Barbara came over and wrapped her arms around me. Protecting just as a mother should. It felt good to have a mother's embrace, it has been so long since my own mother embraced me like this but I think I actually missed Barbara embrace more. I know she is Arizona's mom but she always showed me just as much love as if I was her own daughter. After I got my emotions under control again Barbara stepped back.
"I just don't understand how she could do that to me ...how she could do that to our family?"
"Did you ever ask her?"
"Yeah, of course...She gave me some lame excuse that she didn't feel like the life she had existed anymore and she needed to tear it down and start over. What to hell does that even mean?...did you ever talk to her about it?"
"Yes, we talked about it. I spoke to her a day after the storm. I called just to check on you guys after reading how bad it was. I asked to speak to you or Sofia and she said you weren't home but I could hear the quiver in her voice so I asked if you were ok and she started to cry. My heart sank I thought something had happened to you. Once she got her composure I ask her if you had gotten hurt during the storm. She said yes that she hurt you, actually she said she destroyed you. I didn't understand what that meant, so I pushed further and she finally told me what she had done. I couldn't believe it. I tried to talk to her but she wouldn't talk to me so I hung up on her."
"You hung up on her" I say with a little shock.
" of course I did, don't get me wrong I still loved her but I was beyond disappointed in her and so so angry with her. My heart broke for you. I couldn't even imagine what you were going through. I wanted to call you but didn't think it was my place after what my daughter did." Barbara tells me.
" I wish you would of called." I tell her.
" I do too, I do too" she says.
" I thought you guys blamed my somehow. That you thought I pushed her to cheat."
"Oh callie we never thought anything like that. She made that choice no one else. No matter what was happening between you to she chose this. She was the only one to be held accountable for that. "
"I know things were strained between us after the miscarriage but I thought just like every other time we faced something we eventually would work through it, you know. I never thought she was capable of cheating. " I say.
"Neither did I. She was raised to protect the things she loved and she always did until that night."
"You said you spoke to her about it but you hung up on her so when did you actually talk to her?"
"It was a few days later she called me. She told me you left her. I asked her what did she expect to happen. She said she didn't know so I kept pushing her until she finally broke down. She knew she deserved you walking out there was no defending it. There was no way she could ignore this or fake things anymore. Things began to get real. I asked her what the hell she was thinking. She told me she didn't want to get into it with me. I told her if she can't talk to me then she better talk to someone. I think that's when she asked you to go to couples therapy with her but you refused. ...Can I ask you something and you promises not to get upset?"
"Well that doesn't sound very good but I will try my best." I say kind of chuckling.
Just as Barbara was going to speak her phone buzzed. It was Arizona wondering what happened to her.
"I better get back to them but we will finish this conversation later ok." Barbara says.
"Sure... please let Arizona know I will be down in a little while to get Sofia." I said feeling relieved that we were interrupted because I am not sure how much I want to get into the whole cheating thing with Barbara.