Chapter Sixteen

I held Renesme gently, as she snore softly. We both showered and changed the sheets in her bed. I was able to get Seth to drop me off a packed bag with clothes and other things I would need. I don't know how long I'm going to be here but I will stay as long as I'm needed. I couldn't sleep though, Bella hasn't made it back home yet which is probably a good thing because if she caught me in Renesme's room like this after I told her I would sleep in the living room she would be pissed. What could be taking her so long, is she alone? I didn't want her feel like that she was dealing with this alone. I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't notice that the soft snoring had stopped.

"What's wrong Jake?" Renesme asked me groggily.

"Oh nothing babe, just go back to sleep." I replied.

"How come you're not sleeping?" She asked rubbing at her eyes. She's so exhausted. So much has happened to her tonight. She really needs some rest.

"I guess I'm not sleeping but you get some sleep. I know you're tired." I said kissing forehead.

"Alright then if you say so." She yawned and closed her eyes.

"I love you Nes." I whispered.

"I love you too Jake." She whispered back and soon she drifted back to sleep. I looked at her smiling, this girl mean more to me than life itself. I want to make sure she never gets hurt every again. I vow to myself to make sure she never shed another tear again as I closed my eyes and try to let sleep overcome me.

BPOV

An hour as passed and I haven't heard anything from anybody. All I did was sit on the couch, staring at my phone anxious for someone to call. I just want an update. I was worried about Alice and I wanted more than anything to go out there and help them look for her. But I fully understood why Carlisle didn't want me out there looking for her. I sighed as someone walked through the door. I looked up excitingly to see who it was. It was Jasper.

"Carlisle has heard from Alice." He said. He was drained; I could hear it in his voice.

"Is she alright?" I immediately jumped up.

"Yeah she's fine, she's decided to spend some time with a friend of hers that lives in Canada. So she's going to be spending some time with him up there." He replied.

"Who is this friend?" I asked curiously. I thought I met everyone the Cullens knew at Edward and I wedding and also from our little escapade with the Volturi but I guess not.

"His name is Alexander. He's a good person. He's not like the others you've met. He's also a vegetarian vampire. She will be fine with him." He said sitting down.

"Well that's a relief I'm glad that she's okay." I said sitting down as well.

"Yeah me too, she sure gave me a scare tonight." He replied. We both sat in silent for five minutes before he finally spoke up again.

"I'm leaving this house as well." He said.

"What are you talking about?" I asked looking at him.

"I'm going to get an apartment downtown and live there just until things blow over here."

"Do you think that's the right thing to do?" I asked.

"Yeah I do. Emmett can't even look at me without giving me that sad disappointed look. It kills me. So I'm just going to leave for awhile just until things cool down here." He replied.

"If that's what you really want to do." I said looking down. I feel like the coven is breaking apart. First Edward, then Alice, and now Jasper was leaving too.

"I'm still going to be around though so if you need anything don't hesitate to ask me." He said.

"Okay. Thanks." I said emotionless. He nodded.

"Well it's late and I really have to go check on Renesme. I will see you later then." I said getting up getting ready to leave.

"I want you to know something Bella." He stopped me.

"What is it Jasper?" I asked anxious about what he was going to say next.

"I don't regret a single minute I had with you that night; even though everyone is pissed off with me I don't care I would do it all over again. I don't regret anything at all." He said strongly.

"Oh is that so?" I said looking down.

"I bet you do though. I bet you wish you could change all of this." He said. I wouldn't really say that. Yeah everything is a pile of shit right now but that moment we shared wasn't terrible in fact it was almost magical and honestly I don't regret it. I don't think I would do it all over again but I don't regret it all. That just proves the feelings that I have for Jasper. There's no denying it anymore. That's just great.

"Good night Jasper." I said after gently placing a hand on his shoulder giving him a small smile. Then I left before he could say anything else.

JPOV

Did that really just happen? Did she really smile at me? She didn't confirm nor deny what I said about her regretting what we did. I'm finally starting to see a little light in the middle of this dark situation. This has definitely given me hope. Not too long after Bella left the others returned home as well.

"Has Bella gone home?" Esme asked.

"Yes, I sent her home. I know she wants to be with Renesme." I said looking at her. She smiled a little.

"I bet she does." She replied.

"We need to talk Carlisle." I said looking at him.

"Very well then, let's go to my study." He said. He left and I followed behind until we made it to his study.

"Well what is it?" Carlisle asked.

"Well, I think it's best if I move out for a while. Just until things cool down over here. So I arranged for me to get an apartment downtown." I said.

"Are you sure that's what you want to do?" He asked.

"Yeah I'm sure. I've caused enough trouble in this family." I said looking down. Carlisle sighed.

"You made a mistake, everyone makes mistake." He said.

"My love for her is not a mistake Carlisle. I don't regret what I did with her. But I do feel bad that the people I love dearly were hurt by it as well. But I won't stop trying to be with her." I said seriously.

"Jasper, you need to stop this at once. She will only resent you. She obviously doesn't feel the same as you." He replied.

"Right now she is pretty pissed with me. But as time moves on and she heals who knows how she may feel then, I'm not giving up on her and I mean that." I said I was turning to leave.

"Jasper, please, don't do this." He pleaded but I didn't respond to him I left the room. I really didn't want to defy him but this is how I feel. I can't help that I feel this way for her. I meant what I said. I will not give up on her. I will have her one way or another.

BPOV

I finally made it back to the cottage. Jacob wasn't on the couch in the living room like he was supposed to be. He better not be where I think he is. I quietly walked to Renesme's room and my thoughts were confirmed. Jacob and Renesme both were asleep in her bed. I can't believe this. I'm too drained to throw a fit right now. I will just deal with it in the morning. I closed the door and went to my own room. I sighed as I looked at the drawers that were half open and empty. Edward seemed to pack a lot of clothes. I sat down on the bed pulling my shoes off. I pulled my knees toward me and I rest my head on top of them. What am I going to do now? My phone ringed and I looked at it hoping it was Edward that would have called but no it was him, Jasper.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey." He responded.

"Hi." I said back for some reason I really wanted him to come be with me right now and I don't know why. I just didn't want to be alone.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

"Yeah I'm fine." I said.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yeah." I replied.

"Do you want to go on a late night coffee run with me? There's this really nice coffee shop that's open twenty four hours a day." He asked me. Was he seriously asking me out on a date?

"I don't know about that Jasper." I said.

"Aw come on Bella, it would be better than just sitting in that room by yourself." He said. He sounded like he was watching me right now.

"I promise it will be fun." He added. After a few seconds of hesitation I agreed to meet him.

"Very well then." I said.

"Great! I will come get you in a few," He sounded so excited.

"Okay Jasper." I said. I hung the phone up and started to slip my shoes back on. I can't believe that I just agreed to this. This is not going to help my cause to prove that I want nothing to do with him. But for some reason I just really want to be with him right now and not alone in this room feeling sorry for myself. My body was craving to be with him. It didn't take long for him to get here. There was a silent knock at my window. I looked over there and it was Jasper smiling gently at me. I gave him a little smile back as I walked towards the window. He lifted it and effortlessly and reached for my hand.

"Thank you for this." He whispered. I didn't say anything back I just gave him my hand and climbed out of the window. He led me to his gray Prius and we both got in.

"So where exactly is this coffee shop?" I asked while I was putting on my seatbelt as he pulled out.

"It's downtown, not too far from the apartment I plan on living at. It's really nice and quiet." He said. I didn't say anything else. We just rode in silence he turned the radio on and NPR was playing silently in the background. I wasn't really listening to it I was just glad that we weren't riding in silence anymore. We made it to the shop and I was excited to get out of that car. It was just awkward.

We walked towards the door and held it open for me. I nodded and walked in. It was really nice inside. Smooth jazz music was playing in the back ground and there were a few people just sitting around. They seem like they were in college.

"I'll grab us some coffee you go get us a table." Does he know that we can't drink coffee? Like what's the point in getting some coffee if we can't drink it. I didn't say anything though I just went and got a nice little table in the back away from the college kids that were there and away from any windows. I definitely do not want to be seen here with Jasper. I sat down and I waited ten minutes before Jasper showed up with two coffee to-go cups he placed them both on the table.

"Give this a try." He said.

"You know we can't drink coffee Jasper."

"Just try it, I promise you will like it." He urged. I looked at him skeptically and picked a cup up. I smelled it and there was a mixture of coffee and mostly blood! There was blood in this cup!

"Where on earth did you get this?" I asked looking up at him.

"Just drink it." He said smiling at my expression. I sipped it a little and it was delicious. I've never tasted this kind of blood before it was amazing.

"It's good isn't it?" He asked.

"Yes it's amazing, what is it?" I asked taking another sip.

"Well obviously it's blood." He chuckled.

"Well I know that but where did you get it from?" I asked.

"It's my little secret. Just enjoy it okay." He said. I nodded and left it alone. It was really good and it was making me feel so much better.

"So let's talk." He said after we were sitting there in silence for about five minutes.

"Talk about what Jasper?" I asked.

"Are you seriously asking that question? After all that has happen tonight we have plenty to talk about." He said.

"Yeah you're right." I said looking down.

"Too be honest I didn't think you would actually come out with me tonight. I know you must really hate me." He said. I sighed.

"I don't hate you Jasper. Yes, everything is a mess but you didn't do this on your own. I'm just as guilty and I think that was my problem. I was blaming you for all of this when I'm just as wrong too." I said. He looked up at me.

"But none of this would be happening if I didn't come on to you in the first place."

"To be honest Jasper, I enjoyed every second of what we did."

"Did you really?"

"Yes I did. The way you touched me it was just magical. It was amazing. I haven't felt that good in so long. Just thinking about it now makes me want you to rip all my clothes have and just take me now." I can't believe I was saying this. But I have to stop denying these feelings I have for him.

"Bella you don't have to say that. Not if you don't really mean it that is." He said.

"I do mean it Jasper." I whispered. He gave me a long intense looked which turned me on so much and I didn't even know why. What the hell are you doing Bella? Edward hasn't even been gone a day and you're already thinking about having sex with Jasper again? That's what got you into this mess the first time. I was screaming at myself inside of my head.

"I want to show you something. Let's get out of here." He said. I nodded and followed him out the shop. It was nice in there. We got back into the car and rode for ten minutes until we showed up in front of a really nice apartment complex.

"Why are we here?" I asked.

"Because I want to show you my new place." He said.

"You found an apartment that quick?" I asked astonished.

"Well I've had this place for a while; I bought it when Alice and I first started having problems. You want to come see it. It's really nice and there's something that I kind of want to show you." He explained.

"I don't know Jasper." I said hesitant.

"It will be fine I promise. I will be on my best behavior." He promised.

"Well okay." I said still feeling a little hesitant. We will be all alone in that apartment of his, should I just run away now or just go see what he has to show me. My curiosity got the best of me so I got out of the car and walked behind Jasper following him inside of the apartment complex. I really hope that I'm not making a huge mistake.