Chapter Eleven

My phone was buzzing my in back pocket. I stopped in my tracks and my heart jumped. I prayed that it was Renesme as I quickly pulled it out of my pocket. But it wasn't, it was Jacob.

"Hello?" I asked

"Hey Bells, I got her." He said softly.

"You do? Where was she?" I asked feeling relieved.

"She was in some woods near the reservation. She's back at the main house with the others. She's a little shaken up but she's fine. She's afraid to come home." Jacob was explaining.

"Stay with her tonight okay?" I asked him.

"You're not coming to see her?" He asked.

"I can't. Some things came up with Edward and I need to take care of that first." I replied.

"Are you serious Bella?" Jacob asked. His voice was filled with disgust.

"What?" I asked rolling my eyes.

"She thinks you two hate her and want nothing to do with her, don't you think you should be over here to tell her none of that is true? She won't listen to anyone." He said.

"I just can't right now, I have to talk to Edward." I said feeling my heart sink to my stomach. I don't want Renesme feeling that way. I want to hold her and tell her that everything was going to be okay. But I have to sort this out with Edward first.

"She's your daughter." He replied.

"And Edward is my husband." I said.

"So you're saying that he is more important than she." He asked.

"Jacob I don't need this from you right now, I have enough to deal with already." I was starting to get annoyed. I know Renesme is important; she means the absolute world to me and I feel so much better now that I know that she is found and she is safe with the others but I have to talk to Edward or I can kiss my marriage and my whole family goodbye.

"What happened?" He asked sounding defeated.

"I can't talk about it right now." I simply said.

"And why can't you?" He egged on.

"Jacob, just stop it okay. Just promise me that you will stay with her until I get back please?" I said wanting to hang up the phone and end this conversation already.

"You know I wouldn't leave her when she's feeling like this anyway. Just you and Edward hurry up and fix whatever you two got going on and quickly get here because Renesme is hysterical." He said. I could tell that he was annoyed.

"I understand Jacob. Thank you for everything."

"No need to thank me. Just hurry." He replied.

"I understand." And after that he was gone. I sighed and put my phone back into my pocket. I took off back to the cottage. I was hoping that Edward was there. On my way there I was starting to feel a little bad for Jasper. I think I was too harsh on him, by telling him that I hated him. Which was not true at all; I don't hate Jasper. I just don't feel the same way I do about him like he do about me. I love Edward. I made it back to the cottage.

"Edward!" I called through the house. I didn't get any reply back. I checked through all the rooms and no one was there. It was completely empty. Where on earth could he have possibly run off to? I was starting to feel frantic when the idea of the creek instantly popped into my head. The creek seems to be the place that both of us go to whenever something is bothering us. If he isn't there then I don't know where he is.

I left the cottage and took off for the creek hoping and praying that he was there. I don't even know if he would talk to me if I do find him. I know if I was him I wouldn't want to talk to me. I made it to the creek and looked around. It was so quiet out all I could hear were the frogs and the crickets singing their song of the night. The sound of the running water was starting to calm me down as well. I closed my eyes and let the night wind blow around me calming my frantic nerves.

"Can I help you with something?" I turned around to his voice. I looked at him and he seems so sad. The feeling of guilt was hitting me hard.

"I was looking for you." I said quietly.

"Why?" He asked coldly.

"We have to talk about this."

"There's nothing for us to talk about Bella." He said staring at me with cold eyes.

"I'm so very sorry Edward. I never wanted any of this to happen." I wanted to cry.

"But that's the thing Bella, it did happen. And from what I saw in Alice's mind you weren't trying that hard to stop it. You have no idea how much that hurt me to see what you two did." He said looking away.

"I never wanted to hurt you. I love you."

"No you don't love me."

"Don't say that Edward I do!" I said feeling myself becoming frantic.

"No! You don't! Because if you did love me you wouldn't have done what you did." He replied.

"Edward, I was weak. It meant nothing to me." I said. I could feel my body shaking.

"So every time we have a fight you're going to go out and cheat on me? I'm sorry but that's not an excuse for what you did." He said. And he was absolutely right. Blaming what I did with Jasper on our fight was not an excuse and I was wrong for even trying that. I'm such a terrible person.

"I'm so sorry." I didn't know what else to say.

"And the thing that hurts the most is that you did this with Jasper, my brother. You could have cheated with anyone else but him." He looked away from me.

"I didn't want this Edward." My voice was shaking.

"But you loved every minute of it. The way you were moaning! The way you let him touched you 'I want to ride you Jasper, let me get on top' you remember saying that?" He quoted me. Alice replayed the entire scene in her mind and he saw it all. I felt so ashamed. There was no fixing this. I couldn't say anything I just looked down.

"You're quiet now huh?" He yelled.

"Here's what gets me the most 'I want all your cum inside of my pussy!' that killed me." He quoted me again. I was lost for words. I couldn't even say anything.

"Say something!" He said. I remained quiet.

"You obviously had a lot to say that night so why can't you say something now!" He yelled.

"I don't know what to say." I said quietly.

"I can't hear you." He yelled.

"I don't know what to say Edward!" I yelled back at him.

"I love you Bella. I love you so much with all my heart. And watching you make love with Jasper felt like you ripped my heart out and kicked it aside. I felt worthless and that I meant absolutely nothing to you."

"You mean the world to me Edward. I was just so stupid. And I know I can't take it back, if I could I would. I want to make things right with you. Please just tell me how I can do that?" I asked frantically.

"I don't know what you can do Bella. What I do know is that I need some space and time away from you. I can't even look at you right now Bella. That's how painful it is. Every time I look at you I just see that scene being played over and over again in my head and it's driving me insane. I can't deal."

"So what are you saying? Are you leaving?" I asked looking up at him.

"For a while yes. I can't be around you right now." He said looking away.

"What about Renesme?" I asked.

"I will talk to her before I leave." He replied.

"How long are you going to be gone?" I asked feeling my stomach sinking.

"I don't know how long I will be gone. I don't even know where I'm going. I just know I can't be here with you. I need some space."

"Please Edward, don't do this. I'm so sorry. I'll do anything you ask. Just please don't leave me. I'm so afraid if you leave you won't come back. I'm so sorry just please don't do this." I begged him.

"I'm sorry. I love you." He kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes as he did it. And when I opened my eyes he was gone.

I dropped to my knees, he was gone. He was leaving and I didn't know where he was going or how long he was going to be gone. Edward, I'm so sorry. I'll do anything for you to forgive me.

JPOV

I made it back to the main house. I got a call from Carlisle saying that Jacob found Renesme and everyone was back at home. I was really relieved to hear that.

"Jasper, there you are." Carlisle greeted me as I came through the door.

"Is Bella with you?" Esme asked looking for her.

"No she isn't." I said.

"Well did you go see her and Edward?" Carlisle asked.

"Yes I did." I replied.

"Something is wrong. What the hell is going on right now Jasper?" Rose jumped in.

"Where's Renesme?" I asked.

"She's in my room lying down." Rose answered.

"What happened with you and them?" Carlisle was not going to let that lingering question go.

"Nothing." I said monotone.

"Then why aren't they here?" Rose asked. She was starting to get irritated.

"I don't know." I simply said.

"There's obviously something going on." Esme said.

"You're right Esme there is something going on." Alice walked through the door. I didn't turn to look at her. I wanted to throw her across the room. And the thing that pisses me off the most about this is that she was enjoying every second of this. She was going to make suffer for as long as live for what I did to her.

"What is she talking about?" Carlisle asked. I didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything. Damn it all.

"Well Jasper?" I could hear the smile in Alice's voice. I wanted to slap that smile completely off her face. I turned to look at her.

"Are you sure you want to do this? Because once you cross this line there is no going back. I won't have any mercy on you. This is your last warning Alice. Leave this all alone." I said through clenched teeth. It took everything in me to not explode on her. I was finally starting to get Bella to open up to me and she ruined it by telling Edward. She already took Bella away from me what else could she possibly want now!

"Am I'm supposed to be afraid of you Jasper? You made this grave now it's time to lay in it." She replied back coldly.

"I will never forgive you for this." I growled.

"I could care less about your forgiveness. I've already made you dead to me Jasper Hale." She said to me. But I knew she didn't mean that. Her eyes said something completely different. Her mood was surrounded by anger I could feel it; it was like a dark cloud was forming above her. But I also felt the sadness within her as well. She was truly hurt.

"What on earth is going on?" Esme broke our intense conversation. I sighed. Here goes nothing.

"I had sex with Bella." I said softly.

"You did what!" Carlisle asked. It was tough enough for me to say that out loud once I really don't want to repeat it again.

"You're joking right? That's not funny Jasper." Rose snickered.

"I'm not joking it's the truth." I said looking down.

"How could you do something like that? Where is Bella?" Carlisle asked.

"I don't know." I said.

"So you weren't just with her?" Rose asked.

"I was but -"

"But what?" I was cut off by Carlisle. I could feel the anger starting swell within him.

"She left me." I simply said.

"What do you mean?" Esme asked.

"Bella and I both were out looking for Renesme, then we ran into Alice and we got into a little verbal altercation. And then Edward appeared. Alice had already told him about me and Bella and he was angry." I said looking down.

"Did you two fight?" Esme asked. She looked like a concerned mother. After all we are all somewhat like her children to her.

"No not really. He pushed and threw me around some but I didn't fight back because I knew I deserved it. Afterwards he took off and Bella went off after him. I haven't seen her since." I said still looking down.

"I really can't believe this right now. How could you do such a thing? Carlisle asked me.

"I don't know." I said softly.

"What do you mean you don't know?" He raised his voice a little.

"I just don't." I said. The door opened and I heard him walk in. I didn't need to look to see who it was because the look on everyone's face gave it away already.

"Edward." Carlisle said gently.

"Where's Renesme? I need to speak with her." I turned to look at him. He had no emotion on his face.

"We need to talk." Carlisle said.

"About what?" He asked.

"About this situation." Carlisle looked like he was too uncomfortable to mention to say it out loud.

"There's nothing to talk about. I just want to see my daughter." He said looking straight ahead.

"She's upstairs in my room." Rose piped in.

"Thank you." He said and then he quickly left the room to go upstairs.

"Rose, I need you to go out and find Bella and quickly." Carlisle said.

"Okay." She said and she left quickly to follow out his orders.

"Don't you two think about leaving this place." He was looking at Alice and me.

"No one is leaving tonight. We will get this straighten out and fast." He said with a straight face. Alice was still smiling as she went to go have a seat on one of the couches.

"Okay then." She said. I clenched my fists trying to calm down. I can't take any of this anymore. I should had left when I had the mind to. Damn it all.