Chapter Fourteen

When I arrived at the house Edward was outside sitting on a swinging bench we had on our porch. He was sitting there with an intense look on his face. I could hear Renesme and Jacob inside so I knew she was here safely. I guess Edward didn't want her to question his actions or his behavior so that's why he was sitting outside. I slowly walked up to him but he didn't look up at me not once. I went and sat down next to him and for a while neither of us said anything. Edward acts as if I wasn't there with him right now. He just sat there with that very intense and sad look.

"I remember the day I first saw you at Forks. I remember how amazing your blood smelled and how much I wanted to just rip your throat out and just drink you dry. I questioned my sanity because of you. I thought about many different ways to kill you." He said softly. I didn't know how to respond to that. I felt sick to my stomach.

"I never thought once that you were going to have such an impact on my life like this. I never thought that I would marry you, or even contemplated taking my own life because of you. I never realized until now how much you control my life Isabella. I've been through so much; we've been through so much because of you." He continued.

"Edward." I whispered.

"You've made me weak Isabella. The thought of not having you in my life literally makes me sick. It literally makes me want to die. This isn't normal. These feelings I have are nowhere near normal." He gritted his teeth. He was really upset.

"Edward I'am so sorry, I don't know what I could do to make this up to you."

"Do you love him?" He asked.

"What?" The question took me by surprise

"Do you love him Bella?" He asked again, he finally looked up at me.

"I love you Edward." I whispered.

"That's not answering my question. I didn't ask if you love me, I asked if you love him." He repeated.

"I don't love him the way that I love you. You mean so much to me Edward."

"Then why did you do what you did?" He asked.

"It was a mistake Edward, it wasn't supposed to happen." I said wanting to cry again.

"You don't accidently have sex with someone Bella. You knew what you were doing. There is no excuse you can make to explain this." He said standing up walking towards the door.

"It truly was a mistake, Edward please you have to believe me!" I said begging him.

"No Bella, what you did with him wasn't a mistake the fact that you got caught was the mistake." He said walking into our home; he didn't even look back at me. I sighed and buried my face into my hands. Everything is such a mess. I don't know how to fix any of this. One thing I do know is that I cannot bear anymore of this.

JPOV (Jacob)

Renesme was lying down in my lap. She's so tired; tonight has been such a long night. Edward came bursting in through the door and Renesme looked up at him groggily. I assume she was falling asleep.

"Dad is everything okay?" She asked him softly.

"Yes, everything is fine." He said sounding drained.

"Are you still leaving?" She asked sitting up rubbing at her eyes.

"Yes, I'am darling. But just for a while. I'll be back." He said looking down. She stood up and walked towards him. She softly placed her hand on his cheek, communicating to him in her special way.

"I'm going to let your mother talk to you about that, but you don't need to worry yourself to much about this. Everything is going to be okay." He said softly and kissed her forehead before leaving her standing there. I looked up at her and I could see the little tear slipping from her eye.

"Hey Nes, don't cry." I said getting up. I grabbed her hand and guided her to the couch.

"I can't help it." She said with her tears deepening. I felt so bad; I didn't know what to do. Of course we heard everything that went on at the main house. We heard what they were arguing about. I cannot believe that Bella had sex with Jasper. Like what would possess her to do something like that. When I took Renesme away from the main house like Bella asked me to we didn't talk about the things that were said there.

"You've got to let them work this out on their own." I whispered.

"How can they work out anything if he leaves?" She whispered too, she was also hiccupping from crying. I don't know why we were whispering. I'm sure Edward and Bella can hear us just fine and plus Edward can read my mind.

"Don't worry yourself about it. You've been through enough tonight." I said holding her and wiping away her tears. She sniffed a little and buried herself into my lap again.

"You're so warm Jake. Thank you for always being here for me." She said softly.

"I will always be here for you Nessie, no matter what." I said kissing her forehead. She sighed heavily and laid there as I rubbed her back softly. Edward came back into the living room with two packed suitcases.

"Jacob, please look after her while I'm gone." He said looking at me firmly.

"You know I will." I answered.

"And no funny business or I shall personally kill you myself." He said making sure I got his message.

"Okay Edward, I get it." I rolled my eyes.

"Renesme, listen to your mother and I will call you every night I promise." He said gently to Renesme.

"Okay daddy, I love you." She whispered not looking up at him, more tears fell. I don't think she had the strength to actually watch him walk out of the door.

"Don't cry darling, I promise I will be back." He said as he walked towards the door. She didn't say anything else; she only closed her eyes as bigger tears rush down her face. He sighed and walked out of the door closing it softly. She cried harder, whimpering a little.

"Aw Nes, please don't cry. He's going to be back, he told you so." I said pulling her out of my lap to hug her.

"If that's true, why do I feel like he's not coming back?" She asked crying.

"Stop beating yourself up over something you have no control over. He's leaving because that's how he feels that he can handle this situation with your mom; don't think it has anything to do with you." I said rubbing her back trying to calm her down.

"I feel like I added on to his reason for leaving. I was such a brat to him tonight." She sobbed some more. I didn't know what else to say. So I just held her as she cried. I felt terrible and helpless. I know she's not crying because of me, but I feel like as her protector that I should have found some way to prevent this from happening to her. Some protector I'am, I feel awful.

BPOV

Listening to Renesme cry nearly torn my heart into two, she obviously know about everything that has been going on. Edward walked out and the look on his face was heartbreaking. He obviously didn't like the fact that his baby girl was crying either.

"Edward, please don't do this. Listen to her." I begged him hopping that this would change his mind.

"She'll be fine. She has Jacob." He said walking towards the parked Mercedes.

"How are we going to solve anything if you leave like this?" I asked.

"I can't be here with you. And I can't be anywhere near Jasper. I'm only doing what's best for me now" He said sounding emotionally drained. I didn't say anything else. He put his bags into the trunk of the car.

"Goodbye Bella." He said softly. I only looked down, I couldn't look up; I just couldn't watch him leave. I heard him get into the car and drove away. I didn't even know where he was going, or how long he was going to be gone. I deserve every minute of this. I'm selfish to even expect Edward to stay after all of this. I hate this so much. I really don't know how to fix this. But then again maybe this time away from him will do us both some good. Thirty minutes passed by and Jacob quietly walked outside. I was still sitting still looking down and I haven't move from this position since Edward drove away.

"How is she doing?" I asked softly still looking down.

"She's okay I guess, she kind of cried herself to sleep so I put her to bed." He answered.

"Oh, thank you so much Jacob." I replied.

"If it's cool with you, I would like to stay here for a couple days. I'll sleep in the living room. I'm just really worried about her and I want to stay nearby if that's cool with you." Jacob asked sitting down next to me.

"Yeah that's fine Jake." I said kind of relieved that Jacob would be staying here; he would be a distraction for Renesme until I get this situation with Edward sorted out.

"Thanks Bells, are you okay?" He asked placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Don't worry about me; just make sure Renesme is alright." I said clearing my throat.

"Renesme is not the only person I care about in this family. I care about you too Bella and I'm worried about you." He said softly.

"Jacob, I will be okay. No need to worry yourself about me." I said getting up from the bench.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"I don't know yet, but I will be back. I feel like I'm suffocating here." I said walking off.

JPOV (Jasper)

When I got back to my room back at the main house Alice was sitting down on my couch in the room. She was going through old high school yearbooks that we saved each time we enrolled in at Forks. She started to giggle.

"I remember this year so clearly. It was the year that you won prom king and Amber Lang won prom queen. I was so jealous when you two had the king and queen dance. I can still see that sickening smile on her face as she buried her head into your chest as you both swayed slowly to the music." She said brushing her fingers over the picture of Amber and me.

"Why are you going through those?" I asked her.

"I don't know." She simply said. She looked up at me and the look in her eyes hit me like a pile of bricks.

"I think you should leave." I said. She chuckled a little.

"I think that's when I fully realized and understood the feeling of jealousy. I wanted to so much rip Amber to shreds and steal you away from the party so that I could have you all to myself. But I couldn't, I could only stand back with that fake smile on my face and just be happy for my "brother" as he won and danced with the supposed girl of his dreams." She said closing the yearbook.

"I don't understand what you're trying to say Alice." I said. She stood up and walked towards me. She softly placed a hand on my cheek and I watched her intently. She brushed her thumb across my lips.

"You have no idea how much I love you Jasper Hale." And with that being said she leaned in kissed me. She wrapped her arms around neck trying to deepen the kiss. I didn't feel anything. And I think this kiss really just proves how I don't feel that way for Alice anymore. She pulled away after a couple of seconds and she realized that I wasn't really kissing her back.

"So this really is the end." She whispered.

"I'm so sorry Alice, I really didn't mean for any of this to happen. I just don't feel that way for you anymore and I'm so sorry for that." I said taking a step back from her.

"I never thought that this would happen to us. I never saw this coming in our future." She sniffed. Even though I knew she wasn't crying. But I'm pretty sure if she could she probably would. I hate that I was hurting her like this.

"I will always love you Alice, but I'm not in love with you anymore." I said softly. She nodded.

"Okay, I understand."

"Thank you." I replied. She started walking towards my door; her back was turned to me.

"But one thing I want you to understand Jasper is that I can't and I won't live without you." She said and with that she hurried and left. She wouldn't dare I thought. I went after her. I won't let her die because of me.

BPOV

I went off to the creek, my favorite place to be when times get like this. I didn't even think to come here my body just naturally walked in this direction and before I knew it I was standing next the smooth running water and listening to the crickets sing their song of the night. For a while I was alone until I heard heavy paws pound at the earth. It didn't smell like Jacob but I knew it was a wolf and not any ordinary wolf. I heard the paws switch to feet and someone was approaching me.

"What do you want?" I asked not turning around to see who it was.

"Is everything alright Bella?" Seth Clearwater's voice filled the air. It was a warm feeling, hearing his voice. Seth is also a very dear friend to me. He and his sister Leah helped Jake protect me from the other wolves when I was pregnant with Renesme. I will always be forever grateful to him and his sister.

"What are you doing here Seth?" I asked still having my back turned towards him.

"Paul and Quil was making a round and saw Edward in a car leaving, he was heading out of Forks. They say he didn't look to good. Jacob wouldn't talk about it with me, he told me to stay out of it and that everything was going to be okay. But I don't believe him. What's going on Bella?" He asked.

"It's none of your concern Seth." I said softly.

"Bella," He started.

"Really Seth, it's alright. Just let Sam and others know that Edward is only taking a trip and he will be away for a while. There's nothing for anyone to be alarmed about." I said finally turning to look at him. The way he looked at me showed that he was truly concerned.

"Very well then, I guess I will see you later." He didn't even let me reply, he ran off into the darkness of the forest and I heard him transform. And it wasn't too long until I heard a howl echo throughout the woods. I sighed and sat down next to the creek hoping that I would have no more visitors. And for thirty minutes I had my wish and then she showed up. I didn't have to turn around to see who it was. Oh Alice, I thought to myself.

"Bella, can we talk?" She asked.

"I don't see why not." I said. She came and sat down next to me. And for a while neither of us said anything. We just sat there looking out into the water.

"We're not doing much talking." I chuckled.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. This moment of silence was nice I must say." She said and I nodded in agreement. But it was also awkward.

"I kissed Jasper tonight, to see if it was really over between us." She said abruptly. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything at all.

"He couldn't even kiss me back." She continued. I felt so bad for the girl.

"I don't know what to say." I replied.

"I can imagine so." She smiled. But I know she had to force that smile, I know inside she's probably crying and dying.

"You know in your future, I saw you resist him at first. I also so the issues you had with Edward. So I understand why you did what you did with Jasper. But still, deep down I was hoping that you wouldn't dare to do something like that. But hoping is useless right?" She said sniffing. So she knew all along and yet she still got so angry with me.

"I forgive you Bella." Then she stood up.

"Alice," I said standing up.

"No it's okay; you don't have to say anything. And don't worry, Edward won't be mad forever, he will come back." She said softly placing a hand on my shoulder. I smiled, but I had the feeling that she was trying to say goodbye.

"You've seen the ending to this story Alice, what happens?" I asked. She smiled and starting to walk off.

"It's your life, you write the ending. I only see the outcome of your decisions. Bye Bella." And with that she was gone. She left me feeling empty but also gave me some hope. Hope that things are going to get better.

"Goodbye Alice." I whispered.