I had been in the lab for a few hours when my phone rang, it was Michelle.
"Hey, I'm glad you called" I say as I answer it.
"Hi, were are you right now?" she asks
"I'm still in the lab" I tell her.
"Can you talk... are you alone" she asks me and I can tell by the tone this is not going to go well.
"Yeah I'm alone but if you want to talk how about I come over or we could meet somewhere if you want" I tell her.
"No, I think it best we just talk over the phone" she says.
"ok, look I'm sorry about the last few days, I didn't mean to hurt you."
"Callie please just let me talk ok"
"ok"
"I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I think it best we stop seeing each other."
"Oh you just decided ...I don't have a say in this"
"Actually no you don't. Look I can play second to Sofia any day but I will not play second to anyone else in your life. Its not fair to me and I deserve more. I really like you and I can see myself falling for you but I think you need to really take a look at what you want. "
"I said I was sorry, it was a crazy weekend and I forgot to call you why are you making it such a big deal."
"Its not about not calling Callie, its a lot more than that. There is always something more important to you than I am and I think it's because you are not ready to move on. Your head may be telling you to but your heart is not there yet. I don't want to be a year from now still feeling this way. I don't deserve that. I deserve someone that is in this relationship completely. I'm sorry but its how I feel."
"I'm sorry too. I thought you understood my job and what it intails. My life is not my own."
"Callie this has nothing to do with the job and you know it"
"If you are implying that this has something to do with my feelings for Arizona you are way off. There is nothing going on there. We are coparents thats it. We have been over for 2 years now."
"You are not just coparents Callie. You are business partners in that hospital and she obvliously still has feelings for you."
"She does not and even if she did that does not mean I have feeling for her."
"Maybe...Maybe not...but I think there is still some unresolved things between you too and you need to work that out before you can truely move on. I hope you figure it out. I want you to be happy. Take care of yourself. Bye Callie"
"That's it you are just ending things like this with a phone call"
"Bye Callie" she says as she hangs up on me.
I just sit there staring at the phone. I can't believe she just broke up with me because my daughter and ex wife were in an accident and I cared about them. I'm not sure how to feel about this. It's not like I was in love with her or anything we have only been dating for a little over a month now but I thought maybe we could of been something more serious in the future. I decide to pack up my stuff and go get Sofia. She always makes me feel better no matter what.
I got to Arizona's room but no one was there so I waited for a little while and eventually Arizona was wheeled back in.
"Hey is everything ok" I ask as I help get her back in bed.
"Yeah, everything is fine Bailey's just being extra cautious and wanted to run more test to be sure everything is healing properly." Arizona says as she get under the covers.
"Are you sure, no infections or anything." I ask.
"Callie relax everything is fine, I'm fine."
"Ok, ok, ...so where is everyone?" I ask
"My parents took Sofia over to the park. She was getting a little restless so I thought it would do her good to get all that pent up energy out. I hope that is ok."
"Of course it's ok, how long have they been gone" I ask not sure if I should wait or just have them drop her at the house.
"They should be back shortly, I told them you would want to get home early tonite since she has school tomorrow. I can call them if you want"
"No it's fine I can wait." I say as I sit down in the chair by the bed.
"So how did it go today, did you get everything done you wanted to." Arizona asks me.
"Yeah, I think it is all set. You just need to try it but I think you will really like it." I say
"I'm sure I will love what ever you've done. So tell me about it. How does it work."
"Well, I took the socket from you damaged leg and put it on this new design. I have created joints in the knee and ankle to mimic you right leg. Unlike the other prosthetic where the joints just move back and forth these actual rotate just like a real joint. It also weighs just as much as your right leg and the skin sleeve matches your skin tone exactly. It's as close to a real leg as you can get." I tell her kind of rambling.
"Wow, you did all that. That's amazing Callie " she says
"Well I had help from the veterans, they kind of were my guinea pigs. They gave me a lot of input as to what worked and what didn't with their current prosthetics and we came up with this. Jackson helped with the skin sleeve, so it has been a joint effort." I tell her.
"Don't be so modest Callie it was your idea, your dedication and hard work that did all that. Your amazing." She says.
"Too bad everyone doesn't think I'm that amazing" I say under my breath but loud enough the Arizona heard me.
"Callie you are amazing don't let anyone tell you different ok."
"Can I ask you something and you will be totally honest with me."
"Callie what's going on"
"Did I ever make you feel like you weren't important to me, ...did you ever feel like you came in second to everything else in my life. That you weren't my priority"
"Callie were is this coming from? Did something happen with Michelle?" She asks me.
"She broke up with me, she said she did not want to play second fiddle in my life...that I put everything in front of her. Did I make you feel that way?"
"Well not everyone understands a life of a surgeon... Our life is not our own. Our job will always take precedent at times. Peoples lives depend on that." Arizona says trying to be diplomatic.
"That's what I said but it was not about the job ...it was more on the personal level." I tell her.
"Oh, I'm sorry. "
"It's ok it's not like we have been dating long it's just she was the first person that I dated a little more seriously since we broke up. You know. So did I ever make you feel that way" I ask again deep down already knowing the answer.
"Callie that was a long time ago ...why bring it up now."
"Please Arizona just tell me" I say almost pleading.
"Ok...at times yeah I guess I felt that way. You and Mark were so close and at times I felt like you were dating him and not me. Then when I tried to tell you how I was feeling you called my jealous and said I was biphobic. It was never about you being bi ...it was about you not setting boundaries for your friends. You have a huge heart it's one of the things I love about you but it's also one of the most frustrating parts of loving you because you want to help everyone and sometimes you do that at the expense of your relationship."
"Wow, I didn't know loving me was so horrible."
" Callie don't do this ok. That is not what I said. Falling in love with you was the best thing that has ever happened to me with the exception of Sofia. Don't twist my words. You asked me to be honest. I know it was never your intention for me to feel that way but it's how I felt. I can't change that."
"I'm sorry you felt that way... I really never meant to make you feel that way...your mom told me what Mark said to you after my accident. Why didn't you ever tell me ."
"It didn't matter. All that mattered was that you were ok and he apologized so we moved on."
"I think you didn't tell me because maybe you thought he was right but he wasn't he was so wrong you were never nothing. You were everything to me. If we lost the baby, I would have never been with him again. I couldn't regret sleeping with him because that would have meant I regretted Sofia and I could never regret the best thing in my life. Does that make any sense?"
"Yeah it makes sense ...thank you."
"For what" I ask her not sure what I am being thanked for.