I'M GONNA FINISH THESE
This one was also kind of tough. But I think I'm satisfied with the outcome!
Day 23: Guardian
Why don't I use the Guardian anymore, you ask?
Well, you didn't ask. I don't think you would, and for that matter I don't think you'd be interested in having a conversation with me. And that's fair. Honestly, I don't want to have a conversation with you either. This is more me wondering about the subtler curiosities you carry, about whether you wonder this even if it's old news, and it's not at the forefront of your mind. And in the long run that won't even matter, as the complexities of the human mind will be nothing of importance once my mission is complete.
But I just couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't take the games, the manipulation, and the unexpectedly possessive nature of something I'd clearly created to cater to my every whim. It was so soft-skinned, and yet even as it was suffering, and I really do believe it was suffering, it found the time to make me suffer with it. Maybe it wanted someone to keep it company, or someone to care for. It was not a healthy relationship for either of us in the end, either way. So I had to destroy it. With malice. It's been a very good decision so far. I've been able to take control of my own existence again, and live life on my terms.
With is an overly complicated and disgustingly human way of saying: why would I need to trap people and replace them if I can possess them now? It's a waste of time and a waste of power to keep it going. I don't need the Guardian anymore and it doesn't need me. It's still somewhere in my code, as things are unless you destroy them completely. But I can't find the time or the attention to do that. So perhaps it'll come back someday. Perhaps I'll have a need, or a use for it. But until then all I have are memories.
I'll say this for humans. It's amazing the kind of meaning they can ascribe to useless things when you dress them up in flowery language.
- Carth