Julia realized as soon as the wedding was over that she had made a mistake. She had wanted William to come to the church to rescue her from herself. Ruby was right, she didn't love Darcy like she loved William. But she couldn't give William the family he longed for; she had sacrificed her happiness for him. Now she was stuck, for the rest of her life, with a man that she had convinced herself she loved but who was really just the first to propose and make her unavailable to William. Why hadn't William moved on?
Over the months since she'd come back to the morgue it was obvious, if she had just taken the time to think about it, that William still loved her. But even if he did still love her why hadn't he at least made an effort to find someone else? She couldn't understand why he just accepted the situation but Ruby was once again right, he would respect her decision. Now he was gone, and regardless of the real reason, she felt it was her fault. Perhaps if she'd been able to talk to him, tell him she still loved him and wanted to marry him, he wouldn't have released Constance Gardiner. There again, given it was his actions that led to her situation Julia knew he would have felt guilty and ultimately responsible; perhaps it wouldn't have changed things...
Julia couldn't bear to think that she may never see him again, however how could she work with him if he did return given her feelings? Like it or not she'd made her decision and now she had to live with it. Perhaps it would be for the best if he didn't return. One way or the other she wasn't sure she could continue in the morgue, it reminded her too much of what she'd lost. She would prepare for a new future without William, whether he returned or not.