yeah right, over my ashes." Edward said. The tone in his voice even frightened me a little. Clearly it freaked Renesme out little bit because the confident atmosphere she had before completely dispersed.
"I have no problem with you two seeing each other. But sex is out of the question!" Edward said firmly.
"I don't see how you could make that decision for me dad."
"I'm your father! Which part of that you do not understand?" Renesme was really pushing him.
"Renesme what has gotten into you seriously? Have you lost all respect for us?" I cut in before things got too serious.
"I'm just really tired of you guys treating me like a little kid. If I think I'm ready for sex I should be able to do it. It's my body, and I don't think you guys should have the right to tell me what I can and can't do with my body." She said. Jacob was beet red. This conversation was definitely embarrassing for him to be witnessing.
"We are your parents, we brought you into this world so you're wrong we do have the right to make this kind of decision for you; we don't think you're ready for something like sex. Do you have any idea how serious sex can be?" Edward said.
"Nessie, I think they're right. Sex is huge and I don't think you're ready for something like that just yet. I don't want to take advantage of you like that." Jacob cut in.
"You're seriously taking their side?" She was obviously shocked. So was I. Maybe Jacob wasn't pressuring her after all. Damn, I seriously owe him an apology.
"I just want you to be happy Renesme and I want you to be certain about sex. That's not something to be taken so easily." Jake said.
"Are you saying that you don't want sex Jake?" She looked like a kicked puppy dog. I cannot believe that we are having this conversation. I literally want to throw up.
"Be careful on the next thing you say Jacob Black." Edward firmly warned him. Jacob sighed looking at Edward and then at me. I looked at him with pleading eyes. Please Jacob, please don't take my little girl away from me yet. I'm not ready for it. And I think somehow he understood my silent message. I think Edward picked up on it too by reading his thoughts because his whole demeanor was starting to calm down.
"Look Renesme, all I want right now is for you to be happy. And you may think you're ready for sex, you're not. I don't know what you're trying to do or accomplish here. But if you continue to act this way you're only going to make it harder on us. I just got off banishment and I don't want to do anything to jeopardize my opportunity to see you. So please just calm down and stop this." He said looking at her.
"But Jacob, when we kissed -"
"I know I felt it too; it was like the connection between us grew even deeper. Which is exactly why I don't want to do anything to jeopardize me loosing you again; I don't think I can take being away from you like that ever again. Please Renesme, just try to understand." He begged her.
"Oh Jake." She ran to him and hugged him. He held her tightly, savoring her embrace. He kissed her forehead softly.
"Let's not rush anything. We have all the time in the world to do that. Just not now, you are not ready. No matter how many times you may tell yourself that you are, you're not ready." He said still holding her.
"Edward, let's go. We should give them some time. This is the first time they've seen each other in a very long time." I said grabbing my husband's hand.
"You want to leave them alone?" Of course he was hesitant on leaving them.
"I trust Jacob, nothing will happen." I said winking a Jake, he nodded in return.
"Come on let's go, we can go walk by the creek." I said pulling him out. I knew he was still a little worried about leaving them, but they need that time alone. To catch up on everything they've missed out on each other's lives.
"Do you really think it was a good idea leaving those two alone?" Edward asked as we approached the creek.
"You heard Jacob yourself, he agrees with us. He knows that sex is just not something Renesme is prepared for. Even I believe that she doesn't fully understand how important it is." I said sitting next to the creek. The sound of the running water is always so soothing to me.
"I suppose you're right." He said sitting next to me.
"Trust me, I know Jake. He just wants her to be happy right now. And he knows that he's walking on thin ice with you. I don't think he would do anything to anger you for a while. He doesn't want to risk losing Renesme again." I said resting my head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around me.
"I suppose you're right, once again." He sighed. I knew he was still worried about it though. I touched his cheek softly and he looked at me.
"Don't worry about it Mr. Cullen. Everything is going to be alright." I smiled.
"If you say so Mrs. Cullen," He whispered and kissed my smiling lips. I kissed him back deepening our kiss. He ran his fingers through my hair as he pulled me into his lap. My tongue easily found its way into his mouth and our tongues start to passionately dance with each other. I moaned a little at his mouth. I think that excited him because I could feel him getting hard he was starting to poke me in my inner thigh.
"Let me make love to you." He said breaking our kiss. He kissed my neck softly which had me breathing hard. I closed my eyes, my body felt warm against his. He was starting to lift my shirt off but I grabbed his hands stopping him.
"You want to make love to me out here?" I whispered at his ear nibbling on it a little. This definitely turned him on even more because he his embrace got tighter. We could do it anywhere but here. This is where Jasper and I did the unthinkable. It would be so disrespectful to have sex with Edward in the same place. I felt terrible now.
"Yes right here, right now." He growled, trying to take my shirt off again. And once again I stopped him.
"We can't." I said holding his hands. He looked at me and his kisses stopped.
"Well why not?" He asked.
"What if Renesme or Jake comes looking for us?" I said trying to think of more excuses to say.
"I highly doubt that they will." He said going back to kissing my neck.
"Edward, please. I don't feel comfortable doing it out here in the open." I lied. Obviously I had no problem with it before. I'm such a bad person. I've got to tell him soon or the guilt will surely devour me.
He sighed, "Very well then." I looked down I was still sitting in his lap awkwardly.
"Do I not satisfy you Bella?" He asked bluntly.
"Don't say such ridiculous things Edward. You know that's not true." I said still looking down playing with my fingers.
"Is there something I can help with you Jasper?" Edward looked over at some trees, and then he appeared.
JPOV
Shit. I should have known that was going to happen. They were about to have sex. But for some reason Bella stopped him. Is that supposed to mean something? I know I shouldn't be spying on them like this. But I was out here first and I happened to see them. Edward must have known I was here the whole time. So why was he so willing to have sex with Bella when he knows I was watching them. Does he suspect something? Because if he didn't he wouldn't be trying to put on a dirty show for me.
"I was just out taking a walk." I said stepping from behind the tree I was watching them from.
"It looked like you were doing more watching than walking Jasper. What's up with that?" He asked, gently moving Bella from his lap and getting up to meet me.
"I'm sorry I wasn't trying to spy. It looked like you two were having an intimate moment and I didn't want to ruin it by making noise by walking by." I said.
"So you decided to watch us instead?" She finally spoke up. She sounded so cold towards me.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled again.
"What's wrong brother? Why are you walking out here by yourself?" Edward put a hand on my shoulder. I wanted to break that hand. But I will play the nice card. For now that is.
"I have a lot on my mind. I thought some fresh air would do me some good." I smiled.
"Anything we can help you with?" He asked me.
"No I will be fine, I was just heading back to the house." I said.
"Are you sure?" Edward egged on.
"I'm sure he's fine honey, we should be getting back too." Bella grabbed his hand.
"Okay darling." He said kissing her hand. It was sickening to watch this.
"Well then brother, good night. I hope whatever that is that's bothering you it gets resolved soon." Edward said smiling.
"Thank you Edward, good night." I smiled back. Bella wouldn't even look at me. That hurt. More than I thought it would. She really does hate me.
"Well goodbye." And with that Edward left with Bella leaving me there like the fool I was. I'm such a damn fool. And if things continue on this way I will always stay a fool.