"I'm not saying these things to upset you or blame you. I know you tried. I know you did the best you knew how at the time. You both did. But sometimes when you step away for a situation you can see what went wrong." Barbara says.
"I thought she was better, I thought we were better, you know. Things seemed almost normal between us. I didn't know she was faking everything."
"She was not faking everything, she loves you. She knew how much she hurt you with the things she said to you. She also saw the toll it took on you to make the decision you had to make to take her leg. She wanted to be your wife again, she wanted to make you happy." She tells me.
"I thought we were happy, until she cheated."
"Can I ask you something?" Barbara says.
"Of course, "
"What happened after the miscarriage?" She asks
"Arizona told you she was pregnant?"
"Of course she did, why wouldn't she?" Barbara says looking at me kind of confused.
"I guess I just thought since we never talked about it she never talked to anyone about it."
"She called me the day she found out she was pregnant it was before you got home, she was so excited. She knew how much you wanted another baby and she wanted to give you that. I think she thought if she could give you a baby then things would be good again." She tells me.
"I came home that night and Sofia was in the living room playing ...Arizona started yelling my name as soon as she heard me come in. My heart dropped I thought something happened to her. I ran into the bathroom and she was standing there with the biggest smile on her face. When she told me she was pregnant I dropped to my knees and started kissing her stomach. God I was so happy. After everything we had been through I thought we finally made it to the other side."
"Then she miscarried" Barbara says under her breath.
"Yeah, I was dealing with this big case on this athlete and I forgot to go to our appointment, she came into the scrub room to tell me. I will never forget her face ...she looked devastated. I didn't know what to do. I tried to hug her but she pushed me away and said she had to get to surgery and just left me there."
"She felt like she failed you. She wanted so badly to give you this. When she went to her appointment and there was no heartbeat another piece of her died inside. " Barbara explains.
"Why won't she talk to me about it"
"I think she wanted to protect you. After everything you had been through she really believed this was your new start then it was taken away. I will never defend what my daughter did next but I have to believe that she was not in her right mind, because the Arizona I know would have never caused that kind of pain to the person she loves." She says.
"Maybe that's just it , ...she didn't love me anymore."
"Oh Callie, please believe me when I tell you this ...my daughter loves you. She loves you more than she has ever loved anyone." Barbara says.
" you don't destroy the ones you love"
"No you don't... but sometimes when you feel like you have nothing left you do things that you would never think you are capable of doing." Barbara says
"You know my first marriage ended because my husband cheated on me. I never thought Arizona would ever do that to me. She knew how much that hurt me and to be honest I never loved George like I loved your daughter. "...Why would she cheat? "...Why couldn't she have just talked to me?"